This was the first night I was going to be away from Ty since the accident, it was going to be a hard and long night in.

AS I waved good-bye to Ty through the frosted glass, my heart sank thinking that the last time I left him something happened and what if it isn't as good this time.

As the truck drove up the stoney path the big white house seemed to approach us instead of us approaching it.

I opened the creaky metal door and placed my feet on the stones, the very stone I was running to Ty just 5 days before.

As I walked up th stony path all I could think about was Ty and if my phone was going to ring any moment, I made my way up the wooden steps up to the house, I walked along the creaky wooden slates leading to the front door, I opened mesh door followed by the wooden one, I walked through them and closed the door behind me, I kicked off my shoes and made my way up the stairs, everything here was going to remind me of Ty, I walked along the landing and opened the guest door, my room I was in 5 days ago looked abandoned, un-loved like someone had got up and left, not even bothered to make the bed, just opened the curtains a smidge to let in a limited amount of light.

I flopped on the bed putting my phone on load so I wouldn't miss a call, I changed from my clothes into my pyjama's and got under the quilt. I couldn't sleep I was to wary of my phone, the light from the window seemed to be telling me something, I got up and out of bed and made my way to the window, I opened the curtains, light flooded into the room like a flood gate letting a flood through, and there in the distance was nothing, where before was a big brown barn there was now just an empty space with the odd bit of rubble scattered here and there.

I needed to do this, I had no choice, if I didn't do it for myself I had to do it for Ty, I walked down the stairs I walked up just half hour ago, put on my shoes and started to walk down the wooden slates that just creaked once again, and the stones crunching as though they were telling me that it wasn't a good idea to go there, as though something was going to "crunch" me, every instinct was telling me not to do it, as though something nad was going to happen. But I did it anyway.

It takes a lot of courage to do something that your whole body is telling you not to do it but yet your heart is telling you to do it, don't worry what happiness come on you need to do it!

I walked step by step, the moon was covered by the dark clouds, there was a really heavy atmosphere so large that it almost made me want to turn back and run into my mum arms and just cry, but I knew that it wouldn't help any situation or make anything better, in actually fact it will make matters worse because it would make me want to do it again, and this time succeed which will only make me think I failed the first time, I am not a quieter. I will not let it get to me.

The further I walked, the more it gave me time to think about what I was actually doing and whether it was a good idea, but by the time I gave my mind a chance to change its decision, I was already at the barn.

Where before the barn was big and grand it now looked like nothing, nothing but a pile of wood that had been on fire, but it was much more than that now, it was the building that me and Ty nearly died in. I just kept on seeing Ty's figure laying on top of the rubble, nothing could stop me thinking that instead of being awake and sitting up in hospital on the bed that he could be here, dead, laying on a pile of rubble. For that I was thankful, that Ty was actually alive.

The sight of the barn made me cry yet again, but what I hadn't realised is that I wasn't alone, there was somebody else crying just around the corner. I made my way around the old barn, to find my cousin on her hands and knee's crying.

"Rebecca, what's the matter, I didn't realise you were so worried about Ty!" I stated.

"Who said I was crying about Ty; nobody has even worried about the horses, it's all Ty, Ty, Ty!"

"Oh, what horse's?"

"What horse's, what horses? The horses where mine, at least the were before the barn went up in flames, they died, ok Amy!"

"Oh I didn't realise sorry!"

"Dont worry, you weren't the only one, nobody has even bothered to ask how I feel about losing Cookie and marshmallow!"

I didn't know what to say I mean although I hated horses, my cousin loved them, it's like how I would feel if I lost Ty and my sister.

I sat down next to heron the grass and held her hands, to let her know that someone was here and someone actually cared.

It was dark by the time I got Rebecca back to the house, she just sat there all afternoon crying and telling me what had happened. The crying didn't stop when we got back to the house either, I guess I was stupid to think that it might.

I took Rebecca into the living room and sat her down on the sofa, I turned on the Tv, bad mistake, there was me thinking it might make her feel better, but how many American Tv channels have horse racing on I mean come on, this made her cry hysterically.

I just left her there and went and sat at the kitchen table. I started tp put everything into perspective, how I though I loved Ty, but actually I didn't. Not like Rebecca loved her horses, I had known him for a week, she had loved her horses for years!

Hope you like it, have put it from a different angle this time, hope you liked it, please, please review.

Calamity K

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