Chapter 11.

"You cow" I shouted. Amie looked at me up and down, "What did I do?" She started, "I know you were at the hospital when I was there, I know you seen my dad getting arrested" I shouted. "Your dad was arrested?" She said sarcastically. I rolled my eyes and walked to the front office. "I don't feel well" I said to the lady in the office, "What's your parents number?" She asked looking at me.

I sat in the car silently, not daring to talk, "Well" Started Nicky, "Going to tell me why you came home?" She asked. "Everyone knows" I started, wiping away my tears, "About my dad being arrested" I said I stopped. "Am I just over reacting, So far everyday this month I cried" I said looking down "That's not your fault. February Is a hard month for you, We understand that" Said Nicky slowly.

When we got home I went up to my room and lay down on my bed, I looked through the box which Had my mums things in, "Why" I said looking up at the ceiling.
My life was fucking shite, and the only person able to fix that was me. I needed something fun to do. I had to get out and do something.

By the time Jayme came home my phone was buzzing, texts from people I don't even know texting me asking was that true about my dad, I sighed to myself. At least they didn't know about my mum.
I just ignored it, hoping it would all blow over by Monday.
Jayme came up to my room and sat at the end of the bed, "Are you alright?" She asked me, I looked up at her, "No" I replied quietly. Hoping she didn't hear me.
"Why?" She asked, Her eyes looked caring but her voice sounded like she couldn't care less. "They ruined my life, If the whole thing about my mum got out I'm fucked, I'll never be the same person, I'll always be known as the girl who's dad Is in prison and mum is dead." I said "If it does get out I'm moving school, I don't care how many people I hurt, I don't care who cares for me, I want no one to know about that" I said sobbing, "I'll be treated differently"
I wiped away the single tear that formed in my eye, Jayme got up and walked out. I lay back down on my bed and shut my eyes, trying to eliminate myself from the world. Right now I'd rather be dead than be in that position.

I woke up the room was dark, looking swiftly at my phone. Nicky got me a new one for my birthday, Since my dad ruined my other one. This one was better, It was a BlackBerry Curve 5820. It was pink with a black back. I looked at the time, 6:45am I groaned slightly and tried to go back to sleep again. But I couldn't. So instead I lay back, looking up at my ceiling and thinking about what school I'll go to if the rumour about my mum is revealed. I didn't want to move school, But I might be drove to. I'll have to. Just as my alarm clock went off. Indicatiing it was 7, My bedroom door burst open, "Party tonight, You coming?" Asked Jayme as she looked at me. Jayme was already dressed and ready to go to school. As for me…I wasn't even out of the bed. "Yeah sure" I replied, In a daze. Laura and Megan had a Gaelic Match today during school so I would be all alone.

I stood up from my bed and walked around, looking for my shirt and tie. Finally finding it I got dressed quickly, putting on some makeup and making my way down the stairs. School started at 9 and it was now half 7, I had to leave at 8 so I'd be there on time, Which honestly sucked.
I poured milk into a bowl and took out the coco pops, dumping loads into the bowl and stirring it around with a spoon.

After eating them I looked up to the clock. "Ready" I shouted "yeah" shouted Jayme back to me. As I shut the door she threw me my iPod. It would normally take about 6songs for me to walk to the bus stop. This time I was listening to My chemical Romance. I hated all that Justin Bieber stuff, He just did my head in.

I looked down at my iPod as we reached the bus stop. 'track 6' was written in small writing on the top, Just under the time. It had just gone 5past 8 and I was too tired to think about school.
The bus pulled up and a puff of black smoke came out from the exhaust. I got on flashing my student card and walked towards the back, taking a seat beside an elderly lady. "Hello" She said smiling at me, "Hey" I said, giving her a small smile. "Off to school are you?" She asked, her voice cracked, "yeah, Where are you off to?" I asked, trying to be as nice as I could, "Town, Shopping" She said proudly, "Oh lovely, Are you planning on buying much?" I asked, interested in the converstation.
Just as I was getting off I heard her shout, "Bye Claire".
I stopped How did she know my name, I looked at Jayme who just shrugged her shoulders and continued walking. "Bye" I shouted back, Before running off and catching up with Jayme.

When we reached the school I didn't talk to anyone, I kept my head down and just looked around, alone. Laura and Megan had gone to a Gaelic Match early this morning. I seen Amie approaching me fast. I looked away, not daring to make eye contact with her, "Why did you leave so early, Can't battle your own fights?" she asked looking at me, I looked away as she began nudging me. "Fuck off" I said quietly "I'm so scared" She said letting out a cold laugh. Her blonde hair was falling over her face, I could almost see her split ends she was that close to me.
Amie used to be my best friend, Till we started first year, Then she became the biggest bitch alive. "I said, Fuck off" I said louder, Standing up, Trying to fight my corner."Like I said before, I'm so scared" I reached out and grabbed her hair, Pulling it harshly, She let out a loud scream before reaching out and grabbing my jumper, Trying to rip the joining part on the neck, She struggled as I pulled her hair down further. "Get off me" She shouted loudly, "No" I said. "Claire's mum died" She screamed as loud as she could. I let go of her hair and fell to the ground, "Ha" She shouted laughing. "You ruined my fucking life" I screamed as I watched her walk away. I was going to get her back.

I wiped away my tears and stood up. By now people were gathered around me, trying to get a look at me. Crying. I've never cried before in school, except when I was 5 and It was my first day, But little did I know then my mum wouldn't be able to see me in my 2nd year of primary school.

I looked around "What?" I screamed at the top of my voice, Everyone gasped. "What. I can talk Oh my god" I shouted, sarcastically. I looked around. Everyone still gathered around me, I walked over to a part and pushed my way out. I could her Amie laughing. I walked up to her and screamed, "Amie has a dick"
Amie went red, "Oh and she also sleeps with a light on and a teddy bear" I said quickly. People turned and began walking over to Amie, Gasping and laughing at her. I walked away with a smug smile. "Straight to the principal" Shouted a teacher. "Yeah yeah" I said, not caring. I walked into the principal and explained what had happened. He looked at me, "So, She told everyone your dad is in prison, You told her to go away, and then this morning she came over and started threatening you, You stood up and pulled her hair, She tried to rip your jumper, failed to do so and instead screamed your mum is dead, You fell to the ground crying and everyone gathered around you, you got up and walked over to her, pushing yourself out of the crowd and screamed Amie has a dick and that she sleeps with a light and a teddy bear" HE said gasping for a breath, "Yep" I said nodding my head "Is any of them facts that you told me true though?" He asked, "Yes and no" I said quietly. "Yes the whole story is true, yes my mum died, from a brain tumour and yes my dad is in prison, Went in the day before yesterday for assault. He tried to kill me, The rest, no" I said quickly. I felt comfortable talking to the principal about when my dad went to prison and when my mum died, I knew he wouldn't tell anyone.

He looked at me, "Can you get Amie for me please" He said to the lady that stood quietly at the door. She nodded her head and walked quickly out.
"Tell me about when your mother died, was it hard for you?" He asked. I knew what he was getting at. My violence was a way of trying to forget about my mum. "Well" I said sighing. "I was 5when she died, I was in Junior Infants, My dad left me with her 3weeks before she died. I seen her dying, I promised her that I would find something to stop brain tumours, 2days later I was 6, Her anniversary was on the 4th of February. 6days ago" I said, not knowing what else to say. He looked at me, "You promised you'd try find something to stop brain tumours?" HE questioned, "Yes" I said quietly. Looking down. I heard the door open. My head shot over to who was walking in. Amie stood there, looking at me. She walked right up beside me and sat down, "Well" Said the principal, "Tell me your side of the story" He said. "well," Said Amie, Fake crying "I was walking along and all of a sudden Claire came up to me and told me to shout she had no mum, that she died, She threatened to kill me if I didn't SO I did what she asked, she broke down in tears and screamed out hurtful things about me" She said wiping away the tear. I scowled. "That's not true" I shouted slamming my fists down hard on the desk and standing up. The principal looked at me and then to Amie. "One of you are lying" He said. "Ask Jack, He was there the whole time" I said sitting back down slowly. Amie went white, "I don't think that's really necessary, We all know your lying" She said looking at me. "Jack" Shouted the principal. The lady standing at the door once again left, walking quickly.

There was an unwelcoming silence in the room. It made me feel uncomfortable.
I could feel Amie's eyes constantly on mine. I wanted to jump up and scream.
As soon as the door opened I sighed loudly, Relieved.

After Jack had told the story I was let 'free' and Amie wasn't. She had to stay back. I walked out to about 6 people gathering around me, "Yes?" I asked looking at them, "Is that true?" Asked one, "yes" I replied.
I got in the door from school. "I'm moving school"