Chapter 11 How to save the dying
As the months passed, I felt more disturbed. I felt terrible having to report on the Chancellor's actives to the Council and at the same time I couldn't tell him that I was working for them. As my thoughts got clouded with thoughts of anger against the Jedi Council and their stand in the war, Palpatine had asked me to accompany him in a concert.
When I had reached the VIP box, he had told his associates to leave and we had sat there, watching the display of lights before he spoke. He told me of the legend of a Sith Lord, who tried to find the way to have immortality and how managed to find it. In the end, he managed to save the ones he loved but he was betrayed by his own apprentice, whom he told on how to save the dying and gain immortality. Palatine then said that the Dark Side had much potential which the Jedi see as dangerous as he claims that they were afraid of things that they don't understand.
When I had asked him on how to gain such power, he had told me that it couldn't be harnessed by a Jedi. That had left me in a deep conflict. Palpatine had just given me a way on how to save Padme. If I were to harness this power, I may be able to save more than just her. My mind was conflicted on whether to learn this new power. It goes against the Jedi Law but I was desperate to save Padme, she being the only one I love, except for Obi Wan whom is like a brother to me.
As I attended the meetings of the Jedi Council more often, I got news that General Grevious has been spotted on a outer rim planet and that by capturing him, we may be able to end this war. When all of this is over, maybe me and Padme can go away for a while to her home planet and raise the baby there in peace.
Obi Wan had been chosen for the mission to capture General Grevious and before he departed I had expressed my apologies to him. He reassured me that I was destined to be a better Jedi than he was and that he cared for me like a brother. We were not like most Masters and Padawans, being close to like brothers and fighting alongside each other and going on missions. I could never betray Obi Wan.