Sheldon stared at the door for a moment. Suddenly sitting down in his spot, he felt as if he couldn't bear his weight anymore. There was a pain in his heart, but it wasn't a physical pain. It was emotional. When he had shared that kiss with Amy he had let himself go completely. He felt that if he didn't give in to his urges now, it would be his last chance. He had gripped Amy as if she were about to disappear in his arms. If it hadn't been for the others he was not sure if he would have ever let go. There had been so much passion, desperation and fear in that kiss. Fear because he didn't understand the feelings he was experiencing, they were unknown to him. Sheldon didn't like it when he couldn't understand something. Many people instantly feared the unknown, now he understood firsthand.

When he had felt Amy kissing him back, clinging to him just as desperately he had thought she was feeling the same as him. He didn't feel so alone knowing that she was probably just as confused as he was. But when she had said it was an act, it was as if she had stabbed him right in the heart. He felt so alone and confused. This was not how he was supposed to be. He had shielded himself from these emotions for this exact reason. Emotions do not act logically, you cannot control them. He chastised himself for being so weak. Amy would laugh if she knew his thoughts; she would think him just as low as the other sex-crazed beings they companionate with. Even so, he wanted to run down the stairs after her and explain all the confusing feelings that were overwhelming him. He controlled himself however, he was being ridiculous. Amy would surely think him a fool. Sheldon stood then determinedly, he would not lose Amy. She was the only one who truly understood him, if he had to overcome these absurd emotions he would. Amy would not see him so weak. He decided it was then that he would go to bed. Walking to his bedroom he decided that it was best that it would be back to normal tomorrow. Then he wouldn't have to hold her again knowing she felt nothing.

The next day as Leonard was driving Sheldon to work he noticed Sheldon was quiet. This was unusual because Sheldon always wanted to play car games. Even when Leonard showed no interest Sheldon would blabber on incessantly. He glanced over at Sheldon curiously; the tall scientist was staring out the window lost in thought. A troubled look clouded his features. Leonard searched his mind for a possible explanation for the other man's troubles. Sheldon's mother and sister had left for the airport this morning. But Sheldon wouldn't be sad at that, Leonard knew. He replayed this morning in his heard trying to find clues on Sheldon's behaviour.

The morning had been the same as usual, they had gotten ready for work and Penny came over for breakfast.

Penny- 'French toast day?'

Leonard- 'Yep Sheldon is making it now'

Penny- 'Oh goodie I've been craving French toast this morning. It's my hangover food'

Leonard- 'But we didn't drink last night' A confused look on his face.

Penny- 'I decided to have some wine at my place. I was celebrating a very special New Years'

Penny had a perculiar gleam in her eye, as if she was hiding something and she was very smug about it.

Leonard- 'Ok then…well anyway last night was fun huh?'

Penny- 'Yeah I enjoyed seeing Missy again. It was good to see she finally took the step with Raj. I was always disappointed that she missed her chance last time'

Leonard- 'Yeah Raj was sure surprised. He wouldn't stop talking about when we got home. Going on and on about 'Sheldon's beautiful goddess of a sister' kissing him. It was driving me insane'

Penny- 'Speaking of kissing' a cheeky smirk lit up on her face 'You and Amy seemed to enjoy last night aye Sheldon?'

Sheldon's calm face darkened for a moment. Then his calm was back so quick Leonard wasn't sure he had seen it at all.

Sheldon- 'I am relived my mother and sister are on their way back to Texas so I do not have to repeat such an unsanitary display.'

Penny- 'You didn't seem to mind' Her smirk never leaving her face.

Sheldon- 'Amy and I are far better actors than you assumed'

He concentrated on making the French toast not once looking up. It was as if he wouldn't look them in the eyes.

Penny- 'Sure you are. I'm probably just seeing things then'

Her tone made it clear that she was being sarcastic but Sheldon being unaware visibly relaxed.

Sheldon- 'Yes, you are clearly making too much of a simple situation'

Penny had been about to say something but Leonard had silenced her sensing Sheldon wished to end this discussion and didn't want him going all 'Sheldon' on them with a lecture.

Leonard- 'So anyone else hear about the new Green Lantern movie coming out?'

This had of course consumed Sheldon in a long conversation and the topic had been dropped.

Leonard decided that it had to have been the conversation about Amy this morning. He hadn't realised how upset they had made Sheldon. Penny had just been teasing after all. It didn't make sense why Sheldon would be so distressed. They reached the car park and he decided to let it go.

At lunch they all sat in their usual table at the food court. Howard had gotten back from Bernadette's parents house and was going on about how they had made it very clear they hated the fact that he was a Jew.

Howard- 'I swear they broke my dradel on purpose!'

It was then that Barry Kripke walked over to them.

Kripke- 'Well isn't it the widdle wosers at their woser table'

His lisp with L's was very noticeable and the guys had laughed the first time they had heard it. Now they didn't react because they were used to it.

Leonard- 'What do you want Kripke?'

Sheldon- 'I'm just here to tell 'Freak-Cooper' over there that his Mummy called. I happened to be in your office and answered the phone. Wooks wike he forgot to say goodbye when they weft this morning. I took the wiberty of telling her just how much you would appreciate her cawwing'

He spoke in a teasing tone that would usually have caused Sheldon to stare at him trying to blow up his mind. But Sheldon just looked up at him emotionlessly.

Sheldon- 'Thank you Barry, I appreciate you delivering the message'

Barry looked just as shocked as the rest of them. He walked away with a confused look on his face.

Raj- 'Dude what the hell?'

Sheldon- 'I don't know what you mean'

Howard- 'He, as well as the rest of us, wants to know why the hell you didn't go all 'mind explosion' on Kripke!'

Sheldon- 'I don't see the point in wasting my time arguing with Barry Kripke'

Howard looked at Leonard.

Howard- 'Is he sick?'

Sheldon- 'I am perfectly healthy and I do not appreciate you speaking as if I'm not here,' Sheldon got up from his chair and picked up his tray. 'If you'll excuse me I'm going to finish my lunch in my office.'

He walked away leaving the 3 stunned scientists alone.

Raj- 'What's wrong with him Dude?' He looked at Leonard questioningly.

Leonard- 'I have no idea. He's been in a mood all day'

Howard- 'Well someone better fix it soon or he'll start building a death ray again'

They knew he was only half joking, knowing full well that it was very possible.

Leonard- 'What should we do? I don't think calling his mother is the right thing to do'

Howard- 'I guess we just have to hope he sorts it out himself this time'

The 3 worried scientists looked down the hallway that Sheldon had passed through, wondering what could possibly be going through his head.

Sheldon had avoided them the rest of the day. They were getting suspicious and he couldn't let them know that he wasn't the 'robot' they thought he was. Work was over and he had been dreading this moment all day. He was meeting Amy for their usual weekly congregation. Leonard always referred to it as 'date night' which had constantly resulted in his usual 'she is a girl who is a friend but not my girlfriend' speech. They would spend the night playing counterfactuals and discussing their latest scientific theories. Sheldon knew he wouldn't be able to act normal around her. His mind had been filled with her all day. He missed her but he also didn't want to face her. He wanted to speak to her but he didn't know what to say. Most of all he wanted to hold her but knew if was impossible. There was a knock on his door. That was her he knew. He opened the door to a very nervous Amy.

Amy- 'Hello Sheldon' she kept her eyes down not looking him in the eye.

Sheldon- 'Amy' he nodded a greeting letting her in.

They sat down in their usual spots next to eachother on the couch. After a few moments silence Amy spoke.

Amy- 'Look Sheldon I know this is awkward. I didn't mean to respond to the kiss that way. I'm a fool and let my physical urges get in the way again. Can you forgive me and we restore our relationship again?'

Her words hit Sheldon and for some reason he was angry. She shouldn't blame herself, it was him who was the weak fool! He didn't want to restore their relationship again. It was too far gone to just ignore.

Sheldon- 'Amy I do not believe we can restore our relationship again'

Amy face flashed with pain.

Amy- 'I am not surprised…I will go'

She went to stand but Sheldon grabbed her arm.

Sheldon- 'I do not wish you to go. I simply mean we cannot ignore what happened'

Amy paused for a moment sitting back down, Sheldon still gripping her arm.

Amy- 'What does this mean?'

Sheldon- 'I propose we try to maintain a real relationship. If it does not work we go back to being friends'

Amy- 'I agree' her face showed her usual deadpan expression but inside she was jumping for joy.

Sheldon- 'Excellent.'

Sheldon grabbed Amy's shoulders and brought her lips to his. They kissed eachother softly at first but Amy pushed herself closer and Sheldon's fingers tangled in her hair. They finally broke apart a bit breathless.

Sheldon- 'Now I understand why our companions enjoy this so much'

He smiled and pulled her to him kissing her once more.