Disclaimer: I don't own twilight. SM does but I make them absorb the impact of bullets with their bodies , which brings me to this additional disclaimer. This fic is part gore, meaning people will have limbs severed, brain matter painted on walls, bodies bloated from being exposed to water , bones broken and anything you can think of in a horror film. I don't do clowns I'm sorry IT fans. If the shower scene in psycho freaks you out to the point you need a support group, this fic isn't for you
My Dad had his own philosophy about life. He stressed my entire childhood these little sayings, besides telling me that a mind is a terrible thing to waste when it came to my education. He also told me that when a person is faced with crossroads- and there will be plenty during my lifetime- that following your heart is sometimes better then doing what's right, always go with your gut. Trust your instincts, Never allow someone to take away your options.
I asked him once if he was disappointed in me cause he would never have a son. Charlie looked at me dead serious and said that I was a gift from God and no son could ever compare to the love he had for me. Mom and I were his girls. When I was ten we touched on the subject of boys cause I came home crying from school because Ben Tanner pulled my hair and pushed me down on the playground. It didn't take him long to call his parents and the next day Ben brought me a rose and told me his was very sorry. Charlie was very protective of me and told me sometimes boys will pick on me cause they like me. I thought that was the dumbest shit ever. Why would a boy be mean to a girl if he liked her, why not just tell her he liked her. He just laughed and told me boys weren't the brightest creatures on the planet. My mother agreed with this assessment one-hundred percent.
I couldn't imagine any man being as wonderful as my Dad.
I was met with silence. It took me a few minutes to find my voice again. "I'm just so overwhelmed. It feels like the my whole life is a lie. I looked at Esme and Rosalie like my own mother and sister and to be told they had to uproot themselves from their home to look after me. I feel like I burdened them."
"Bella, you were never a burden to us." Esme said teary eyed
"You had to be without your husband and father cause of me, I feel responsible . Carlisle and Edward had to miss things, things that a family is suppose to witness. besides I don't think Edward wanted me here in the first place."
He sat up straight in his chair. His face a cross between pissed off and sad. "Do you think I didn't want you here"
"I can tell that you don't "
He jumped up and stood in front of me. He bent his head to my level and looked me in the eyes. "Well you don't know anything then," he spat and walked out of Carlisle's office. He acts like such a child sometimes.
"When were you thinking of going back?" Carlisle asked.
"I want to be gone within the week" I answered.
"Esme and I will make arrangements..."
I cut him off, "I will take care of it myself."
The next two days I did nothing more then think about how life got so complicated all of a sudden. I wanted to know more about Antonio and what he was like. Carlisle had mentioned in passing that he saw a lot of my grandfather in me.
Esme came into my room carrying a huge cardboard box and placed it on my bed
I raised my brow in confusion.
"Carlisle and I saved all the things from Antonio's estate as well as your parents. Antonio owned a house not far from us and since you are his sole heir, everything they have is yours. The deed to Charlie and Renee's home is in the paperwork. You will need to go to the bank to make a claim on the accounts that Antonio had. Carlisle made sure everything was in order when it came time for you to take over the estate," she explained.
"Esme, I'm not angry with you and Rose, please know that. I feel guilty that you both had to sacrifice so much in order to be there for me."
"That's what families do Bella. I loved your parents a great deal" Esme explained as she started to cry. "I know if the situation was turned around Renee would have been on the first flight here to care for Edward and Rose. You were never an obligation and we made the decisions we did out of love."
I saw for the first time where she was coming from. She never felt that her life hand been interrupted. "I understand, Esme. I just need some time to think about what all this means and to get to know as much about my family as I can."
"There should be a good chunk of info within that box. There are also pictures of your parents when they were kids." She gave me a hug leaving me to dig threw what is left of the Swan family.
There were bank accounts from Antonio and Charlie, deeds to two houses, the title to my car and others that belong to my grandfather. Even that old black Chevrolet truck my dad babied on weekends, I wondered what happened to it. When adding up the money, it was more then I would ever imagine of having. One of the first pictures in the box is of a little boy holding a newborn baby, I flipped over on the back written in black were the words Isabella Swan one month old and Edward Cullen age seven, it made me smile.
There was an old black and white photo that stood out. The back of the picture said Antonio Swan and Edward Cullen -obviously Edwards name sake. I finally got to see what he looked like, he was handsome. He also looked intimidating, I wasn't sure if that was what he was going for but that's what he projected in the photo.
"I have that picture of them also and the one of us when we were little." I looked to see Edward standing in my doorway. "I vaguely remember you. I have a scar on my finger from where you bit me when you got teeth," he laughed, obviously remembering the incident.
I smiled at him and said, "guess I knew even back then you would be an ass."
On Wednesday, everything seemed to hit me at once. The house was empty and I was left to my thoughts. I cried for the loss of my parents, for Rose and Edward having to grow up with one parent. I cried cause for the first time, I realized I was alone. I didn't want to feel. I wanted to be numb.
I started to drink shots of tequila that Carlisle had in the liquor cabinet, I made a mental note to replace it before I left.
I was on my fourteenth or sixteenth shot, I'd lost count by then, when Edward walked in. I was on the floor sitting crossed legged by the coffee table refilling my glasses.
"What are you doing?" Edward asked rhetorically.
"What does it look like Edwardo?" I slurred as I downed the next shot. I was beyond drunk. I tried to get up to stand only to get dizzy and sway a bit. Edward hands were on my waist to steady me.
"Come on Bella, you need to sleep this off," he said as he carried me up the stairs.
He opened my door and placed me on the bed. I noticed that Edward was staring at me. It was then I realized I was in black lace panties and a white wife beater sans bra.
"You know Edward, you're sexy when your mouth doesn't screw it up. Do you think I'm pretty?" My inebriated brain asked.
"You are more then pretty Bella," he replied sitting on the edge of my bed.
I moved closer to him and put my hand through his hair. "I've been wanting to do that forever." I stood up on my knees. Edward closed his eyes and leaned into my touch. I made small movements toward him. I leaned till my lips touched the side of his neck. He's breathing hitched. He must be enjoying what I was doing.
Edward quickly opened his eyes and I stopped. "Bella, if this is another trick, then you need to stop now," he pleaded in a strained voice.
"I'm not playing, don't you want me?" I questioned, feeling a bit stupid and rejected.
"I want nothing more baby, but you have been drinking and you will regret this later," Edward tried to reason with me.
"I wont regret it, I want you," I said huskily in his ear, putting my arms around him. I don't know if that lit a fire in his ass or what, but before long he had his shirt off laying me on my back on the bed. His lips were everywhere, leaving flashes of heat all over. I sat up some and pulled my tank top off.
He stopped and looked at me.
"What? They maybe smaller then your used to but they are mine," I spat angrily.
"They are perfect baby," he cooed as he captured a nipple in his mouth.
"Fuck! You feel so good," I moaned.
Edward hooked his fingers on my panties and slid them down, I was completely nude and felt open. This was me laid bare to him. The ball was in his court. He bent down and kissed my inner thigh licking and nibbling. I felt his tongue all over my heated, swollen clit. I was in ecstasy and bliss. It wasn't long before I felt a gush a fluid and my orgasm rip through me. My legs were shaking and I felt like I couldn't catch my breath.
"I could live here forever," he said.
I reached over and grabbed his belt to undress him and to let him know this was what I wanted.
He made quick work of the clothes he still had on. It was now his turn to lay on his back. I let my hair fall forward on his stomach. I wasn't experienced in the field of blow jobs, but we all have to learn sometime.
I licked around the ridge of his head causing him to buck his hips to get me put him all in my mouth.
"Someone is eager," I chuckled.
"You have no idea baby," he replied, desire evident in this voice.
I didn't have many cocks to compare his too, Rosalie and I had watched a porn one time but those guys were freakishly huge. I would fuck pinky dick Jacob again to avoid being with those guys, I like my internal organs to stay in the place it was meant to. Mr. womb wrecker can go to someone else.
I tried to fit him all the way in, but I found out that I do indeed have a gag reflex. I looked up to see that Edward's eyes were closed as I picked up the pace of my mouth on his cock. I sucked harder, hallowing out my cheeks, making him moan and buck his hips a bit.
"Fuck, Bella! You're mouth feels damn good," he gasped.
I saw where he started to fist the sheets as he was building up to his release.
"Bella, I'm close. I don't want to come in your mouth, baby"
I never realized that a blowjob could make me feel in control, but it did. It was me that elicited those moans and grunts.
"Come here, I want you on me"
Edwards cock was beautiful. Just long enough to keep my reproduction system in tact and enough girth to make me a smiling idiot. I saw him smirk when he caught me looking at my new best friend.
"You can change your mind, if you want to baby," he said sincerely.
"Your not getting out of this," I stated as I straddled his legs. I bent down to kiss him sucking his bottom lip into mine. Edward's hands were on my ass. His mouth back on my breasts sending another flood of lust coursing through me. I grabbed his cock and rubbed it against my warm wet slit a few times, making Edward hiss. I rose up and put the engorged swollen head of his cock at my entrance. Slowly I sank down on him each inch stretching me further apart. When I had him all the way in we simultaneously groaned out "shit". I felt complete and full at the same time. He was a perfect fit. I rose my hips again just as I had taken him all the way in me. Edward's hands were on my hips. It didn't take long for us to find a rhythm of thrusting and moaning. I had no idea I would be a screamer, but I couldn't stop the sounds coming out of my mouth. I rested my hands behind me while he was still in me and rotated my hips. We were both able to watch his cock slid in and out me, it was a beautiful and erotic sight.
"Fuck, that is so sexy… so fucking tight," Edward panted.
I could feel my orgasm start to build once more. My movements became erratic and harder. In a swift move I was on my back with my legs on his shoulders, the new sensation was enough to trig my orgasm. I finally saw the stars that I'd never seen with pinky dinky. I could tell he was close, his moans got louder. He was pounding into me harder and harder. Sweat falling from his forehead and onto my breasts.
He grunted one time and he yelled, "fucking hell, that's it baby" as he came. His body started to shake a bit and all at once he went limp I pulled him toward me and let his head rest on my breast until he could come down from his pussy induced high.
"Bella?"
"Yeah Edward," I replied raking my fingers through his damp hair.
"Please don't leave, I need you. I will worry about you if you go back to Forks." He sounded almost pleading, this was as close to begging I would ever get from him.
"I don't want to talk about it right now" I answered with a sigh.
It didn't take long till we were fast asleep tangled up in each others legs and blankets.
The next morning wasn't awkward, I woke to see that sometime during the night he'd left. My head felt like I had blew a firecracker in my skull, I can say for sure Mr. Jose and I will not be partying ever again. I ached everywhere and the one sensation I welcomed was the delicious ache between my legs.
I couldn't bring myself to regret it. He was so perfect and not once did the cocky asshole make an appearance. I really liked that side of him. I was definitely in a better mood I had been in awhile.
Today was payroll for Cullen Construction, that meant I wouldn't see the guys till the afternoon. When I got to my office, there was a single yellow rose, a bottle of Advil and a water bottle on my desk along with the note that said.
Bella,
The only regret I have is that I didn't use the time I had with you wisely, I don't want you to leave, I am selfish, but I couldn't live with myself if I didn't try.
Yours, E
I caught myself smiling and my stomach flutter with butterflies, I was still staring at the note when Emmett came into the office brushing a bit of dirt off his pants.
"What the hell is up with people smiling today? Edward had that same shit eating grin your..." I looked up at Emmett when he cut himself off "Holy shit, you two fucked didn't you?"
"That's a little presumptuous of you isn't it," I said as I put the note in my purse.
"No! No! No! I would know the smile that says "I got laid" anywhere and the one that moody fucker out there" Emmett pointed to the second office door across from me "is wearing would put a clown to shame and it happens to match yours Miss Swan," Emmett smugly taunted
I loaded up the time sheets into the computer trying to ignore Em and its really hard to ignore a big guy prancing in front of your desk while chanting "Edward and Bella sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G"
"That's enough Emmett," Edward said, as he walked in.
"Oh come on, I never get to have any fun." Emmett fake pouted as he left the office.
"Hey," I murmured.
"Hey, I was going to ask if you would like to go to dinner with me tonight," Edward said shuffling his shiny black shoes over the hardwood floor, making a tapping sound. He looked dare I say nervous.
" I have to work at Tyler's tonight, but I get off at eight if you still want to do something then," I told him.
"Yeah, okay. I'll pick you up after work," he said and left to go back outside
I was finished with payroll around one, and I had to be at Tyler's around two. I told Emmett who was elbow deep in blueprints, no doubt this was his punishment for his behavior in my office, goodbye and headed for my car.
The restaurant was pretty steady until we got to dinner rush starting around five. I told Tyler that I was most likely going back to Washington earlier in the week. He inquired a couple times on what would make me want to do that especially since I didn't have any family left there. That was the last place I lived with my mother and father, that's where they are laid to rest i explained to him.
Around seven I got ready to start closing off my section in preparation to leave.-Tyler had hired this really sweet girl named Leah. She couldn't have been much older then me. I think he had a huge crush on her and vice versa but they have been dancing around this issue for awhile now-. I was in the back when I heard a loud bang and people yelling. I walked around the corner to see poor Leah laying on the floor bleeding from a wound in her neck. She was killed instantly. I turned to try an run towards the back door when I was caught by my elbow by Tyler. He put his hand over my mouth. We heard heavy foot steps walking through back and forth.
"They killed Leah," I whispered to Tyler
"I know I seen her" he said choking on a sob
"We just want to talk to you Bella," a male voice said.
"Don't do it Bella, your just gonna get yourself killed," Tyler pleaded.
"I need to get to my phone to let Edward know," I whispered.
"Bella, I am pretty sure he knows, his guys watch this place on the days you work like a hawk,"
"If that was true, how did someone with a gun get in and start shooting? We have to get our asses out of here ourselves," I argued back. "I'll be right back, if something happens run, don't worry about me."
"No! I wont leave you," Tyler retorted.
I opened the door and walked a ways into the locker area to get my phone, I retrieved my purse and powered up my cell while hutched in the corner out of sight. On silent my phone started to vibrate repeatedly alerting me to ten texts and four calls. I took a chance and called Edward.
"Edward!" I whispered.
"Bella? Are you okay?" He asked worried.
"No, there some people in here with guns. I'm hiding in the locker room, Tyler is hiding in the pantry, and Leah is dead," I explained.
"We are five minutes away, stay where you are and don't come out till you see me and only me," he ordered.
"No, Tyler and I will slip out the back" I said not wanting him to get hurt.
"There's no way in hell I will sit back and hope you make it out. I'll do anything you ask but not when it jeopardizes your safety. Are we clear on that? " Edward replied in a hard stern voice, normally I would have snapped and told him he wasn't my father but he knew better then I did at that moment.
"Crystal. Do you know the people who are here?" I asked.
"Yeah, that guy Pa-" I felt the sudden jerk of my phone out of my hand and I saw the dark skinned guy from that night when Edward and I went on our date. Paul I think Edward said his name was.
"Hello, Mr. Cullen, Bella isn't available to talk right now, she will have to call you back."
I could tell Edward was pissed, it was a lot of inaudible yelling and screaming from Edward until Paul closed my phone hanging up on him.
I was pulled up on my feet when he grabbed me by the elbow and brought me back into the dinning area. There were no customers left inside- I was thankful. It was bad enough we already had one person dead. I was brought to the front and an even bigger dark skinned man was sitting casually at one of the tables, with a gun on the table.
"I apologize for all this, but you're very hard person to be able to talk to," the big man said.
"Have you heard of this thing called a telephone perhaps, its very handy tool ,requires less bloodshed," I retorted
"Paul said you have a fire about you. He wasn't lying."
"Well you seem to know me but I don't know who the hell you are"
"Forgive me , I am Samuel Yorkshire. I don't need to tell you what my business is cause since the Cullen's and I share some of the same interests "
"Oh so you run a construction company also?" I airily asked.
"Bella, you can stop acting so naïve, everyone is familiar with who you are. When your grandfather died some of his interests went to the other families, and then when you showed up in Chicago it was quite a surprise. We weren't aware of any heirs. Cullen kept a majority of them and he let the other families fight for the claim of the smaller ventures . A few months ago we were told we no longer held the claim to these because they rightfully belong to you as a Swan heir. The others revoked ownership without question but see Miss Swan, these ventures are a huge part of my business and I don't think I should give them up. I want your signature on this paper allowing me to keep what is mine."
"You couldn't have went about this another way? That innocent girl is dead," I pointed towards the area of Leah's body.
"We have tried to go about this in a cordial as possible way, but the Cullen's have blocked all of our attempts to contact you directly."
I knew in my gut, even if I signed the paper I wouldn't leave this place alive. I was going to have to come up with a plan. I saw movement out the corner of my eye and saw Edward pass the small window to the side of the building holding a gun in his hand. It was quick and the others didn't seem to notice.
"Mr. Yorkshire, I have just been made aware of the nature of my family's colorful history and I have no interest to take over at the moment." I explained.
"Edward Cullen has been acting in behalf of Swan interest for many years now. His father appointed him after your father Charlie passed."
"I was told my father didn't want to have anything to do with this life."
"Miss Swan, you have a lot to learn, just cause a family member doesn't actively participate doesn't mean he is free from the obligations one has to his legacy, Family is first and when they call you, you come," Sam said smugly, smiling to me.
I looked over the paper and it became clear that what he wanted was not small by any means. The Swan's owned a shipping and receiving business and it was primarily to send goods overseas on ships own by the Swan's it also came with ownership of a portion of the ports. That they did business with. I am sure this was a major source of income and he wanted to keep it. My presence here cut into it.
I went to make a move to sign when I jumped up and over the table I drove the pen into his neck, blood shooting on the wall, each spray in time with his slowing pulsating heart. He didn't even have time to scream for Paul, who was in the kitchen area. I knew it would be a few minutes till he came back to check on his Boss. I grab the gun off of Sam, he was already dead his eyes open. Leah's death bothered me more then this assholes. I tip toed my way into the kitchen. I slid against the wall, peeking over corners. I made my way to the pantry to see if Tyler had made it out . I crawled in and saw his neck contorted in a bad angle, it was broken and I realized he too was dead. It was like my whole body just snapped. I wanted the mother fucker who did this. I was angry, upset and I was out for pure revenge. I put a bullet in the chamber and proceeded to find Paul.
I heard him yell. He must have found Sam. I stealthy moved behind him and lifted the nine to the back of his head. He was still kneeling over Sam. Paul didn't have to be upset, he would be joining him in hell soon enough. He made a sudden move to grab at the gun, and I pulled the trigger as a reflex hitting him in the collar bone area. He fell and I made a run for it out the back door. The lights were all of a sudden turned off. I was almost out the door when I heard a popping sound. My body fell forward into the alley from the force of it. I could feel the heat and burning of my flesh. The pain was very intense the smell of rusted pennies permeated my nose.
I tried to look around me and see if Edward had found a way in but it was too dark. My body felt weaker as I placed my hand near where the pain is coming from on my side. I felt the torn skin on my left side near my ribs. It was then that I knew I had been shot.
I heard what sounded like firecrackers being popped in the distance. A man yelled and then silence. I started to close my eyes and give up when I heard my name. Edward was calling for me. It took all the strength I had to yell for him. He was by my side instantly with a flashlight.
"Bella can you hear me, are you hurt?" Edward asked concerned.
I nodded and pointed towards my side.
"Fuck! Baby you have to hold on for me. Stay awake, I know its hard but stay with me." He took off his shirt to put pressure on the wound.
I couldn't hold on, the pain to great and I slipped into a sea of blackness.
I don't have the strength to open my eyes, and the blackness keeps taking over.
"Hold on baby," I heard Edward say as I felt light feather touches on my hand.
"Sir, we are gonna have to ask you go to the waiting room, someone will be in to update you on Miss Swan soon," I heard a woman say.
"If you think I am leaving her, you're out of your damn mind lady," Edward roared.
"We will call security," the woman warned.
"Lady, if you value your life and your job. You will put down the phone," another man said. I assumed it was Carlisle "he wont be leaving her."
I hear machines beep. I feel my hand in someone else's.
"Miss Swan is in critical condition. Her spleen had to be removed. The bullet also nicked a small section of her spinal cord. I have complete confidence that she will fully heal and eventually regain the use of her legs. A broken rib punctured her lung." a man explained.
I hear a woman sobbing. I want to reach out to her and tell her I am okay but I cant. I feel weighted down. I don't feel in control of my own body.
"God, please let her be okay," Esme prays.
"she will be okay, momma" Rosalie consoles her.
"Edward, c'mon son you haven't left this room in weeks, you need to take care of yourself also. What use of you to her if you neglect your own needs?"
"I don't need a fucking thing, I have one of the guys bring me dinner and I shower here. What if she wakes up and I'm not here," Edward spits angrily at his father.
"Well will you at least allow your mom and sister to visit with her?"
"No! I have too much shit to deal with, without Mom and Rose breaking down the whole time they are here. Rose blames me, I can see it in her face." I can hear the guilt in his voice. He blames himself too.
"Edward, they are extremely close to Bella, I don't know how much I can hold them off," Carlisle sighs.
"We will start weaning her off the medicine in the next couple hours, she should show signs of trying to breathe on her own and wake up. If she doesn't tolerate it. We will have to induce her again."
A little while later my eyes fluttered open, the harsh florescent light above my head hurts my eyes. It take a few minutes to adjust. I looked over to my right and feel a pain in my chest. Edward is hunched over, his head resting in my lap, his hands in mine, with my other hand I run my fingers through his hair.
Edward's head jerked up off my lap. He stared at me like seemingly trying to figure out if I was truly here looking at him. "Bella?" He whispered and stroked my face. I felt a tear escape and roll down my cheek. "God baby, you don't know how long I've waited to see those beautiful eyes of yours again."
Well, Edward does have a soft side.. Have you see BD? I went with my girls, floved it! On the Beta issue, no this isn't officially beta'd and since we are multiple chapters in and if your still with me, then this isn't an issue for you. I make mistakes, I am human. I am telling a story and I feel too many cooks in the pot spoils the soup. If people flounce for this issue then I understand. I have a pre-reader who is wonderful and gives me valuble advice One of eddies girls is an absolute treasure. I also wanted to welcome the people who came over to the Memoirs of a Mobwife group over at facebook. We have a wonderful bunch of ladies kitty, Trish and the Spork Ninja Bammers.. to name a few.. tell me what you think :)
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