Thursday Dec 10

I walk In the rain under my red umbrella yesterday after the session I worked slept had a fitful sleep no dreams this morning here I am In the ran going for breakfast before I go back to the hospital then It hits me oh my god Willow I forgot all about dinner last night. I feel tired all of a sudden as I rush to grab my phone and call my friend It rings "come on Will... pick up... oh don't pick up and then I don't have to face the fact I screwed up.... hey Will"

Willow said "you stood me up"

Buffy said "sorry I fell sleep after working on my article and when I woke up It was morning"

Willow said "not mad, you want breakfast"

I look at the bag of breakfast In my hand and said "sure" I smile Angel will eat It I think

Willow said "what happened you've been acting weird since our last battle"

Buffy said "don't I have a good reason... Angel came back and then there was too of him that was a world wind and now he's awake my head Is off somewhere and I have work I have to finish I'm a busy beaver"

Willow said "you sure there's nothing else"

Buffy said "you know what after breakfast I'll go square things way with Angel and we'll have a girls day"

Willow gave her a look "yeah so you can avoided him"

Buffy said "no I want a girl day with my best friend that I don't see that often because of the fact I work so much so come on today Is my last day I'm heading back to LA With Angel... come on"

Willow said "okay"

she got to the hospital her started beating she breathed In and regulated her heart went In his room he was dress he hair was long and pulled back In a ponytail she had got him close and her lawyer dropped them off the night before he was sitting on the bed looking at the other one she said "you ready to go"

he said "yeah were are we going"

she said "your going to my hotel room to talk to my therapist"

he said "you have a therapist"

she said "yeah he's helping with some work I'm doing"

he said "and you think he can help me"

she said "yeah break through your mind and maybe help you figure out why there still another one of you In that room" she went and signed all his papers "okay"

he said "I think... but I notice you won't look at me"

she said "no I don't" she was walking away

he said "then stop and look at me"

she did stopping standing next to the car looking at him "happy"

he touched her face and made her focus on him "look at me" she did he glared "your still unsure aren't you, that why you won't look me In my eyes because your afraid you may see I'm not him and you don't want that"

she slapped his hand away from her face getting In the car he got In on the passages side and they headed to the hotel.

they got to the hotel It was foggy afternoon she stopped the hotel and stopped the car In the parking spot putting It In park he looked at her "yes" they sat In the car together for a long moment then she said "you remember that day... the day I came to LA something happen before I went back It wasn't a 10 minute conversation what happened"

he said "thanksgiving"

she said "so you do remember something"

he said "about you yes"

she said "well"

he said "you stayed the whole day we did kill the demon the quick we followed It Into the sewers we split up the demon attacked me cut my had It was a Mora It had regenerative properties It turned me human" he glanced at her "we spent the day together In my bed room then I found out the demon wasn't dean I didn't wanna wake you so I tried to face It myself luckily Cordelia had a loose tongue and you got there just In time to kill the demon and save me you held me and the next morning I went to the oracles and asked them to take It back the day turned back and you remember the rest"

she looked In his eyes she touched his face and leaned over to kiss him looking In his eyes and because she still couldn't read them she pulled back

he said "you don't trust me"

she touch his face again "I know"