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Kara was awakened and brought into another room attached to the infirmary.
"Are you ready for your session?" Dr. Hamilton asked her gently. She led her into the room.
Kara sighs and puts her hands into her pockets, "as ready as I'll ever be," she walks with her and sits in the open seat.
"Lie down here Kara." She told her gesturing at the bed.
Biting her bottom lip, she sets herself down and feels herself, "okay..." her nerves getting the better of her she holds her hands together to keep herself calm. Lying back she looks up at the ceiling.
Dr. Hamilton tucked a pillow under her head. "Relax Kara, this is going to be fine." She told her smiling down on her.
"I am Dr. Livingston. Newly assigned to the DEO. I have wanted to meet you for awhile now Kara Zor-El." The doctor was an older man, graying at the temples, a gray moustache and goatee lining his face. Kara noticed his green eyes seemed kind, and smiled at her warmly.
"You have been through a lot my dear. I would like you to tell me about it."
Kara studies him for a moment, "please don't tell me you're J'onn in disguise," she tries and listens.
Dr. Hamilton quickly left the room.
"J'onn Jonzz is a good friend of mine. I am originally from the military; I helped J'onn to escape them one time. I am an alien sympathizer. Always was. Now tell me what happened to you."
She thinks about it for a moment, "you... saw the tape?" Kara asks, out of curiosity.
"Yes, I needed to witness it before hearing it from you. Now tell me how did it feel?"
Looking at the doctor, "which part? The climbing the side of a cliff, in the rain with your twin on your back or the surgery?" She didn't mean to sound sarcastic but was a bit annoyed by the openness of the question. I thought this was supposed to help... she thinks.
"Let's talk about the nightmares. Those are from the surgery I believe?"
Taking a deep breath, "Yes..." she closes her eyes and crosses her arms over her chest.
"Please open your arms and place them on your side." He pulled out his clipboard and started to write.
She blinks, "w-why?" She turns and looks at him.
"You need a relaxed pose. So relax Kara, tell me what you went through. You are on medical leave until I clear you my dear."
Kara lets her head loll back and forth on the pillow, regretting agreeing to this but one image of Alex's stern look has her resting her arms at her sides. She almost jumps off the bed at hearing that but forces herself to stay there. Taking a deep breath, "okay... it was terrifying... I didn't know if Lillian was truly going to keep her word as she's been known to not keep them in the past. So in the back of my mind I just kept hoping Alex would be there for me when I needed her," she trails off, wetting her lips.
"Knowing your making a decision to help another is great... but not knowing of your going to come out... that's unnerving. Seeing what she did with the old Henshaw... I was terrified of all of the outcomes."
"Of course you were." He handed her a water bottle. "So you were afraid. Something that you don't handle well. Is it?"
She takes the bottle and has a sip, "not when part of it becomes a reality... being forced awake with no pain killer's, feeling everything she'd done... I've never felt such an intensity... it haunts me in my dreams." She holds the bottle and stares at it. "No... I'm used to being able to handle so much, being strong, fast... freezing Lena to stop poison... reacting," she takes another sip, "being strapped down... no power... freezing... my whole body ached from what I'd just done outside. Powerless."
"Kara you need to accept the fact you are not invincible. You never were. Part of the problem is that you cannot accept vulnerability. You have a human side to you. You need to embrace that." He explained smiling down on her.
She groans and closes her eyes, "I know, Alex has been trying to help me and... this experience showed me how... breakable I am."
"Don't see human as breakable Kara. You were not invincible on Krypton. No super powers, you were the same as a human on Krypton. You need to embrace that. Enjoy your powers, but do not hide behind them. Does this make sense to you Kara?"
She thinks about what he is saying, "I'm not hiding behind them... I embraced them to do good doc," she looks at him.
"How do you feel about being pinned on a table, helpless and bare with nothing but a sheet?"
"Vulnerable," she says plainly. Shuddering at the memory.
"Aren't you angry? You should be. Let loose that anger, once you work through that, you will work through this." He explained to her evenly. "That is the root of your issue, not you powers, not your vulnerability. You are angry and it is turning into a fear fixation. You are taking it into your dreams. Anger Kara. That is what it is..." He sipped from his water bottle, jotting down more notes.
She shakes her head, "I'm not angry! I'm scared!" Kara says flatly, "I'm scared of not being able to handle things as a human, enduring what Alex and every other agent can! Otherwise I won't be able to help when it counts the most! I need to be strong as a human and as an alien!" Getting irritated by his ideas.
"Yes the fear is due to the anger. The anger of being persecuted. Not just by Cadmus but all the running interference trying to save the world. Kara you are not responsible for every bad guy to take down. You need to relax, take it easy. Enjoy your life. J'onn and Alex agree with my theory. "
"No but I am responsible for my sister," Kara wonders what the time is, wanting out of the room.
"You are showing you are through with this session. I need you to relax. If you can show me you are calm. I will release you back to Dr. Hamilton."
"I was enjoying my life and then I sent the man away that I loved and when he came back guess what? He's married! Alex deserves that happy life because I can't have that with a human! Not when I can't risk telling him who I am or fearing I'll hurt them by accident!" She takes a long chug from her water to finish it off.
"So you are dealing with anger issues even deeper than what happened at that base..." He uncovered the real cause. Quickly writing more notes.
"Mon El is a problem for you isn't he? Kara I am sure I don't have to tell you that you are sensitive?" He asked gently. "You want to be loved. You are dealing with deep separation anxiety."
"You are loved. You must never forget that. It is in your genetic makeup the need for love."
She sits up on the bed, "I am dealing with Mon-El, and I'm accepting it." She turns to him, "can I go please?" She stands up feeling more agitated and uncomfortable.
"Yes, hold on I will call Dr. Hamilton. I am sorry Kara; I cannot release you from medical treatment. Neither Dr. Hamilton or I feel you should be out on your own reconnaissance."
"What?" She says and shakes her head, "I'm not partnering up with someone, I need me time just like humans do!"
Dr. Hamilton soon showed and led her back to a bed. "Put these on Kara." She pointed at the bathroom. She handed her a set of bike shorts and sports bra. "We need to keep monitoring you." She explained the need for the change of clothes. "Don't fight this Kara."
Kara looks at the sports bra and bike shorts, "am I going out on a bike run?"
Alex walked up in crutches. "Just deal with it for now Kar. Your therapy needs to continue."
Kara runs her fingers through her hair and watches Alex come in. "Clearly I've got more issues than being strapped down and powerless..." she mumbles.
"I thought it would be easier for you to wear than a gown. We are trying to be sensitive to your needs." Dr. Hamilton explained.
Dr. Livingston walked out still holding his clipboard. "Kara you need to work out some deep seated issues. We want to help you."
"For your sake I'll do it and not take off to be on my own like I'd want to do," she walks into the bathroom with the clothes and locks it. Needing just a moment, resting her hands on the rim of the sink and looking into the mirror. Her arms shaking but she keeps her strength under control.
"She is angry. You are right Dr. Livingston." Alex agreed.
"She has anger for being cast out from her people. She has a desperate need for love and acceptance. All the issues she has dealt with have destroyed her hope turning it into a deep rooted anger." He explained to Alex sadly.
"This latest issue with Cadmus has only made it worse."
An assistant walked up to Dr. Hamilton with a note. She looked it over, and then quickly sat down.
"Problems?" Livingston asked her, waiting for Kara to come out.
"Oliver left." She whispered to him.
Kara turns on the tap and splashes her face a few times before changing. Hearing what they're saying isn't helping. "You made me angry," she says bitterly. Unlocking the door and stepping out.
"The anger is already there my dear. I was the catalyst to bring it out."
Dr. Hamilton pointed at the regular bed.
"I'm sorry they won't release you." Alex whispered as she sat by Kara's bed.
"All I want to do now is fly above the city... just forget it all... I see why you hate therapy too," she lies down and rubs her face. Feeling so many emotions in that moment.
"I understand sweetie."She ran her hands through Kara's hair, "If we can get you through your anger turned fear issues you will be back to normal. I will ask for you to get to fly tomorrow okay?"
Kara nods, "okay... thank you," she looks at Alex, "one minute we're talking about what I expected and the next it's Mon-El and love and ugh!" She plops her head on the pillow. "Too much piled on."
"Mon-El is part of the anger dear." She explained softly running a thumb over Kara's hand.
"From that time I blew up on you in my place?" She looks at her hand. "How're you doing?"
"Way before that. Having to send him off, and then him coming back... it's just been too much for you sweetie."
"I saw a future with him... I'm just feeling like I'm destined to be alone," she feels tears well up.
"Kara there will be someone. You just have to find them. You can be with a human. I had an interesting talk with Oliver. It seems he is very human and has made a marriage with your twin."
She wants to say that's different, "what do you want me to say?"
"He uses red sun emitters. Kara with the red sun you can be human dear. No I don't mean for you to wear a collar, but the light, it could work for you dear. You could have a normal love life!" She gushed to Kara.
She feels herself going red, "Alex!"
She squeezed her shoulders, sitting next to her on the bed. "What? You don't have to be alone anymore! Just set up some red sun lamps, or a kinky slave collar and you are good to go!" She smirked at her. The crux of it is you feel alone and have abandonment issues. We can connect you with the dating life again thanks to the red sunlight."
She scootches over for her, "no thanks... at least not right now. Mon-El is too raw for me... I can't think of dating," Kara looks up at Alex. "I have to work on being more human... accept that I'm not invincible which I'm well aware you have been making that point." Kara groans, "man I'm complicated."
"Yes you are. You are a fun sister to take care of though!" She told her hugging her tightly as she sat up in her bed for the hug.
"I love you so much Kara, never forget that sweetie." She hugs her in a bear hug, and kisses the top of her head.
She smiles, hugging her back happily, "never going to happen... even when you're angry," she rubs her back and feels much comfort in this simple gesture.
"Me? you are the one with the anger issues my lovely sister!" She tickles her hard on her ribs.
Kara squirms and laughs, "it's a Danver thing!" She laughs while trying to not fall off the bed.
"Yeah it is." She agreed loving on her silly sister. So bed rest for you, and I will see about springing you out to fly tomorrow. Okay?"
"I don't know what I'd do without you," Kara gushes but being totally honest. "That would be great, thank you!"
"That will take a lot of persuasion on my part. You need to think about what the doc said too. And no more nightmares! You are to take two of these and get some rest." She handed her a glass of water along with a cup with two pills in it.
Nodding, "yeah... I know," she knew that was coming and it was the truth. "Facing my demons... I'll do my best," she looks at the pills and gives Alex a look. "Uhhh what're these for?" Hoping they're not sleeping pills.
"Just take them Kara. Doctor's orders." Alex grinned trying not to look guilty.
She continues to give her a not so sure look but takes them from her and downs them. "Only because it's you," she adds. "Now go home, I'm sure you want your own bed and are actually getting tired of being here so often."
"For you I'd live here dear. And yes... they are sleeping pills. You need a good night's rest so you don't resist the doc." She explained. "You like everyone else gets grumpy when they don't sleep well."
She smiles warmly at her till she hears the last part and she gives her a disapproving look, "great..."
Alex tries not to giggle. "Rest Kara... I will see you tomorrow." She leaves her sister smirking and hobbling all the way out.
Resting her head back she gets comfy, knowing the pills will probably take effect soon and doesn't want to be in an odd position. Closing her eye's she feels herself slip off quickly.
J'onn walks into the infirmary, rubbing at his eyes. Taking in the patients and he notices the only male is missing, looking around he spots Dr. Hamilton and approaches her, "Where is the young man?" He whispers, wishing to be discreet. "I'm sorry I haven't been around, organizing the military personnel and General Lane took much longer than anticipated."
She handed him the letter. "Both Livingston and I are trying to figure out how to break it to her. She is unstable Director. Is Lane and his men gone to prison now?" She asked curious.
J'onn looks over the letter and closes his eyes, "she deserves to know... though it may break her," he heaves a heavy sigh before nodding. "Yes, the General is being taken to an entirely different facility, I'm in talks with Lena about her Mother."
"Do you want to tell her? Her therapy is going to be ten times harder now. She is scheduled for therapy now. It was to be right after Supergirl."
He looks at the other Kara hard, "I'm no doctor, what do you suggest?"
"The truth." Hamilton told him honestly.
He gives her a firm nod, "I'll go and tell her then, thank you Dr. Hamilton," he walks over to Overgirl and observes her behavior. "You are due to go into therapy, however staff found this letter and I felt you should know about its contents before going in. Do you wish for me to read it to you?"
She looked up at the Director. "What letter?" She looked apprehensive at the Director staring down at her still very pinned to the bed.
Unfolding the paper, "it's from your husband," he informs and prepares to read it aloud to her.
She tensed up, balling her fists, sensing it was very bad news.
Dear Wife,
I'm sorry I left without you, but I cannot bear the thought of our army firing upon you with Kryptonite bullets if they find out our plans. You've been given a new lease on life and I refuse to lose you like that.
When I return to our world I will tell them we came into unfortunate circumstances, which isn't far from the truth, and that you passed because of it. I shall then send the mad doctor to the earth with the evil Sorceress to deal with her. Once he is gone I shall call on a meeting with all leaders, Reich, I'll make sure they're all in the board room. I will tell them it is on a matter of discussing who shall be the new General and that being on the other Earth has given me ideas on enforcing our own practices.
I will make it mandatory that all officers relinquish their firearms; once I am confident that all of them are in the room I will place full security on the room. I will inform the officers standing guard that someone is not to be trusted and I am unaware as to whom and for the time being no one will leave until I say otherwise.
I shall go to the concentration camps and request all officers join me outside of the camp, then I shall order them all to give up their rifles, finally I shall turn off the power and order all collars be removed. Hopefully then I shall be receiving contact with the Rebels about their people being returned from all camps.
With that I will make a public announcement that even the leaders will hear in the board room about us giving up, I shall have the men ready to fire if anyone tries to fight their way out. Honestly I see the majority of them getting executed, by rights I feel I should be put on trial as well, I shall leave it up to the Rebels to decide.
In case I am to be executed, I did not wish for you to see it nor to see you like that. You can hate me as I know our new friends do. So long as you are alive and well, that is all that matters to me. It's time I make things right or die trying.
Love,
Oliver
J'onn looks at her when he is done, "I gather you wanted to join him in going back home. It sounds like he wants to make it the kind of home you want to return to."
She was silent. Which concerned him as she could not be read.
"Kara? Are you okay?" Dr. Hamilton asked cautiously.
He moves to unhook her from her bed so she can go into her own therapy session. "I'll fetch you a wheel chair if you'd like," he offers.
"I need to use the bathroom." She said quietly, attempting to get up. Dr. Hamilton took off the sensors and detached her from the various equipment she was hooked to, and helped her up.
"Let's get you cleaned up shall we?" She asked leading her into the women's bathroom.
J'onn watches and walks with them, thinking she's taking this much too well... something is up.
General Kara went in and closed the door. Hamilton looked on. Not sure what to think.
Hamilton could hear the very real sounds of heaving and sobbing at the same time coming from the bathroom.
Kara was crying and she was sick from the kryptonite.
J'onn snaps his fingers, "you put in a request for the cuffs to be removed, didn't you... sorry I've had a lot on my plate," he sighs, "I'll remove them if you think she's safe."
"I don't know what to think right now." She told him walking into the room and closing the door after her.
Not knowing what side of the pained Kryptonian would come out.
J'onn hates the idea of causing additional distress but at the same time the people in this facility are his responsibility.
Dr. Hamilton takes in the sight of her patient and rests her hand on Kara's back. "The Director is offering to remove your cuffs, if I give the go ahead. Shall we step outside and have it done?"
She looked up at her with a tear streaked face. "He left me!" She cried anguished again, the Kryptonite near her face as she tried to bury her face with her hands. She quickly threw up more in the basin.
The doctor saw the cuffs needed to come off.
Dr. Hamilton opens the bathroom door, "Director please remove the cuffs, they're adding too much discomfort to my patient."
J'onn steps forward and pulls out the keys, unlocking the device and pulling them away.
Kara collapsed on the floor now with her hands safely up to her face. She cried into them.
J'onn sees much of his own Kara in this alien from when he first met her. Struggling with her new environment and not being trusted and in this case, no Alex to support her.
Stepping over to her he holds his hand above her back, unsure of how to treat this young woman. Perhaps with some kindness? He'd been hearing about her complaints that she feels they all hate her. He places his hand onto her back in an attempt to comfort her. "I'm sorry Kara," he lightly rubs her back.
She lowered her hands, still with a tear streaked face, and looked up at him. "He left for good. I am stranded here." She said quiet barely audible.
They noticed there was no fight to her anymore. She was clearly devastated.
On his right knee, he wishes to attempt to treat her like his own Kara so she doesn't feel so alienated. He knows he's made a terrible first impression, but he also hates to see the face of one of the young ladies he's come to care for very much in so much hurt. He opens his arms to her, offering to hold her in a way, "we will do our best to treat you like our own Kara until we have a permanent solution." He decides to not mention the fact he notices she feels her husband will not be returning.
She sobbed on his shoulder. Her body shaking from the sobs.
"I think therapy needs to be postponed. What do you think Director Henshaw? "Hamilton stated.
"Can I please have my suit back?" She asked, trying hard to compose herself.
Hamilton shook her head. "You are still admitted here."
"I don't want to be in this thin gown anymore." She stifled another sob.
Hamilton looked at J'onn for guidance. In one way she was too unstable to release but yet she was miserable. J'onn could pick up the indecision of Hamilton.
He nods, "you may have something else to wear if you're going to be staying. We bent over for comfort with our own Kara, we treat this Kara the same in that respect," he holds her close and continues to rub her back. Understanding she has no one on this Earth. It's time to put more effort into this Kryptonian young woman.
"Thank you." She stuttered out, still stifling the sobs. Hamilton handed her some scrub pants. "Put these on under your gown. And here is a fresh one for you." She gives her a fresh crisp gown. She nodded as they left the small bathroom and gave her privacy.
"This just got a lot tougher to bring her out of her issues." Hamilton told him quietly, hoping she wouldn't hear.
J'onn rubs his forehead, "for the time being it appears she doesn't see her husband returning. Perhaps she sees him failing in his mission... I'll ask Agent Schott if he can devise a way to get to another Earth. However we've never attempted anything of the sort, so there's no telling if it would work," he looks at Dr. Hamilton. "She can't stay at the DEO indefinitely. I'll take her out for a stroll."
"Do you want her to stay Director?" She whispered curiously. "You feel for the poor girl don't you?"
He nods, looking at his own Kara sleeping soundly, "yes... I see her being very much like our own Kara when she first came to the DEO. But this Kara we have," he looks at the doctor, "she has no one."
The pained Kryptonian walked out of the room. Her gown tied tightly around her with the scrubs on underneath. She looked at the two of them. "Where should I go?" She asked still with downcast eyes.
He places his hand onto her back, "I'll take you out of here for a bit. Fresh air, see our city?" He offers.
"Okay," She agreed.
Taking a shift, hope you like it! If they were to bring another character on to assist Kara who would you like to see?
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