Brooke eyed Spencer and suddenly shot her eyes down to the green grass, her nerves overpowering her as she bit her bottom lip – Spencer wasn't supposed to see that. She wasn't supposed to call her out so soon, and Brooke now had to explain everything. Brooke's hand moved up to her shoulder blade length wavy brown hair and ran her fingers through it for a moment, collecting her composure.
"Umm – funny thing, that," Brooke said, still not able to meet Spencer's searing blue eyes. How would she react? Would she run scared? Their relationship definitely hadn't been in the best of places recently, and she was nervous to do anything that could make Spencer nervous. Brooke didn't want to make the girl run.
"Brooke," Spencer stated plainly, moving closer to the brunette and cupping the girl's lightly freckled face with her hand, stroking her thumb over Brooke's high cheekbones. Spencer dipped two fingers under Brooke's chin and slowly tilted the nervous girl's face up to hers – locking their eyes in an intense gaze. That question had clearly been the wrong one to ask. "Baby, just tell me what's going on."
Brooke smiled a little brighter at this name Spencer sometimes called her and Spencer moved her hand away, now that she had Brooke's gaze and held it steady. Spencer was nervous as well, because Brooke had proven to be completely unpredictable at times, and the blonde had no fathomable idea what the girl could possibly be about to do or say. Spencer thought her spontaneity was amazing, although sometimes what her crazy idea or joke would send Spencer into uncertainty.
"Well, honestly – when I started planning this entire...thing, I had a whole speech in mind. I was going to sort of run the idea by you first to gauge your reaction and then just – dive in. It's a whole process," Brooke rambled nervously.
"Process?" Spencer asked, raising an eyebrow. Brooke frowned in response to this and began to fiddle with the Velcro pocket on her shorts again, not even bothering to hide the bulge of some square object inside the material.
"Yeah – big process. You know I love you, right?" Brooke asked, sighing after she did and clearly thinking that this was a stupid question to ask.
"Of course I know that," Spencer said with a sweet smile and sideways tilt of her head as she gazed at the brunette that was positioned awkwardly in the grass. Her hands ran over the green blades and she twirled them in her agile fingers, abandoning her pocket for a moment.
"And I know you feel the same – don't you?" Brooke asked, searching Spencer's eyes for the honesty she knew she would see. Unfortunately, Spencer was good at forcing it in there, and she did this with her answer. She wanted to love Brooke completely, and part of her did love Brooke. She just wasn't sure if she was completely in love with Brooke. For all reasons, she should be – Brooke was an amazing parent, friend, caretaker, lover, and girlfriend...but there was still something missing. Some missing particle that kept Spencer from crossing that line between love and being in love.
Spencer hated herself for it.
"I do," Spencer said – wondering if perhaps this was the wrong way to respond with a yes. Those words were equated with a commitment that was far beyond where she was ready to go – where her comfort level would take her. She had thought before about marrying Brooke and letting the girl adopt Erin. Erin would love it, and maybe that bond between them would make Spencer cross the line. She could abandon her inhibitions and just go for everything she had been running from.
But she knew that neither she or Brooke were really ready for a commitment that large, and it calmed her down a little bit. There was time to get into that. Later.
"That's really comforting to hear. I needed that," Brooke said with a sigh.
Spencer smiled and noticed a small blade of grass that had landed in Brooke's hair. The blonde scooted slightly closer to Brooke and moved her hand to Brooke's soft brunette locks and pulled out the piece of grass, tossing it aside. Brooke smiled and said a soft thank you before meeting Spencer's lips to hers. They kissed passionately for a few moments, and then Brooke took the liberty to see if Erin was watching. She had moved to another swing set that wasn't facing them so she wouldn't be spying – just as she promised.
The brunette circled Spencer's waist with her strong arms and flipped her onto her back in the grass. Spencer giggled softly and sighed as Brooke got on top of her, connecting their lips in another heated kiss. Spencer slipped Brooke a little tongue, which sent the brunette into a soft moan, before she responded by sucking the blonde's tongue into her mouth, tasting Spencer. She never wanted Spencer's taste to leave her mouth.
Her hands traveled up Spencer's sides and her thumbs stroked over her hipbones, paying gentle attention to the soft skin that covered them. Spencer squirmed a little under her lover and then arched up into Brooke, pressing their breasts together. Brooke smiled down at the blonde and moved a strand of blonde hair out of Spencer's face and kissed that part of her forehead where it had been resting before it was moved. Spencer smiled brightly and claimed Brooke's lips again, their kisses heating up to the point of imminent explosion.
Spencer could feel the familiar ache start between her thighs and she moved her hands to cup Brooke's ass and pull the brunette just a little closer to her. Brooke moved her lips to Spencer neck and nipped right over her racing pulse, causing another louder moan to erupt from the blonde's lips. Brooke kissed gently up to Spencer's ear and sucked her earlobe into her mouth, pulling away by tugging with her teeth softly.
"We can't have sex in the park," Brooke explained to Spencer.
"We can make out, though. Can't we? You want to, don't you?" Spencer asked inquisitively, hoping that the brunette wouldn't stop. Another thing that she craved when she was having a bad day was sex, but she knew that there was no way she and Brooke could be subtle in a public park with her daughter just thirty feet away.
"Of course I want," Brooke said before crushing her lips back to Spencer's. Spencer wrapped her arms around Brooke's slender waist and rubbed their bodies together, hearing that faint moan of euphoric bliss stream from her lover's lips as she started to fuel the fire inside the brunette.
Brooke's kisses continued up Spencer's neck and back to her ear, where she delivered a husky whisper.
"When we get home, we're going to retire to bed..." Brooke said, not even posing it as a question. A good thing, because the blonde had no intentions to argue. It had been too long since they had done anything of this nature, and this was the most physical contact that had been through with each other in at least two months.
"That sounds amazing," Spencer sighed, letting the feel of Brooke's lips on her sensitive neck wash over her and send heated chills through her body, sparking goosebumps on her flesh. Brooke really was talented. Always knew how to touch, how fast or slow to take the pace, and just where Spencer needed her. The only thing they lacked physically was the newness of a passionate relationship. That fire that first erupts when you get together – the insecurity that is only accented by raging hormones and desire. Spencer wondered what sex would be like with Ashley – those talented hands, those full lips. Spencer could feel the danger and poisons the girl radiated sink into her veins and fill them, and it felt good. Spencer was lost in the high of thoughts of Ashley fueled by the attention from her girlfriend.
Spencer also still wanted to know what Brooke had in her pocket.
It was a low blow, but Spencer decided to go for it. She ran her hands down Brooke's hips and smoothed them along her feminine, but subtle curves, to her hipbones. Spencer pressed her kiss-bruised lips against Brooke's and kept her there as her fingertips reached the opening of Brooke's pocket – it wasn't completely closed. Spencer opened it just as she plunged her tongue into Brooke's mouth and took out the box that was inside. The case was velvet, and Spencer couldn't see the color. She wrapped her hand around it and tucked it into her hand before ending the kiss and pulling back slightly.
"I got the mystery item," Spencer said to Brooke, who looked horrified.
"Umm – Spencer, please give that to me. You really shouldn't," Brooke said as Spencer pulled away from her slightly, a sly smile gracing the blonde's gorgeous face.
"Shouldn't what?" Spencer said, opening the box without even looking down at it to see what she was opening. Brooke held her head in her hands as Spencer pulled the now open ring box up to her face and saw the engagement ring inside. Brooke peeked through her fingers at the shocked expression on Spencer's face.
"Marry me?" Brooke said once she was certain that Spencer had given the ring a good look.
Spencer's eyes went wide and she felt like her hand was on fire. Spontaneity was so not a good trait to have.
A/N: I'm in a good mood. Figured I'd post more. Yeah, that's it. Now I have to go work on my screenplay that is supposed to be finished on the 30th. However, I've been procrastinating on that because scientific research that must be completed for a grade waits for no one. Wish me luck, and I can't wait to read your reviews! Also, more tomorrow!