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Chapter 11:
I woke up wrapped in the comfort of Harry's arms and before I opened my eyes I snuggled into him further. I wasn't sure what it was about him that made me feel so at ease. He felt me shift, "Are you awake, Raven?"
"Mhm…need coffee," I mumbled. He chuckled a bit at my response.
"Are you feeling better?" I nodded into his chest. "Can I ask what was bothering you last night?"
"I suppose you deserve to know now. I was dreaming about the day my parents got sent to Azkaban. It was a very horrifying experience for me. I still remember it like it was yesterday."
"I'm sorry," he whispered.
"Eh, there's nothing anyone can do about it now. But I do need some coffee, so if you don't mind," I said, gesturing for him to open his arms and let me get up. He complied and I went and made myself some coffee.
"So what are your plans for today?" he casually asked me after he had gotten dressed.
"I'm not sure. I really just want to relax a bit. I'll probably be with Draco tonight."
"Can I show you something?"
"Sure," I said, curious to know what he wanted to show me. With a wave of his wand, his broom came flying toward us. He grabbed it and walked over to our window.
"Hop on," he gestured to the seat behind him on his broom. I got on his broom and wrapped my arms tight around his torso before he took off out our window. Before I knew it we were perched on a branch high on a tall tree in the Forbidden Forest. It was such a massive tree that we could both sit on it. Over the tree tops you could barely see Hogwarts in the distance. "This is the best place around to come to get away from everyone. I figured you could use as much as I can this year." He hadn't released my hand from when he helped me onto the branch, and I think neither of us could ignore the electric feeling we received when we touched.
"This is really nice," I said staring out into the woods, "Thank you for showing it to me."
"You really surprised me this year, Raven." He whispered. I stared into his emerald eyes and gave him a small smile. His hand let go of mine and came up to cup my cheek. "I don't know what it is about you," he mumbled. I couldn't take it anymore, so I leaned in and kissed him softly on the lips. No tongue was used, and it wasn't needed. It lasted just a few seconds, but it felt like the entire world stopped. When I pulled back, all he could do was mutter, "Wow."
We flew back to the castle and neither of us spoke a word. When we landed, I immediately went to my room to ponder what had just occurred. I couldn't deny what I had felt when we kissed. The spark was unlike anything I've ever felt before. We were both in really odd places in our lives, and we understood each other it seemed. But there was no way I could go into a relationship with him, assuming he would even want one with me. It would kill Draco, and Draco is the only person that's always, no matter what, been there for me. I love Draco, and I couldn't bear to hurt him like that. But I couldn't shake the feeling of how felt when I was in Harry's arms, and I found myself longing to be there again. If only we were living in a different reality, one where it was acceptable if we were together.
I had been lying on my bed thinking for a few hours when my door swung open and Draco walked in. I gave him a confused look. "Potter let me in," he shrugged. He came over to my bed and gave me hug after I had sat up. "How has your weekend been so far?"
"Not bad. I finished my homework," I told him. As much as I wanted to confide in someone about what had just happened with Harry, I knew I couldn't tell Draco. It would tear him apart to find out that I had such a passionate (is that the right word?) encounter with Harry so shortly after he'd confessed his love for me. I wish I could figure everything out so Draco and I could move on and be together. This war had complicated things so much. I hated having to grow up so fast.
That night when Draco tried to kiss me, I turned away. "Want to tell me what's wrong, Rae?" he asked me.
"I just think it wouldn't be right for us to continue on snogging and whatnot when I don't even know what I want right now. It's just not fair to you. I will always love you and be your best friend, Dray, but I really need some time. And that time can't include us snogging and acting like were a couple because that will just cloud my judgment. I'm sorry, Draco." He just nodded and turned around to go to sleep.