"Dear lord, please help me. I'm lost in this life. Sometimes I feel like I can't breathe. If only I could understand anything that is going on. School is a disaster, home is even worse. When one thing goes right it is like a trigger that sets off ten other bad things to happen. I don't know what to do and I need your help. Writing, for me, is the only option with which I can express my frustrations and my thoughts. Please give me the creativity to make this chapter and further chapters to be outstanding and help me with my problems. I pray this in your name.

Amen"

Everything belongs to Stephenie Meyer and all her greatness...

Chapter 11

Edward's POV

Lily got into the car and greeted me. I smiled at her and returned the gesture. She is so sweet, everything floating around in her mind is filled with happiness...or so I thought a moment ago. When she looked out towards the car Jacob and she came in, I looked too, and I saw Jacob glaring at me.

Filthy bloodsucker. If he hurts her in anyway I'm going to kill him.

And then his thoughts change from threatening to loving.

Why does she have to leave? Why can't she just stay here with me?...I have nothing to do. I'm just going to be sitting on my butt waiting for her until she comes back. Billy is staying with Charlie...What the hell am I supposed to do.

Then he changes back to threatening.

Stupid leach. I should just get the hell out of here and clear my head.

Then he spun off and Lily sighed and at first I glanced a tear in the corner of her eye. But when I looked again, it was going.

"Are you ready to have fun?" Bella asked. For a second it sounded like she was as gallant as Alice.

"Sure." Lily said. She still seemed down. But I'm sure that everyone will change that soon enough.

What have I done? She thought

Why didn't I just stay with him. He hates me...oh god. I think I'm going to throw up.

My eyes widened and I pulled the car off to the side of the road. I threw the door open and picked her up out of the back seat.

"What is going on!?" Bella yelled when I rushed Lily to the forest's edge. She bent over and threw up. The smell was awful but I was glad I could have been there when she did.

She wiped her mouth off with the back of her hand when she was finished and looked up at me. Tears caressed her cheeks and they were all puffy. I walked towards her and she began to bawl.

"Oh Lily." I said pulling her in for a hug.

"What happened?" Bella asked quietly beside me. Lily let me go and went to hug Bella. She cried into Bella's shoulder and I stood there in silence. I truly felt bad for the girl. She was trying everything she could think of to please him. And yet, he didn't even know what was going on with her.

I pulled out my cell phone and dialed his number. I gently told Bella to take Lily back to the car and to drive her to our house. I would catch up later. She hesitated at first but then complied.

The phone rang once before Jacob picked up. "Lily?" He asked breathlessly.

"Jacob it's me Edward. Don't hang up." I said.

"What do you want?" He asked aggrievedly.

"Would you like to join me and the boy's tonight? I realize that we have been very selfish in taking Lily to join the girl's in their get together and we have decided that maybe you would like to do something as well." I said.

There was silence for a long time on the other end then Jacob's husky burr came in very softly. "Why would a bunch of...vampires...want to hang out with a big mutt like me? He asked.

"Because I'm tired of fighting with you Jacob. We all are. It is time for you and I and everyone else to finally become a family. Can you except that? Can you except a bunch of bloodsuckers into a family with a bunch of wolves?" I asked evenly.

It was silent for a moment and then he said. "Alright. I'll meet you at the line." Then the phone disconnected. I smiled and went to stand at the line to wait for him.

Lily's POV

That was one of the most embarrassing moments I have ever had in my life. Throwing up in front of Edward just shot straight up on the embarrassing moments list. For me anyways. I was still ever great full to have him, them, there to cry with. Well actually, I'm pretty sure I was the only one crying.

"Are you sure your all right?" Bella asked me for the thousandth time.

"Yes. I'm fine. I actually don't know why I threw up I just did. It just came up and I couldn't have done anything to stop it." I said.

"Thats weird." She said. "Are you going to be alright for tonight? I don't want you getting sick on us or anything."

"I'll be fine. I'm okay." I said. She didn't say anything after that and we continued our drive over to the Cullen's house.

When we arrived a small pixie looking girl came out of the house and literally bounded up to my side of the car, threw the door open and pulled me out and gave me a bone crushing hug. I yelped and she laughed.

"I'm Alice." she said. "It's so great to finally meet you!" she said. Bella's face when Alice let me go was a warning sign. Then Alice sighed and pulled my arm through hers. She tugged me along with her and Bella followed.

"There is so much that we have planned! And we have so much to catch up on!" she said. I looked over my shoulder at Bella and she smiled. Then she mouthed a 'I'm sorry' I tried to smile but I had a feeling it didn't come out right.

When she got me through the door I saw a gorgeous man in is late twenties at the latest with blond hair. He approached me and smiled.

"I'm Carlisle. Welcome to our home." I smiled.

"Thanks. I'm so thankful to finally meet you all. I'm Lily." I said.

"We know." Everyone said. I blushed and felt embarrassed.

"Don't be embarrassed." The young boy in the corner said. He had shaggy honey blond hair that was in his face. It was hair to see his eyes.

"Um...okay." I said.

"That's Jasper. He is...well, gifted." Carlisle said. "He can feel what you feel."

"Oh. It's nice to meet you." I said.

"I'm Esme." A woman said standing up. She was outstandingly beautiful and her dark hair was absolutely flawless.

But nothing could compare to the beauty sitting on the lap of a bulky man with curly hair with muscles that would set a young Arnold to shame. She was the most gorgeous woman I have ever seen in my life, even more beautiful than Esme. She had long curly wavy hair that went down to her waist and she had full rose red lips. And of course a perfect hour glass figure.

"That's Rosalie, and the one she's sitting on is Emmett." Esme said. They nodded and I did as well.

"You already met Alice and we already informed you of Jasper. Where's Edward?" She asked to no one in particular.

"He had to stay behind. He wouldn't tell me why." Bella said.

"Huh. Perhaps I'll call him. We are supposed to be leaving soon." Carlisle said looking at his watch.

"Well, now that you've met everyone. Why don't you boys head out and you can call Edward to tell him to meet you where your going." Esme pushed.

"Alright." Carlisle said kissing Esme lightly on the lips. The boys got up and headed out.

"So, what are we doing tonight?" I asked.

"Oh! So many things to do!" Alice cried running around in circles and dancing.

"Alice! Calm down! You like a fat little kid at a pie eating contest!" Rosalie teased. Alice stopped mid-stride and glared at her sister.

"Fine." Alice said and plopped down on the couch next to Bella. I went and sat down next to her. Esme took my bag and ran it upstairs.

When she came back she had a slip of paper in her hand. She gave it to me and on it was a list.

Watch a girly movie.

Do hair and makeup things like that.

Make Bella and Lily dinner.

Gossip about the boys, girl talk

Go out to Port Angeles to watch a flick.

Go to Port Angeles to eat in the Italian restaurant

After reading the list I looked up at Esme. "What is this?" I asked.

"A list of things to do. It is in no order. Just some ideas of things we could do." she said.

"I personally like number four." Rosalie said. I laughed and looked the list over again. Then I looked at the clock on the wall. It was only two o'clock.

Hmm...what to do...well, I didn't want them to spend much money...but I had my own so it shouldn't matter.

"Well, since it's early, how about we dress each other up. Wear sexy things and go to Port Angeles to shop and to go out and eat. Then when we do that, we can come back, do each other's nails, get into comfy clothes, and watch a girly movie that will make me and Bella cry our eyes out. And we can gossip along the way." I suggested.

Everyone's eyes beamed at me. Literally beamed! "What?" I asked.

"Well, the boys were going to hang around in Port Angeles earlier today. I don't know what else they plan on doing." Esme said.

"That's even more perfect." I began. They looked at me puzzled. "Well we can make them all jealous of us by showing off ourselves to other men." I said.

They all laughed. "Oh who evil." Alice chimed. "That will show him." she said. I was about to ask her more but Bella said something.

"Yes, perfect. I can make Edward want me even more." I almost thought she was talking to herself.

"It's settled." Said Esme. "But what about you Lily? Jacob won't be there." She said.

"Oh, don't worry about me. I can help you guys show yourselves off. But I'm still dressing up."

"Alright." they all said.

I thought for a moment and then said... "Um. Do you guys have anything sexy looking that will fit me?" I asked. They all smiled and then they jumped up and grabbed me and shuffled me upstairs and started messing with my hair. This is going to be a long painful night.

Jacob's POV

When I got Edward's call, I presumed that he wouldn't have a car, so I turned into my wolf form with clothes strapped to my leg and ran over to the line. I transformed back to myself when I saw him and pulled on my jeans and a black t shirt. He was standing there with nothing behind. His car wasn't there and Bella and Lily weren't anywhere to be seen.

"What are you planning?" I called out to Edward about fifty yards away.

"You and I are going to get some things straight. Now." He said. He looked furious. But I knew he wasn't. He wasn't here to pick a fight with me. He was here to get things straight and to move on.

"Alright, shoot." I said.

"You don't love Bella anymore right?"

"I don't."

"Good. That's settled. So I don't have to worry about you hitting on her anymore." he said.

"Next." I said.

"What is with all the glaring asshole?" he yelled. "What the hell have I done to deserve that."

"I'm sorry, I have just been frustrated with Lily leaving." I said.

"Well that is not an excuse to use it out on me. And you need to stop being so selfish. It is really taking it's tole on Lily. Do you know what happened?"

I froze. "What happened?!" I yelled.

"She panicked. She thought you were angry with her and she threw up. I had to pull her out of the car and she started bawling. Way to go. But she's alright now. She's with the girls. I can see in your mind the fury. Calm down. She's okay." he said.

"God." I whispered looking at the tops of the tree lines. "What have I done?" I said.

"Nothing, well, nothing yet. Just explain to her that you didn't mean to be so...protective. Then everything will be alright." He said.

"How am I not going to be protective? She's my imprint for God's sake!" I said.

"That she is. But you need to give her some slack too, just look at me and Bella? Remember how it was? I wouldn't even let her see you. And she hated me for that. Let go of some of her, she'll be well protected with us." He said.

I walked to him and crossed the line exhaling a big breath I had been holding. I looked at him and he didn't smile fully, but almost.

"Are we okay?" He asked me.

I nodded. "Yeah, we're good." I said. "For now."

Then all of the sudden, Edward's phone rang. He pulled it out of his pocket and flipped it open.

"Carlisle?" He asked. "Yeah, I'm fine...Yeah, Jacob is going to join us alright?...Yeah we'll meet you there." He flipped the phone shut and turned to me.

"We're going to Port Angeles. Ready to run?" he said, a smile playing at his lips.

"Want to race?" I challenged.

He smiled a full blown grin then and blasted off into a sprint. And at that moment something sparked within me and I stripped, strapped my clothes to me and blew into the wolf I know oh so well. Then I raced after him.

Lily's POV (sorry it keeps on going back and forth. It will all work out, don't worry ; )

Oh god, what have I gotten myself into. The girls had practically strapped me to the chair in front of a huge mirror with duck tape. I had said it was okay to play dress up on me, but I never thought it would have ended up like this...ever.

"Stop twitching!" Alice said. She was putting mascara on my eye lashes, and it felt so weird having someone else do it for you. It feels like they are going to poke you in the eye, or something.

"Don't worry." she said. "I'm not going to poke you in the eye. I'm a trained professional." she chimed.

"Sure you are." Rosalie said spraying my hair with hair spray.

"You know, that stuff isn't really good for my hair." I pointed out.

"Don't worry Lily, I know what I'm doing." she soothed. "You have gorgeous hair by the way." she said.

"Thanks." I blushed. It felt so...good...to hear a compliment come from someone so beautiful.

"When are you guys going to be done?" I whined.

"Not for a while." Bella said. "We haven't even found something for you to wear yet."

Then all of the sudden Alice froze, eye lash curler on my eye lashes and it was starting to hurt.

"Alice!" I screamed. But she was still frozen. Her eyes only twitching once.

Bella touched Alice's shoulder. "Alice? Are you okay?" A few seconds later Alice came back.

"What?" She asked. "Oh, sorry." she said taking the eyelash curler off of me.

Then she stood and pulled Bella with her to the closet. "Lets see what we can find you!" She proudly said, whispering something into Bella's ear along the way. O-k-a-y.

After two long hours of clamping, straightening, curling, spraying, pinching, poking, and everything else you can think of, I was almost but not quite-damn it!-done.

"Alright, bring out the dress!" Esme called.

Bella and Alice came out of the closet and Bella was carrying a beautiful Black dress. My eyes widened when they placed it in my hands. It was a short skimpy little thing with spaghetti straps and it was very low cut. I smiled. If only Jacob would be there to get jealous. That would be so freaking hilarious!

"Go try it on!" They yelled. I stood up and ran to the bathroom. When I glanced at my reflection in the mirror I froze. I was absolutely beautiful. Nothing compared to Rosalie, but almost as pretty as Esme. I smiled and started pulling off my clothes. I slipped on the dress and I looked good in it. It went up just enough to show off my thighs and it went down low, but not too low, so I didn't look like a slut.

I flipped my hair and played with it for a couple of seconds then I smiled and walked out. They all gasped. And then Alice brought me some strappy black stiletto high heels. I slipped them on and they made me four inches taller. Good god.

"Alright Bella, get ready, it will take us maybe ten minutes to get ready." Esme said.

"Ten minutes?" I peeped

"Vampires remember?" Rosalie said.

"Oh yeah.." I breathed. I still sometimes forget that they can kill me anytime they wish. Not that a human couldn't but didn't they have any blood lust at all? This just seemed to unreal.

About thirty minutes later, everyone was ready and in dresses. Alice in a black dress almost like mine except it was shorter and it was strapless, Bella was in a dark blue number, Rosalie in a long red skin tight dress that was strapless, Esme in a white flowing silky dress. They all looked beautiful. And flawless.

We too Rosalie's M3 (thats a BMW) up to Port Angeles and parked in the mall parking lot. We got out and everyone, especially guys were staring, not at us, but the car. And then they noticed who had been driving and then they made catcalls at us. It may have looked ridicules all five of us going to the mall in dresses. But we didn't care. I felt like I was on top of the world, and nothing was going to bring me down now.

We went to different stores around the mall, they all bought me things that I didn't need and Bella even complained when they used their credit cards on her. She like me, didn't have much money but was compelled to pay for her things herself. Not to have someone else to it for them. But it sure was nice.

They bought me tons of clothes, dresses, jeans, tops, lacy lingerie, shoes...lots of shoes, makeup, purses, everything a girl could want. When our arms were full of bags, we went out to the car and dumped them in and then went back inside for a drink. Well, me and Bella needed the drink, everyone else just came along.

We sat there sipping our drinks when we heard a crash. We all looked over towards one of the stores and my breath caught in my throat. I stood with Bella and Alice grabbed my hand in her. Over, not fifty feet away stood Carlisle, Edward, Jasper, Emmett, and...oh god. Jacob! Why was he with them!

All around me men where staring at me and making catcalls and whistling and Jacob was just right over there. Possessiveness was plastered all over his beautiful face. He was wearing jeans and a snug black shirt that exposed how muscular he was. Just looking at him made my knees nearly buckle under me.

When a man came by whistling at us he spanked me right on the butt and I knew it was going to end right there. Jacob's nostrils flared and he took one big step when Edward caught his arm. Jacob's head whipped back and he looked furiously at Edward. Edward just shook his head and kept his arm on him.

We, girls, all stood and walked right past them. I put a little sway into my step and followed Jacob's gaze as I passed him. Just inches from touching him. I wanted to so badly, but I knew I had to finish what I wanted to accomplish. I wanted him to be jealous, we all did. This was our one night. And damn it all now if I was going to mess it up.

I followed his gaze until I passed him and then I looked straight forward. Men were still calling at us and following us until we walked out into the light mist of the night. Time sure had flown since we first got out here.

We got into the car and drove off towards the Italian restaurant. But right as we were getting out of the mall parking lot, I looked over my shoulder towards the entrance and there stood Jacob. He raised his arm in the air like he was waving, but without motion. I pressed my hand up against the glass as we turned onto the highway and I thought I saw him smile. The I turned around and a single tear spilled down my cheek.