In reply to Chrisch's review: First of all, thank you so much for reviewing! In regards to what you said, that is one of the reasons why I didn't want 'the doctor' to tell Kurt, and I'm really glad that you like 'the doctor' :) And I totally agree, which was also one of the reasons why I didn't want Doctor Roberts to tell Kurt, it would be very embarrassing and horrifically awkward to have a doctor tell your ex-boyfriend whom you cheated on(or at least, that's what they think), that you were raped. And yes, Kurt's reaction when he finds out (yes, he will eventually find out, believe it or not!) will be interesting. You're just going to have to be patient! Anyway, thank you soooo much for reviewing!
A/N So here's chapter 11!(that sounds really weird, I never thought this story would end up being 11 chapters long!) I was true to my word for once, and updated when I said I would! (cause for big celebration! lol) I forgot to mention that the song in the last chapter was 'Keep Holding On' by Avril Lavigne. Thank you so much to everyone who has reviewed/has favorited/is following this story! I love reading your reviews, so please don't hesitate to leave a review :) Anyway, I really hope you enjoy!
Sarah
While the two boys were sitting there, Carole came in. "Hey boys, I was thinking of making some minestrone soup, would you like some?" Carole asked, knowing that if Blaine was able to eat anything, it would be soup.
Kurt looked at Blaine questioningly. Blaine still didn't feel much like eating, but he knew had to eat eventually. "Alright," Blaine said after a few moments, not sounding particularly enthusiastic.
"Great! I'll make it now," Carole said, before heading, presumably, to the kitchen.
Kurt looked at Blaine, who seemed to be staring into space. After a few moments, Kurt called out, "Blaine?" shaking Blaine's leg a little. Blaine jumped at the sudden contact, and flinched away from Kurt. God Blaine, calm down. It's Kurt, it's only Kurt, he's not going to hurt you. "Oh sorry Blaine; I didn't mean to startle you," Kurt said, trying to hide his confusion. Talk to him later, let him eat first, Kurt told himself. "You just looked like you were day dreaming, that's all." Blaine tried to smile like it was nothing,
"It's okay; you just scared me, that's all," Blaine said. "How about we listen to music while we wait for the soup to be ready?" Blaine asked, trying to make the situation less awkward, and yes, to try to change the topic.
"Sure," Kurt said. Blaine reached for his iPod, which was currently wedged inside his jeans pocket. Once he got it, he clicked shuffle.
"Oh, this is a nice song," Kurt said upon hearing the first few notes of the song. Blaine groaned inwardly when he heard those first few notes. It just had to be this song? Out of all the songs on my iPod, it just had to be this one? I would have almost preferred it if 'teenage dream' was playing, no Blaine; that would make the situation extremely awkward, and you, and possibly Kurt, would end up in tears. The song in question was 'Sarah' by Kate Miller-Heidke. Of all the songs to play, the song which was playing just had to be the song about a girl, whose friend, Sarah, went missing. A fortnight later, Sarah comes back, with no recollection of what happened. Blaine glanced at Kurt, who was just quietly listening to the song. He also had a thoughtful look on his face, Blaine observed.
Then a fortnight later
Sarah knocked upon their door
Her mother asked her 'Where've you been?'
And she said
'I don't know, I don't know, I'm not sure.
I'm not sure.
I can't remember anything at all.'
As Kurt listened, he looked at Blaine and noticed the strange expression on his face. Then Kurt remembered what the doctor had told him, "Blaine has recently had a major shock…spent the past few months unaware that something horrific happened to him…found out only a couple of days ago." Kurt looked at Blaine again, Blaine was still wearing that strange expression; it wasn't sad exactly, nor happy. The only way Kurt could describe the look on Blaine's face, was that of holding something in. Desperately trying to say something, or tell something but not doing so for whatever reason. So he can't remember what happened, Kurt thought. Little did Kurt know, that Blaine really wanted to tell Kurt something, but was also desperately trying to hold it together. But then how does he know what happened? Maybe he talked to someone or went somewhere? Just then, Carole came in with the soup.
"I'll just set it down here, shall I?" She asked, gesturing towards the table, which was located a couple of metres away from the sofa which Blaine and Kurt were currently sitting on.
"Yes please, thank you," Kurt said, a little distracted. Once Carole had gone out of the room, Kurt turned towards Blaine. "You don't remember what happened, do you Blaine?" Kurt asked quietly but gently. Blaine froze, and slowly turned to look at Kurt. Just nod, Blaine. Calm down, calm down, you can do it, just nod. After what seemed like forever to Kurt, who was oblivious to Blaine's internal argument with himself; Blaine nodded. "Alright-" Kurt was about to say something else when he noticed that Blaine was shaking. "Blaine? Are you okay? You're shaking," Kurt asked, and then immediately cursed himself, of course he's not okay!
"rm fine," Blaine answered, however, his voice sounded very raw and raspy. Kurt then noticed that Blaine was hyperventilating. Oh no.
"Blaine, it's alright, everything's going to be fine, but you need to calm down," Kurt said, trying to reassure Blaine, however, Kurt's words seemed to have no effect, for Blaine's breathing was getting faster and faster.
"Blaine, do you have your puffer?" Kurt asked. Blaine shook his head vigorously. Calm down, calm down, everything's fine, Blaine; just calm down. Oh god, I can't calm down, I can't calm down! Blaine was panicking more and more by the second, he vaguely heard Kurt call for Carole. That's right, Carole's a nurse; she'll have a first aid, which will hopefully have a puffer in it. Just keep breathing (not that he was breathing properly), just keep breathing. In, out, in out. Oh god, I can hardly breathe, what if I die? No Blaine, you're not going to die, don't think about it, don't even go there.
As those thoughts were going through Blaine's mind, Carole came into the room, carrying a medical kit. She opened it and pulled out a puffer. She gently pressed the mouth piece of the puffer, into Blaine's mouth. "Blaine, just try to take a few deep breaths," Carole said. After a few moments, the medication started taking effect, and Blaine's breathing slowed down. Once Blaine's breathing had returned to normal, Carole took the mouth piece out of Blaine's mouth. "I take it you have asthma?" Blaine nodded. "Are you alright now?" Blaine again nodded. Carole looked like she was going to say something, but then thought better of it. With one final look at Kurt, and then at Blaine, Carole got up, saying "I'll be in the front room if you need me."
Once Carole was gone, Kurt turned towards Blaine. "Blaine, what was that about?" Blaine thought about playing dumb and pretending not to know what Kurt really meant, but then thought better of it.
"That song," Blaine whispered. "I just, I can, I can-"
"You can relate to it? Is that what you're saying?" Kurt asked gently.
"Yes, I can relate to Sarah, more or less," Blaine said. Just because he knows that I can't remember, doesn't mean he's going to guess, right? No Blaine; if Kurt guesses, then that's good! And that way, you won't have to tell him what happened, as he'll have figured it out himself. But then he would know, then he would know how stupid I was, and how unclean I am, how dirty I am… Blaine, stop it, don't think about it. This is Kurt; he's not going to judge you. Wait, Kurt's talking to you.
"Are you sure you can't remember?" Kurt asked; he knew it was a stupid question, but he still wanted to ask it. Blaine nodded.
"Yes; I've tried. Believe me, I've tried, and I still do try, I do, I still try to remember. But I can't." Blaine said quietly, looking at the ground. Blaine was trying hard not to cry; god, I can't even talk about anything remotely related to it without crying. While Blaine was thinking that, Kurt thought to himself. He went months, not knowing that this, whatever this is, had happened to him? That would be so…I don't know, strange. Kurt glanced at Blaine, and noticed that he was barely holding back tears. Kurt pulled Blaine into a hug, which Blaine accepted. "Sh, it's alright; it's going to be okay."
"No it won't" Blaine said through tears.
"Yes it will; things might seem bad at the moment, but it will get better, I promise," Kurt said, trying to hold back tears himself.
"How do you know?" Blaine challenged.
"Because I know everything" Upon hearing that, Blaine made a noise, which was half way between a laugh and a sob. After a few moments, Blaine spoke up again,
"But what if it doesn't get better? What if I never get better? People are not going to want to wait that long for me to get better."
"Blaine? Blaine, listen to me okay? I said that we were going to get through this together, remember?" Blaine nodded, tears still streaming down his face. "Well, I meant it; we are going to get through this, together; however long it takes." After a few minutes, Blaine spoke up,
"Thank you," Blaine whispered.
"What are you thinking me for?" Kurt asked.
"For just being you." Kurt smiled, and hugged Blaine tighter.
A/N The End. I hope you all enjoyed reading this story.
Lol, I'm kidding, that's not the end, this story is nowhere near the end. I hope you guys enjoyed reading that chapter! The song mentioned in this chapter is 'Sarah' by Kate Miller-Heidke. (the lyric video for that song is amazing, you should watch it, and listen to it. It's so hauntingly beautiful :))Things are going to get interesting in, I think, the next chapter. And if everything goes to plan, then something which I have been planning for a while, will happen in the next chapter *evil grin. Anyway, I really hope you enjoyed Chapter 11! Please don't be afraid to review/favorite/follow this story! I'll update as soon as possible! Until next time :)