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It will continue for a little bit, I wanna work on the actual Bella/Alice moments now...or try.
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BPOV
Walking out of the woods in our condition was a bit strange.
Alice seemed to have brushed the incident off the moment I agreed on the date, she walked out of the woods and went straight to helping Emmett finish the house.
I don't know what exactly she was expecting out of our date, but I guess she must have seen it turn out fine if she was acting so happy.
I walked slowly towards Rosalie, Esme and Carlisle, who were watching me with searching eyes.
What exactly they were looking for was beyond me.
I noticed Rosalie's eyes linger on my new bite mark and was surprised at the growl that erupted from her throat.
"You didn't give her a CHOICE!" Rosalie screamed as her head whipped around to face Alice.
I watched in amazement as four vampires cringed away from Rosalie.
Alice seemed ashamed of herself and looked away from me when I tried to catch her eye.
Rosalie was by her in a flash and before I could figure out what was going on Rosalie was dragging Alice into the woods.
Alice, to my surprise, didn't protest and let herself be dragged away.
It might have been comical to see the always vibrant and feisty Alice being dragged away by the hem of her shirt, but the look on Rosalie's face told me that this was serious.
Whatever this was about anyways.
As if sensing my confusion Carlisle stepped forward and cleared his throat.
I tried to meet his gaze, but he kept his eyes above my head.
This surprised me until I felt a piece of cloth draped over my shoulders, Emmett was adjusting one of his jackets over me.
"I thought your clothes were in bad condition before, but damn, Alice did a number on you."
For the first time since I walked out of the woods I looked down at myself.
Emmett was right.
I thought my clothes were in bad conditions before, they weren't even recognizable now.
It was like I was wearing strings.
I hugged Emmett's jacket closer to me and turned back to Carlisle who met my eyes this time.
"Well, you seem to have excellent control."
Carlisle seemed to say this as a way to break the ice, I didn't understand why he was so uncomfortable.
"It's mind over matter," I said, and looked over at the woods where Rosalie had taken Alice, "I don't have much trouble with the thirst."
Before Carlisle could speak Emmett laughed and poked me in the ribs.
"Is it also mind over matter that you're not in the woods frantically trying to find Alice?"
I stared at him as he fell to the floor in a fit of laughter.
Carlisle and Esme watched him with disapproving looks.
Esme looked up at me at told me to ignore what he said, though she had an intrigued look in her eyes.
Carlisle's eyes matched hers and he voiced his curiosity.
"DO you feel the urge to go find Alice?"
I stared out at the trees.
Did I feel the urge to find Alice.
Well, there was that voice in my head going
Alice Alice Alice Alice Alice Alice.
I shook my head.
"Not at all. Why?"
Even as I spoke the words my eyes darted to the trees five times, a fact that didn't go unnoticed by Carlisle or Emmett, who laughed harder at my obvious lie.
Even Carlisle chuckled and Esme had a gleam in her eyes as she looked at me.
"Well, in any case, you're doing better than what's normal for a mated vampire, a newborn at that," Carlisle stated with a reassuring smile.
I nodded and looked to Emmett as he walked up to me.
As he approached Esme and Carlisle locked eyes with him, one silent conversation later I was left alone with the burly vampire.
He stood next to me for several minutes while I continued to stare out past the trees.
"When she first mated with me," Emmett turned to me and smiled, "I thought it was just sex."
I watched as his smile disappeared and slowly the boyish face I came to recognize in Emmett faded away. In front of me stood a man that was reliving a sad memory, something that tore at him even now, though it happened decades ago.
"See, I didn't know that vampires mated for life. I was still considered a newborn and I ran on instincts. On what I needed. And one thing I needed besides blood was sex."
I didn't know what to say. What was I supposed to think?
While I was human the topic of Emmett's and Rosalie's sex life was prone to several jokes, all good natured, but now as Emmett began talking, I had to wonder what caused their fervent lovemaking.
"When I woke up from my change, I knew that it had been Rosalie who brought me to Carlisle. I was bloodthirsty and eager to find the miracle elixir that would satiate the fire in my throat, my thoughts were a mess, and the only thing that made sense was Rosalie."
Emmett shifted slightly in place his hands deep in his pockets as he searched the trees as well.
"When I saw her, I knew I was alive because of her and my thoughts calmed down. I was still running off primal instincts and needs, but to a lesser degree. It took a few weeks until I was coherent enough to see that Rosalie was attracted to me. A few months and we were 'dating'."
A small smile began tugging at Emmett's lips before he broke out laughing.
" Our first date was a mess. I took her hunting, and thought I would impress her by hunting a bear," Emmett's laugh died down as he continued, "The thing was, I hadn't yet remembered, or asked what prompted Carlisle to change me. I didn't want to know, because I was afraid…When I went after that bear, I could have taken it down fast. Snap the neck and over with."
Emmett sighed and let himself fall into the snow.
"I wanted to impress Rose though. I approached the bear from the rear, rounded him and faced him, ready to roar at him. But he roared first, and I remembered everything from my attack. She ended up killing the bear as I stood frozen on the spot. I think I stood there for weeks on end."
I watched Emmett as he layed on the snow, his pale skin had snowflakes on it, making it sparkle with an effect somewhat like when they were in the sun, only dimmer.
"She sat there with me. Then one day she slapped me," Emmett laughed, "I glared at her, ready to attack her," He turned to me, "I was still technically a newborn, right? So I wanted to attack. She saw this and kissed me. It was our first kiss, and it progressed from there."
Emmett had the grin I grew to recognize whenever he was talking about anything sexual in nature.
"The problem was, I didn't know about mating, I didn't know she was giving me her soul. I was too focused on the sex and not the love she was showing me. When we finished she knew that it wasn't the same experience for me. She didn't talk to me for days. The whole time though, I felt a pull towards her. Something that overrode my need for blood. I felt incomplete."
I watched him as he turned knowing eyes on me.
"I'm sure you feel the same."
I nodded slowly.
"I'm not sure what I'm feeling though."
Emmett stared at me with sad eyes.
"You said mind over matter. You're doing what you did when you were human, thinking, analyzing…all that stuff right?"
I nodded.
"Not purposely. My head, its just endless thoughts. I feel overwhelmed."
Emmett laughed.
"That goes away a bit after a while. But your way of thinking was brought over from your human life."
"I don't mean to sound cold, but what was the point of you telling me this?"
Emmett stood and shook the snow off his body.
"You're not feeling it. But Alice is. She's in pain. Rejected by her chosen mate."
"I didn't reject her!"
"But that's what it feels like for her."
I stared at my feet as he studied me.
"Being rejected by your mate is the most awful thing you will ever feel. Alice is downplaying it very well."
Emmett chuckled.
"Rosalie, well let me just say, there was a house, it was just demolished. I just wanted you to know that it is hurting her."
I nodded slowly in understanding.
"Wait, what did Rosalie say about choice?"
Emmett seemed to stumble with his thoughts for a moment.
"Well we had talked about it, and well, we weren't sure if Alice was your mate and we thought it'd be good if you had a time to choose whether or not to pursue a relationship with her."
He rubbed his neck as he spoke.
"Well, that's out of the question now isn't it?"
He glanced at my bite mark and Emmett's characteristic grin returned.
"I never heard of a vampire mating by biting. I didn't know Alice was into that stuff."
He laughed at the face I made, and I just shook my head as his meaning sank in.
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Bella turned her head when she heard the sound of snow crunching.
She watched as a somewhat angered Rosalie walked towards them with a bashful looking Alice.
Rosalie walked up to Emmett, a look was shared between them and they both disappeared into the unfinished house.
Bella turned to Alice, who was standing several feet away watching her apologetically.
"Are you okay," Bella asked and unconsciously scanned Alice's body for any injuries.
Bella in turn did not fail to notice that Alice kept glancing at the bite mark on her neck.
"I am sorry," Alice sighed.
Bella shook her head and walked towards Alice.
"This doesn't affect me in the same way. I'm the one that's sorry for what you're going through."
Alice looked away from Bella as the words left her mouth, and Bella noticed the pain that flashed in Alice's eyes.
"It doesn't affect you how it affects me," Alice whispered.
Bella had to strain to hear the words and she knew that Alice was talking more to herself than to her.
"Oh God, I am sorry!"
Alice collapsed to the floor, sobbing uncontrollably.
Bella went to the shaking girl and knelt beside her.
"Alice, what are you sorry about?"
Alice sobbed out an answer and Bella froze on the spot.
"Alice, that makes no sense. We'll talk to Carlisle about this, see what he says."
Alice nodded her head, but clung to Bella as she began to pull away.
Bella sighed and gently kissed Alice on the forehead.
"Come on Alice, I know what will cheer you up."
Alice looked up at Bella, curiosity flashing in her eyes.
Bella smiled when she saw Alice go into a vision and a smile spread across her face.
"You're actually going to help me shop?"
Bella nodded at Alice.
"Well you'll need to decorate everyone's room, and plan out Jasper's and Leah's room."
Alice's eyes darkened at the mention of Leah.
Bella felt an inkling of pride as she watched Alice's reaction, but she quickly dismissed it.
"Leah and Jasper are…together now Alice. What you saw was two friends have a friendly spat."
Realizing her reaction to Leah's name Alice looked away from Bella and murmured a quiet apology.
Bella smiled at her and shook her head, "It doesn't matter. So are you going to go help Emmett redesign Jasper's room now that you know his mate's a werewolf?"
A small smile appeared on Alice's face and she nodded.
"And our date?"
Bella didn't fail to notice the uncertainty in Alice's voice.
"When the house is finished, and Leah and Jasper are settled in we will go on our date."
Alice nodded, and Bella saw that she still needed reassurance.
"In the meantime, we should restart our friendship."
Alice stared at Bella confused.
"I'm kind of fuzzy on my human life."
Alice looked shocked and hurt at hearing the information.
"Our times together?" Alice whispered.
Bella shook her head.
Alice sucked in a sharp breath.
"I like it better this way," Bella said.
"Why?"
"We can start without any weirdness."
Alice smiled and giggled.
"So we're going to restart our friendship?"
Bella nodded.
Alice extended her hand.
"Hi, I'm Alice Cullen, and we're going to be great friends."
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