A/N: Thanks again for reading and letting me know what you think! Okay, this is rated M. I repeat: rated M. And it's one scene long but it took me a while to write it so I hope I don't disappoint anyone. RATED M! lol
Enjoy!
In the silence that surrounded him something urged at him to move. The comfortable darkness that he'd been drifting in and partly out of was starting to fade as soft noises broke through the emptiness around him. It was then that he felt a warm weight against him. Then he felt that warm weight move against him, urging him to do the same.
His mind was momentarily confused as he tried to open his heavy eyelids. Failing to get his eyes to cooperate, he got his arm--which was pinned between him and the solid warmth--up and curiously trailed his fingers up a clothed arm and into a tangle mess of hair.
What the...?
Bobby managed to open an eye and peered down at the sight before him. The warmth that was pressed fully against him and struggling to stay with him on the couch was Alex. As his mind finally snapped partly awake, she shifted against him again, this time more forcibly; he instantly wrapped his arm around her and pulled her with him as he shifted until he was stuck between the back of the couch and Alex's body.
She chose that moment to break out of her frustrated sleep and stare up at him. At the revealing of those light and sleepy brown eyes, Bobby's breath hitched. The sun was pouring through the window above them; the bright rays seemed to latch onto her and made her glow in his shaded arms. He couldn't dream of a more beautiful image to wake up to.
"You okay?" Bobby hastily asked as he let out the breath he'd been holding; his mind was still foggy causing his voice to sound thick and slurred.
Alex continued to look up at him; she appeared to be still stuck somewhere between dreamland and his arms. "Fine; felt like I was falling."
The edges of his lips threatened to twist up at the sound of her sleepy voice. It was softer and sounded more real, vulnerable, and very, very sexy. "I thought you were; sorry, 'm not used to sharing my couch."
A lazy smile spread on her makeup-smeared face as she closed her eyes. "You caught me."
Bobby shifted, trying to bury himself further into her before she was fully awake and kicked him off the couch. His arm wrapped tighter around her as he rested his chin on the top of her head and breathed in her scent. "Won't let you fall," he mumbled as his heavily tired mind started to drift.
Those were the last words he remembered hearing or speaking as he wrapped himself in her warmth like it was a blanket. He drifted in her comfort of her body next to his until he felt a coldness attack his chest. Groaning in frustration, he reached out to grab on to her and pull her back to him when he felt empty air around his hand and cool leather under his fingers.
His eyes flew open to be staring at his television, which was still on and turned down. Worry and panic gripped him as he searched the living room for Alex. She wasn't anywhere near him. Where'd she go? She didn't get up and leave did she?
Bobby stumbled off the couch and looked into the kitchen. Empty. Turning toward the door, he spotted that it was still locked so Alex couldn't have left. There was only on other place she could be. He turned and headed down the hallway but he immediately realized that she wasn't in the bathroom either. The door was open and the light was off.
At the end of the hallway he stared confusingly at his slightly closed bedroom door and hesitantly walked toward it. Pushing the door slowly open, he stilled. Alex was curled up in his bed, blanket pulled up over her head, and was fast asleep. He stood inside the door watching her as a mixture of emotions clouded his already confused mind. Struggling with his internal debate about whether to join her or not, he figured she came in there to either get away from him or...
He blinked back as that was the only conclusion he could come up with. Alex wanted to be alone, away from him, and he'd respect that. As he turned to leave and shut the door behind him, he heard her soft voice behind him.
"I'm not hogging the bed."
Bobby turned back and looked at her. Alex's eyes were still closed and she looked peaceful and asleep. "You look...comfortable."
"I am. I was getting cold and...you're big."
Bobby felt the blush of embarrassment creep up his neck as he stared at the woman who still appeared to be asleep but obviously wasn't.
"You're not mad--?"
"No," he quickly reassured her.
Alex suddenly opened her eyes, peering over at him. She reached out with an arm and lightly tapped the other side of the bed. "Your bed, join me."
Bobby had to smile at the sudden mumbling voice that slurred out of her mouth. She was not as awake as he thought she was. "You sure?"
She didn't move for a moment and then she lifted the blanket like an offering to him to slip in under it with her. "C'mon."
Bobby slowly made his way over to her. He didn't know why but even though it was his bed, with Alex resting in it, it seemed like it was hers. That he was intruding, and it twisted a familiar yet dangerous spark in him as he slipped under the blanket and eased down into his pillow. It felt so good to be laying in his bed and even better when Alex returned that warm presence to his chest as she curled against him.
He could sleep just like that all day until he had to show up to the club at that evening. Glancing at the clock on his nightstand he saw that he had seven to eight hours before he had to be up. Wrapping an protective arm around Alex, wishing her to never leave him feeling that cold again as she did when she abandoned him on the couch, he sighed deeply, relishing in the feel of her. "This okay?"
Alex nodded in his chest and relaxed against him; her arm slid out from between them and sneaked under his arm and around his waist. "Mmmm," she hummed against him.
Her hot breathing and deep rumbled moan sung in his ears, clenching his heart and stirring an arousal in him so deep he was barely able to control himself. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea. Alex had to feel safe and comfortable with him to let him in this close, to be this intimate, and he was not about to ruin that again by acting on his stupid male impulses.
Closing his eyes and trying to force the whirling butterflies and tugging tightness between his legs, he was unaware of Alex's eyes opening. Nor the fact that she was watching him with the same untamed control and warring feelings as him.
Thinking he had won his battle between what nature intended and his conscious, Bobby opened his eyes. He felt her watching him and when he looked down, all his control broke at the smothering heat that radiated from her eyes.
Alex watched him for a few more seconds with questioning eyes; just as he thought that she was going to snap out of it and actually abandon him by leaving his apartment, she shifted up against him. He watched her eyes close as her lips covered his.
Her lips fit perfect against his; they were soft and wanting as they pressed harder against his, urging for something more. The need he felt pour into him from those lips gripped him by surprise. He knew that he wanted her, had for a long time now, but he had no idea that she wanted him just as badly, and that dissolved any control he had left. There would be no second-guessing, no backing out of this. They were there together and he wasn't going to let her go, not until he had her, all of her. Not until he gave her all of him.
Needing to taste more of her, he teased her bottom lip with his tongue until she parted her lips, letting him slip in. After one second of slipping into her hot wet mouth he knew he wanted to stay there forever; tasting, drinking, and resting in that talented mouth that filled every want and need he ever had.
Rolling Alex onto her back, he deepened the kiss with his tongue and groaned as her hands caressed his neck and smoothed down his back. Trying to keep as much of his weight off her as possible, he settled his right arm under her head, leaning all his weight on it; his left hand began to explore the curves under her shirt.
Even with the soft moans and playful teasing of her nails and fingers along his back, Bobby had to make sure she really wanted this, wanted him. He had to know what she was thinking and he was kicking himself for being so concerned and worried. Why couldn't he just be like any normal man and give into his desire for this woman? Instead, he broke the kiss and stared at her eyes until they opened.
Alex smiled suggestively at him and he was struggling to not strip down right then and finish them off hard and fast. "Hey."
"Hey," he huskily breathed back. Bobby searched her eyes and saw no regret or any indication that she was wanting to back out. "I, uh...was just wondering..."
Alex leaned up and kissed him, letting her lips linger on his before pulling back. And as if she could read his mind, she eased his worries by saying, "It's okay. I want this."
She started kissing him again; they were short, soft peeks that echoed in his ears and seemed to ease him even more; but his mind still wouldn't shut up. "What're we doing, exactly?" He managed to ask between kisses.
"We're kissing."
Bobby chuckled against her mouth and breathed out deeply into her neck before he pulled away. God, why couldn't he just stop talking and make love to her already! He groaned at his sudden warring body and rested his head on her chest. When he lifted his head to look at her, he saw the concern in her eyes. "I..."
Alex stared down at him as her arms slid off his back. Her hands gripped his shoulders. "Stop it."
Bobby frowned at her. "Stop what?"
"Thinking." Alex urged him up until he obeyed. Once he was hovering over her once more, she told him, "Stop worrying. Forget about everything else, okay?" Then she pulled him down for a kiss that caused the pleasure that filled him to ignite on fire.
"God, Alex." Bobby felt himself melt into her welcoming embrace as his mind finally gave into his body's demand for the woman under him.
Her body felt like it was smothering with heat as it quivered under his curiously roaming fingertips. Releasing the home he had found in her mouth, he followed the imaginary trail his fingers were leaving with his equally curious tongue. He started with her neck, licking the salty skin and sucking at spots that made her body tremble.
"Mm, so good," her voice was thick with lust and want; it was encouraging, urging him onward and downward.
His fingers once again teased over her breast as his thumb rubbed at the nipple under her shirt. The feel of cloth was starting to push at his nerves. Abruptly abandoning her body, making Alex groan, he reached down and gripped the edge of her shirt. "Off."
She didn't hesitate to set up, reach down, and yank the unwanted fabric over her head. He stared at the newly exposed skin and the heat that reddened over her chest, neck, and face. The tightness that was getting hard to hide behind his jeans was threatening to burst as his eyes traveled the length of her body.
Alex's hands suddenly reached out and gripped his shirt and tugged up; lifting his arms, he let her undress him, exposing his chest. She studied him for a long moment, making him squirm under her analyzing gaze, before her lips kissed over his chest as her fingers skidded over his nipples, inflaming his skin. Pushing herself up, she rubbed her body against his as she wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him hard and deep.
He held her body against his as they deepened the kiss, letting his hands stroke over her smooth back and up to the bra strap. Easing the bra off, he settled her back down on his bed. Alex bucked and gasped as he captured a nipple in his mouth and began sucking, licking, and then biting.
"Bobby," she nearly screamed as his teeth nipped at her.
He couldn't help the chuckle that rippled through him at the sight of her squirming under him. "Too much?" Bobby asked as he released one breast before starting on the other.
"Oh...God no...not enough."
Bobby glared up at her and caught the teasing smile that played on her swollen lips. As he attacked her other breast, he teased a hand down to the waistband of her pants. He rubbed a thumb in slow circles over her hip at the same time he circled her nipple with his tongue.
"Bobby," she groaned in frustration. "Stop teasing."
He smiled up at her as he slipped his hand lower, over a patch of curls, and parted his fingers to run in-between and around the folds that were already wet with want. Whatever Alex was going to say next was lost in a strangled groan that escaped her throat.
Kissing his way up her chest, stopping for a moment to torment a spot on her neck that made her buck into his hand, Bobby recaptured her swollen red lips and slipped his tongue back home in her mouth as two fingers slipped into her. He swallowed the scream of his name as he prepared her, knowing it had probably been a long time since she had sex.
The sudden need to want to taste her overwhelmed him as he abruptly pulled away from her. He used the hand he'd been caressing her breast with to unfasten her jeans and pull them down, taking her panties along with them.
As soon as he removed his fingers he replaced the empty void with his tongue, drinking in the juices that she gave to him. Letting his tongue find a new home in the depths of her, he breathed her scent in deeply; he was mesmerized by the sweet intoxication of her and how it made him even harder.
"Want you," Alex's voice was rushed through panting moans. "...now, Bobby, please," she pleaded with him with a silky rumble that stirred the excitement in his tightening stomach.
Removing his tongue, he breathed in the sweetness of her depths one last time. As he worked on unbuttoning his own jeans, he kissed over the bundle of nerves that sent her squirming and gripping the sheets in clenching fists.
"Bobby," she yelled as he sucked hard at the nerves before flicking his tongue gently over it. "Jesus...please...plea--" Her voice broke in a strangled sob as he eased up over her and filled her completely in one swift motion.
Bobby felt his chest tighten as his breath nearly choked him. She welcomed him completely, surrounding him with her wet warm walls with so much pleasure he lost all sense of self. He was in her, one with her, and she was all he felt.
He could live in her for the rest of his life if she let him. In all the times he had been with a woman, he never felt more at home than he did with her. She felt safe and wanting, welcoming and familiar. "Alex," he finally groaned as he got his voice back. "You feel so good...so wonderful."
Gripping her quivering thigh and pulling her leg around his waist, he thrust slowly in her, watching her straighten tall under him as he filled her again, and again. She had yet to open her eyes, lost in the sensations that were threatening to explode at any moment.
"Alex, honey, look at me," Bobby pleaded as he stared down at her clenched eyelids. She slowly opened her eyes and he lost himself in the nearly black storming orbs. "You're...beautiful; absolutely amazing."
He then sank his hot tongue back into her panting-parted mouth as he they found a steady rhythm, trying to make it last when they both wanted nothing more than to give into the ecstasy of release. In the minutes that followed, he couldn't hear anything except his pulse pounding in his ears and their breathing as they quickened their pace. Alex's moans and pleas filled his ears, begging him to take her harder, faster.
He obeyed; he would give her anything she wanted. Driving harder, faster, and deeper into her, Bobby felt the painful tightening deep within him as Alex's body convulsed up into him. With nails digging into his flesh, she choked back a scream before his name spilled from her trembling lips.
Taking one last deep thrust into her body, Bobby emptied himself as a soft cry of pleasure escaped his clenched throat. As Alex's body shuddered under him, his body stilled and shook as her walls clenched, holding him captive within her; he hoped she would near let him go. "Oh...Alex," he breathed out against her sweaty neck. There was more he wanted to say but he couldn't get his mouth to work except to kiss that warm neck.
He never felt so satisfied as he did right then. It was an amazing feeling of complete happiness, and Alex was the reason for it. "Alex, honey," he whispered against her skin, letting his warm breath make her shiver.
As his kissing lips found their way around her neck and up to her lips, Alex wrapped her arms tight around him. "Stay?" she asked him.
Bobby felt his heart threaten to burst at that. He had no intention of moving. No intention of separating them any time soon. "I'll stay as long as you want me." Even though he was spent, he was still full inside her and she was still open to him.
Hands traced soothing patterns up his lax, sweaty back and into his hair, easing him to relaxation.
"Thank you," Alex whispered into the room. "That was...worth the wait."
Bobby shifted his body until he was able to rest his chin on her chest. If he thought Alex was stunning before, lost in the realms of pleasure and ecstasy, then she was a breath-taking Goddess just then. She was completely at ease, sweat glistened her face with an angelic glow with her hair a mess over the pillow under her, and her eyes were so soft, full of love and happiness...It broke his heart.
She broke his heart.
"The wait?" Bobby had assumed that she hadn't been with another man since her husband.
Alex smiled warmly at him. "Been two years, not since..."
Bobby bent his head down and kissed her chest, right over her heart. "I should be thanking you." He looked up at her as he rested his head back down on her chest, feeling her breathing slow and her pulse return to a steady beat. "You're an amazing woman, Alex, I feel privileged."
Alex studied him for a couple of long moments. He took that opportunity to close his eyes and take every sensation in; the feel of her smooth skin meshing with his, the feel of her fingertips as they continued to map his back and caress through his hair, the taste of her that lingered on his tongue and lips, and the distinct smell of her and him mixing with the musky scent of sex.
He buried his face into her chest, between her two swollen breasts, and breathed in deeply. He never wanted to forget what they smelt like together. Her chest rumbled under him as she chuckled softly. Peering up at her, he questioned her with his eyes.
Alex was still chuckling as she pulled him up to her. "I've never had anyone sniff me before, ever."
"That good, or horribly bad?"
Alex tilted her head up and kissed him before saying, "I don't know; what do I smell like?"
Bobby stared down into her light brown eyes and tried to voice what her smell did to him. Yeah, he was obsessed with smells, with scents; she was the best thing he ever had the privilege of breathing in. He was weird in that sense, but he didn't care. When his mind kept going back to one word, he took a deep breath and seriously said, "Hallelujah." Then he leaned down and kissed her lightly on the lips.
Alex grinned into his lips as she said, "Then I'll say that it's a very good thing."
Bobby smiled at that revelation before they spent the next long minutes lazily kissing each other. So far, that day was perfect. She was perfect, and he felt perfect with her.
And that was how he knew that it would end. He didn't just mean it'd end when they would eventually have to get up, get cleaned up and dressed, and then go to work. It would end for good. If not sooner than later, after the job was done. They wouldn't last and that was why he made himself memorize everything now. He burned that morning into his thoughts: her voice, her touch, her kisses and the taste of her tongue, the taste of her juices and of her skin, and her smell.
He never wanted to forget Alex, the only woman who had ever made him this happy. Who made him forget failed past relationships and made him believe that maybe he could be satisfied with her for the rest of his life. In the few days they'd known each other, she made him believe that love was possible.
That he could love one woman in this life and even beyond death.
All that scared him, made him tremble as Alex rubbed over the back of his neck and down his back. It was wrong to have these thoughts of their goodbye while they were still buried in each other.
Pulling away, Bobby waited until she opened her eyes before asking the question that he'd been struggling with. "I gotta ask...and I want you to be honest."
Alex's hands stilled for a moment before she nodded and started to trace fingers over his tightening muscles.
Bobby kissed her again before staring back down at her. "This...what's going on between us; what is it?"
Alex shifted under him as she stared into his eyes. There was a war raging there, probably the same that was going on in his head.
"No matter what you say, I'm right here. I won't...I'll never leave you if-if you don't want me to." He was honest with her, like he would always be. Bobby never wanted to lie to her, to betray the trust they'd built between them. He wanted to be with her, no matter how.
Alex finally nodded before she took a breath. "I...I don't want anything serious right now. And, I value our friendship, Bobby. I don't want to lose that."
Bobby knew that was coming, and even though it hurt, it was the best thing he could've hoped for. It was for the best, in the long run. "Me too. Then, we're still friends. And this...it's, what it is and..."
Alex wrapped her arms around him and pulled him down to her. "It was amazing, wonderful, and I'll never forget it, or want to."
Bobby closed his eyes as he felt the trembling emotion that filled her as she spoke those words. It was the same emotions he felt that made him tremble under her touch. They both wanted more but knew it wasn't possible. "Neither do I." After taking a second to debate over the next words that wanted to spill from his mouth, he spoke into her neck, "Love you, Alex."
Her hands stilled and Bobby suddenly wished she hadn't heard him but maybe glass breaking or something. What a thing to wish for after you tell someone that you loved them: a burglary. Alex urged him to move over onto his side; they settled on their sides, facing each other.
She stared up into his eyes until she was satisfied with what she saw. "Love you too, Bobby," she simply told him.
Those words soared in him; Bobby leaned down and kissed her on her forehead before wrapping his arms around her body, holding her close. She pulled the blankets up and covered them with it before easing into him.
It wasn't long before they both drifted into a peaceful sleep.
TBC...