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Ch 11: Old self

"Elly? Elly wake up." It was a familiar voice... But who was Elly? "Damnit... Why'd I think she woke up." Jill stayed motionless. The voice sounded strained, tight. "Elly I'm sorry... It was my fault that you got hurt, it was my fault that you were left behind, and its my fault for that damned rocket. Don't leave me, please, after all this time you've been with me in some way. I can't lose you."

"Sir..."

"Yes nurse?" The voice was dispairing.

"You've been here for two days. Leave, get some sleep alright? I checked, you're in the next operation. You need to be rested or she won't have anyone to come back to."

"I can't leave her. She never abandoned me, and I'll be damned before I leave her alone!"

"This is an order from the hospital staff, get out."

"No."

There was some scuffling afterward someone trying to get the tight-voiced man out of his seat beside her. After a muffled curse the nurse left without a word. Jill felt a hand close around hers. "Just hang in there Elly."

As interesting as everything was, Jill was still in fact battered and sleepy. Without opening her eyes she drifted easily into sleep.

A voice startled her into awareness, "Kagi," that name! "Come on, lets go, we have a sortie tomarrow. You need sleep."

"No, I... I'll sleep here if I have to sleep."

Steps to the where the door must have been meant that she and he were alone again. After a bit he laid his head on the side of her bed, his hair spilled onto her arm.

Jill waited again, eventually his breathing was shallow and regular. She risked barely opening one eye, she scanned the room for a camera, still when she couldn't see anything she opened them all the way and looked around.

It was a bare utilitarian type hospital room, the bed and sheets were soft though. Something glimmered to her left, a bit of blue was in the person's hand. Kagi. She reached over and tried to pry apart his fingers, it was a sapphire, but she couldn't get his grip off it.

Kagi himself had light brown hair, it was probably usually shaggy but it was horrible at the moment. A sign that he really had been here for a while. His head was slightly to the side so she bent her head to look at his face. It was one to match his body, which was rather nicely toned. Handsome features, not quite an Adonis, but attractive. Her heart fluttered once before she remembered just how men act. Disgusting creatures.

Then she remembered who Kagi was! He's the one I'm supposed to take out! Damn, how could I forget? Fine, if I kill him here and then worry about getting away I'll have at least completed my duty.

A butter knife was left from some meal they had served him, she grabbed it, noticing thick, dark bruises across her arm. She held the knife under-handed and slid the gleaming metal under his chin. The steel touched his skin; his eyes shot open. "Elly?" he croaked.

Instantly Jill's hands shot out and held the back of his neck, pressing the blade against his throat. "Who, might I ask, is Elly?" Confusing moron, why does he think I'm this girl? Probably the person he beats around at home...

"Y...You are."

"My name is Jill, thank you." She put more pressure with the knife.

"No," the pressure was starting to affect his voice, "you're Elhaym, you got left behind in a raid and I guess captured. Please, you're Elly; you know you are."

Elly? It seems so familiar, and Kagi too. Maybe... maybe he's... Her thoughts began to wander into the dark cloud of her past. No! A voice shouted inside her. A voice... tainted with pain? Dripping with the threat of agony. She winced. The knife faultered.

Kagi knocked it onto the ground, "are you alright?" he asked quickly.

"My... I'm Jill, my name is Jill. I'm from," Mar Sara, "Mar Sara. I entered the Confederate military marine corps," seven months, "seven months ago. And I... I..." Jill clutched her head. "What is telling me these things. People don't think like this!"

Kagi's hand gripped hers, the warm hand felt comforting. Vile, she thought. Disturbing, not comforting.

"What's wrong? Tell me, I'll help."

"I... a voice keeps talking in my head, its telling me what to say. Automatically."

"They conditioned you? Hellfires, listen, you are Elly understand?"

Elly sounds so familiar, its... is it me? Someone, its definatly someone. She thought back to her past, that shrouded past. The dark clouds thats yelled pain back at her. She shivered at it. But continued looking deeper. Partial memories of agony, lashes of bright red pain on her back. Bruises and pain. Thats what her past was now, just pain.

"I can't think, it, my past is just pain."

"They linked your concept of past to pain? Damn."

"Elly you have to fight this alright?" Kagi encouraged from her bedside.

"I... I can't, don't make me, it hurts," Jill had her hands on her head, holding her throbbing brain.

"Think, you can do it, I know you can!"

Tears began to stream down Jill's face. "I can't," she whispered hoarsely.

Damn, I know she can, this is Elly, she doesn't give up but... its hurting her so much. Kagi tightend his grip on her hand, Jill pulled her hand away entirely. Why am I pushing her like this? he thought. Her face was twisted with so much pain he hurt, so I can have her back?

Thats right, they had finally gotten together right before she was lost. Here she was again, a different person. Would she really want it this badly? To go through all of this for me? He could ask her...

"El... Jill," she looked up at him hearing her name, "if you had forgotten someone you loved, would it be worth going through this to remember them?"

"No, I... don't think so." Not unless I really loved them..., she thought.

"I see," that left him with one thing to do. "Will you trust me? You've seen what the Confederacy has done to you, and we used to... to be friends."

Jill nodded quickly.

"Which name would you rather me call you by? Elly?" she winced, "or Jill?"

"Jill, please. But also, who was I before that happened to me?"

She must be in really bad condition... "Jill, you were part of the Confederate army, but they left you, me, and our entire force for dead on a doomed planet overrun with Zerg. So we asked for help, and the Sons of Korhal saved us."

"Thats a lie!" she spat.

"What!"

"The Sons of Korhal would never help anyone, those crooked bastards need to be elimanated!"

"Listen to yourself! Do you really believe that?"

"I... don't know? Do I? Something tells me to believe it, and something tells me not to..."

Kagi spent the next seven hours of the night helping Jill through the nightmare of jumbled thoughts and responses in her own mind.

"Kagi?"

A nurse had walked in a few minutes after they had finished most of the pressing issues. "Yes nurse?" he croaked hoarsely.

"Kagi," she clicked her tongue, "I told you to get some sleep! I don't want to be operating on your broken ass later!" They had gotten to know eachother during his stay. A rather quick friendship had formed.

"Is it time for me to get moving then?"

"Its time for you to get moving alright, moving out. Get your ass suited up, you're late."

Kagi twisted and spotted the digital clock behind him, she was right, he had seven minutes to suit up and report. "Crap..."

He was out the door, down the hall, and in the soldier's quarters within thirty seconds. He flashed an ID card to his door and scrambled in, grabbing his combat-suit and trying to suit up as fast as he could.

"Man," it was Vincent, already in his gear, "I was about to leave without you. How's Elly?"

"Better," he grunted; closing the casings, "she woke up, but... shes not Elly anymore. She's Jill."

"Jill?" Vincent sounded damned well confused.

"Confederates fucked with her head, she doesn't know who she was, I spent all night getting her loyalties back on our side, maybe she won't hold the nurse up and slit her own throat while we're out there."

The last piece snapped into place, he grabbed his gauss rifle and headed out the door, Vincent on his heels.

"Holy hell, I'm going with you when we get back... ah... if we get back, you know what I mean?"

"Yeah," they turned the last corner into the dry-docks, transports had started loading.

"Where the hell have you two been?" An officer shouted.

Vincent smirked at him, "getting us a fine piece of ass, what else?" Kagi couldn't help but let out one stranggled laugh.

"From who? Each other!"

Both started laughing, but the situation and dumb joke made Kagi fall over face first. He couldn't stop laughing, really couldn't. Vincent had dragged him to his feet, and he was still doubled over laughing when he realized a tear had dropped onto the face shield. Then another, followed by others. The short airy laughs had turned into slightly higher pitched and more throaty sobs. Vincent got him sat down before he realized that it had changed, he didn't say a word though; the black sun visor had come down, no one could see Kagi's face, and Vincent was the only one to figure out that he wasn't laughing.

"Whats got into him?" one soldier asked?

"Sarge called us gay," Vincent answered immediatly.

"Yeah right," someone else spoke up.

"Ha, yeah, it would make a lot of men happy though!"

"Only us military dogs, and besides, they'd break a lot of hearts."

The banter went on the whole ride about gay, straight, and bi; Vincent and Kagi being the key example.

When they had landed Kagi raised his visor, he looked fine again. A steeled look on his face, ready for the war they were fighting.

"I missed the brief," he asked into Vincent's comm, "busy with E...Jill, fill me in?"

"Right, well we made one of those Psi Emitter things, and theres an Confederate outpost that needs to disappear. Basically we need to clear the way East of here and set it up in their base. Fighting's been going on for a while, we're reinforcements. As far as I understand-" he was cut off by a broadcast comm transmission.

"All new troops andalpha squadreport to point beta, point beta."

They searched their HUD a moment and jogged off.

"Lock and load eh?"

Alright! Next chapter up, and the one after is on its way. Ha! Prom was this weekend, prom is not my thing, not my thing at all. All the dress up, feel like I'm in a monkey suit. Well anyway, my date and I had fun, and I'm thankful to have said date. She's another author on here, but I dont think I'll disclose who; anyway, Review! E-mail me with suggestions, whatever! Just let me get some feedback to know its being read eh?