SM owns it all … I just like to play with her toys …
Just so you know. THaTH starts in August 2004.
*Lemon Alert*
If you don't like them then skip TODAY (JPOV) section!
The last time … We ended with …
Jasper bent his head to mine. Placed a feather light kiss upon my lips and said, "Night Darlin'."
And that's the last thing I remember until I woke up the next afternoon…..
Chapter 11(BPOV)
To say that the last several days haven't been eventful, is like saying the Titanic hit an ice cube. My life has gone from just weird to completely crazy. I moved back here to Forks nine days ago. In those nine days, I've moved twice. Found my vampire Mate. My Mom has come up missing. My Dad has gone off to California, in hopes of finding a lead on her. I found my long lost Grandfather, oh ya, who just happen to be an elf and a King. The list just keeps going and going…
*Six Days Ago*
Monday, August 23rd, 2004
I'd fallen to sleep on Jasper's lap last night, after the longest day of my life. And I'd woken up in a beautiful bedroom. Its walls are painted gray, and of all the accents were done in a bright teal green color or black. It had one whole wall of nothing but windows. Those windows over look to the river and forest, that runs behind the Cullen's home.
The wall to the right of this massive black wrought iron slay bed was nothing but bookshelves. Those black selves held both hard cover and my favorite soft covered books. There were pictures and a few knick knacks scattered around as well.
The wall at the foot of the bed held two black painted doors, one on either side of a gorgeous black antique desk. On the top of the desk was a brand new Apple Mac Book laptop. And a Bose sound docking system that my I-pod was already hooked to. Above it hung a 46' flat screen TV.
To the left side of the bed, there were Cullen's family pictures on one side. And my family pictures on the other. They were hung on either side of the two huge black double entry doors that were in the middle.
There was a chair and ottoman in one corner. The fabric that covered the bedding and curtains also covered the chair. The silk material was in a black and white floral pattern. If I ever designed a bedroom just for me, this would be it. I thought. As I got out of bed to handle my morning needs.
I'd opened the door to the left thinking it was bathroom. Nope. It was the closet filled with so many clothes and shoes. It looked like a designer's warehouse had puked in it. I shut that door, and walked to the right side door to find the most extravagant bathroom. As I took care of my morning needs. I noticed the huge claw foot tub, the vast shower stall, and a marbled top double sink. This bath was the size of Charlie's whole top floor at home.
I walked back out of the bathroom. Alice the hyper queen herself pounced on me. She'd laid out a clean outfit for me, and said that Charlie was up and needed to talk. That Esme was busy making breakfast for us 'eaters' and that I needed to get a move on it.
At breakfast I'd learned the plans. That Carlisle, Marcus, Billy, and my Dad had made. They were all going to California in hopes of finding some missing clue. To help us locate my Mom. I'd begged them to let me go with them but I got turned down flat by Dad. He said 'that we weren't sure what we were dealing with. And until we did I'd be staying a safe distance from anywhere that he thought of as a crime scene.'
We really didn't know what had happen to Renee. I prayed that she wasn't harmed or that she hadn't abandoned me. But I got that weird feeling in the pit of stomach every time I thought about my mom.
My Dad and the others left six days ago. He calls daily. We talk a lot about the Aaron situation, my new classes with the Cullen's, and he brings up Jasper a lot.
It was decided before my Dad left. That Esme who has three different teaching degrees, would home school me until January at the earliest. With everything going on and for my safety and protection they wanted me under lock and key. We didn't know if this was a plot against either some enemies of either The Cullen's or The Bayne's. Or hell this could have been a weekend trip to Vegas, for all we knew about what really happened to Renee.
*Four Days ago*
Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
Turns out that room I mentioned before. It's mine. Alice, Rose, and Charlotte had all decorated right after the Cullen's had moved back in to the mansion. Now that Charlie was gone and with unknown and maybe no threat out there at all. Everyone thought it best that I move in with the Cullen's. To be watched twenty four seven by wide eyed, over hearing, and with a couple of them being completely annoying, vampires. That's mostly for Emmett and Alice. And let's not forget about my Grandfather. He was staying too.
I woke up this morning to the sounds of a little bell going off near my ear. I tried to ignore it and go back to sleep. So I rolled over and closed my eyes again. I was just on the cusp of falling back to sleep again. When I heard that damned bell sounded again. I rolled over and cracked my eyes. And saw a very amused Emmett looking down at me.
"It's your first day of your senior year. And you're going to over sleep. Tsk … Tsk … Tsk … I hope the teacher gives you a detention and makes you stay after school to clean the blackboards." He said as I stuck my tongue out at him. Blackboards they're now dry erase boards! Duh! I laughed mentally at Emmett.
"Listen here Emmett McCarty. I know for a fact that my first teacher likes me. And I bet he won't make me do any detentions after school." I said with as much convection as my voice would hold.
Jasper's my first teacher. School really isn't supposed to start until tomorrow. But there's a huge civil war reenactment near Olympia today and we're going to go and watch it together. Jasper was hopeful that it'll be accurate but he very much doubted that it would be.
"You know I really like having you here. You're funny when you wake up and you fall down all the time. And when you get mad or upset your skin turns the coolest shades of red. Then add the fact that you give out crap just as well as you take it. I say we keep you around if for nothing else for entertainment purposes." Emmett said. He was wearing his goofy grin and trying like hell to keep from laughing.
I pushed passed Emmett got up off the bed, and made my way to the bathroom before shutting the door. I turned around and said, "Listen here jackass if you make me late for my first dat... I mean first day of school. I'll have Rose kick your ass!"
"Did someone say somethin' about kickin' Em's ass? Cause I'd love to get in on that action." Peter said. As he waltzed into my room like he owned the place. He walked over to the side of the bed and sat down next to Emmett.
"Yep I did. Can you handle that for me?" I joked.
"Sure thin' sugar but I'd like to talk with ya first if you don't mind."
Peter and I've had a couple of chats during the last few days. Come to find out him and Charlotte; don't usually live with the Cullen's. They own their own home in Texas. It's set on the land that Jasper's family once owned when he was still human. Jasper, Charlotte, and Peter all owned it together now.
Peter had told me how Jasper and he had met one night back in the Thirties. Peter was in the military at the time and was on leave for a few days. He'd gone to Houston to meet some girl and ended up becoming Jasper's vampire child instead. He wouldn't say much about those first few years he'd spent with Jasper. But from what I've gathered from different conversations going on around me. They were in some type of a war together. They became best friends over time and when Peter found Charlotte. Jasper somehow let them leave the war without permission. A few years later Peter and Charlotte came back and dragged Jasper away with them.
Jasper only stayed with Peter and Char as I've started to call her, for a few years. Then he somehow managed to find the Cullen's. I heard something about Peter and Alice setting up a meeting between Jasper and Carlisle in Philadelphia or something to that effect. I'm hoping that today I'll get some better details from Mr. Whitlock.
I'd found out yesterday that the last names Cullen or Hale were just to help the vampire family keep up on their human façade. Jasper's real last is Whitlock just like Peter's. Peter didn't remember his real last name so he took on his maker's. They'd said that happened quite a bit with the vamps not remembering things after their changes.
"Sure Petey what do you want?" I asked I'd come to sit on the bed and took Emmett's spot after he'd left.
"I wanted to chat with ya about you and Jas. I know that you'll think I'm pryin' or somethin' but there are a couple of things that we need to talk about ok?" He paused as I nodded my head at him then he continued "I'm not meanin' to cause you any embarrassment but there's something's about being mated that you ain't heard about yet." Peter said as he looked me in the eye.
I knew that before we left the house today someone was going to be having this talk with me. But I thought it'd be Esme. Not Peter. OMG, I'm getting the Mating talk with a guy. EWWW! I thought. It's bad enough that I have to go through this shit but I know that every supe in this house is too. Not only am I receiving this shit but so are they. Oh God, vampire and elf hearing. Just let me die, please!
"This ain't any sex talk…. Well ok maybe it's a lil bit of a sex talk but hell girl you're a seventeen almost eighteen year old healthy young thin'. I'm sure you know all about sex anyways." said Peter, as he wiggled his eyebrows at me.
"Um... Yeah... Sure. So if this isn't about sex or not mostly about sex. Then what's up?"
I was trying to understand and comprehend most of this supernatural crap but I'll be damned if there wasn't a hell of a lot to learn.
"You understand that since you're mated to Jasper. That part a small part of his very soul resides inside of you. You also know that a small part of your soul belongs to him right?" I nodded my head so Peter would keep going "When a vampire is mated we're unable to harm their Mates. It's impossible for Jas to harm you…" I found I really liked Peter's nickname for Jasper so when we talked he'd used it all the time. "…You and Jas are a Mated pair but you aren't fully mated yet. For ya two to become fully mated you'll have to have sex…." I knew that my face was turning puce again, my eyes were bugging out of my head, and my mouth was hanging open. But what else was there for a girl to do?
"Durin' that first time Jasper will bite you Yes it'll hurt like hell. But there won't be any venom invalid…" I'd learned in the last few days that once a vampire bits. Their bloodlust usually takes over but that they don't always have to exchange their venom with the person they're biting… "He can't hurt ya because you're his Mate. For you to be changed into a vampire you'd have to ask him to change you or be in a bad condition. It's almost impossible for him to change you without your permission." Peter stopped talking and gave me a few minutes to process this shit. What about the damned treaty? I thought.
After I'd pulled my head out of my ass I said "You mean like….Oh God …. What about the treaty?" I was saying while shaking my head trying to clear it out.
"Calm down sugar... It's all natural and instinctual. His bite is just to show other supernatural's that you're his Mate. Like human fingerprints vampires teeth impressions are each different. Anyone and Everyone that see's that bite mark they'll know you belong to him and as far as the treaty goes. Well the wolves bite their imprints as well it's instinctual like I said." I hate needles how and the hell am I supposed to except this shit? Biting me, Sex, I'm a virgin for Pete's Sake. I stopped thinking when Peter wrapped his arm around my shoulder in a comforting manner.
"There's all type of mates. Take Carlisle and Esme they're Bonded Mates. Not only is Carlisle her Mate but he's also her maker. But most of us we're what are known as Orthodox Mates. That just means that we didn't create our mates. We found them after a time as I said earlier there are a lot of different types of mates out there. We'll teach you them as we come across them. Shhhh..." Peter was trying to calm me down. "It'll be ok Sug. Everythin' will work out Jasper cares more about you then anythin' else in this world. Shhhh... Just calm down now... Shhhh" Said Peter while patting and rubbing my back.
When I got up this morning I was only thinking about how much fun today was going to be. I was excited to be getting out of the house for a change. Don't get me wrong the mansion is gorgeous and has every amenity a person could ever ask for, but I needed a change of scenery in the worst way. Not to mention some alone time one on one with Jasper but now I'm scared. He can't hurt me he can't change me but I was now in information overload. It's just too much on top of everything else I thought.
"Go on now Go get your pretty ass cleaned up, and just take it one step at a time Ok Sug." He said as he released me from his hug and stepped out of my room.
I sat there on my bed just thinking. After sometime I finally got up and finished getting ready. I made my way to the kitchen and found Jasper making me breakfast again. He and Esme have been taking turns cooking for me. You ought to see the cooking schedule they have worked out. Jasper sat a plate of crepes filled with a creamy cheese mixture and fresh strawberries on top in front of me.
"Do ya need any whipped cream on them Darlin'? I bought some thinkin' you might like it." Jasper said just like Peter he wiggled his eyebrows at me. OSM I knew that everyone would've heard what Peter and I talked about. Fuck!
"No thank you." I said as I stared at my plate like it held the correct answers to my screwed up life. I heard Jasper laughing as he walked out of the kitchen and I started to eat.
"Hey Bella how was your breakfast?" Alice asked as I was washing up my breakfast dishes.
"It was wonderful of course. So while I and Jasper are gone for the day what are you and the other Cullen's going to do?"
When it was decided that I was staying home from school this semester Alice and Edward decided to stay home with me as well. They won't be studying with me but they planned on being my tutors. It was also decided that Jasper would teach me History. Esme got Economics. Alice is my new French teacher. Carlisle wanted to teach me Chemistry but until he returns Emmett and Rose will teach me. And Edward got the task of teaching me Algebra 2. I hate math he'll have his hands full with me. Esme thought that a music class might be nice. So Peter and Jasper are going to start my guitar lessons soon.
"Oh you know I thought I might check out the newest styles from my favorite designer's fall lines. There's still another month until fashion week in Malan and France. So online shopping will have to do for now." Alice shops like most of us blink. It just comes naturally to her.
She'd told me that thanks to her visions The Cullen's were set for money for at least the next five hundred years. Even if Alice never followed another finical vision again which she knew she wasn't likely to do.
"Alice since we've talked about your visions before. Umm…can you tell me why you can't just look out or whatever you are doing and find my mom?" I'd been wondering that since last Sunday but never found my nerve to ask her. I know that Alice or any of the others never really got offended when I'd asked a question. But sometimes I felt like I was an idiot for not knowing something's.
"Well I could see you before you were here because you've got a connection to Jasper. I see vampires best because I am one. I see human so, so because I was one once but I see the people I'm closest to the best. I've never met your mom and I've got only the vaguest of impressions of her. So I'm sorry but I can't see anything about her at all." Said Alice she seemed like she was upset with herself. She has her limitations she should quit riding herself so hard. I thought.
I heard Jasper coming back into the foyer. I knew that he was waiting for me but I couldn't leave with Alice upset like this so I said "Alice I didn't mean for you take my questions the wrong way. I wasn't blaming you I just wanted to know why you couldn't see her is all. Please don't get down on yourself about this." OSM I hate putting my foot in my mouth!
"I know that you've got to stop being so hard on yourself Bella. There has never been and there will never be a stupid question. We all just keep forgetting that you're so new to all of this. You run along now and have fun with Jasper…." She'd stopped talking and started giggling. I mean truly giggling like a thirteen year old girl. She giggled as she continued
"…I left you a small ... Giggle.. Gift inside the glove box but... Giggle.. don't open it until after the..Snort.. show." She finished saying as we walked out of the kitchen. When we walked by the stairs she took off running up them.
I walked up to Jasper he wrapped his arms around my waist pulled me to him tightly. Over the last few days we'd become more touchy feely with each other, and I was really starting to relax and enjoy the feel of his skin on mine. It amazed me how with just the simplest of his touches or the feel of his breath on my skin could make my body respond to him. It was like my body and his were made for each others, and with everything I now know I guess they were.
"Are you ready to go Darlin'? Do you have everythin'?" Jasper asked.
I had my digital camera, my cell phone, and a few bucks in my purse. "Yep."
We walked out the back door and towards the pole barn out back. I couldn't for the life of me call this monstrosity a garage. A garage is something you parked one car in. A double garage you parked two. This thing held every car that the Cullen's owned, and let me tell you this thing held a hell of a lot of cars. As my Dad would say, "This thing holds more cars than Carter has liver pills" whatever that means.
We walked up to the blue truck and Jasper opened my passenger side door. Once he's helped me in. He ran vampire fast to his side and got in himself. Once he'd got this thing roaring we pulled out of the pole barn and turned onto the Cullen's driveway. Jasper and I didn't talk much until we got on the interstate.
He did have the radio going a classic rock station was playing as we got onto I-5 south towards Olympia. We were heading to Turnwater Historical Park which is just south of Olympia. Jasper started talking about the different seating options we'd have once we got there. I watched as the beautiful scenery as it paced by my window. I was nervous after Peter and my talk earlier this morning my every nerve felt like a livewire.
Jasper stopped talking grabbed my hand and pulled me back from my worries by saying.
"For just today let the day be about just you and me. Let your worries go and just let this be a day of fun. There are so many wonderful things in the world that I want to show them to you. But I'm willin' to take things one step at a time. This is just our first date…" He started laughing and said "Even if you told Emmett it was your first day of school." He finished with his right eyebrow raised at me like a challenge.
"Yeah ... Yeah... I know I just didn't feel like putting up with anymore of his crap this morning. He'd ride me like a horse if I let him know that I'd thought of this as our first date." I said.
"Nope that's my job baby." Jasper said while laughing.
I wasn't sure what he was laughing at and I prayed that it was at me. What did I say that made him laugh like that? So I didn't say anything back I just sat there thinking.
God I love his laugh. You know how when some people laugh it just doesn't seem to suit their personality. Some people like to slap their knees without making any real sounds when they laugh. Others like to shout or bark out there laughs. Jasper's laughs were somewhere between a chuckle and sexiest damn chortle that I've ever heard. His laugh suited him to a T just like everything else about him it was perfect.
He sat there in the driver's seat while holding my hand. I sat there and just stared openly at him how this God of a man hasn't been snatched up and married before now was beyond me. Married? WTF, where did that one come from? I thought I was trying to hide
my feelings and that wasn't something that I could do easily with Jasper.
He'd told the other day that just like Edward couldn't read my thoughts. He'd sometimes had trouble locking onto my feelings. That if I'd thought hard enough about not wanting him to feel my emotions I could sometimes block him and pull it off somehow. He didn't seem as if he liked that idea but I sure as hell did. I loved the fact that my thoughts and sometimes my emotions are private.
As I was sitting here thinking I noticed how Jas was looking at me out of the corner of his butterscotch eyes again. He has a shit eating grin on his face the one that made me think things like, what would it be like to really kiss him not these little pecks that we've been giving each other, but real open mouth kissing. OMG I can't believe me the virgin is even thinking this stuff. I was pulled away from my wonderful day dreams when Jas started laughing as we pulled into the Historical Park.
"You know darlin' whatever you're thinkin' about I like it." He said as he was snickering at me.
How do I do this? Ok who do I know that's nothing but sex on legs and what would that person say? Errr … umm … Rosalie! How would she handle this situation?
Over the course of the last few days she and I have really started to become close friends. Yes she's all bitch on the outside but on the inside she's a wounded as a women can get. I've learned that some women just need to put up that Bitch Wall to keep from getting their feelings hurt. It's a defense mechanism in some women. Rose just happens to be one of those women.
"I bet nothing like an ego boost Huh?" I asked as I winked my eye in his direction. I'd hoped that I got the flirting thing right and by Jasper expression I sure as hell did GO ME!
Jasper's mouth was open and his eyes weren't watching the road. They were staring directly into mine and God I loved it when he did that. How just his expressions could affect my houchy was a damn good thing let me tell you? Wow!
I started laughing damn it Rose wouldn't laugh. I guess this flirting thing wasn't really up my alley but Jasper found it extremely funny because at that moment he was almost doubled up he was laughing so hard.
That's one of the things that I really loved about Jasper. Our personalities were so close to each others that what most people would find as one of my deadpanned jokes. Jasper thought they were cute and funny just like I had intended them to be. He just understood me or he "got" me as my mom use to say. Nope I'm not going there. This is mine and Jasper's day not going there!
Jasper pulled into the back of the American Legend hall and paid for the parking. He parked the truck about a quarter of the way back into the parking lot behind from the hall itself. He got out of the truck and walked over to my side. He held my door opened as I gathered up my stuff.
He must have done things like this before because he opened up the back door of the truck and pulled out a backpack for my items plus a small cooler. I was grateful that he'd had the forethought into coming prepared like a boy scout! No he was in the Army stupid! I thought.
As walked out of the parking lot and into the crowd that was trying to cross the busy street. Once the cops finally stopped the traffic and let us pass. We walked into the park there were venders everywhere selling everything from those funny bumper stickers to real antique 1800's women's dresses. There were thousands of people here the sights sounds and smells were so overwhelming to me. I really wanted to spend the day alone with my Jasper I smiled inwardly to myself at that thought My Jasper.
As we walked passed one booth I just couldn't stop myself from stopping and taking a look. Come to find out it was owned by an Amish family they'd driven all the way from Indiana to be at the fair. They were selling homemade hand stitched quilts. These were heirloom quality quilts the one that caught my eye was a huge California King sized double wedding band pattern. The quilts colorings were breathtaking. The back ground was jet black the intertwining circles were teal green, white, and the prettiest blue. This quilt was beyond words I fell in love with it instantly. Not only would it match my new room but it brought back memories for me.
My Grandma Swan had died way before I was born. Charlie had kept some of her things like jewelry armoire filled with hers and her mother's custom jewelry. Her old yellowing wedding dress and her hope chest filled with old, soft, and warn homemade quilts. I'd always assumed that she'd made them but for all Charlie or I knew her mom could have made them.
Every summer when I was younger Charlie would let me pull one of my grandmother's quilts out of the old hope chest. I remember how that blanket would always smell of cedar for the first few days of my stays with Charlie. The quilts made my stays in Washington that much more pleasant. I miss not having one of those now.
Jasper must have seen the look in my eyes and felt my melancholy mood. He walked over the Amish man and inquired about the quilt in question. The next thing I knew it was being taken down off of the display wall and boxed up. Jasper pulled out his credit card and bought it he never even looked at the price tag. He just punched in his security code to his credit card grabbed his box and strolled over to me.
"You bought it? You never even looked at the price tag." Growing up with Renee the price tags were the first things I looked at. She was a teacher for Christ's Sake we weren't poor, but we couldn't afford to go spending money on things that weren't needed either.
"Yes I bought it for myself. We've got a long day of sittin' and watchin' ahead of us and I'd like a nice place for my ass to sit." I was blushing and looking at the ass in question.
Some women like a guy with a well defined chest. Some women love blue eyes. Me I'm an ass girl Jasper had one of the asses that I'd just loved to watch as he walked away. It was firm and round Perfect Just like the rest of him. I must have been staring because Jasper said.
"See something you like Sugar?" While he wiggling his eyebrows at me.
"Yes I do. And I don't mind if you know it too." Rose would be so proud of me right now.
Jasper laughed at me as we started making our way to where the mock battle was going to take place. The crowd was growing quickly and we were having a hard time finding a spot to sit.
The location for the battle was in-between two small hills the battle would take place in the valley below so each person would be sitting on a hillside to watch it from above. The trees and surrounding forest were amazing. These trees where big enough that several of the younger watcher were climbing in their limbs to watch from even higher above.
We finally found a spot to lay his new blanket out at Jasper set down the cooler and opened the box. Once we had the blanket out we spread it long ways to give ourselves a little buffer between the next blanket and ours.
It wasn't a sunny day and the weather was a bit on the cool side. I'm used to 100 plus degree day, and when you find yourself suddenly sitting in a 70 degree days. Your body goes into quite a bit of shock I'd worn my jeans and an Alice approved sweater but I was still trying to keep my teeth from chattering.
Jasper opened the cooler pulled out a thermos of hot chocolate and a cup. He'd poured me a cup and put everything back inside then closed the lid. I sat people watching while Jasper sat and watched me. I felt both instantly subconscious and turned on at the same time. When I was about to say something a huge bang went off in the distance causing me jump at least foot off the blanket.
Jasper was lying on his side while I was sitting Indian style on the blanket sipping my hot cocoa. The cup in my hands almost spilt out but I kept it together long enough to keep that from happening. Jasper let out a small laugh and started rubbing my thigh to calm me down. I swear that my temperature went through the roof when touched me like that. I know that my face and my whole body turn beet red and it wasn't coming from sunburn or the hot cocoa.
"It's just a warning charge the cannons are located on either end of the field. See?" As he pointed to either end of the field.
There were men wearing what looked like official and authentic uniforms milling about. I could see some women as well they were gathered around huge black iron tubs. Whatever they were making it was enough to feed an Army literally. The women's customers were just as amazing as the men's were.
"Are these like the real uniforms from back then?" I asked.
"Well for the union's soldier's yes. For the confederate soldiers we were lucky to have boots on our feet by the middle of the war…."
He went on to tell how hard it was living back then with the union soldiers overtaking the railroad lines. Supplies were few and far between how most of his time as a Major. He'd have to battle the war of too many people and not enough supplies. Not real pitched battles.
"The War of Northern Aggression was won by starving most of the Southerner's out of existence." Jasper said while shaking his head like he was trying to shake out some horrible memory away.
By the time we'd finished talking about the real war the battle had been started and played out. Jasper didn't seem as if he'd enjoyed watching most of it but told me what was accurate and what wasn't.
The crowd around us had dwindled down to a few families or couples eating their dinner on their blankets. Jasper opened our cooler and pulled out a pre-made dinner for me. I had a couple of deviled eggs, coleslaw, a baked potato, and a thick slice of the roast beef from last night as I grabbed my fork and started to eat. Jasper pulled out two wine glasses he popped the cork on a bottle of wine as my eyes bugged out.
"Jasper I don't drink Cops daughter remember?" I asked, shocked.
"It's sparkling grape juice my Bella. Calm down Darlin' I wouldn't try to get you drunk." He laughed as he poured us each a glass.
"You don't drink grape juice why are you pouring two glasses?" I asked as he looked me in my eyes.
"I do today it's our first date and I want to celebrate with you." He always tried to make me feel comfortable. He'd drink this just for you OMG, I love him for this. I thought then thought again No Just love him.
When the full realization, of my new revelation hit me. Jasper's eyes grew wide while I was thinking his face broke into an absolutely gorgeous smile. Without saying any words he knew then without warning he projected his feelings back to me it was the most euphoric feeling that I've ever experienced.
Jasper leaned in and started kissing me with such passion. I forgot about my dinner the people around us my mom my dad everything. In that moment nothing and no one else mattered. The world seemed to stop spinning on its axis lines and moved around nothing but him and me. His left hand left the blanket and came up to cup behind my neck. Jasper pulled me to him and our bodies started to tangle together as one his tongues brush my bottom lip asking for entrance. I opened my mouth slightly as our tongues started fighting for dominance. He won but I was enjoying this feeling too much to worry about it right now. Our hands started to roam freely over each other bodies and I was lost in a never ending moment of pure bliss. This felt so right I never wanted it to end.
Jasper's mouth broke away from mine first but his lips traveled down my neck to the pulse point of my neck never taking his lips away from my skin. We were feeling each other's bodies for the first time. Jaspers hands left my back and started moving lower towards my waist. My right hand had found purchase in that head of golden blonde curls. My left hand explored his vast chest I was lost in him as I whispered into his ear "I love you Jasper."
Jasper pulled his face away from my neck and he laid his forehead to mine. He was looking me in the eye as he said "And I love you." We stayed tangled up in each other for a few minutes just enjoying the way the other felt after a while Jasper said.
"I think that we'd better get goin' we've still got quite the audience right now and if I don't stop right here and right now I might never let you go."
I didn't want to agree with him but I did give in. With much regret I pulled my body away from his. He ended up just repacking my dinner as Jasper filled the cooler one last time I folded up his blanket and we made our way back to the truck.
No words were said No regrets were held Jasper held my hand all the way home that night. We didn't need to talk we just bounced our feelings off of one another. It was the perfect first date.
*Yesterday*
Saturday, August 28th, 2004
When I got up this morning it wasn't on my own Nope. Alice, Rose, and Charlotte were all waiting in my room for me I'd been enjoying my dreams. They all revolved around a certain make out session on a double wedding band quilt with my Jasper.
I was still euphoric that we'd admitted our love for each other and how his body felt to mine. Yes I wanted do more that day at the field and after all of these wonderful dreams and knowing what his hands and mouth could do to my body. I think I'm more than ready to take that next step.
I'd talked to the girls yesterday I'd told them what had taken place on the hillside with Jasper. I told them how understanding and compassionate Jasper had been with me. How he hasn't pushed the limits anymore they've been pushed already and how I wanted more.
They each said they too had been scared and nervous when it was their first times. That the fears I'd been having were completely normal that I'd just know when the timing was right and that obviously that timing wasn't this past Wednesday.
I rolled over and stretched my arms above my head trying to shake that last of a great night's sleep off of my body. I really just wanted to go back to bed and relive that afternoon one last time but Alice wouldn't hear of it. She walked over to my bed got on her hands and knees and started jumping up and down on my bed.
"What do you want? I was dreaming and I was really enjoying that dream too. The three of you ought to be ashamed of yourselves Very Very ashamed!" I scolded in mock horror as I made my way to the bathroom.
When I was done and reopened the bathroom door. All three of them were sitting on my already made up bed they were talking a mile a minute and I couldn't catch a damn word they were saying. When they heard the bathroom door opened they stopped talking instantly and turned their heads in my direction.
"What? I brushed my teeth and combed my hair. What?" I asked.
"The other day Bella when you had you're umm…first day of …. Cough …. School. I told you that I'd bought you a small gift. Did you ever open it?" Alice asked.
"No I completely forgot about it until just now." I'd to busy remembering that day with Jasper worrying about my mom and thinking over everything that was going on with Aaron. I was too busy to remember my present. OSM why do I always seem to make these mistakes with Alice? I thought.
"It's ok and I already know that you never opened it. So I brought it up here for you to open this morning. I know that you've got your first guitar lesson today but you'll need these soon and I want to make sure you keep them on you at all times." Alice rattled off. When she talks she doesn't stop it's like one big long word.
"Hand it over then I can't believe that this is so important to you." I said as a small very pretty wrapped box was thrown towards my hands.
I grabbed the box ripped opened the paper and found an economically large supply of condoms. My hands became sweaty my face turned purple and I a lump in my throat that I couldn't sallow. Then I throw the damn box onto the bed. The box held a 32 count pack. I jumped up on my bed and joined the girls and said "What the hell? Alice how many of these things do you think one person will use?"
"Sweetie sometimes I think that you forget that we're vampires. We never get tired never need to sleep and our libido's rival those of rabbits. Lord knows that after being married to Peter for so long. You'd think that he'd had enough by now not that I'm complainin' mind you but our guys are not a onetime deal Sugar." said Charlotte. Rose, Alice, and I all at the same time said "Ewwww!" Then laughed like loons.
"Thank you for thinking about this Alice but what exactly I'm in for? That you'd believe that I need this many … Umm … Err … items?" I stammered.
She never did answer my question. She just held her head up high got up and off of my bed and left my room without another word.
"Damn it Alice Answer me!" I yelled. Charlotte and Rose were holding their sides they were laughing so hard I just wanted to crawl up in a ball and die.
After lunch that day I had my first scheduled guitar lesson. Peter and Jasper were both my teachers though everyone of the Cullen's could have taught me to play. I liked the idea of it being these two I felt the closest to them and if I made a fool of myself at least it with my Mate and his brother.
"Which is the A string Sug?" asked Peter we were more than half way through the lesson at this point. I strummed the right string but it sounded horrible they really called them duck farts. Honesty they did.
"You're not holding it down all the way Sug." So I tried again and got it right they were trying to teach me the first three strings I'd have to practice at least thirty minutes a day they'd said.
"I bought you a finger grip I want you using that twice a day for about five minutes at a time to start we'll work the time up as we go." said Peter handing me a yellow object that looked more like a piano then a guitar. It fit into the palm of your hand it had springs on the inside and when you hit the button on top hard enough you'd move it. Then go you'd on to the next one there was one button for each finger.
"Ok for next week work on pages three thru nine try to get the lil song that's on each page down. The faster you learn the notes in the lines the easier it will be for you to play." Peter said they bought me a beginner's book and CD that could be played on my computer.
I looked down at my new Gibson guitar Peter said "It's a Gibson J-185 ES Rosewood Edition." I guess that makes it special it's pretty and sounds amazing. They even bought me a guitar stand for my room so that I could practice in there at any time I wanted too.
My Grandfather Aaron had sat with us throughout my lesson. He never said a word but kept a careful watch over what Peter and Jasper were telling me.
"Do you play an instrument Grandfather?" I asked as Jasper and Peter walked into the kitchen. It was Jasper's night to cook me dinner and he'd made big plans for my meal.
"Yes I play the violin you know music is part of our family heritage Isabella?" Aaron stated.
"No I didn't know that I guess there's still a lot that I don't know about you and your kind."
"Our kind Isabella you know no matter how you may wish it be different you are of my blood. You are an Elf and you are my Heir."
"Why don't I just skip being an elf and go straight onto becoming a vampire? I'm sure that Jasper or Carlisle would help me with that." I stated Charlie and I had been talking about this.
Since Carlisle and my Dad, have been spending so much time together they've become close. Much to Billy's dismay Charlie and Carlisle had been talking about all of the unknowns about my Arising and with me being so young still and they're not being another elf to go through the Arising at my age. Carlisle is worried that something may go wrong that's all the confirmation my Dad needed to hate the idea of my Arising.
After talking to Rose I was leaning more towards the elf Arising instead of the vampire way of life. I could still be out during the day even in the sun. I'd still have options that vampires never would but I did have a question for Aaron so I asked it.
"Grandfather I've got a question for you. Say that I say yes to you but that someday I'd like to become like my Mate. Would that work? Could Jasper ever change me into a vampire if I say yes to you now?"
That's the biggest of Carlisle's concerns the 'what if's' aren't something that the good doctor liked to think about. He wanted absolutes.
"Why would you ever decide to become one of them? They are not on the same evolutionary hierarchy that either you or I are at my Isabella. We are on a higher level then they will ever hope to become." Come to find out my Elfin King Grandfather thought his shit didn't stink. I was beginning to understand why the other supes and Aaron don't always get along he thinks he's better than everyone else.
"Just in cases you know like a backup plan." I said I really liked the idea of a backup plan.
"Well to answer your question yes he could change you into one of them at a later time though I see no reason for such an occurrence to occur." Aaron said God getting a straight answer out of him is like pulling teeth He did give a present that night though.
I got my nightly call from Charlie Phil was giving him some flack and it was completely pissing me off. He couldn't get over the fact that my Dad was looking for Renee out of the kindness of his heart and he was looking for my Mom for me. Just like my leaving California was done for Phil he was still holding my Mom going missing against me?
There was a new clue regarding my Mom one of her credit cards had been used in East Point Georgia. The police in California were waiting for the video footage from the gas station. Were $87.07 in gas and food had been purchased. My Dad and the others had been in contact with the local police department and they were sending the video out next day express in the morning.
I'd informed my Dad, Carlisle, Marcus, and Billy about my conversation with Aaron and my new options. Charlie was pissed that I was even considering such a radical step but Carlisle promised to talk to him for me.
My Dad had said "Come hell or high water, Bells. We'll all be back next weekend at the latest." We ended our call with nightly I love yous and I misses yous.
After that conversation like every night Jasper held me until I fell to sleep. He'd just hold me and tell me that he'd find a way to find Renee for me. Tonight I fell to sleep in his arms while in my bed as he was explaining vampire trackers to me. I felt his lips kiss on my temple as I finally drifted into a deep and peaceful sleep.
*Today*
Sunday, August 29th, 2004
All of that leads me back today I'm laying here on that double wedding band quilt. The end of August hot summer sun is beating down on my back I've got my I-Pod blaring out my favorite Playlist in my ears. I can smell the coconut oil suntan lotion on my skin this reminded me of all those summer days I've spent with Renee in San Luis Obispo. Since she's a teacher we usually had the whole summers to ourselves and this is how we spent those summers in the backyard on plastic folding chairs next to a kiddie's pool filled with cool water.
This morning Alice informed me that today would be the last of the hot days until next spring. And that the Cullen's wanted to show me their favorite spot on the property. She held out her hands to revile a couple of scraps of fabric that she calls a bathing suit. I called it a crime waiting to happen. She'd promised me that she, Rose, and Charlotte would be wearing suits that showed more skin then the one she'd given me I didn't see how that was even possible unless she's meaning by going around naked! This bikini was three of the tiniest pieces of fabric ever designed held together by fishing line as far as I'm concerned this is not going to happen.
So I took the damn thing into my bathroom and changed into it from the other side of the door I could hear Alice talking about how much Jasper was going to love me in this suit. That she knew it'd be just the perfect fit for me. My bullshit detector is going off after taking one look at myself in the full length mirror behind the bathroom door. I knew instantly that Alice was full of shit there's no way her suit is smaller than this one. OMG she expects me to wear this thing whatever happened to a one piece suit? I thought. I wasn't going to wear this thing No way No how and that was final. She's just going to have to learn how to live with disappointment.
So here I lay on a small beach bar that's directly behind the Cullen home. We're down by the river the trees are surrounding us. But there are breaks in the tress allowing the sun to shine throw. I'm wearing the damn suit that Alice brought to me and hating every minute of it. The five of us girls came down first and now we're all laid out on blankets. Alice and Rose are looking at magazines Esme's reading Char and I am lost in listening to our music. The boys are supposed to come down here later this afternoon and join us.
Esme brought me a brown bag lunch it's still fancier then what I'm used to but a PB&J is always comfort food to me.
I find myself getting excited that we now have a clue about my Mom hopefully this one clue can lead to others. I'd love to know where she's at and if she's alright she's never been good on her own. All of her life she has had either her parents, Charlie, me, or Phil looking after her and we've all been covering her ass. If she just took off without a word she's a dead woman. If someone took her well I've got so many supes in my life that I'm sure one of them can find away to kick their sorry asses.
"Sweetie are you alright?" Char asked as she rolled over I think it's kind of funny that each one of the vampires flip over every half hour or so. Like they might get a suntan and it would come out uneven they're vampire's their skin is like stone. Why do they keep flipping I've got no clue.
"Yeah I'm just worrying again I'll feel better once my Dad can see what's on that tape. Hopefully by this time tomorrow I'll have a better sense of what might've happened." I stopped talking and rolled over myself Aaron said that my skin doesn't tan as well as most human's skin does and that's why; my skin has always looked so translucent.
"I wonder what the boys are doing they aren't betting on something again are they?" I asked the group.
"They've always got a bet going sweetie but I'd thought I'd heard them say somethin' about washin' and waxin' the cars in the garage before comin' down here. But they're most likely just bitchin' to each other about us." Char said with a laugh in her voice.
"They better not be I'll kill Emmett if he loses another bet that boy needs to learn a lesson." Rose said as she looked up from her magazine.
"I thought I'd done pretty good job of that the other night." I said while laughing.
"That was priceless you know that he's still trying get that crappy cottage cheese up." Everyone was laughing there asses off now.
After a few minutes we all went to back to being quiet the sounds of the river rolling past is quit peaceful. The occasional birds flying over head and the huge white puffy clouds in the brilliant blue sky are just memorizing. I lay back down and was lost between the music sights around me and my thoughts.
I feel kind of bad that Emmett is still having stomach issues. Not enough to wish that Sunday night never happened that night just like this past Wednesday were still making me laugh and happy. It seems that laughter and Jasper are the only things keeping me from losing my mind.
Thinking back on this past week things are crazy and yes I'm trying to handle all of this shit like an adult but sometimes I want to throw a fit. Like the true seventeen year old that I am but I won't not even if I really want to.
I wonder when my Dad will get that damn tape and what it will show…..
(JPOV)
Bella fell to sleep in my arms last night again after waitin' so many years to hold my girl. This feels like heaven Bella's the closest thing a vampire like me will ever get to heaven. While she sleeps I can't get my dirty old mind off of her on a blanket and an afternoon spent on a hillside together doing a lil talkin' making out a little and I love yous.
I'm not a vampire that could ever be considered all lovey dovey. In fact I'm the most feared bein' in the world that's one of many reasons why Aaron and I don't get along. He used to own that title until I came around that is Lil fucker's pissed that I can take him out that thought makes me smile inwardly.
We've talked a lot since Bella's has been here he keeps sayin' how she's gonna be the finest 'Bayne' to ever be taken on the name of The Heir. Fuck that shit she's my girl. And I'll make sure that she does what she wants not what he wants. Not to mention I want her to take my name of Whitlock Not a Bayne.
I'm standin' here in the garage with the guys we just got down with a conference call with Carlisle and Marcus. The Volturi Brother's have sent out a total of three trackers lookin' for Renee Dwyer. They've found several clues that neither my Bella nor Charlie knows about. Who the hell does Charlie think sent him the damn clue about the tape? That tape was planted by our guys it'll show what that fuckin' hippie assed bitch is really up too. I know how worried my Bella's been about her momma but this shit ain't gonna fuckin' stop. Her momma is a fucked up self centered Bitch and it looks like she's runnin' and I ain't tellin' my Bella any of this shit until we know for sure.
I just got done washin' and waxin' my girl's truck I knew that she'd love the blue one. Of course she doesn't know it's hers yet she'll find out soon enough I ain't lookin' forward to that fight but Alice swears that it'll work out.
That's just another reason for the lil fucker to be so pissed at me Aaron's had a trust fund set up for Bella since she was born. Once her momma fuckin' cut and run on her
responsibilities with this Heir crap he added Renee's trust fund to my Bella's. He thinks he ought to be the one to take care of her Fuck that shit she's my Mate. I'll provide what she needs. Not Aaron.
Speakin' of takin' care of my Mate we ought to get goin' down to the riverbank soon. It's been to long since I've been able to hold her in my arms and what a gorgeous lil body it is I've seen what Alice put in. Fuck! I can't wait to try to get my girl out of that fuckin' suit.
I felt them comin' before I saw'em four of the five girls had given up on us comin' down to join in the fun. We'd planned on going down there later let the girls relax while they watched over Bella and lettin' us guys have some chill time.
"Who's watchin' Bella?" I demanded.
"She's asleep she isn't going anywhere. Jeez, Jasper calms down Fella!" Rose said.
I didn't even stay for the end of her sentence I high tailed it down to my girl. Someone could've grabbed her up already we've got a pretty good idea of where Renee went but fuck we could be wrong.
I found her lyin' on her belly sleepin' soundly Thank You God! I thought as I walked over to her.
She was on our blanket the sun was only hittin' her legs right now. Her beautiful ass was sticking straight up in the air some guys are boob men some guys like long legs. I'm an ass guy and my girls' doesn't disappoint.
This get up Alice put her in is a barely there bikini. The bra is barely two triangles coverin' her nipples the bottoms ride high up on her hips the whole fucking thing is only held together by three lil strings.
As I'm takin' in all of this beauty Alice walks up and says "We're all leaving for a hunting trip we'll be back in the morning….And Jazz." Never taken my eyes off of my girls sleepin' form I said "What is it Alice?" I wanted to be on the blanket naked with my girl.
"You'll need these and…" Alice throws me a box of condoms I've never had to use these fuckin' things before but I will today, and night, and tomorrow…..
"JASPER!" Alice yelled not loud enough to wake my girl but enough to wake me from my fuckin' fantasies.
"Shit Alice sorry girl. What else?" I asked. Figurin' out in my head a way to wake Bella and teach her a few thousand things.
"Take it easy on her she's really scared about the whole biting thing. And … it'll be her first time…" My head snapped towards Alice Holy Hell! My girls waited for me! Fuck when are the others leavin'? Not fucking fast enough I was thinkin' but answered "I understand Alice Thanks for your help. Where'd the lil fucker run off to?" That's all I need her granddad walkin' up on us.
"He had some errands to run in Tacoma do you think he knows where Renee is?" Alice asked like I wanted think about the hippie bitch right now.
"I haven't the foggiest idea." I answered hopin' she'd take the hint and high tail it outta here.
"We'll ALL be back in the morning that means her Dad, Carlisle, Marcus, and Billy too. This tape shows something that'll lead to where Renee is." Alice said as she turned and ran away.
Thank you I said in my head knowing that Eddieboy could hear me. Then I saw seven blurs out of the corner of my eye headin' out and into the forest. As I made my way to the blanket that my girl was sleepin' on.
I loved this quilt the moment my Bella's eyes lighted on it I knew I'd have to get it for her.
My momma had one somethin' like this one her and my daddy used on their bed every night. Its still have wrapped up for safe keeping at the Texas homestead. There's a tradition with quilts I remember my momma tellin' me about it.
The tradition says that if you lie with your lover for the first time on your weddin' night under or above your weddin' quilt. You'll love each other for the rest of your lives your marriage will be strong and lovin' as long as you have got that quilt to wrap around ya.
My momma and daddy were blessed with six children under that quilt. My momma bared all six of us while under it my parents were happy and in love. I completely believe in that tradition I know that my Bella ain't my bride YET! But someday I'm hopin' to rectify that she'll be my bride one day and I pray that day is soon I'll make sure to have this quilt under or above us on our weddin' night.
My Bella will know why I bought this quilt for her.
I lay down next to my girl I can smell the oil she'd used on her delicate skin earlier. Her beautiful chestnut colored hairs up in a messy bun she has her I-pod going and a book lyin' open above her head.
As I looked down I can see her body movin' up and down with each of her breaths. Her ass is sticking up perfectly those stings are just beggin' me to be undo them. Her long ol' legs are twisted at her ankles as her feet are on top of each other a cute lil anklet dangling from her right foot.
I gently run my hands down the side of her ribs and back up again I watch as her skin breaks out in goose bumps. Her breathin' became more erratic and her heartbeat picks up. I leaned in and whispered "Bella baby wake up darlin'…." As I continue rubbin' her side as she begins to stir… "Wake up darlin'."
"Jasper?" My angel says as she starts to roll over I caught sight of her breasts as she rolls. I'm so hard at this point it won't take much for me to explode. She has no idea what she does me she's so innocent and trusting. She won't be for long poor thing has no clue what I'm about to do to her.
"Where are the girls at I don't snore in my sleep so I know that didn't run them off." No my girl don't snore but she does talk and moans a lot in her sleep.
Every night when Bella sleeps in my arms or on my chest when she moans and says my name in her sleeps I don't have to be an empath to know what my girl is dreamin' about. I stay so hard on those nights that I've gotta leave the room before she wakes to go and take care of that problem but not anymore not after tonight. I'll never have to leave my girl again.
Oh God please don't let her turn me down. I was prayin' I know it's wrong to pray for a sin but this is one sin. That I'd go to hell for a hundred times over for it if I had to.
"They left to go huntin' they all be back in the mornin'." I said as my hand moved from her side to her flat belly I was usin' my whole hand rubbin' it back and forth.
"They went hunting and left us all alone where's Grandfather at?" My girl asked as she stretched and yawned pushing her breasts upwards. Fuck.
"He went to Tacoma for the night he must've had some kingdom business to care of." I said as I leaned in and started kissin' that sweet spot on her neck. Workin' my way up to her ear I heard her moan softly as her hands started moving to my chest. "Bella I love you." I whispered in her ear then my mouth connected with hers. I rolled my body to lay on top of hers my hands resting on either side of her head. Bella's hands gripped my forearms as our kiss deepened I swiped my tongue along her bottom lip asking for entrance.
My girl responded by opened her mouth for me allowing my tongue to brush against hers. The taste of her mouth is like nothing else in this world sweet as an apple and just as fresh as a summer peach. I can't wait to find out what her other areas taste like. I break our kiss knowing that she has to breathe my lips travel down her jaw to the junction of her collarbone and neck where I leave a lil love mark for her to find later.
My girl's hands move from my arms to my chest she's moaning softy and I can feel how her body is responding to mine. I bring my hands to her hair and undo the band. It's now fanned out around her head, making her look like a true angel with a halo over her head. The feel of her hair as it runs throw my fingers is absolutely magnificent.
I lifted my head to look my girl in her eyes her eyes showin' nothin' but want and need. Her emotions tell that she's nervous and worried but her most essential emotion is lust. Her lust was adding to mine and I know that if she doesn't want this now was the only time for her to ask me to stop.
"Bella do you really want to do this if you want me to stop now is the time to tell me darlin'." I say while looking into those breathtaking brown eyes I'm testin' her emotional set as she answers my question lust.
"No Please don't stop I want this I want you. And I want you now." My Mate begged quietly I told her I enjoyed it when she begged I meant that.
"Bella I can tell ya now that I'll be as gentle with you as I can be. I'll do my best to make sure that I'm as careful as I can be with you this time…." I stopped talking and brought my lips to hers I broke our kiss and finished with "…your first time Right?" My girl didn't answer audibly her eyes left mine and she began looking at my chest as she nodded her head in conformation. From her emotions I could tell that she was both embarrassed and worried about somethin'.
"What's wrong? You can tell me anythin' you're my Mate sugar and I need to know that you're ready for this what's wrong?" I asked while my hands roamed from her arms and onto her ribs.
"I'm worried that I'll make a mistake. I'm scared that you'll realize what a klutz I truly am, and I'll make a fool of myself. I don't know what I'm doing, and I don't…." I wouldn't allow her finish. I placed my lips on hers and sent her some calm. How she could ever think that she'd disappoint me is beyond belief. She was givin' me, herself. What more could she ever give me? What more could any man ever want? I broke us apart and said.
"I'll teach ya. I know a couple of things that I think you might enjoy. It's just like when we were dancing darlin'. You just let me lead ya." I said as I looked her in the eyes when her eyes met mine. I knew I'd said the right thing. Her emotions leaved out, and she started kissing me back with such passion. Her hands found the bottom of my shirt and they started making their way up to my chest. I pulled back looking her in the eyes. My hands moved to her neck as I untied the top of her suit.
I started kissing her again as my hands brought the offending piece of material down. My left hand moved to her back to untie and I removed the offendin' scrap of material altogether as I pulled my hand back to rest gently on her ribs.
I moved my mouth to her jaw line and down when my mouth found her left breast I felt like I'd come home. Bella's hands had moved my shirt to my chest and she was tugging on it trying getting it off of me I stopped kissing her breast long enough to get my shirt off.
As I sat up I received my first full glimpse of my girl "Oh my God Isabella you're
beautiful." I've lived a long time and in all that time I've never seen a woman as perfect as my girl. She was grinding her hips into my thigh I knew my erection was poking into her stomach. When I looked at her face my girl blushed and her emotions were stating that she really didn't want to talk right now. Who am I to disagree with her?
Our lips meet again as my hands wandered down to her hips using my other arm to prop myself up on my hip slightly. Then I very carefully untied each tie on the side of her bikini bottoms removing it as I went my right hand moved to her mound as she moaned. I pulled back slightly watching as the emotions rolled over her face her eyes were half opened in her lust her lips were parted slightly Beautiful I thought. When my hand reached her hot lil slit I used one finger to gently open her up for me so was dripping wet for me already.
I know that I'm not a small man and that she'd need to be prepared properly for her first time. Using my thumb I started rubbing small circles on her clit while inserting my index and middle fingers into her tight hot hole. "Jasper…." My angel softly choked out While her left hand gripped my left bicep as hard as she could all the while she was moving her hips.
I was being as gentle as I could be when all I really wanted to do was slam right into her but she deserves better than that. She needs to be treated like the lady that she is with both tenderness and compassion. After her Arising things will be different but right now she's my human virgin Mate and she's moaning my name.
"Bella..." was all I could say as I felt her walls tighten around my fingers looking at her face as she came was mesmerizing. Her skin was pink from head to toe a slight sheen of sweat covered her beautiful body each of her breaths was labored and harsh. Her eyes were closed but she was biting her lower lip for all she was worth her emotions were just as amazin' to me. The euphoria she was projectin' was like nothin' I've ever felt before.
After a few minutes her heart rate slowed and her breaths were less labored. She opened her eyes and looked directly into mine. The smile that broke across my girls face was awe inspiring. I pulled myself away from her and undressed as quickly as possible. I'd gone commando this mornin', and with how painful my erection had become I was now grateful for that.
Bella's eyes grow large as she took in my naked form her eyes only rested on my manhood for a split second and her fear instantly double from what it had been making me smile like a fool, and sending her some more calm. I moved to hover over her body I opened up the box and rolled the condom on "Are you ready darlin'…?" When she only nodded her head I pushed my stiffened member as gently as I could into her OMG is she warm and tight.
I went in slowly when I reached her maiden hand I stopped looked into in eyes and said "Do you know what this is Sweetheart?" I was nudging it just a little while my hands were brushing the hair out from around her face.
"Yes." My girl answered shakily Her emotions had reached an all time high her fear had sky rocketed and she was tense all the while she was looking me directly in the eyes.
"Baby it's your innocence and you're givin' it to me this is gonna hurt a lil." As pushed past her barrier I watched as the pain crossed her beautiful face and it broke my heart. When I was fully seated inside of her I stopped again and waited lowering my head to her ear. "I love you" was fallin' in a constant stream from my lips and into her ear I was pushin' as much love, comfort, and lust into her as I could hope like hell it might help.
I could smell the salt from her tears that rolled down her face. I sat up a lil to look into her eyes her emotions weren't showin' pain or fear anymore all I felt comin' off of her was pure love devotion and one hell of a lot of lust. When she moved her hips I took that as my queue to start moving again.
When I found an easy pace she started matching me thrust for thrust I could now catch the smell of the blood from her innocences. Her blood smelt like nothing I'd even encountered before she started to close her eyes again but I wanted to watch as her ecstasy filled them. I was so close after waitin' so many years I knew I wasn't gonna last much longer I could tell by her emotions that she too was ready to spark.
"Open your eyes baby I want to watch you come all over me." My Bella slowly opened her eyes and stared straight into mine. Her lust spiked with my words I placed my left fingertips on her clit and pitched lightly after a few more thrusts. She came screaming my name loudly as she did I could feel her walls tightening around my cock milking me for all she was worth and when I finally let go. I saw a bright light behind my eye lids I bent my head down to her left breast and bit down hard I released her breast after a minute.
Then I lifted my head and roared as I filled her with my seed I'd never cum so hard in all of my days My girl's the most amazing lover. We both laid there panting and trying to regain our composure afterwards.
As I looked down at my Mate I saw her blood flowing, down her breast and onto her stomach from my bite. I quickly licked the blood off of her, as well as her wound. OMG, this is paradise. I thought. My venom would heal her Mark. And leave behind a scar for everyone to see. My Mating Mark was above her left breast, and could be seen if my girl wore a low collared shirt. This wasn't enough venom to change her, just enough to seal her up. That's another reason I wore this fucking condom with the tears from her innocents, and with it bleeding and exposed. My venom soaked seed could've been enough to change her.
While we both lay on our blanket staring at each other in open adoration and awe. My world that for many years had been filled with loneliness and regret came into complete clarity I knew that this is where we were both meant to be. "I love you" was all I could say? "I love you too." My sweetheart said kissing her lightly on my lips I pulled out of her slowly but I saw as she flinched slightly. I could feel her soreness and ache I looked into her eyes the tears on her face had dried but her lashed were still damp. She wore a small smile on her face and that just melted me to my very core.
I didn't bother redressing her or myself knowing that we were completely alone I grabbed our clothes in one hand. Wrapped our blanket around her and carried her bridal style towards the house at vampire speed.
Once we were in her room I laid her on the bed and ran to draw her hot bath. I quickly walked back over to the bed picked her up and carried her towards the bath before we spoke a single word she broke the silence by saying.
"You know my legs still work? I can walk." She joked.
"Yeah I know that but I really just want to have you as close to my body as possible right now."
I don't know if she can feel yet or not but the pull that we've always had with one another.
Has now takin' on a life of its own those twenty seven steps from leaving her on the bed to the bathroom. Were extremely painful to me we are now fully Mated our attachment to each other is stronger than it has been. That attachment will only grow stronger over time we will never be able to apart from each other now. A few steps apart are doable more than that and the pain will become overwhelming to each of us.
I'll never be able to be apart from her now as it'll be the same with her. How Carlisle can stand to so far apart from Esme is a miracle in my book? Maybe I ought to talk to Marcus about this maybe we aren't a normal fully Mated pair I was thinking as I was knelt by the side of the tub.
I'd placed her in the tub to soak not wanting to cause her more pain so I didn't join her. Soon very soon I'll be able to take her in whatever way I want but not tonight. I scrubbed every inch of my Mates skin I'd washed her hair and had gotten all of the bubbles out and just sat there and watched her as she relaxed for a time but as soon as her fingers were pruned enough. I lifted her gently out of the tub and dried her body with a huge white fluffy towel.
I carried her into her room and laid her back on the bed I found a beautiful pair of underwear and a nice nightgown after dressin' her. I pulled our blanket over her bed climbed in and held her in my arms the last words she spoke to me before she drifted off to sleep were "I love you. Thank you for tonight" and she was gone.
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