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Now on to the story…
Bella POV
I ran fast for a human, yet unbearably slow for a vampire who just wanted to escape everything.
As I ran into the Cullen's- well, now also my- home, Alice was already waiting for me. Perhaps she saw me coming.
"Bella!" Alice nearly jumped on me. "What's wrong? What happened with Edward?"
I didn't -couldn't- speak. I was speechless from what just happened.
When I saw my reflection in the mirror behind Alice, I saw that my mouth was in a small 'o.'
Alice could tell something went horribly wrong from my expression. I soon heard a rustling and Jasper was suddenly with us.
He placed his hand gently on my shoulder. Calm spread through my body, yet I still could not move.
"Jasper," Alice hissed at him, "What's wrong with Bella? What is she feeling?" I could tell she wasn't happy at all. I didn't like this Alice. She was too angry; it was weird.
As I mentally sighed, I realized I was the reason she was like this. Dang.
Jasper quietly answered Alice, "She is feeling hurt, lost, confused, sadness, determination, and love." Jasper looked at me, probably wondering why I was feeling all of these things at once.
Alice looked at me; her eyes narrowed, and said, "Bella, I will make you talk if I have to. I need answers!"
I sighed, "Alice…" but was interrupted.
"You talk!" Alice said as she hugged me with joy.
I poked her and said, "Bipolar, much?" while smiling. Inside I was extremely happy Alice was back to her old, cheerful self!
Jasper and Alice both laughed, but then Alice got serious again.
"So, what happened?" she asked quickly.
I sighed while thinking and then started to tell the story quite quickly.
"Well, I was in a meadow since I left here. I dry-cried there until I heard someone stumble into my meadow. I turned and it was Edward and he knew it was me." By this time Alice gasped and Jasper just stood there, astonished.
I continued, "He looked really scared so I asked him what was wrong. He started to stutter and then asked why I was sparkling." And that was when they made an astonished outburst.
"What?!" Alice and Jasper screamed together.
I gave them a frustrated yet sad glare. "I'm trying to explain, guys. This is really hard saying what happened so please try not to interrupt? Please?" I begged them.
They both nodded slowly, still in shock.
"So I started to walk towards the shade and he kept walking toward me. He told me everything was going to be okay. I denied that.
"Then I decided to go with my human instincts so I fell to the ground and started crying again. He raced toward me, and then…" I hesitated. Alice leaned towards me, wondering what was going to happen next.
I hung my head sadly and told them, "I leaned towards him and smelt his scent. I almost lost it, so I stood up and told him I had to leave. T-then he asked what my secret was. I shook my head and then left there at a human-running speed until I hit the forests where he couldn't see me. Then I ran until I got here."
Jasper and Alice's eyes were open wide as were their mouths.
Jasper was the first to speak. "We need to move." He said it like a statement.
I nodded in agreement, for I knew he was right.
"No!" Alice said angrily. "I like it here! We can't move again!"
"Alice," I said in my most soothing voice, "what if I hurt Edward? What if I kill Edward?"
She sat down on the couch, her eyes blank and searching for the future.
Jasper and I sat next to her silently. He went calming waves over me, and I smiled in thanks towards him. He returned the gesture, but then we looked back at Alice.
When she snapped out of her vision, she smiled widely at us.
"We're staying!" she practically sang in joy.
"Alice…" Jasper and I were going to tell her again why that wasn't a good idea.
"Don't you start!" she told both of us. "Bella, you will not kill Edward. He's going to find out that we are vampires."
This time I gasped and interrupted Alice. "Alice! What?"
She laughed at me. "I don't know exactly how, but he will find out, and he will still fall in love with you, if he hasn't already."
Jasper looked angry, so I turned my attention to him. "Yes, Jasper?"
"The Volturi will not approve of this, and I don't want anyone to get hurt," he stated. I knew he was being protective of Alice, and I agreed with him. That would be too dangerous for all of us, especially Edward.
"Jasper," Alice said with love in her voice, "how will they find out? We'll be perfectly fine, and besides, Edward himself will turn into a vampire and join our family one day."
"What?" I screamed. Edward? A vampire? No!
Alice looked at me strangely, "Yes, Bella. I thought it was obvious. He will fall in love with you and you will both spend eternity together."
Me and Edward together for eternity? That did sound nice… Wait! No! He has a family and I would ask him to sacrifice all of that for me! I just won't. And why would he do that? I mean…
"No! Alice he will not be a vampire! As long as I have to say something about it, his heart will remain beating!" I yelled and ran outside back into the forest.
And of course, Jasper and Alice were following me. I jerked to a stop and turned around. "What?" I spat.
As I felt calm waves, I snapped at Jasper, "Stop it."
"Bella, calm down," Alice told me in a quiet but firm voice.
"Jasper," I said as Jasper's eyes looked into mine, "may I speak to Alice alone, please?"
He growled at me, still sensing my anger. He went in front of Alice protectively.
Alice spoke to him before I got the chance. "Jasper, it's okay. She only wants to talk. This is hard for her, you have to understand that much, right?"
Jasper thought about what his mate said and then nodded. He ran in the direction of our home as me and Alice looked at each other.
Alice cheerfully smiled at me as I scowled at her. Then I sighed at myself. I wasn't angry with Alice and I knew it quite well. I was just frustrated with myself.
"I'm sorry, Alice," I whimpered. She came over to hug me comfortingly.
"I understand, Bella," Alice said as she hugged me.
When we let go I murmured a quiet thank you as she smiled at me.
We were both silent while looking at each other, but in my mind, many things were running through my head.
What would I do with Edward? Should I acknowledge or ignore? Should I fall in love? Or will I hurt him badly enough first? Should I just leave by myself? Where would I go? Should I go to school on Monday? Should I wait, or just not go altogether?
I decided to sort through and make reasonable solutions to my many problems.
I will stay at Forks High School and endure the pain I have to suffer by being with Edward. I will not ignore Edward, for that would probably be impossible for me. I was way in too deep to get out of this now.
Tomorrow I will go to school. I will actually talk to Edward, but not tell him what I am. I bet he would guess.
I don't think I should turn him, but I wasn't quite sure if that was the right answer for either of us.
I sighed, agreeing with myself from before.
I was in too deep for my own good.
And I have school tomorrow.
Well, crap.
I usually don't curse but it seemed necessary in this last statement, don't you think?
Well, I think so!
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