Thank you guys for all the reviews! :D Here's the next part like i promised..., its a bit short and sad but its needed...so grab a tissue box and start reading ! oh and review! :D

Chapter 11

"What?" I said trying to play stupid.

"You said 'why is he making this so hard on us both' I asked making what harder on us both?"

"N-nothing, don't worry about it."

"Car-" He started but i couldn't have this conversation. Not right now..

"Look, just drop it ok!"

"Fine. When you grow some balls, and lose the fear to admit your feelings, just let me know!"

Was he serious? if anyone had any fear to face it was him. I practically gave him the green line to make his move, what did he do? shove it in my face.

"I'm not really the one who needs to face his fear Kendall and we both know that. So just let it go."

"Fine."

Well... that seemed to shut him up!

Suddenly the place went pitch black, and a sudden light came from the screen, indicating the movie was about to start.

The movie had been going on for about 20 minutes but i couldn't focus at all. Maybe because glittery vampires weren't really my thing. Even though i had to admit, a guy playing a character named 'Jacob' came on a few time and he was hot, but not as hot as the person staring at me.

Wait what? staring? why was he staring...

Next thing i knew, he mumbled something that sounded like 'fuck it' and he leaned in, grabbing me by the shirt and pulling me towards him, almost instantly, our lips touched and i every last bit of common sense i had vanished. I raised my arms and gently held his face between my hands, this kiss was different. It was ... desperate? He was practically eating my face not kissing me, seconds later i felt my neck starting to ache from the position, He must have noticed because he suddenly raised the arm chair separating our chairs and moved closer, forcing me to sink deeper into my chair as he hovered over me. I had no idea how did he fit between my legs and the chair in front of me, but he did. So i wasn't about to spoil the moment and ask. Apparently, the position wasn't really that comfortable for him because i felt him adjusting very often trying to find a less awkward position. I started to feel bad for him.

"You're not really comfortable are you?"I whispered against his lips with a slight chuckle.

"Shut up and let me kiss you, you little tease." He muttered as he used the fact my lips were parted to sneak his tongue inside my mouth. Not that i would've said no, but the sneaky action turned me even more that i was beginning to feel an itch at the front of my pants and i knew that all i needed was few more minutes of his tongue doing exactly what it was doing now to my mouth and i would end up with a full erection begging to be free and dealt with.

And i will NOT jack off at a movie theater...that's just sad!

But that's something to deal with when it happens and for now i plan to just enjoy the kiss.

I'm not sure how long exactly did we keep doing this but it had to be a long time because we heard the girls sitting next to us giggle and say "wow, you two have amazing lungs on you! you must be so in love."

I felt Kendall's body stiffen above me and i didn't need to guess why. It was obvious that its what the girl said. He wasn't in love with me. Or even if he did, its clear he didn't want to be. And as much as i hate admitting it, it hurt. To feel rejected like that. Like i was just someone to fool around with but not actually worth his 'heart'.

Wow Carlos, you're going deep!

Suddenly i couldn't breath so i gently pulled him away, he must have noticed because he quickly returned to his chair, a look of concern on his face.

"You ok?" He asked.

And i really didn't know what to answer. I just realized that i was in deep shit.

Between all the kisses, blow jobs and plotting to 'get him', my crush on him had turned into love. I was in love with him. I couldn't deny it. Not anymore. I was in love With Kendall Knight. And to my shock, i didn't need to ask him if he felt the same because i knew.

He didn't love me. He didn't accept me in the first place. I was his hidden secret. He was gay, true. But he didn't want to be. He didn't want a relationship with a guy.

He wanted someone to help him accepting the fact he was gay, and like an idiot, i accepted the role that day at the library without noticing. He would never want to be with me in the open.

Being with Kendall meant always being in the hiding. He probably kissed me today in public only because he hadn't in a long time and was lusting for it and nothing more.

For all i know, i was just a vessel to release his sexual frustrations but i would never be anything more than that. Maybe if it was someone else who made that move on him that day at the library, he would still be chasing him like he was doing with me.

He wasn't around because he loved me or wanted me. He was there because i was the only one who accepted to be treated like this. It was all my fault not him. But that's it. I was done.

"Hey...Carlos? dude you ok?" He asked once again.

"what? ya I'm fine."

He leaned in once more, clearly to continue the little make out session that we had started few minutes ago, but i pushed him away. I wasn't about to fall into the same trap i walked into at the start of this semester. I had to walk away. Save whatever self respect i had left. I couldn't do this anymore.

His look was of pure confusion, like he didn't understand why would i push him away. He had every right to be. I've been practically throwing myself at him all this time. Willing to take whatever he had to offer, regardless of the insults and emotional abuse he was putting me through. I must have shocked him with how easy i was to lure.

I felt like throwing up, i can't believe i didn't realize what was happening. What did i expect? That he would fall in love with me? He had been torturing me for practically as long as he had known me, and what did i do? Once he showed a hint of interest, i threw myself all over him practically allowing him to take whatever he wanted, but what i didn't plan for him to take was my heart...and that he took. And he didn't even want it and probably never will.

"What's wrong with you? you were so willing minutes ago"

I could have sworn my heart broke as he said that. 'willing' I had reached the level that saying no was not expected of me, perhaps even shocking. Like it was the normal for me to just go with everything he wanted whenever he wanted and the abnormal was to not be 'willing'.

"Just watch the movie Kendall" I said but i didn't even sound like myself. I sounded so ...broken? weak? I didn't like it.

He looked like he had something to say but he decided against it. I didn't even care at the moment. I just wanted the movie to end so i would get to go home and just cry.

wow...look at you, acting like a broken hearted little girl..

But its my fault, i did this to my self and i should have listened to Logan.

Speaking of Logan, i shifted my gaze lower to look at them and they were...

Kissing?

Well at least one of us had a happy ending, actually Adam is pretty happy at the moment too I'm sure . So i was the only one who fucked myself over and fell for someone who could never fall for me.

I need to get out of here.

But i can't let him think his kiss affected me that much. All i have is whatever little self respect i got left. I won't throw that out like i did with everything else.

I forced myself to remain in my seat for whatever time was left. But considering the movie started half hour ago, it wouldn't end anytime soon. And i was now having difficulty breathing again and i felt my whole body shaking, i quickly got up, leaning on the chair in front of me because my legs failed me. He seemed alert and i hated it.

I HATED HOW HE ACTED ALL CONCERNED WHILE HE DIDN'T GIVE A SHIT. IT WAS TOO MUCH!

"Carlos you ok?" I hated the real concern in his eyes. i hated every bit of it. He raised his hand to touch mine, he must've noticed how hard i was shaking. "Dude you're shaking. What's going-"

"SHUT UP DAMN IT! Just shut up! you ruined everything. God, i hate you so much! I wish i never met you!" I screamed as i pulled my hand away and rushed out ignoring the shock on the girl's face.

Honestly i don't know how i actually managed to make it to the bathroom. But once i was there i broke down. I fell to the floor, shaking so hard and unable to catch my breath, panic took over quickly as i felt what the lack of oxygen was doing to me, i tried my best to calm down but it wouldn't work, i could clearly hear how fast my heart was beating and before i know it, my head became heavy and i started losing focus, last thing i remembered was how hard my head hit the concrete floor of the bathroom and seconds later everything went white and a distant scream of my name then i fell unconscious.

Ok before you guys start swearing at me...IT WILL HAVE A HAPPY ENDING I PROMISE! But i couldn't make it that easy now could i? :p

Also, there's only one chapter left and the story is officially complete! :D

BUT...I'm thinking of a sequel to see what happens between Logan and Camille...maybe James and Adam too? What do you guys think?

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