Hi guys sorry to keep you waiting but i had a crazy weekend and i couldn't fin the time to write this chapter, i´ve been receiving lots of e-mails about you guys following the story and i want you to know that i really appreciate that, you are the best, and i could really use more reviews so i could know if you are liking the story or if you want me to add something. I have to apology for all my spelling and grammar mistakes i know sometimes you find funny words of bad writing and i have to say that i´m really working on it its just that sometimes Word fools me but i promise i´ll check that, well thanks again for reading and let me know if you like it.

Chapter 11: Next morning.

Larry´s kiss was nothing compared to Alex´s and I have to admit that she is a great kisser but after she kissed me things were a little awkward, she tried to kiss me again but I pushed her back; she is a great kisser and I felt really special when she kissed me but that doesn't mean we are going to be an item or something like that, I'm still confused or at least I know I don't want to admit for the moment that I am in love with Alex Vause, its better for us that way. I know it sounds selfish but it's for the best I promise.

When all the party and excitement was finally over we went our way to Alex´s house, she was a little weird that night and its comprehensible because she kissed me but I was hoping that it wouldn't cause any trouble between us. I tried to talk to her about that but it wasn't as easy as I thought it would be, her eyes were filled with hope and joy as if a new door in her was about to open and I knew in my heart I felt the same way but one of us had to keep her feet on the ground.

I told her I wanted to talk to her about our little incident at times square but she told me that she rather not, at least not for the moment, she wanted to spend the rest of the night as happy as she could. I new she thought we were going to be something more than just friends but I wasn't really sure about that, I didn't want to change all my life just for a beautiful girl.

We both slept in her bed, just like every time we spend the night together but this time it was a little different, considering the kiss and our previous talk about feelings and that kind of shit I felt really weird sleeping with Alex, I just felt that it wasn't right. She was a little drunk, when we arrived she opened a drawer in which she hided some vodka and she drank it all, apparently she wasn't as cool about my temporary rejection as I thought she was. After she drank all that vodka she was really drunk, she was acting like a fool, she was saying stupid things that only she understood and she was talking about having a puppy or something like that. I tried to calm her down but it was impossible, she wanted me to hug her as we sleep and I actually liked that but not for this night.

-Al, calm down please, your mom is going to kill you if she finds out you are drunk.

-As I told you Pips I don't care about public opinion or even my mom´s opinion I just want to live my life the way I want to.

-Alex Vause stop this now, you are hurting yourself, please just sleep for a while, we will talk tomorrow morning.

-Pips I don't want to talk, I know what you are gonna say soy please stop with this.

-How could you possibly know what im gonna say if not even I know what im gonna say?

-Because I know you Pips, I fucking know you like the back of my hand.

-Stop saying stupid things and lets just sleep.

-Pips I'm not and idiot and I'm not that drunk, but ok lets sleep.

-Thanks Al.

- Come be my little spoon?

- No Al, not now.

-Please pips.

-Al please don't.

- But Pips I know how much you love when I hug you.

-Yes I do but not for tonight.

She fall asleep and I kept thinking for a while, then I turned off the light and went to sleep, things were strange between us, something changed definitely but I wasn't sure if I liked the change or not. The next morning Alex woke up on a terrible mood, she had the worst headache of her life and she had nauseas, I felt pity for her because I know how was she feeling but I couldn't do anything to help her. I wanted to talk to her about last night but she wasn't comfortable with the idea but I knew that it if it wasn't today we were never going to talk.

-Al, I think it's important for us to talk, in order to make this right.

-And exactly what you are gonna tell me pips, that you don't want me the way I want you to, that you don't love me and that you wanna go separate ways?

-No Al, of course not, you are my best friend and I love you, I do love you the way you love me but I'm just fucking afraid and I feel sad because you don't fucking understand that, you want me to change all my life in one day just for you, you don't fucking get that I am fucking afraid of what I feel, of what my mom may think, of what society may think and im afraid we wont end right and I'll lose you.

- You wont lose me Piper and I fucking understand that you are afraid and I am fucking afraid too, I am a person you idiot I do have feelings and you don't fucking consider my feelings, I love you and I'm willing to take any risk for you.

- Al don't you think we are going to fast? We haven't even gone to a real date, we haven't talked about our feelings in a non-aggressive way, and we haven't really taken our time to discuss this.

-Pips I don't need that, I don't need dates or talks to let you know I love you, I don't need any of that to be sure about my feelings because deep inside I know you are the one for me and I know you feel the same but you don't want to admit it, you give me all the rush I need in my life Pips, you give me peace, security and you make me feel like myself.

-Al that is a lot to process, I wont say that you don't make me feel all that because I would be lying but as I said this is too much for me now.

- So what do you propose?

- I think that the best for us is to take this slow, to go un dates, to talk and all that, just for me to process this in the best way, and after a few weeks we can talk about this again and I will tell you how I feel.

- Ok is that's what you want. Lets do it your way.

I was really happy when she accepted; I think we are doing the right thing for both so that we wont get hurt. I love that woman and I feel happy when I'm with her, I know she is the right for me but I just want to make things right this time.