Rin sat up in bed and wiped at her swollen eyes. She hadn't got any sleep. She wrapped her arms around herself and shivered. It had hurt to be thrown out. She kept trying to convince her self she didn't have feelings for him. But everything she tried her heart denied it. tears were forming again but she wiped them away. She was tired of crying. Sitting up in her bed she headed for the kitchen.

"Dad." Her father was cooking breakfast as she walked in. "Good morning my honey lump! How was your night?"
She smiled, "it was fine."(it was terrible) He looked at her for a moment then smiled. She sat down at the table and he fixed her a plate. As she began to eat her breakfast her father examined her her.

"So are you going to tell me the truth or are you going to continue to fake your happiness." She dropped her fork in surprise to his statement. she nervously grinned at her father. "What are you talking about? I'm comepletely happy." His gaze burned into her and she held her breath unknowingly. "Why are you lying to yourself? I can see through your little facade, you are my daughter after all. Though i'm not the best of fathers i know when my own flesh and blood is in pain."

Rin stood up and knocked over her chair in the process. "I am happy and i'm not in pain! I don't miss him, I don't!"

Her father smirked. "Don't miss who?" She swallowed the lump in her throat. "Who ever this person is you say you don't miss is obviously on your mind. I think you have a burden on your heart." He walked up to her and opened his arms, welcoming her to step into them. she ran into his arms and tears began to fall again. He rubbed her head and kissed her hair. "You should find the person you've lost and be happy. I want you to be happy."

She sobbed in his arms. How could she have lost sight of what she wanted? How could she have broken his heart? He loved her. That should have been enough to make her happy! She missed him. She loved him. Her tears stopped. She pulled way from her father and laughed. Laughed hysterically. Her father had a scared look on his face." Are you okay? Do you want me to take you the hospital or something?"

She wiped at her eye's and smiled up at him. "No, i'm fine really. Thanks dad." He smiled at her and kissed her on the forehead. She ran to her room and danced around. "I love him! I love him!" Her smile was covering half her face. Then she stopped. Even if she loved him would he forgive her for saying she hated him? Would he even what to see her? Her happiness quickly faded. She sat down and thought about everything that had happened until now.

Maybe if she apologized he would forgive her, just maybe. She quickly changed her clothes and exited the house. She was going to try to make him happy, to make up for her idiocy. She was going to try.

Sesshomaru sat in the parlor staring into the darkness. He was lost with no light to guide him. Surrounded by the evil demons that haunted his heart. He poured scotch into his glass and took a swig. The liquor burned his throat as it traveled down. He head began to swirl and he touched his temple, enjoying the pain. No matter what he did she still managed to break through his barrier . He hated her now. He hoped she was suffering as much as he was.

Slam! His head started to throb more. His father walked into the room and made a disgusted sound. "What are you doing? Have you no shame? You look horrible."

Sesshomaru sighed, he wasn't in the mood for his father. "What do you want, old man? I busy." His father laughed. "Busy doing what? Drinking yourself into oblivion. If you miss her that much get off your lazy as and go an get her." Sesshomaru jumped up and glared at his father.

"You have no right to tell me what to do! All you've done is treat me like trash, do you honestly expect me to respect you?" His father sighed, "No i don't expect you to listen to me, but i do expect you to take my advice just this once. I know i've never been there for you but you need to let go of all this stupidity!"

"What! I'd don't need this. Not from you, just leave me alone." His father grabbed him and pushed against the wall. "I know i'm a terrible father and i know you think i've always hated you but thats not true! I love you more then anything, your my son damn it and that won't change. You need to go after her not because i'm telling you to but because you love her! If you listen to me just this once i'll never ask anything of you again!" He let go of Sesshomaru and wlaked out of the room.

Sesshomaru gritted his teeth and punch the wall, causing his knuckle to bleed. "Damn it!" He sat back down in the chair and reched for the bottle of scotch before knocking it off the table.

"When did you start drinking? I thought you were a noble kinda guy...Sesshomaru." Sesshomaru stood up and turned towards the familiar voice. Rin stood at the door and smiled at him. He laughed a dry laugh and rubbed at his eyes. He was way to drunk. He was starting to see things. She walked closer to him and her scent wrapped around him.

She was definetly real. "Rin? What are you doing here?" Her smile faded and she walked closer. She looked up at him and there was a tenderness in her eyes. "I just figured out something, do you want to know what it is?"
He just stared at her, she was losing it. "What are you..." "I love you Sesshomaru! I'm sorry that i hurt you and said some really cruel things. I was confused and didn't know what to do. I love you."

His eyes widened. Had he heard her correct? He leaned closer to her and smirked. "are you kidding me? Rin you are a very confusing girl. Get out of my sight, now." Rin had a stunned look on her face and then she cried. He cursed in anger. He only wanted to hurt her a little not make her cry. She turned away from him and began to run from the room. She stopped at the way. "I know i hurt you and i really am sorry. But please-" She looked back at him. "I really do love you."

He growled. Pushing his hair out of his face he smiled at her. "Come here, you crazy mixed up creature." She ran back to him. They kissed passionately before gazing at eachother. They both laughed.

"I was going crazy thinkin about you. I'm glad you came back." Rin smiled at his words. Hugging him closer she sighed in content. She was glad to be back.