Who's Crying Now?
Chapter 11- Damon
I waited until Elena fell asleep before I even dared to consider going to find Katherine and Stefan and find out what the hell was going on. I didn't want to leave her when I finally had her settled in my arms, but there were just some things that had to be taken care of, so sliding my arms from around her body I slowly crept out of my bed and across the room before making my way down the stairs. During the past few hours the party had died down and now there were mostly just a few people scattered here and there. It didn't take long to find Katherine, she was sitting in the kitchen at the breakfast bar, a cup of coffee clutched between her hands as she stared into space.
"So you wanna tell me what the hell that was all about?" I questioned softly, sitting down on the stool next to her. Katherine glanced over at me before she shrugged and looked back down at her mug, remaining silent, "Are you with Stefan now or..." I wasn't even really sure how to finish the sentence so I let it trail off into silence. We sat there for even longer in the silence, Katherine taking occasional sips from her coffee until I couldn't handle it anymore and took her cup from her, setting it down on the other side of me, "I mean come on Kat, what the hell was that?"
"I did what needed to be done." She shrugged again leaning forward slightly to try and take her mug back from me. Growing softly in frustration I blocked her hands.
"But Stefan? Serious?" Katherine laughed softly scratching her nails against the marble counter to pick at the junk stuck to it after the party. Licking her lips she glanced over at me.
"What can I say..."She snorted softly, flicking her hair back over her shoulder, "Desperate times and all that jazz..." Shaking her head again she swung around on the stool to look at me, "and what do you mean seriously? Stefan isn't all that bad...once you get past the whole jock thing." She shuddered slightly as she said jock. I chuckled softly rolling my eyes, leave it to Katherine, the head cheerleader, to hate her own kind.
"You're a lesbian." I reminded her gently, picking up her cup of coffee so that I could take a swallow of the now cold liquid. Katherine slid off of the barstool and slipped past me towards the entrance of the kitchen, rolling her eyes as she went.
"Just because I'm with you-know-who doesn't make me a lesbian." She quipped softly, "After all I dated you." I scowled, glaring at her as she started to giggle, "But seriously Damon, it's called bisexual...and besides," She shrugged slightly a smile curling the corner of her lips, "...a girls gotta have her fun." She was laughing to herself as she walked out of the kitchen and as much as I wanted to follow after her, I didn't dare leave Elena any longer, just in case she woke up while I was gone. When I got to my room, Elena was beginning to get restless in her sleep, reaching for me subconsciously. Stripping down to my boxers I climbed back into bed with her, circling my arms around her body and pulling her against my chest. She settled down instantly, snuggling closer to my body and letting out a content little breath. Smiling softly to myself I started to relax, letting my eyes fall shut.
The next morning I woke up to the feeling of fingers tracing over the skin of my bare chest. I didn't even remember falling asleep the night before and was wondering why the hell I was half naked. Licking my lips I tried to remember what the hell had happened and who was groping me, the fingers sliding down lower to trace over the skin of my abs, the feeling of those fingers doing weird things to my stomach...
Elena!
It was Elena who was touching me. My stomach clenched, my eyes flying open. She had started to pull her hand away the moment that she felt me tense up...but I couldn't let her do that, I wanted her touching me.
"Good morning..."I whispered, taking her hand into mine and lifting it up so that I could press my lips softly to her palm. I smiled turning so that I could look down at her. She was propped up on her elbow, her hair looking like she had been tumbling around in bed for the last few hours and a sleepy smile curled over her lips.
"Morning." She whispered back, meekly, not at all sounding like my Elena... I paused with that thought...
She was MY Elena.
Just like I was hers.
Smiling to myself it took me a moment to realize that she was still talking to me, even as the last words that I wanted to hear passed from those extremely distracting lips of hers.
"We still need to talk." Damn it! I knew that she was going to bring that up...
Why? Why would she bring that up? Groaning softly I let go of her hand so that I could push my fingers back through my hair.
"Do we have too?" I whined softly, thumping my head back against the headboard. It was absolutely the last thing that I wanted to be discussing at that point. Hell I was I even to the point where I would rather go a round with Giuseppe then be having this conversation with her. It's not that I didn't want to help her understand everything, it wasn't that I didn't want things to be different because I did I just could imagine how bad this conversation was going to go- it seemed like all Elena and I could do anymore was fight with each other.
"Yes Damon, we have to have this conversation." Shaking her head she started to climb out of my bed, and I couldn't let that happen. Swearing softly I reached over to grab her arm and pulled her back into the bed with me, pushing my hand up under the open part of her shirt, my thumb stroking along the smooth skin of her side.
"Okay, fine, we'll talk." I relented, pushing my hand a little higher up her side, feeling for the life of me like there were better things that we could be doing, things that included a lot less clothing and being able to feel her body against mine completely. She looked pointedly down at my hand on her stomach before cocking an eyebrow almost like she was asking me if I really thought that we would be able to have a conversation when all I really wanted to do was slide my hands along her skin...the answer...yes, yes I could if I really needed too.
"Damon." Her arms folded across her chest and she looked all stern like so reluctantly I pulled my hand away and let out a slow breath. "That's better. You said last night that you and Katherine aren't really together...what did you mean by that." Wow she just gets straight to the point doesn't she. Elena shifted uncomfortably as I thought for a moment on how to answer the question without coming off like I was completely insane- after all she had seen Katherine all over Stefan herself last night and if I said that it was because Katherine was a lesbian...err...bisexual- whatever, she wasn't likely to believe me and would believe that it was all just some game.
"Katherine and I are complicated..." From the look that she gave me I could tell that that was the wrong way to start that sentence, but hell it was the truth, we were complicated, things between the two of us were complicated and not something that most people would understand, "Katherine doesn't love me, at least not like you think and I don't love her...well as I said at least not like you think I do..."
"But you said-" The look that I gave her shut Elena up. If I was going to do this then I was going to get it all out before she started questioning me or it would never happen and things would just end up even more fucked up then they already were.
"Katherine is in love with a woman named Rebekah." I chuckled softly and pushed my fingers back through my hair, I never thought that I would be having this conversation with anyone, let alone Elena, "and she doesn't want anyone knowing about it so a couple of months ago she came to me and offered me a proposition...we act like a couple at school and around everyone else and behind closed doors we are free to be with who we want too...at the time it was the perfect solution so I agreed."
"But Damon...that just means that you're always lonely because you don't have anyone...not really." She chewed softly on her bottom lip as she thought of this, looking at me with almost pity in her eyes.
"It was perfect because I couldn't have the girl that I really wanted so I would rather be alone." Elena snorted softly and shook her head.
"Damon, you can have anyone that you want too and you know it." She countered looking down at her hands and twiddling her fingers. "I mean any girl would be lucky to have you..." I chuckled softly, leaning forward to stroke my thumb over her cheek, forcing her to look up at me rather then look down at her hands.
"Must be lucky then that the girl that I want, wants me back." Smooth line there Damon, I congratulated myself, even as I was leaning down to press my lips softly into hers. My hand on her cheek slid to the back of my neck to draw her body closer to my own even as I pressed my lips a little harder into hers. Elena protested half-heartedly against my mouth until my tongue flicked against her upper lip, and only then did she shut up. She shifted slightly on her bed until she was on her knees, her fingers curling into my hair again as she let out this breathy little sigh. Taking that as my cue I slipped my hands onto her thighs and tugged her over me until she was straddling my hips, my tongue tracing the contours of her mouth. Morning breath be damned, I didn't care anymore just so long as I could have her against me like this. The kisses started out slow and gentle until Elena accidentally nipped at my bottom lip and then they turned hungry, I wanted her and from the noises that she was making she wanted me too. She matched me stroke for stroke, her tongue against mine, the fingers that she curled into my hair, tightening as she got more into it. I groaned softly, my body starting to respond to the woman that I wanted being on top of me and just like that she froze, her body going rigged in my grasp. "What's wrong?" I questioned softly, stroking her side as I pulled back from her lips. Elena blushed bright red, chewing on her bottom lip, her body moving subconsciously against mine.
"I've never..."She went a brighter red as she stuttered out the words, "I'm mean I-..." She whimpered softly as she trailed off, chewing harder on her bottom lip, "I'm a virgin." She finally blurted out. The news knocked me off balance, and I found myself gaping at her slightly...how was she...but the more that I found myself thinking about it the more that I realized that I had never really seen her with anyone and that she had told me that Stefan had stolen her first kiss...holy shit. Elena was a virgin. How the hell had I missed that? "But I want you…"She whispered softly, stuttering as she said it, her hand reaching up to stroke down along my chest, a move that was making my thoughts all flow down to my head. Gathering up her courage she trailed her hand down until it was resting just above my boxers, "I want you Damon." And as much as I wanted her too the word virgin was glaring at me and I couldn't ignore it.
"Elena wait," I began reaching down for her hand, instantly knowing that I had made the mistake as she pulled away from me, folding in slightly on herself.
"I know that I'm not as experienced as the other girls that you've been with..."She started to tear up slightly, climbing off of my lap and folding her arms across her waist as she did, "But that doesn't mean that I cant be just as good." She whimpered softly, rubbing her arms as she turned away from me. "Did I do something wrong?" Shaking my head I stood up and reached for her, leaning down to press my lips softly to her shoulder.
"I want you Elena..."I murmured softly, needing to reassure her that it wasn't like that, "I just want to do this right." Elena shook her head and turned towards me, biting slightly at her lip as her eyes show with tears like I had rejected her.
"What does that even mean?" She demanded softly, even as I drew her close to me again. "I want you to show me...Show me that you want me Damon." And at that point no matter what, I found that I could no longer deny her, I would give her what she wanted.
A/N- So yeah...that's the end of this chapter and I know that a lot of you are going to be mad that I cut it off where I did but I felt that it was only right to do that. As always thank you to everyone that read reviewed and followed, they mean the world to me and I truly take all of your suggestions to heart. Next chapter we will be back to Elena's POV, and it should be a long chapter considering everything that we have covered in the last two of Damon's, but as a forewarning it might take a little longer then usual because I have midterms this next week and those are a bitch...but I will update as soon as is humanly possible. :) Please don't forget to review... I think that I've ranted enough. Until next time, happy reading.