IM ALIVE! Im so sorry it's taking so long to get this chapter out, school is a killer. This is only part of chapter 10, something off an offering, i hope the real chapter 10 will be put soon, its currently being betad. But Kolie has had some problems with her comp and such. So if you want a betad chapter you'll have to wait, or you can has a chapter unbetaed and riddlesd with eroors. I only spell checked this part of the chapter so if you see any mistakes please ignore them.

I promis Shuichi will wake up in chapter 11. I sware it. So i hope that'll cheer you up.

Thank you everyone whos been reviewing, you review have just blowen me away, i love you all.

And one more promis, i promis i will finish this story, there may be delays now and then, but it will get finished. Summer holidays soon woo hoo

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Hiro sat on the edge of the fountain skimming his fingertips over the surface of the water, causing the glassy surface to ripple, making his reflection look like an abstract painting. He liked the way his reflection looked now, so he continued to run his fingers over the water, he knew if he stopped he would see a reflection he didn't like. Eyes red and puffy, lips red from were he'd been biting them, chewing them thoughtfully. He would see his face, his stupid idiot face.

Why had he kissed him? Why? It made no sense to him, sure Hiro felt an attraction towards the man, he intrigued him, Hiro wanted to be close to the man find out more about him.

It all started when K had stood so close to Hiro that he could feel the warmth radiate off the man, then he'd started to cry. All the emotions of the past few days catching up on him. Then he'd stood closer, resting his head against the firm chest. He'd felt somehow relived then, being able to cry, just cry silently. And K had gently patter his back, like a parent comforting its child. And Hiro had just wanted to feel that comfort, but he wanted to be closer, warmer. And before the though was even processed by his brain he'd kissed his teacher. Damn.

A green blur had joined the abstract painting, that hadn't been there before. He stilled his had and let the water return to its still form. Reflected in it now was his face in sharp detail, and the green blur behind him was Suguru, just who he didn't want to see. He didn't want the boy to see him like this again, so he said nothing, just stared at the boys reflection hoping he'd leave but also hoping he'd stay.

The reflection grew bigger as the boy moved closer and he sat down next to Hiro on the edge of the fountain not saying a word, just staring into the water like Hiro was. They sat in silence for a while and Hiro started to feel nervous, he could feel Suguru watching him out the corner of his eye waiting for him to say something. Hiros fingers started to skate nervously over the water again distorting their reflections. He heard Suguru sigh and finally he spoke.

"Wanna talk about it?" Hiro said nothing, not relay sure of the answer. He was startled out of his train of though as he was splashed with ice cold water, he spluttered slightly and looked up to Sugurus face which was smiling at him, eyes alight with laughter.

"Well that got your attention."

Hiro just glared at the boy, but he gave up after a few seconds, it was hard to glare at someone who was laughing at you.

"I kissed him."

Suguru raised an eyebrow, surprised that Hiro actually spoke.

"Who?"

"K-sensei."

Sugurus eyes bugged out of his head and his jaw almost hit the water, it was a comical sight and Hiro couldn't help but chuckle. There was also a shadow in the boys eyes, saddness?

After picking up his jaw and composing his features into a serious expression the boy spoke again.

"Awkward," Suguru stared thoughtfully at the water, "did he kiss you back?"

Hiro shook his head. Suguru regarded him thoughtfully.

"Do you love him?" Hiros hand stopped, his whole body tensed and he took on the look of a statue, eyes emotionless, face not giving anything away.

"I... i don't know," Hiros shoulders slumped in defeat, "i thought i did, i was always thinking about him, i was always watching him. But...it didn't feel how i though it would, there was...nothing there. Nothing." he whispered as his hands continued its dance over the water.

Suguru stayed were he was, starring at his reflection, Hiro was glad, he didn't need pity right now.

"If you want, i'll come with you when you go talk to him," Hiro froze again.

"I...i can't." he said pathetically.

"You have to, at least say sorry, you still have another few years left in his class, do you want it to be awkward all the time?" Hiros shoulders slumped again. Suguru had too much common sense for a teenager.

He had a point, a horribly sharp, clear, unavoidable point. He had to talk to K. After all he did have another 4 years left. They would be hell if he didn't make some sort of amends with the teacher. But where to begin?

"Hey lets go get a drink or something, take your mind off things."

Hiro smiled slightly, trying to imagine Suguru drunk, somehow he couldn't imagine it, "Your underage." Hiro said quietly, Suguru scowled.

(I did my research, the legal drinking age in Japan is 20, but you can get drinks from vending machines on any street so how they manage to enforce the law is beyond me.)

"So are you," Suguru retorted, "no one needs to know that anyway." Hiro laughed, he hadn't seen this side of the boy before, he kind of liked it. He was showing his teenage side for once.

"I can't...i'd feel...bad. Going out and having fun with Shuichi in the hospital and now this."

"Then pretend your someone else, just for tonight," Suguru smiled "forget everytihng."

Hiro still looked reluctant. But a part of him wanted to go. Forgetting his problems, for one night, seemed tempting.

"All right lets go," he jumpped to his feet and took long purpasfull strides. Trying to look more confident than he was. He looked at Suguru to make sure the boy was following him, he seriously doubted the boy would pass for 20, hell even he could just about pass for 20, if worst came to worst they could just get some drinks from a vending machine and go back to one of their dorms to drink.

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Tokyo was beautiful in the mid afternoon, its was like the calm before the storm, people rushing home from staying late at work and a few early parties graced its streets. Hiro knew it would get rather hectic soon as students, and other young people who inhabited the city and surrounding areas poured into it for the night life.

The streets were still packed though but there was a calmness to the people.

The first place they tried was a rather posh looking club, Hiro didn't even know why they bothered to try there, it looked like a members only affair. But they walked up to the door confidently. The guard just eyed them suspiciously, as soon as he laid eyes on Suguru, Hiro swore the man stared to laugh.

"Passes?" he asked politely around his chuckles, Suguru seemed oblivious. Hiro just smiled and walked away. There relay hadn't been any point in trying.

They walked around a bit longer, trying different bars and clubs but each time someone lay eyes on Suguru they were politely refused entry. After trying ten different places Hiro was starting to get annoyed, his craving for a drink had been growing and growing and now he was ready to kill anybody that stood in his way to get it.

They reached a karaoke bar and Hiro yelled in triumph, anyone could use the karaoke, you just had to be old enough to buy the drinks there. And Hiro felt confident he could easily pass for 20, if not he hopped his charms would do the trick. He grab Sugurus arm and dragged him into the place a manic glint in his eye. He relay wanted to get wasted tonight and forget everything.

The small woman behind the desk seemed to be taking a nap and woke with a start when Hiro and Suguru burst through the doors, well Hiro burst through the doors, Suguru was dragged.

She looked a bit reluctant to give them a room, but she could hardly refuse customers, so she took their money and gave them a key to one of the karaoke rooms.

Their room was on the top floor and gave a great view of the city. There were bean bags and other small puffy chairs covering every space possible. A karaoke machine nestled in the corner a tv next to it where the lyric would appear. Suguru slouched into one of the bean bags gratefully and sighed. The walls were covered in odd material that looked like something you'd find in a white padded room but they were probably there to sound proof the room. He offered a smile to Hiro but the other man was already halfway to the door.

"Going to get drink, be right back," he said cheerfully before leaving Suguru alone. The boy sighed and let his head flop back so he was half lying down staring at the ceiling.

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Ok thats the end of this little preview. I might add more later, but hopefully the betad chapter will be ready soon. Well i'll see you all later. Please send your get well soon card to Shuichi, im sure he'll apreiciate it.