Hi, Nerds! So I'm alive so thats nice. It's been awhile, but this is a long ass chapter so it make up for it (hopefully!) Enjoy your reading. And also, before I forget, I want to thank ShadeFireDragon for betaing. they have been such a HUGE help and you can really see the improvement. I am so thankful for the criticism and tips! thank you so much! I'm just gonna let you beautiful nerds get to reading now...Chapter 11- Back to Hogwarts… Again

The next couple days of winter Holiday went quickly at Grimmauld Place. They were filled with laughs, pranks, revenge, glares, and fireworks. But like all things, it had to come to an end. It was soon January 4th, which meant that the students would have to head back to school. For the first time since he started Hogwarts, Harry was dreading going back. Once he did, he would have to deal with Umbitch again, and he didn't think anyone would want to deal with that sorry excuse for a human. Ever.

"Kids! Get ready! We're leaving for the platform!" echoed Mrs. Weasley's voice throughout 12 Grimmauld Place with a chorus of the children confirming that they were finishing getting their stuff together.

The ten teens made their way down the stairs one by one. Harry took the longest since he had to talk to Snape about something or other. When all of them were finally downstairs and ready, Molly shrunk their trunks so they could drop them in their pockets. The older Sirius pulled Harry aside, and gave him a package. He then whispered something into Harry's ear, quiet enough so that the rest of the Marauders couldn't hear what he said. He winked at the four teens before hugging Harry and walking away. Tonks- who was disguised as an old woman- and the older Remus were in charge of getting the minors to the platform safely. They decided that the Knight Bus would be the best way to get to 9 without drawing too much attention to either the safe house or Harry.

The bus pulled up and after some threats from Tonks, the bus driver kept quiet that they had Harry Potter on the bus. The twelve people boarded the bus to see a clutter of mismatched chairs scattered all throughout the bus. The bus trip wasn't terribly long, but it felt like forever because the 8 teens (Hunter and Jamie were somehow under control) would keep on falling off of their seats while Remus and Tonks sat still. She told them it was because of all her Auror training. When they reached Hogsmeade, everyone got off and Tonks and Lupin told Harry something about Snape and occlumency.

Once they got to the castle, they went to the Great Hall for dinner. Harry, Hermione, and Ron talked a little bit with Neville Longbottom, Dean Thomas, and Seamus Finnigan. The boys started asking the trio because were very curious about the transfers- Hogwarts rarely ever got transfers, especially for the middle of the year. Harry assumed that they had just followed them to the Gryffindor table so he didn't think to ask them or think about it very further. Besides, they seemed like they were scheming. He would not underestimate them after Christmas.

Ron and Hermione were still awkward around each other since Christmas. Currently, Ron was sitting on his right with Hermione on his left. Whenever they talked, it was very short and there was blushing from both sides. Harry understood that his friends needed some time, but he needed them. With the new kids, and the possibility that Voldemort was literally possessing him, he needed support and help. He was jerked out of his thoughts as Dumbledore stood up after all of the students had entered the Great Hall.

"Welcome back! I hope that all of you had a wonderful winter holiday!" There was some talking that quickly diminished when Dumbledore was about to speak again. "We have four new students that are going to be in out fifth year. Misters Ryan Lewis, Hunter Brown, Jameson Poulter, and Parker Peterson please stand up?"

James and Sirius jumped up- eager to be the center of attention- while Peter and Remus stood up a little slower (Remus because of the pain of being one night away from the full moon and Peter simply because he was shy.) The four saw all eyes on them, looking with curiosity, snootiness, and mixed emotions overall.. James leaned closer to his friends and counted quietly while the others had smirks on their faces, knowing what they were about to do.

Over at the High Table, McGonagall had a horrific look on her face after seeing the Marauders huddling- that never was a good thing. She looked at the proffesor next to her who was shaking his head and putting it in his hands, groaning. McGonagall and Snape looked at each other- dread plastered on their faces.

Once Dumbledore called the four students and they stood up, McGonagall was racking her brain for anything they could possibly do with little preparation.

Sirius- or now Hunter stood up first and she saw James lean over to Peter and Remus. Sirius put a wand to his throat and casted what McGonagall could only assume was the Sonorus charm. "HELLO HOGWARTIONS!" he said as it echoed through the room. "I AM HUNTER BROWN, THE MANLIEST WHORE OF THE CENTURY-"

McGonagall stood up, and scolded the boy, "Mr. Brown! Please watch your language!"

The teenager pretened to look abashed, "Sorry, Professor!"

He then continued his introductions that blew everyone's eardrums out. "RIGHT HERE NEXT TO ME," he ruffled James's already messed up hair. "IS MY GOOD FRIEND JAMESON POULTER- QUIDDITCH EXTRAORDINAIRE- BUT YOU CAN CALL HIM JAMES IF YOU SO CHOOSE! OVER HERE IS MY OTHER FRIENDS- RYAN LEWIS- AKA MR. SMARTY-PANTS, AND FINALLY PARKER PETERSON- NOT SPIDERMAN- EVEN THOUGH HIS NAME SOUNDS LIKE IT!" There were a couple of muggle-borns or half-bloods who chuckled at the comic reference while the majority of the school was trying to figure what a man who sounded like he wrongly tried to transfigure himself into a spider had anything to do with this. "COLLECTIVELY WE'RE KNOWN AS THE SNATCHER BACHELORS," As he said this, fireworks started going off in the house colors and whoever was underneath one of them instantly turned the color of the spark that fell on them. AND WE'RE GLAD TO BE HERE TO MAKE ALL OF YOUR LITTLE BORING LIVES FUN!"

McGonagall saw that the Weasley twins both had smirks set on their faces before whispering something that she couldn't hear. She was genuinely worried about the school's safety when those six were there at the same time- especially since none of them were distracted by Quidditch since the twins were currently banned from the team after Umbridge.

She looked to her right where a fuming Dolores Umbridge sat. The ministry spy was on the verge of letting her 'sweet' facade down and yelling at the boys. Instead, she stood up while the majority of the student body groaned.

"Hem, hem," she cleared her throat. "Hello, friends! I hope that all of you had a good holiday!" she said with fake cheer. "I hope that I can get to know the new students very well and have fun teaching you!"

Throughout the hall, there were scoffs at the toad as people saw the meaning behind her words, esspecally those who had a detention with the evil bitch.

At the Gryffindor table, however, six students were scheming. The Marauders had already decided that they already hated Umbitch. And of course, like pranksters do, they were going to prank her. The Weasleys offered their help with it, and the four were not ones to turn down help- even when it came to pranks. They schemed until it was time to go to Gryffindor tower. Gred and Forge "showed" the Marauders where the Tower was even though they all could probably walk there blindfolded.

McGonagall pulled the time travelers aside and told them that they were going to be in the 5th year boys' dormitory. It wasn't the dormitory that the were in for the past 4 and a half years, but it was good enough. The room was like the one they had before this whole mess, but bigger, which was most likely because there was nine beds instead of the usual four.. The five closest to the door were decorated with posters and other personal belongings. There were four more that were the furthest that only had trunks sitting at them.

When they were at Grimmauld Place, Dumbledore visited and told them that they were to meet him as soon as possible to try to figure out how to get back to the past. He also told them that once they got to school, trunks would be provided to them.

As Peter looked around the room, he saw two other boys- one had light brown hair and a wrinkled shirt on and the other was dark-skinned and had already changed into his night clothes (a t-shirt with quidditch written on it and sweatpants that had a football and team name on the thigh).

"Hello, sorry we didn't get to meet at dinner. You mates must be Ryan, Hunter, Parker, and Jameson-" The light-haired boy said with a very strong Irish accent before he was cut off.

"You can call me James."

"I'll keep that in mind. Anyway, I'm Seamus Finnigan and this," he gestured to the dark-skinned boy, "is Dean Thomas." Dean waved.

"Nice to meet you," said Peter timidly. He didn't like being here one bit. He hated being in a different place, with different people, different names, and different appearances. Peter didn't really like the different that much. He worried constantly about slipping up and accidentally telling the truth about where they were from; he was terrible at lying, after all.

Here, he had to lie constantly and knew he would probably break- like he always did. Before, he usually just layed all of his problems down on Remus or James- though James would rarely ever listen and would always change the subject and Remus had other things always on his mind. He didn't even try to talk to Sirius for he would probably mock and make fun of Peter.

Peter had been the last to join the Marauders and he could see why. He was nothing special. He was not good at anything, funny, innovative, athletic, or smart. He was just average. All of the others had something going for them that would actually mean something in their later lives.. Sirius had his wit and looks, James had his athletic-ness, Remus had his brain, and Peter… well Peter was just there. He didn't have anything that set him apart from everyone else. He prefered to stay in the shadows and not be noticed as much.

He had been the last person to become an animagus. He was the reason that Remus had to be alone to transform for so long. It was all because of him. James and Sirius had been able to transform since the middle of fourth year. It was all his fault. He worried constantly that all of his friends would leave him. They never seemed like they ever needed him, he was worthless.

He sometimes overheard his parents' conversations talking about how they should have another child to carry on the Pettigrew name because they both had given up the hope that he would ever find a wife and have kids.

At some points, he felt like no one cared for him. Like he was disposable. Like no one would care if he disappeared. If he died, no one would even care or notice that he was gone. No one would hold a funeral. No one would remember him. No one. Nothing. He would just… disappear.

While lost in thought, Peter was getting ready to go to bed. He layed in the comfort of the homey four poster bed. He also noticed that Harry and Ron were in the room. That was weird, he didn't remember them coming in.The lights went out and Peter heard one by one the boys fall asleeps. The breaths in the room normalized, and the snores began. Petter lied still, looking at the top of his bed. He felt his eyes ache, the feeling when you want to stay awake but your body tries to fall asleep without your brain's permission.

He had one more clear thought before falling asleep. One thought that he would remember when he woke up, and long after, though he may forget the things leading up towards it.

No one deserves to disappear.

To be honest, the internal monologue made me cry while writing. I went to a thing at my school about anxiety and how to deal with it and one of the ways was to write about it, so that's what I did- through Peter. In a couple ways, I see myself in (young) Peter, so I put some of my own thoughts, feelings, fears, and anxieties in there too. I'm sure that the person didn't mean write about it through fan fiction, but eh, whatever. Oh and also, I've decided to respond to comments and yeah...

solangelo21-

Pleeeeeeease update soon!

Done! I'm sorry that I take forever to update, but I am updating 2 others i a cycle. I already have the chapter for Cho Chase (the next one) finished and I will update that tomorrow and then I have to get started on the chapter of The Bet, so it'll probably be 2-4 weeks before I can update this particular one again. I get that this is a long time, but im my perspective, I am updating 3 chapters in 2-3 weeks which is pretty cool especially for someone who is taking 3 hour long tests that are 6 days, bur spread out over 3 weeks.