Chapter 11

Edward's Point Of View

I was running towards my wounded angel as fast as my legs would carry me, with as much force as I could force out of my body; it was going to be so close.

Dry sobs racked though my body; my whole body was shaking in fear and pain and guilt; if I failed my angel now, everything we had survived these last few months would die in vain. I was so selfish and foolish and stupid. I was stupid to think that leaving Bella in the house with no one home; that she would have understood, she couldn't understand, because I never got the chance to explain to her.

"What ever happened to 'Bella always comes first' did you misunderstand you complete idiot! Now she is dying in your meadow because you selfishly shut your soul mate out because you were struggling. Bella tried to help you and you just slapped her in the face and walked away; some gentleman you are!" My thoughts screamed at me.

I was close now; I could smell Bella's sweet scent and it held absolutely no allure for me-yes it was sweet and I wanted it-but the monster in me had been silenced again; he was no where to be found. It would be exactly like Alice's vision; just after I saved Bella from getting hit by Tyler Crowley's van in the school parking lot. My siblings and I had our worst fight yet; the day I realized I loved my Bella. The day the monster in me was silenced for what I thought was forever.

I saw the Volvo parked with the driver side door open; I ran past it. I could hear Bella screaming and screeching in agony; I could also here the others coming up behind me.

"Edward...stop! Just wait for us please. Let us help you." Carlisle thoughts were a mix of authority and a gentle concern.

"Stop! Are you insane, can you not hear her screaming!" I shouted slowing my pace-unwillingly-Carlsile was right and if I had any self respect left I would listen to him.

The rest of my family caught up to me quickly and we ran together; I could hear Bella's rapid heart beat, it was beating dangerously fast. Too much for my liking or Carlisle's. Bella's screams were cries of pure pain-it was like someone was torturing her alive.

Out of no where Jasper cried out in agony and fell to his knees.

"Jasper! Alice cried out running to his side. Jasper was gripping his chest and gasping for air.

"Bella...so much pain! She's in pure agonizing pain!" Jasper gasped out; still clutching at his chest. Jasper willed himself up on his feet and we all took off running again.

I broke through the trees first into the sun lit meadow to find my Bella lying on the ground writhing in pain as if someone had lit her on fire; the others came only seconds after I did.

"Is she bleeding?" Carlisle asked quickly.

"No, just screaming...please help her!" I begged falling to my knees; I took Bella in my arms. It had no effect. Bella was still writhing in pain.

"The poor girl." Esme sobbed standing a few feet away.

I tried to calm her, I tried to call out to her and tell her that I was here for her-that I had not left her-that I was not going to leave.

"Please Bella calm down!' I begged as I sobbed un-shed-able tears "I am here Bella, your Edward is here." I promise her again and again; and still nothing.

Carlisle was going to give Bella something to help her sleep and calm down; her heart beat was so rapid it could very well have exploded in her chest.

"Hold her still Edward!" Carlisle commanded.

"I'm trying, I do not want to hurt her by restraining her."

Jasper?" Alice whispered.

Jasper was again on the ground clutching at his chest trying desperately trying to gasp for air. Alice held his curled body in her little arms as best she could.

"She should be dead...how is she still alive?" He asked no one. "No human should survive this pain."

"Help her Jazzy...please for me!" Alice cried "Please Jazzy."

Jasper used all of his willl to get to his feet and lean over Bella's writhing body and gripped her out of my arms; I made no move to stop him.

"She should be dead...no human should survive this pain" Jasper's words clawed at my mind and shattered my heart into millions of tiny pieces-each piece was a piece of Bella and all the hurt and pain I have ever caused her-shattered yet still whole and un beating. It made me think of how much pain Bella's beating heart was in; I could hear her blood pulsing though her veins at the speed of light and her screams and shrieks of pain made me want to cover my ears and cringe away.

"Why is it not working?" I asked. No answer.

Then if it was not enough to shatter my heart from all of the pain I had caused my Bella; she cried out for death.

"Please some one kill me, please end my pain!" Bella screamed. "He left me, he killed me!"

I howled in agony.

"Please end my pain and suffering. I can not live without him. Please just kill me now!"

"Her mind is going to snap! Edward...we maybe to late this time. I am so sorry. Bella thinks she is dying in pain; she doesn't know we are trying to help her." Carlisle said to me in his thoughts; to spare the others until we knew for sure what we-No! what I done to her-again.

While lost in my thoughts Bella's writhing calmed; Carlisle was finally able to giver her the medicine she needed so badly; Bella's heart beat started to calm and her screaming stopped but her pleading did not end. Jasper also worked with Carlsile and used an almost deadly force of calm and peace to help calm her.

"Thank you for ending my pain." Bella mumbled; her eye lids started to droop and close.

"She thinks..." Carlsile choked out "she thinks we killed her?" It was a question and an answer wrapped into one.

"NO! How could she think that!" Rosalie cried out.

Esme kneeled down beside Carlsile and rubbed his back soothingly. "We don't know that, for sure." Esme offered trying to comfort Carlisle, herself and the rest of us.

"I am going to rip you to pieces...you selfish bastard! If Bella didn't love you so much I would light you on fire and let you watch the pieces burn." Rosalie was beyond livid with me; she was murderous towards me.

Emmett was no better. "If I ever catch you...you will be so sorry you ever existed."

"How could you Edward! All you had to do was talk to her! All you had to do was talk to her thought the door!" Esme thought sobbing in Carlisle's arms.

"He's gone...they left me...promises mean nothing...why...why? Bella started to mumble in her sleep. "Why...do...you...not...want...me?" She asked. "Why...do...you...not...love...me?"

"Run Edward, run for your existence!" Rosalie threatened crouching down.

A cry of pain came of Bella's lips while she slept and steady tears began to flow her cheeks.

"Jasper, give her to Edward; let's go home so we can discuss this and let Bella get some rest. If I am correct...Bella will be very...disoriented when she wakes." Carlisle said out loud; but in his head the thoughts were so dissaponited and the disappointment was so much worse than his anger.

"Never have I been more dissaponited in you Edward; what have you done to her? You will fix this and give Bella what ever she wants or desires! Even if it means us leaving again. Bella has never asked anything from you; from any of us. We forced her into her birthday party and looked how that turned out; and now you force into darkness and cause her so much pain she was begging for death!"

I shuddered once before picking Bella up in my arms. Bella felt heavier than normal even as she slept.