Reality

Chapter 11: Loss and Pain

Tobias' POV:

Tris just went unconscious in my arms, after telling me they killed our baby. She was pregnant? I don't know. She's bleeding a lot, from both her back and down below. And Caleb was here, beating her, working for Jeanine, betraying her. I fucking hate Erudite.

I pick Tris up, bridal style, and rush her out of Erudite. I take her to one of the medical trucks we have ready to go back to Dauntless, I climb in and sit on the floor next to her.

"What happened to her?" Hana and Natalie ask at the same time.

"She was beaten by Caleb and Peter, she said something about them killing our baby before going unconscious, I don't know."

Natalie gasps when I mention Caleb working for Erudite, and beating his own sister. I see tears prick in her eyes. The truck starts to move and I don't let go of Tris' hand, neither does Natalie.

When we get back to Dauntless I pick Tris up and we rush to the infirmary, Hana managed to clean Tris' back up a bit but she's still in bad shape. We get there and I put her on a bed. Some nurses take her away and didn't let us three go with her. So we wait in the waiting room. My head is in my hands as silent tears line my cheeks.

I don't know how long we wait for. It feels like an eternity. But finally a nurse comes out and calls for us.

I rush over to her.

"Is Tris okay?" I ask, worried, scared, and angry.

"She's lost a lot of blood so she's weak, but we're giving her a blood transfusion so she should be okay. The belt marks on her back are going to leave permanent scars unfortunately, but we managed to clean and stitch them, but she's going to be in pain for a while, we'll give her pain medicine, but we can't now because we need to wait for her to wake up. There is a chance she might not feel anything, that she'll be paralysed, but we won't know until she wakes up and tells us how she's feeling. But if she's in pain, that's good, we'll give her the pain meds she needs. We took a blood sample and there are signs of a recent miscarriage, like really recent. We worked out that someone gave her miscarriage serum and that is why. I'm guessing Jeanine or someone gave it to her. There were signs of struggle and she has quite a few bruises on her arms and waist. They will heal in a few weeks. But she'll be okay. You can go and see her, but only a maximum of two people at a time. When she wakes up press the call button and I will be there to see how she is."

I just nod and the nurse walks away.

They really did kill our baby. Did Tris know she was pregnant? Why didn't she tell me if she did?

"You two can go see her. I'll explain to everyone else what's going on when they get here." Hana says.

Natalie and I go to Tris' room and when I see her, lying in the bed, pale with blue and black patches on her arms, I just want to cry. What the hell did they do to her?

We sit in the chairs on either side of the bed and both of us take one of Tris' hands.

"Did you know Tris was pregnant?" I ask Natalie.

"No, I don't think she knew either, Tobias. She wasn't having any symptoms, she wasn't behaving any differently. She wouldn't have been that far along. They must have tested her in Erudite then gave her the serum. I'm sorry. But I believe you'll have a family one day. Also, she would have told you if she was pregnant."

I just nod and continue looking at Tris in silence.

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Tris' POV:

I open my eyes and the first thing I see is brightness. But as my vision adjusts and I look around I see that I am in a room, in the Dauntless infirmary. I can tell because of the black door. I see my mum and Tobias sitting in the chairs on either side of my bed. Both of them are holding my hands.

There is pain in my belly, and my back kills.

They killed my baby. They killed Tobias' baby. They killed our baby.

My arms are bruised and I'm sure my sides are as well, I can feel it. I'm being given blood through a needle in the back of my left hand, the one that mum is holding. She's the only blood family I have left now. Caleb's left us. Betrayed us.

Tears fill my eyes and I choke on a sob. Causing both of them to wake up. The two people I love the most.

They move so they are sitting on the bed, on either side of me.

I just cry whilst they try to comfort me. Tobias presses the call button and soon a nurse walks in.

"Good, you're awake. How are you feeling?"

"My belly hurts, my back is killing me, my arms and waist hurt." I answer, still crying.

"Okay. I'll go and get you some morphine." She leaves and comes back minutes later with a bag of morphine and a drip. She puts the needle in my arm and hangs the morphine on the pole the blood is on. As soon as the morphine is in my body I am free of pain. I begin to relax but I'm still crying.

The nurse leaves us.

"What did they do to you Tris?" Tobias asks me, carefully, I know he probably doesn't want to know the answer, but he wants to help me.

"I woke up in a cell, Peter and Caleb came to get me. I told Caleb about dad but he just told me to shut up, he said he didn't care. And he shocked me, turns out they put something in me that shocked me whenever they pressed the button. They took me to a lab and threw me on a table before strapping me to it by my arms and legs. Jeanine came in and ordered a blood test to see if that could tell her anything about my Divergence. And to see if I was pregnant, because if I was there was a really high chance that he or she would be Divergent as well, because you are as well. She said that if I was then she'd kill it. Caleb came back with the results and she told me I was pregnant and went to get the serum. I was struggling, hoping that if I continued to struggle she couldn't inject me. But Caleb and Peter held me down, hard, by my waist, and she did it. It hurt so much. I tried to fight it. I tried so, so hard, to fight it. But I couldn't. And it's strange because I can fight every other serum. But then I started bleeding and I knew the baby was dead. I didn't really have time to think before someone injected me with something else. It was a fear serum. I was in a graveyard, there was a little coffin being lowered into the ground, I knew it had our baby in there. Then you were there, Tobias, and you hated me. You said I killed our baby. Then you tried to kill me. But then I noticed that your eyes were the wrong shade of blue so I knew it wasn't real. I woke up and Jeanine was angry. She shouted at me, asking me to tell her how I knew it wasn't real. I didn't tell her at first but she shouted again, and Caleb shocked me again. I told her it was all in the details. She was mad. She asked Peter and Caleb to take me back to my cell and give me a good one. They took me back, threw me to the floor and started beating me. That's when you came."

They were both crying by the end and I was sobbing. Tobias holds me in his arms as we cry, together. Mourning the loss of our child.

My mum kisses my forehead and tells us she'll give us some time. Then she's gone.

"I'm sorry I couldn't protect you." He tells me.

"It's not your fault, Tobias. They shot you with something. I love you."

"I love you, too. And I love our baby. But we'll have a family one day. I promise."

I just nod.

"What's happening with Jeanine and everyone?" I question.

"Well, Jeanine, Caleb, Peter, Max and Eric were captured and we've got them in Candor ready for a trial. Which will take place next week. Jeanine is under extra charges, for testing on an innocent, for killing an unborn baby, for starting a war, for being the cause of death for multiple people, for planning to kill an innocent, and a few others. Caleb and Peter are for multiple charges as well, for working with Jeanine, for abuse, for working with the person who killed the unborn baby, and some others. Max and Eric are just for working with Jeanine, but that one alone means doing multiple things. So none of them are going to get it easy."

"I want our baby back."

"I know, I do, too. But we'll have a baby one day. I promise."

We stay like that for a while, crying, in each other's arms. Hoping that one day everything will be all right.

Hey Ravens, how are you?

I've just put up the first chapter of my new hunger games fanfic, could you please go and read it? It's about Katniss realising her love for Peeta on the Victory tour, and her actually being pregnant in the Quell. And so much more. So go take a look, if you have read the hunger games anyway.

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