AN: Alright this is where I pick the story up after the manga stopped. I decided to do it this way because it fits the story line better. I also think this will be the last chapter let's call it a bonus chapter.
Secrets of my Heart chp.11
Just as Tiedoll was about to walk off he stopped and turned to his beautiful student as he got a serious look "Kanda I thought you should know." He lowered his gaze "Rea is dead."
Kanda's eyes widened "W-What!" He was in a state of shock for a moment and somewhat confused as he shook his head and walked forward grabbing Tiedoll by the front of the jacket and through gritted teeth "What the hell happened? You were supposed to be training her!"
Tiedoll lowered his gaze again "It was an akuma attack." Kanda didn't understand just how an akuma could have killed her "S-she could transport." He looked away slowly then his head quickly snapped back to look at Tiedoll "Just tell me what happened?!"
Tiedoll reached up and removed Kanda's hand from his jacket as he smiled slightly "There is something else and you might want to follow me. Let's just say she left something for you. I came to find you to deliver it."
Kanda looked around "Well what is it give it to me." Tiedoll started to walk off as he waved his hand over his shoulder "Come with me and I'll show you."
Kanda groaned at Tiedoll leading him on a goose chase thinking he could have given him the thing right where they were. He shook his head as he followed his master. It was then as they rounded the corner he saw Tiedoll walk into a hotel. 'What the hell is this?' Kanda thought as he reluctantly followed him "Oi Come on I don't have all day. The moyashi is getting away."
Tiedoll proceeded up the stairs as Kanda followed behind him wishing he could just kill the man right now for dragging him her for something. As Tiedoll got to the room door he put his finger to his lips "Sssssh you have to be quiet."
Kanda just gave him a puzzled look and turned his head to the side "Che." It was then Tiedoll opened the door and they both walked in. Kanda looked around and noticed there was a woman sitting in a chair and he looked back to Tiedoll "What is this? You have brought me here for nothing!" Just then he heard a whimper that turned into a cry…a baby's cry. The woman got up and walked across the room to a crib that Kanda hadn't even noticed.
Tiedoll smiled slightly "I told you to be quiet" he said walking over by the woman then making baby goo goo noises to the baby in her arms. Looking up at Kanda he smiled slightly "This is what Rea left you Kanda. It is your daughter. I named her Kei."
Kanda completely froze in the spot he was in 'A baby?' he thought as he stood there and let it process for a moment then he sternly replied "I can't take care of a baby. I'm in the middle of a mission."
Tiedoll then walked slowly over to him "You wanted to know what happened to Rea. Well she lost her life protecting your daughter Kanda. After she gave birth we were then surrounded by akuma. She gave the baby to me and in her drained state she fought with every last bit of energy she had then one came up behind her and snapped her neck before she could transport."
Kanda stood there motionless for a moment thinking about how scared she must have been at that moment. He clinched his fist as he turned to Tiedoll "I have never even dealt with a baby before. I can't take her I don't know how to care for her."
Tiedoll sighed "Well Kanda you're going to have to because you're all this baby has."
The woman walked closer to Kanda and smiled slightly while she softly said "Well now I know where she gets her gorgeous skin color and facial features from. She is a beautiful baby I must say." As she held the baby up to Kanda so he could see her.
Kanda looked at his daughter and sighed, shaking his head he turned to Tiedoll and very coldly said "I cannot care for her." Then he turned and began to walk out the door as Tiedoll then yelled "WELL THEN KANDA I GUESS WE'LL JUST PUT HER IN AN ORPHANAGE" hoping that would stop his stubborn pupil. He knew Kei needed to be with Kanda and he hoped Kanda would take her. It would be good for Kanda he thought and after all this was his daughter.
Kanda stopped dead in his tracks and stood there a moment. He didn't know how to feel anything at this point but what he did know is he didn't want her going to an orphanage. As he stood there thoughts rushed through his head 'What are you doing? Keep walking. Why did I stop?' Then more things flooded his mind 'I have always wanted something to call my own. This is my flesh and blood. I-I never thought I could have children?' he then began to remember all the things that happened to him when he was younger. The terror, the experiments, the pain. He then slowly turned back around and walked over to the woman and sternly said "She will not go to an orphanage." His gaze went to Tiedoll "H-How do I take her with me?"
Tiedoll smiled as he turned to the woman who handed him the baby. She then picked up a piece of cloth and walked up to Kanda "You have to put this around you."
He gave her a puzzling look "Oi Why?" giving him a strange look back she replied "Why to carry the baby of course."
Kanda sighed "Hai go ahead." She motioned to his jacket "You have to take that off" Kanda sighed as he removed his jacket and she placed it on him and did some twists and turns as he stood there and she stepped back "There." He felt utterly ridiculous with this thing on him as he looked down at it the turned his head "Che. I look like an idiot."
The woman then got the baby from Tiedoll and placed it in the papoose looking thing on Kanda's chest. Kanda looked down and shook his head "Oi I have no idea how to use this contraption." The woman explained that the cloth held the baby in place against him. She then handed him a bag "There are bottles in there along with diapers. You have to wash the diapers after each use. She needs to be feed every two to three hours. There is milk in there but warm it some, not too hot though."
Wanting to get on his way Kanda just waved his hand "Oi I got it…I got it." Then he gave Tiedoll a glare and turned and walked out with bag and baby in tow.
Tiedoll raised his hand to his head "Oh god what did I just do? I hope he can handle this."
Kanda walked out onto the street knowing full well with a baby strapped to him he couldn't very well go after the moyashi and Johnny so he inhaled deeply. The baby moved and he froze thinking maybe she was going to fall out of this odd ball contraption this woman had put on him. There was a slight chill in the air as he pulled his jacket around the baby.
A few hours later he found himself engulfed in a baby's screams wondering what the hell to do as he got a hotel room and then went up to the room. He took the baby out of the papoose looking thing and laid her on the huge bed as he stared at her.
"Oi are you hungry?" He remembered what the woman said about the bottle so he warmed the milk some and filled it. Then he gave it to the baby not knowing he had to hold it for her. So as it rolled off her he got some what frustrated "Oi I don't know how to do this!" He picked the baby up which looked like he'd never held a baby before and opened the door walking into the hallway.
At that moment there happened to be an old woman standing in the hallway and as she saw the way Kanda was holding the baby she screamed "OH MY GOD WHAT ARE YOU DOING!" as she ran over and took the baby from him.
Kanda all of a sudden got angry at that point "Oi, what the hell are you doing!? She is mine give her back!"
The old woman smiled as she cooed at the baby then looked at Kanda "First time father?"
He reached up and scratched his head "Hai I have no clue what to do. She won't stop crying." The woman smiled as she felt Kei's diaper "She needs a change and she's probably hungry." Giving her a puzzling look "Oi, how do you know that?"
She smiled "I have five of my own dear" She motioned to the room "Come on I'll show you how to do this." Kanda looked around and figured he could use the help as he led the old woman into his room. The old woman took her shawl off and went to work as she showed Kanda how to change a diaper and then how to feed his daughter. She showed him how to wash out the diaper and hang it to dry. She even showed him how to hold Kei and as she feed her she looked at him "I don't mean to pry dear but where is her mother?"
Kanda's gaze lowered "She is dead." Kanda knew he wasn't much of the father type. As he watched this old woman with his daughter he tried to remember everything she told him and did. He had a lot to learn he thought but he would raise his daughter even if he wasn't the most loving father.
(Five years later)
Kanda was sleeping when Kei walked up to his bed and she tapped him on the forehead. He opened one eye and sternly asked "Oi Kei what is it?"
Kei was holding her teddy bear with her big blue eyes staring at him "Daddy I'm scared. There's a monster in my room."
Kanda leaned up on his elbow and stared at her "Oi Kei, I killed all the monster's before you went to bed." She knew that but she just wanted her father to love her more. He wasn't a very affectionate father and he didn't cuddle her the way she wished he would.
Kanda was trying to do his best as a father and over the years his daughter had actually opened his heart up to where he was able to feel love. As he stared at her standing there he sighed slightly as he pulled the covers back and patted next to him "Oi this is the only time alright?" She smiled brightly as she jumped up on the bed and scooted down next to him as he covered her up. She knew it wasn't the only time because he said the same thing the night before.
As Kanda awoke the next morning he opened one eye slowly feeling something on his face. He knew what it was as he smirked slightly reaching up and picking Kei's foot up off his cheek. She always ended up turned to the end of the bed and he wondered how the hell she did that. But he sat her foot down and threw the covers over her as he took his brush and began to brush his hair. It was then he felt the bed move "Daddy you have such pretty hair can I brush it?" He smiled handing her the brush as she brushed his hair for him. This was their morning routine as she finished he pointed to between his knees "Oi, Now you."
She crawled off the bed and walked over and stood between his knees as he brushed her hair and put it in a ponytail. Reaching over to the nightstand he picked up a piece of string and tied it in her hair. She turned to him and smiled as he pointed to her room "Clothes now young lady!" She nodded and ran to the room. As he got up and dressed putting his hair in a ponytail.
Walking to the cafeteria she always held his hand and skipped trying to keep up with his steps from his long strides. As they got to the window Jerry hung out it "Ooooh my look at you this morning my beauty! Aren't you just precious Kei. Now what will it be this morning for you?" She looked up to Kanda as he shrugged his shoulders at her and she scowled some "SOOOBA" she said happily. Jerry looked at Kanda "You too?" Kanda just nodded as they went to a table.
If there was one thing Kanda had to say about Rea it was that she gave him the greatest thing he could ever ask for. Even though they only spent one night together it was a night he would never forget. He had gotten something that no one could take from him and that was his daughter. Someone that he could love and that would love him back unconditionally even with his moods. Although he wasn't a very touchy feely dad Kei loved him more than anything. Kanda had opened his heart up to her but it wasn't as open as a fathers heart should be. He still had a hard time showing his love to his daughter or even being affectionate towards her.
Lavi came over to the table where they were sitting "AHHHHH! Hello my lovely Kei" She smiled up at him "Uncle LAVIIII!" she yelled giving him a big hug as he smiled down at her "Are you ready for hide and seek soon?" Kei looked at Kanda who nodded that she could play. He had some things to talk to Komui about so her playing with Lavi would help out.
Lavi smiled "I'll get you when you're done eating alright?" Kanda turned to Lavi "Baka Usagi keep a good eye on her." Kanda didn't like the idea of Kei roaming around the Order so they had made a special place to play in that was designated.
Lavi smiled nervously "I always do Yu" Kanda scowled and gritted his teeth "Don't call me that!"
After breakfast he let Kei go with Lavi because they would always play hide and seek. Kanda went to Komui's office and they were discussing some things when about a half hour later Lavi came running through the door frantic.
"YUUUU I CAN'T FIND KEI! I'VE LOOKED EVERYWHERE IN HER NORMAL PLACES!"
Kanda jumped up "WHAT! WHERE WERE YOU LAST PLAYING?!" Then he grabbed Lavi by the front of the shirt and snarled "I TOLD YOU TO WATCH HER!"
Lavi groveled an "I'm Soorry" as everyone even Komui took off to find her. When they got to the designated play area Kanda frantically ran around "KEI...KEI WHERE ARE YOU?" He had never felt so scared in all his life. His heart was beating fast and hard in his chest and he was freaking out at this point till a small voice called out to him from above "D-Daddy help I'm scared. Its way too high."
Kanda's gaze went up to see his daughter perched on a beam that was close to the ceiling.
"OI DON"T MOVE!" He had never felt anything like this, it was sheer panic rushing through his body thinking she could fall at any time if she tried to move "Kei don't move I'm coming." Kanda looked around wildly to see if there was a way for him to get up there quickly. He saw another beam below that one as he took his jacket off. He ran for the wall running up it then flipped to the lower beam landing on it then he jumped from there to the one she was on. She wanted to go to him but he saw her about to move "NO! Kei don't move I will come to you."
Just then Komui and everyone else threw a rope up and Kanda caught it tying it to the beam. Then he made his way to his daughter and picked her up "Oi hold onto my neck as tight as you can." She did as her father asked and he climbed down the rope with her. As he got to the ground he took her arms from his neck and sat her on the ground. Bending down in front of her he was so scared he just grabbed her and hugged her tightly. Something he had never done as he held onto her he asked "Oi, why did you go up there?"
She pointed to the beam "I was following the lady with blonde hair daddy." Kanda was confused because there was no way for her to climb up there as he leaned her back "No Kei how did you get up there?"
She smiled softly "The lady told me to close my eyes and when I opened them I was up there." Just then she pointed to the beam "There she is daddy."
Kanda's gaze went to the beam and he saw Rea standing on it although she wasn't exactly a human form and he thought he was seeing a ghost. Everyone else looked up but didn't see anything and Rea smiled as she looked down at him and said "Your heart is now open Kanda. You know how much you love her so love her dearly and cherish her always." Then she was gone as Kanda blinked his eyes.
He knew then what Rea had meant then it took something as frightening as almost losing his daughter to open his heart completely up to her. He looked back to Kei and hugged her "Oi, You are the secrets of my heart" he whispered as he picked her up cradling her in his arms as he started to walk out. He knew then he was able to show her the love a father could show his daughter by showing her affection. From that day forward Kanda made it a point to hug his daughter and cuddle her as much as he could. He would talk with her and explain things like gardening and then he began to teach her how to use a sword just like he had taught her mother.
Kei grew up feeling loved and cherished by her father and she never doubted his love for her from that day. Kanda had always thought he could never show love but his daughter captured his heart that day and she never let it go. She taught him as he taught her and together they were inseparable.