Spencer's thoughts, songs, ringtones, Ashley's thoughts and past events are in Italics
The break after Ashley's POV means it's back to Spencer's POV.
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Ch 11: I kissed a Girl
I took a deep breath and answered, "Yea I'll go, but you owe me big time for this. Big!" I said.
And I know a few things she can do to make up for this favor.
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Her eyebrow rose up slightly to my last statement. "So Carlin, I'm going to owe you big huh?" Ashley asked clarifying. I turned to face her, her eyes wandered down to my lips.
Friends my ass! She wants to take me down. Quit playing just go get it. I'm giving you permission.
I slipped my hand under her chin and repositioned her head, "My eyes are up here Davies." I shifted in my seat position my lips mere inches away from her face. Her eyes quickly strayed down to my lips as my head moved to her ear. "And yes honey, big, you're going to owe me big." I snickered and quickly turned to look at Mrs. Mapes.
I noticed in the corner of my eye Ashley fidgeting in her seat as she turned to focus out the window.
Poor girl, just wait if she can't handle this, her life is going to be hell!
Madison turned to me, "Goddamn it, no one wants to see that fucking shit." She spat. "God you're going to hell" I scowled at her last comment.
Now now Madison, let's not get ahead of ourselves, bitch!
"How's the face? Looks like Davies gave it to you pretty hard, but if I remember correctly you like it hard and fast, don't you sweetie?" I taunted. She sighed defeated. Her hand moved to side of her face contemplating her next move.
Ain't that right bitch, shut you up real quick. She was a freak in the sheets though, especially when she screamed my name. Good times, Good times!
I scooted closer to her. "Maddy, I forgot to ask, why'd you breakup with Glen? He never found out about us being together." I asked in a matter of a fact tone. I moved even closer my lips were now on her ear as I seductively whispered "Was it because he couldn't give you what you wanted, make you cum like me? Were you thinking about me when he touched you or was it simply you never liked dick to begin with, you know a closet queer?" I flashed a grin and returned to my seat.
Shit nothing I thought that last comment would have gotten a rise out of her! Damn!
Mrs. Mapes directed her attention at me; she smiled as she began to talk, "Miss Carlin, the principal will see you now." I flashed a smile and twirled around to head to the office.
I entered the room; Mr. Edwards was standing by the window. He turned to face me, disappointment flickered in his eyes.
He pointed to the chair; I looked in that direct but remained standing. "Carlin, Sit down." He demanded.
Monkey balls!
My eyes glanced at the chair once more and back up to him. Annoyance was becoming clear in his eyes. "Yes sir." It came out quieter than expected.
Fuck you and the holy than thou bullshit!
His demeanor changed softer as he sighed, "Carlin I don't know what to do with you anymore. I've tried everything but nothing seems to help." He paused. I shrugged my shoulder and peered out the window.
Fuck me, here comes the 'could be' speech. His mind must be slipping; he pitches the speech every goddamn time I'm in here. He's a very persistent fuck!
My mind drifted to tonight's game. Should I bring someone, Ashley and I are simply friends and if I brought another friend then my interest wouldn't be solely on her.
Now who can accompany me?
Sophie: She's hot oh no never mind I don't think she took it too well, when walking in on me with Holly. Definitely scratch her off the list.
Jayden: Gorgeous eyes; actually orgasmic, however to clingy. She's a no no.
Holly: Hot however too blonde (Dumb as fuck) so no.
Jordan bingo! Completely gorgeous especially with her glistening green eyes, she's the total package. Perfect!
He kicked my chair lightly gaining my attention. He moved his hand to his head, "Spencer I don't know what happen to you…" And cue the speech.
I shook my head and muttered "Life happened" under my breath. His head tilted to the side, he heard what I had said. I noticed his eyes had shifted warmer as he leaned closer to me.
"Look Spencer," He cleared his throat, "Just because there are shitty people in our lives, doesn't mean we should sacrifice ourselves. You have so much potential Spencer I'd hate to see it wasted." He stated earnestly.
Is he allowed to say shitty?
I rolled my eyes and changed my position in the seat. "Sir, what's my punishment?" I hope it's not too severe, I have swooning to do.
His body swing around to the window, he took a deep breath and shook his head. "Nothing, however this is your last chance, if you screw up you're done! I can't keep saving your ass, if you don't want to be saved Carlin. If there are any more fights, outburst, vandalizing, that's it… got it?" He asked.
I rubbed my forehead knowing I couldn't promise anything, "Yep, I'll try." He pointed to the door and I walked out.
My eyes met Ashley's I smirked at her, "See you later, sweetheart."
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Pick up your phone
Do u want 2 go 2 lunch?
I instantly replied:
Sorry Ash can't busy.
I shut my phone and noticed Jordan intently staring at me. I looked and smiled, "Sorry, anyways Miss. Jackson will you go with me to the basketball game tonight?" I threw my best pout face on guaranteeing me to get what I wanted.
She rolled her eyes, "You know Miss. Carlin I can't say no to that adorable face."
I laughed, "Alright be ready around six; I'll see you tonight."
The bell rang and I wasn't anywhere near my classroom.
I fucking hate this school! Damn it I should have gotten my GED.
My phone buzzed I look down to see how it was and the next thing I know I 'm on my ass.
"Fuck couldn't you watch where the fuck you were going?" I shouted at the unknown person.
Clearly this accident was my fault, but was I willing to admit that…out loud. Hehe.
"I'm sorry" a low and a slightly trembling voice broke in "Carlin." Wait I know that voice, that voice never apologizes. Madison! Has hell frozen over?
My mouth dropped open unsure of how to reply. I just nodded as her eyes lock into mine.
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God she pisses me off.
She is with me, yet won't leave Glen, I don't understand that shit.
"Maddy why are you still with the shit head?"
Her head rested on my stomach as I stroked her head. "Because it's easier Spencer, I don't have to worry about what people think of me. Pretending to be straight is less demanding than being gay or whatever I am. " I moved my head slightly waiting for her to go on but she never did.
"If I could tear you from the ceiling I know the best have tried. I'd fill your every breath with meaning and find the place we both could hide. Don't go and leave me and please don't drive me blind."
My hand caressed the bottom of her chin, "I wish things could be easier, for you and for me." I brought my lips down to Madison's. She gently nibbled on my bottom lip as her tongue slipped in. Our bodies became one and she whispered in my ear, "Voy a ir hasta que usted venga a mi boca mil veces."
My hands came down and flipped her over. I quickly straddled her waist and pinned her hands back. She tried struggling, but I didn't budge. My lips trailed over her ear "Are you sure about that? I think it's going to the other way around honey. I'm going to make you cum in my mouth" I retorted.
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I saw her books on the ground "Here Madison," I said as I offered her books back. She looked at me questioningly before grabbing them.
Awkward!
"Jesus, take the damn books!" I snapped. She stepped back and stared at me, she seemed too shocked to say anything.
"Well Madison this has been swell and all, watching you stare at me, however I think I'm going to head to class now.
What the fuck? Take a picture it might last longer
She muttered something I didn't quite catch. "Madison what the fuck did you say? I'm tired of all the fucking gay bashing. If you have something to say then man up and tell me?"
I mentally slapped myself, Man up, really?
Madison stood silent. "What no comment, hmmm something seems off Maddy. Aw did I get under skin honey bun in the principal's office? I walked closer to her, "I did, didn't I? It's okay it wouldn't be the first time."
The final bell rang,
Fuck me now please!
Ashley's POV
Goddamn Madison, what a fucking cow! Shit, I have to go to Glen's game.
I screwed up big this time I went too far. Sometimes I wonder whether if anything is absolute anymore. Spencer confuses me and scares me. She everything I wanted but wrapped wrongly. I want her, yet am I willing to sacrifice everything for her?
Shit Glen "Ash, Ashley come here girl." And just like that everything is catching up with me. He leaned in for the kiss. His lips were rough, not the same like they were when we first started dating. His tongue forced its way into my mouth.
Well this exactly how envisioned my death; choking on a fucking tongue.
I kissed a girl and I liked it. The taste of her cherry chap stick, I kissed a girl just to try it I hope my boyfriend don't mind it. It felt so wrong, it felt so right.
What the fuck is that?
He pulled away and took a step back "Um Ashley is that your phone?" He asked unsurely. No, Yes, Maybe damn it!
I looked down at the cell phone "Yea it's a catchy beat don't you think?" I shrugged my shoulders as my eyes returned on the phone; Spencer. Ha-ha Bitch
"Hey Spence"
'Did you like the new ringtone?'
I shook my head and turned to look at Glen "Yea I loved it, thanks."
'Did I call at a bad time, is Glenie there with you, aw he is, isn't he?'
I rolled my eyes and replied "Yep"
'Well time him hi, oh did you want to meet up at the game or come together?'
"Meet up," I paused to see Glen's reaction, it didn't look good. "See you later."
Oh fuck why is he looking at me like that?!
He was pissed. "Um Spence-r said hi." I said trying to lighten the mood however failing miserably; his eyes were distant and cold. The demeanor of his stance changed as he spoke, "Oh really, hmm that's interesting." He replied back.
Hmm that's interesting? What does that mean?
"I'll see you tonight at the game, hurry up Glenie you're going to be late to class, lazy ass." I quickly pecked him on the cheek, and pushed him towards his class. He turned back to look at me, the 'What the Fuck' was stamped in his eyes.
Oh shit did I say Glenie. Load the bullets spin the chamber squeeze and bang. See the blood yep that's mine.
What am I going to do? Fuck
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Shoot me now. Fuck I hate Calc. When the fuck am I going to use this shit, I plan on living off my parents. Okay not really but fuck me this is pointless.
Twenty minutes left, only twenty, happy dance.
My eyes turned to the over-head. Ugh does he really have to do, rub his chest. Is he looking at me, oh god did he just smirk oh my god! Stop.Rubbing.Your.Chest. You fucking pedophile!
Did the clock break? Why isn't it moving? Please move, please, I'm begging here. I think it' is official, I've gone off to crazy land. I'm mentally talking to an inanimate object, god save me.
Mr. Harrison's back was turned I carefully grabbed my stuff and walked out of the classroom.
Let me up Let me out I am suffocating. I can't live without this all behind me Is this almost over now?
Oh good ring back tone Aiden.
The longest night my darkest hour where you will find me, pale, lost, and dying from the truth.
'Hey sweetie pie,' I rolled eyes, 'What do you need Spence?'
Are you kidding me? Is his brain the size of a nut! Hehe
"Aiden I need a ride home, did you forget that your gay ass took me school?" I laughed and waited for his reply.
'Right, I'll be there in a few, see you then.'
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Damn
guilt. He's going to be really mad at me when I tell him about my
agreement with Ashley.
My hands became fidgety "So um," I cleared my throat. "Aiden please don't hate me, but" I took a deep breath before finishing, "IagreedtobewithfriendswithAsh." And 3.2.1
"You what?" He screamed. Bingo, ah he used the girlie scream I didn't think he would use that one. Yep his pissed off. "Spencer tell me you're lying?" He turned to look at my face, he sighed, "Why, you know she's just going to hurt you fucking more."
"Aid it's okay, I swear it is, I'll get her back or I guess official get her or whatever I don't understand what we had," I rambled "Did that make any sense?" I nervously laughed.
"Yea whatever that little thing was, it made perfect sense, but I don't know about this." His voice wavered. Oh no!
"So let me guess you are playing on making her jealous, aren't you?" How does he do that read me like that. Thank god I can't fucking read his mind, ew him fantasying about naked men and what he could do with them. Ugh god sick.
"Yezzir, I have a date to the basketball game and Ashley will be there. Actually we're supposed to be hanging out however I thought bringing someone would help distract me, if you know what I mean." I started raising both eye brows. He playfully hit me and turned his attention back on the road.
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I waved at him and walked inside the house. Glen was in the kitchen making his way to me. I could tell he was pretty angry. Ha-ha phone call aw poor Glen green never was his color.
His hand grabbed my arm yanking me closer to him. "I told you to stay away from her, didn't I Spencer?" There was something in his eyes I never seen before, it actually scared me. He yanked my arm a little harder to gain my attention again.
"Glen you're a fucking prick and yea you did. Do you think your petty ass words well stop me from doing what I want?" I yanked my arm away from him. "Don't worry Glen, I have a date with Jordan. Did you know I was coming to your game you dumb fuck?"
His eyes softened, "Spencer, I'm so-" I cut him before he could finish.
"Save the shitty ass apology I don't want it." I ran upstairs and jumped on my bed.
I looked at the time and noticed I had only an hour before picking up Jordan. Shit! I changed out of the skirt into something more comfortable; jeans. I fixed my hair and did my makeup and ran out the door. She lived about fifteen minutes away.
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I knocked on the door. Jordan's parents answered the door and let me in.
"Hey Spencer Jordan is upstairs." I smiled and thanked them as I headed to her room.
I opened the door and grinned. Jordan was half naked; her shirt was lying on the bed waiting to be thrown on. God her abs screamed fuck me now. I wouldn't mind running my tongue down them or maybe even down further.
I think a singing moment is in order, "Baby I can't keep my eyes off you, so hypnotized by the way you move, And I just want to know baby, what's your name." As she turned I notice the blush creep on her face.
She moved closer to me and husked in my ear "Like what you see Carlin." Her hands roamed over my arms as her face shifted in front of mine. Hot damn, you have me! God I'll rock you so hard you might not make tonight girl!
I smirked, "No, eh I've seen better." The answer really wasn't a lie however she didn't need to know that. She smacked my arm and shook her head as she pulled her shirt over her head.
"So are you ready to see guys pat each other on the ass?" I couldn't resist. It's true half the game guys are copping feels of one another. It screams gay however people dismiss it, they allow it to be part of the game.
She nodded her head and we headed to my truck. I turned on the ignition and immediately the music started to play.
"Hey
Miss Murder, can I
Hey Miss Murder, can I
Make beauty stay if
I
take my life?
whoa-oh-oh
With
just a look they shook
And heavens bowed before him.
Simply a
look can break your heart.
The stars that pierce the sky,
He
left them all behind.
We're left to wonder why
He left us all
behind
Dreams
of his crash won't pass.
Oh, how they all adored him.
Beauty
will last when spiraled down.
The stars that mystified,
he left
them all behind
and how his children cried.
He left us all
behind."I
parked and we got out. Our hands intertwined as we made it to the
gym. I paid to get in and I spotted Ashley so we walked towards her.
Immediately I felt Ashley's eyes on our intertwined hands I looked
up and her eyes connected with mine. I quickly turned to face Jordan
and smiled, I couldn't deal with seeing the anguish in her eyes.
This is going to be one hell of night!
Jordan's hand move around my back as the game proceeded. My eyes met hers and I leaned in to kiss her. It wasn't long or intense, but it simply nice; she wasn't afraid of public affection or what people would think of her. She was who she was.
I turned back to the game. This was an important night for Glen there were three scouts in the stands; they were all California schools UCLA, USC and UCSB. However all high and mighty was waiting for Duke, both exceptionally good in Woman's and Men's basketball. I love Duke might I add!
God I really wish she'd stop staring I think if she stares any longer I swear the left side of my face will have been seared through.
So Ashy doesn't like me kissing Jordan huh? Poor girl!
My hand rested on Jordan's lap as I whispered in her ear "Jordan will you come with me to the bathroom?" She looked at me confusedly. I smiled and everything seemed to connect.
A bit slow aren't we?
I pulled her down the bleachers and made our way to the bathroom.
Oh god I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing!
I pushed in her into the stall and rushed into the kiss. The kiss was hard however at the same time full want. I bite down on her lip, begging for entrance. She caved and my tongue entered. There was something missing! Fuck you Ashley for infecting my brain!
I pulled back, "Jordan wait, I don't want to rush into anything, I'm sorry for dragging you in here; that was stupid. Can we take it slow please?" She smiled at me.
That's a good thing…right?
"We definitely can do that." She replied back and kissed my cheek.
I quickly straighten my hair and shirt making sure it didn't look like I got screwed in the bathroom.
Ha-ha screwed in bathroom!
We slowly made our way up the bleacher and instantly Ashley grabs my hand and dragged me back down.
My eyes lock onto Jordan's I mouth 'be back' and she nods.
Ashley finally lets the death grip go. "What the fuck Spencer?" Um excuse me
My focus gets altered to the ground "What wrong Ashley?" I muttered.
Her eyes are fixed on mine I honestly have no idea what to expect. "Spencer do give me that shit, you know what's wrong."
Okay I do, but it shouldn't matter we're friends.
"Actually no I don't. Ashley we are not a couple." I shouted at her causing her to back up.
Opps that came out a little too loud.
I took a deep breath and focused my attention on her. "What do you want Ashley? I have no fucking clue what runs through that head of yours. Tell me huh?" My tone was harsh. She winced at my words, her eyes filled with tears.
Please don't cry I'm sorry! However I keep silent waiting for her to reply to my question.
"What do you want? You can't fucking eat your cake and have it too? So I will ask you one more time what do you want?"
She took hold of my hand, "Spencer I…"
FOF
Lexj: I'm glad you will continue to read this I greatly appreciate it. I totally don't mind your whining lol. We'll see how everything pans out lol. Thanks for the comment.
RUlo3r: LOL ah Glen's not that bad lol. And that jealousy thing might have worked. We'll have to see whether or not. Thanks for the comment.
Niecyx3: I'm glad you think thug Spencer is cute. Maybe she will have someone who knows lol. Thanks for the comment.
Littletiny: I'm glad you like it that means I doing something right…right? Lol anyways I hoped you liked this one. Thanks for the comment.
Spashley20: It's good you like the drama and hopefully there was enough Madison in this Chapter, and you're right Ashley is a scaredy cat, hopefully one day she will get over it. Thanks for the comment.
Wannabebo352: Good question why doesn't Ashley go with Spencer if she feels so strong for her. Probably fear I'm going to say. She is playing with Spencer's emotions. Glad you liked it and I hope you continue thanks for the comment.
xxMandyxx: Thank you for the comment and glad you like it.
Betty22871: Definitely thrilled you like it, that makes me happy. She has lead Spencer on, she a bad person lol. Jordan might be it for Spencer who knows! Anyways yea I love adding my music to the characters because that's kinda how I am. I quote music to friends and randomly have it in my head lol. Gay Aiden makes me happy no problems lmao.
xDloverx: Me too I wonder who long their friendship will last and Ashley does like Spencer that much is certain but the question is how much? Thanks for the comment.
Kirky123: Sorry it took me a few days to update again hopefully the wait was worth it lol although I left you with a hanger.
Tmacluver: mmm you simply crack me up. Yea I don't think Glen's to bad however yea I have no idea why she did that lol. Eh poor Spencer she'll get over, jk yea poor Spencer. Family guy good times love that show. Anyways love your randomness and I hope you continue to like it. Thanks for the comment.
A/N: Thank you once again for the comment I love you guys lol. Anyways I will be gone at least a week maybe two and I won't be able to update. I left you on a hanger I'm sorry. Anyways comment and tell me what you think. Much love
Songs: Katty Perry's I kissed a girl (LMAO song), Gemini's Hypnotized, AFI's Miss Murder and Scary kids Scaring Kids' My Darkest Hour.
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