hey guys! sorry it took so long to update, thruthly i had this chapter written out for months! but i never got around to typing it up. and for of those who forgot what happened in the last chapter, there was a news report saying that Richard Grayson, aka, Robin has became a detective to help find raven. and i had gotten a pretty nasty review and, for those who didn't notice, I HAD PUT DOWN IN THE SUMMARY THAT THERE IS SOME ROB/RAE/SLADE! people didn't read that! i know i put it up later, but you should still read it! i had gotten a flame from this, and i'm not happy about that!

i might as well do the reviews about now before i go into a rant:

oh, and i found out where i remembered the name, Steve Erwin, the alstrain (can't spell) animal guy that was killed my a sting ray, i think.

roomofangels - thats ok, i found out a couple months back... i know, so long ago!

Red X () - Stockholm syndrome? sorry not a doctor... or a ginues... And Slade knows Robin's realy name because he has been spying on the Titnas for a while and while Raven and Robin were dating, he was watching and listening to them as they spoke their human names. giving Slade the names of both raven and robin as Rachel and Richard, understand now?

kolp'ikon - HEY, YOU LISTEN HERE! FOR ONE, I DON'T REALLY LIKE FLAMES. TWO I'M A GIRL! AND THREE I HAD PUT IN THE SUMMARY THAT THER WAS ROB/RAE/SLADE! IT IS A ROBIN AND RAVEN STORY! SLADE HAD GOTTEN IN THE WAY AND KIDNAPPED RAVEN! RAVEN AND ROBIN ARE DATING! DO YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW THAT THIS STORY IS ONLY ABOUT RAVEN AND SLADE? IF IT WAS, I WOULD HAVE PUT IT AS RAVEN/SLADE! BUT NO! IT IS A ROBIN AND RAVEN STORY! AND IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT SIMPLY JUST STOP READING AN MOVE ON! AND I AM GOING TO BRING ROBIN AND RAVEN BACK TOGETHER! GIVE IT LIKE 5 MORE CHAPTERS! AND JUST FOR YOU TO KNOW! SLADE IS MY FAVOURITE VILLIAN IN TEEN TITANS! JUST LIKE SHEGO IS IN KIM POSSIBLE! AND, JUST LIKE MY MOTHER SAYS TO THE DAYCARE KIDS IN MY BASEMENT "IF YOU DON'T HAVE SOMETHING NICE TO SAY, DON'T SAY IT AT ALL!" I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND THAT YOUR REVIEW IS PARCHLY THE REASON WHY A DELADE THIS CHAPTER AND HAVE OTHERS SUFFER!

morphious444 - yeah, i kinda remember as i was reading this. thank you... and if you read the comment before this, just understand that i do have anger problems, and i mostly let it out on paper, or computers... sorry it took so long *gives you a transport truck of your favourite cookies for your waiting*

gesy - i know, but i will have them get back in each others arms once again, i'm just building up to it, and sorry it took to long

amethyst-dreams27 - thanks, i just did it for raven and slade to know whats going on with robin

() - (for chapter 4) yay! someone who watches ncis too! thanks, im happy that some people like it! and don't worry, i just might bring Shannon and Kelly back in... who knows...

happy bryce - thank you! i know i'm suppose to have my last exam tomorrow, but i did it last week, so i'm practically off till thursday. who knows why the new semester starts on a thursday? anyways, enjoy!

heartless16 - i know, i'm getting beter with my spell, its jsut that i'm copying off of paper and i'm just a little laxy and tired to fix it, orr i just don't notice. but i will go through it, once i get other things out of the way. and i do it on Wordpad, not on the site or Mircosoft. and i'm still needing to do better with the emotions, like i said, i still need to go through. Slade, even though hes a bad guy, is my favourite tt bad guy and i think he would do good with Raven, in my mind, in the future, they have a son though shes married to robin, and they are close friends. thats me. they have a kid but nothing more than friends. it was kinda what this story is telling, except take out Alex, and raven would have gone to Slade because she was in heat and didn't want to hurt anyone. than that is almost what is in my mind. and, slade wouldn't have raped raven either in my mind... i can't be that evil to fall alssep to that stuff...

RainingHearts4Ever - well, i'm done my projects! and have one more day of litercy before the new semester starts up again! and you read M rated storys at 13? i only started reading that when i was in grade 9... 11-16, 10-15, 9-14... ok, makes sense i was only a year older than you, but i've haven't been on fanfiction for even a year yet! so it doesn't count! ... enjoy!

yay! 10 reviews! thats the most i've ever gotten of a chapter! well two, but that doesn't count! so i hope you enjoy this! and if you like an angry star your good, for this chapter...

Chapter 10

"H-he left?" Raven questioned to no one. "Why?"

"I don't know, a lot has changed." Slade said still starring at the TV. It was still on when Alex came in and saw the picture of Richard.

"Daddy!" The little boy shouted pointing at the screen.

The word snapped both Raven and Slade out of their thought. Raven hadn't heard that word leave Alex's mouth since the day they were kidnapped. She missed Richard so much at the moment that tears started running down her cheeks. She got up and walked over to Alex, "Come on baby, let's go see if your brother is awake yet." She struggled to stay calm, picking up Alex, she held him tight to her chest before she retreated to her room.

Slade was slightly confused about the tears, but he for sure didn't mind that the boy called the teen 'Daddy.' It showed that Robin was close to him and he had hurt Robin, at least part of his plan worked.

Deciding that he didn't want to be in the mansion any more that evening, he told Wintergreen that he would be back soon.

Slade went to the backyard of his house and walked to the stable where he kept his two horses, Rico and Bella. Bella was a light brown Palomion mare and has half a foot of white fur on all hooves. Rico was a dark brown Mustange Stallion that had a white stripe down his face. He took Rico and let Bella out into the fenced field. After sattleing up Rico, they raced off into the forest that surrounded his home.

Raven sat on her bed still crying. She dearly missed her boyfriend and was sad that he left the Titans. Alex was lying on the bed with Chris beside him sucking on his pacifier. She wasn't sure why she was so emotional, she wasn't pregnant again. She knew that for sure. 'It must have been his name.' She thought having another flood of tears running down her cheeks, catching Alex's attention.

"Mommy, you ok?" Alex asked looking into her sad eyes. "When is Daddy coming?"

Raven had promised Alex that his Daddy was going to see him again, but at the same time Alex knew that Slade's home was his home now.

"I don't know anymore, but I promise Alex, you will see him again." Raven promised pulling her son into her lap.

Alex, for who knows what reason that is in his head, pulled on her shirt mumbling 'milk' over and over. She understood, he wanted to show that he loved her by the feeding, but at the same time to show her that he remembered. She undid her top to expose her milk filled breast. Alex grabbed onto her nipple and started sucking, showing Raven his memory of the night before they were taken, when Robin had came in when he was feeding. She smiled at the memory. Robin really knew how to make her respond to him, even if they just wanted to wait till they were ready. Now she had her virginity taken away and she had two sons, one adopted, and one she had carried.

"I love you Alex. I love you my son." She sobbed into his hair.

Chris dropped his pacifier and started whimpering for his mother's milk as well. Raven leaned over, not disturbing Alex and pulled Chris into her lap and let her feed. She hadn't done this many times since Chris was first born when she was still in the hospital, though many nurses and doctors questioned why she had another child when her first was still nursing. She gave the same answer every time, 'I didn't plan on being pregnant again.'

It was soon dark outside and Raven and her sons were fast asleep in the king-size bed.

Richard Grayson sat in his new office. It was his first day at a full day of work. The day before was just to show what to do and to help find evidence at where the victim was killed, they didn't find much; after they had reached the forest they had lost the trail.

Richard had the picture of him, Rachel, and Alex on the day when they went out in town. It was the only picture he had of all of them. He HAD to hide it from Starfire like his life had depended on it, which it did. He'd promised that he'd never forget them. A few people who came to talk to him in his office seen the picture and asked who they were, he'd always became sadden and say it was his girlfriend and son, then explain that he became a detective because they were kidnapped and he promised to find them. She told that he worked really hard last year after they got kidnapped to get the job. After that everyone respected him even though he's only eighteen.

In his spare time, Richard looked for more evidence on Slade in the police records. He couldn't find anything. He soon started his new life as a civilian and in no time he had been working as a detective as Richard Grayson for a full year. He still hadn't found anything useful about Slade, but he kept telling himself that he won't give up till he had Rachel in his arms.

Raven woke up to her sons jumping on her bed telling her to get up. Chris was now fifteen months old and as well as developed for a two year old. Alex was three and as bossy and jumpy that he had to be ground because he had pushed Chris down and took the toy he was with. But also, now that Chris is a year old, he has started his training. She was happy for the boy; ever since he was nine months old he wanted to join his brother. Since now Raven has free time from her kids, with Slade's permission, she goes horseback riding for about an hour, giving her time to get back and have something to eat before Slade brought the boys up for lunch.

"Mommy get up!"

"Mommy!"

She opened her violet eyes to two sets of icy-blue. "Good morning boys, what are you doing up so early?"

"Early? Mommy Slade says it's after ten Mommy!" Alex squealed.

Ravens eyes widened. "Seriously?"

"Yes Mommy. And Chris is hungry."

Raven got up and pulled herself up and sat up right. "You hungry Chris?" She got a nod. She pulled off her shirt and pulled Chris to her chest.

"Mommy, when are we going to see Daddy again?" Alex asked shyly, knowing his Mommy was sensitive when it came to his Daddy.

"I don't know sweetie, one day." She said looking up from her nursing infant to her toddler. "I miss him very much."

"HOW COULD HE DO THAT! WHY WOULD HE JUST LEAVE LIKE THAT! WITH NOT EVEN TELLING US! WITH NOT TELLING ME! FRIEND ROBIN KNOWS THAT I HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM! HOW DARE THAT BASTARD LEAVE BEFORE HE WOULD GO OUT AND HAVE THE FEELINGS I HAVE FOR HIM! HOW COULD HE LEAVE AND NOT TELL ANYONE!"

"Starfire, he told me. Remember, I told you this every day since Robin left." Cyborg told the alien.

Every day for the past year Cyborg and Beast Boy had to listen to Starfire scream at the top of her lungs about how Robin left them. During that time Terra had came back saying that she found out about her powers by accident and that with her powers, came her memory.

As leader, Cyborg brought the blond haired girl in and they (Cyborg and Beast Boy) helped her control her powers. Terra had to listen to the same speech that Starfire screamed every morning. In the first week Terra was there (she was on Cyborgs side) she told Starfire that Robin maybe left to go find Raven. Terra ended up in the med room unconscious. Starfire ended up being locked up in a room to calm down. It had taken over a week of almost peace and quiet till Starfire had calmed down enough to be able to walk around the tower, almost another week before she was to walk around town by herself.

Since then, Starfire had cooled down a bit when her friends were talking about Robin's deparcher.

Terra has only been living in the tower for about six months; since the day she told them. Ever since they had been training her, getting her stamina, power level, and control up. It's worked just as well as Slade controlling her powers before her. Making a very happy girl.

On better note: Beast Boy got over his crush on Raven and went back to Terra.

At least that died down some of the noise. For all you people out there, Cyborg is no longer on death train; he's at the station. His life is a cross between Drama and Crime. If this gets any worse it'll just be a Drama and Romance life. Speaking of romance... he hasn't talked to Bumble Bee in a while. Let's just leave them to the kissy face and love talk. He would gladly go over and see her in person and do what... normal hormonal guy would do with a pretty girlfriend of his but it was storming and the crime rate was still up after Raven and Robin's leaving. If this went any further, Cyborg life would be dead.

Because of the rain, Raven didn't want to go horseback riding, too wet. So she decided on reading in the library. Today's book is called Clan of the Cave Bear. Wanting to drown out the rain she walked over to Slade's record player and put on her favourite song that Slade just happened to have. Raven pulls the reader thingy onto the large black CD and listens to the starter music and sat down to read her book.

The soft tunes of the song filled the room she was in, blocking out the sounds of her thoughts and of the sounds from outside the room. Raven couldn't concentrate, so she just put down her book 'til the end of the song and sang to the words as the song sped up.

Slade could hear singing in the Manor, and he knew for a fact that ONLY one person in the Manor sang and it was only to her kids. This was singing to an actual song that he had in his library.

He walked up to the library just to see her lying down on the couch, book down, singing.

"I would do anything for love, but I wont do that, I wont do that..." A small tear ran down her face as she finished the lyrics. When the song was finished, Raven wiped away the tear and picked the book back up and saw Slade standing in the door way. Hiding the blush that was creeping up her face, she went back to reading.

"Since when could you sing?"

"I only sing when I'm alone, Richard hasn't really heard me sing, no one has." Raven told the man, who she knew was amazed, but still stared at her book. "The only other times I sing is when I'm trying to get the boys to sleep, which you heard." There was a pregnant silence, she didn't know why she hated it, she just did. "Where are they?"

"Alex is helping Chris with the math cards; I was coming to get the book that he left in here last night when he fell asleep." Slade explained walking over to the chair that had a book on it. "That's a good series by the way, you should read them."

Raven smiled and nodded, 'He does know it's from a girl's perspective, right?' Shrugging, she went back to reading, getting half way through when Chris came in. She looked up and saw Slade walking past. "Hey there buddy, you hungry?" Receiving a smile and a 'Yeah' she set her book down, unbuttoned her top, and pulled her baby onto her stomach. Raven's learned that if she's not leaving the house there was no need to wear her bra, also giving Chris better access to her breast, but also making a small mess of her shirt when her milk leaks. Chris pulled up to his mother's breast and started suckling. Something in Raven dropped down, from what? She didn't know, she just started talking. "It's been two years Chris, two years, this place is beautiful, but I just want to go home, to Richard. I miss him so much, but your Daddy won't let me leave, not with you, and you'll die if I leave you here." She mumbled with tears in her eyes.

"Maybe I'll be able to talk to him, see if when you get older if I can go back to Richard, and then we can share custody of both you and Alex. I know how much you two love him, but I can't take it anymore. Richard saved my life thousands of times, Slade has only a couple. I do love Slade, but mostly as a friend, but he's your father, and we're both raising you. The love I have for him is only because we have too, for you and Alex to be loved. We can't fight, we can't disagree, we can't not talk to each other, because of you two. It's because I said no to him is to why your even here, and I haven't disagreed or even talked back because I'm afraid. I'm only eighteen and I have two kids, mind one I adopted, but I know guys have their needs, Richard had them too, but I'm too young in this century to have three kids under five, yet still nursing. That's why my father has so many off-springs, he had his needs and mated with many, many females. I was just the lucky one to have a prophecy attached, giving my father a reason to kill his half breed daughter. Demons are very sexual creatures, and I don't want to have so many children. I don't want to be like him." Raven sobbed, tears streaming down her cheeks, soaking her bare chest.

"I don't even want to kill people, but if I don't I could die, and animal meat doesn't help me, the dog Alex ate was three times his size and that just filled him. The demon in me is doing this to me, father is torturing me with his blood in my veins. He is making me kill humans, I could kill your Daddy and Alex's Daddy any day, but I won't, I can't do it, I love them." She couldn't hide the tears that has been building up for almost two years. "I don't want to be here anymore... I can't take it anymore. I'm... sc-scared." She finished.

"If you're scared Raven, you could always talk about it." Slade's voice came from outside the library doors. She didn't even notice that he was listening to her rant. More tears ran down her cheeks knowing that Slade listened to her heart. "I might let you leave when our son is older." He said before she heard his footsteps decent.

'Might. He might let me leave.' She smiled to Chris who was done his lunch.

ugh, you wont believe how long it took me to write that. mind you, my laptop died and i had to clean my room.

and the book Clan of the Cave Bear. its a porno/lemon/M rated book! and its from the 70's. its a great book, and the first M rated book i read, that both my mom and aunt let me read. and anyone up for a book that has Mammoths roming around in it, be my guest.

what else? oh yah...

I'M SORRY! I DIDN'T MEAN TO TAKE FOREVER! I'M SORRY! SORRY! SORRY! PLEASE FORGIVE ME! I'L DO ANYTHING!