boldItalic= flashback
italics= twin's thoughts

'Are you sure you want to do this? Because once you join the Organization… you can never leave out. No matter what.'

If Axel and I haven't been so desperate back then, at least one of use would've heard the worry behind Xigbar's voice. Demyx and Zexion joined right after us, so we didn't have enough experience like we do right now to warn them. Once you join the Organization, you want to leave as soon as possible, but you can't.

I know that I said the Organization is a family, right? Lied, but also didn't. Everyone of use are one big disorganize organize family; always arguing and always fighting. But we're the only ones we have. When one of us is in trouble, the organization will take care of them. But at the same time… we are held hostage.

Xemnas has been using us like toys, as Marluxia calls it. And he has been right so far. There was no need for use to steal diamonds. If we really want to help people, then we should do something neighborly like, oh, I don't know, repaint the town a fresh coat or something. A lot of use would've done it if Xemnas didn't allow it. That and another. When we finally find someone who loves us, he'll use their life as a threat. So we have no choice but to push them away to keep them safe and us in. Besides, if we do leave from the Organization, what would the rest of us do? Some like Xigbar and Xaldin don't have anybody but each other. Oh! Did I also mention that Xemnas doesn't want any relationship within the group?

Yeah. Stupid, right?

I know what Sora and Riku's intentions are, but… it's too late. Once someone is in, no one can get out. We have to stay a family, even against our own will.

I winced as his brother slammed Zexion into the wall. Demyx rushed over to Riku and attempted to hit him upside the head with his sitar. But Riku was much quicker then our friend. He slithered his way to the side of Demyx, his Way To Dawn keyblades clashed with the sitar as Demyx managed to block the attack.

I held onto my backpack close, keeping it safe as Sora's keyblade clashed with mines. Axel danced his way over to us and slashed his chakram on Sora's flesh on the side of his torso. He winced in pain and I took this advantage to kick him towards Riku. As I thought, Riku took his attention of Demyx to catch Sora and Zexion took advantage of this as well, creating a floating bubble like cage around and trapping them. Sora hit the wall, but quickly retreated as if the touch burned him. "Dance Water, Dance!" Demyx strung a note and water started appearing inside the cage, rising with every second. I knew Demyx wasn't going to kill them for two reasons, which is why I didn't panic. One, Sora is my brother. Two, Riku treated him as family as well when Zexion first introduce them to each other. The water stopped at neck length and froze on Demyx's command. I saw the blood still rushing out of Sora's side; it's heat slowly melting the ice. "Damn it Roxas!"

"I told you not to get in my way." I mumbled, not meeting his gaze. The only reason I sent Riku that text in the first place was that he could protect Sora when I'm gone. Didn't he learn anything from the last encounter? Scratch that. Both of them? But seeing as how they came back, I refuse to believe that not even a single bit of information leaked and stayed within their heads.

I looked inside my backpack to see a glass egg still in tack. Our mission was to seek inside someone's home to retrieve it. It's pricey, which is why Xemnas wanted it. And the design was absolutely beautiful. The egg was red with a few yellow Chinese kanji written on a blue and green dragon's back, which circled around the egg. The good thing about this mission though is that I can get paid to get the money needed for my lunch.

"Why do you insist on doing this to yourself?" Riku hissed. "You are not only hurting yourself, but the people who care about you-"

"What people!?" Demyx burst out. "You know what my family did to me, Riku! I have no body to care about me! Everyone here don't have any body to care about them."

"You have us, you bitches!" Riku hissed. "You can't trust Sora and I?"

"No." I said bluntly. "I probably would've if you two just stayed at home."

"Zexion. Demyx." Axel started. "You two keep an eye on those two. We'll give this to the Superior."

"Just make sure he doesn't know about them." Demyx mumbled as we left. I felt my brother's eyes glaring down the back of my head. I could feel his hatred for me right about now. Axel grabbed my hand and I jumped. "You feel him?" he asked me, and then smiled. "It's going to be okay between you two. I promise." I looked away from him, embarrassed by his touch and upset that I might have ended my only connection to love thus far, my brother.

In a way, I believe Xemnas wanted this to happen to everyone.

"Excellent." Xemnas inspected the egg. "Truly wonderful, you two." He laughed. "You two with VI and IX did an excellent job. Now I have one thing to ask the both of you. Why didn't you get rid of the two bearer?" I bit my lips before spreading them apart for words to come, but Axel went to it first. "Superior, sir. We don't think it's necessary to eliminate the two. They're just only kids and they mean us no harm-"

"No harm? Ha." Xemnas walked up to Axel. "You know the damage that was caused. If you four would've gotten caught, not only would I have lost my four best members, but the Organization would've been found and terminated."

"Have you ever tried talking to the police about you plans of searching for love?"

"Have you ever shut up when your Superior speaks?" Xemnas punched Axel hard in the stomach, making me flinch and him crouching down in pain. "Cause if you didn't, you know that you must now."

"…Axel?" I reached over to him, but Xemnas grabbed my hand. My eyes widen and I wanted to pull back fast. His hand was cold, frozen almost. Xemnas smirked as he saw the panic in my eyes. "Now, XIII. You are one of my favorites." He other hand run up my neck. I gulped and kept my composer, which seemed to irritate him. "I wouldn't want to punish you for did obeying me, now would i-"

"Don't touch him." Axel groaned as he forced himself up. Xemnas did a nasty smirked and I felt his touch becoming colder. I wanted him to get off me. NOW!

I snatched my arm away; ignoring the harsh glare he was giving me. His gold eyes looked at me, then Axel before huffing and giving us the thousand mummy this mission rewarded us. "You two are slowing losing my trust." He mumbled. "Tell VI and IX that if they want their reward, then they need to come and obtain it on their own. Dismiss."

Axel grabbed my hand and dragged me out. My grip tightens and started to shake, which made him stop. "Are you okay, Roxy?" He asked me. I looked up in his emerald eyes and slightly smiled. I can tell him. "He felt… cold." I stated. "When he grabbed me, he felt so cold and frozen like, like he was revived from the dead in the arctic or something like that."

"Do you think it's that ability we were talking about yesterday?" Axel asked me. I shrugged. "I don't know." I mumbled. "Because when I touch you, you're warm."

"Well, duh. That's because I'm too hot and sexy." Axel strike a pose, making me hit him in the arm, which resulted in him bursting out in laughter. "I'm serious, Axel." I stated. "I don't think so, because you're always warm."

"Well, am I you're personal blanket, now?" Axel wrapped himself around me and a surge of warmth took over the area that he was in contact with. "Do you want me to always hug you tight and hold you close?" Next thing I knew, I was lifted into the sky. "AXEL!" I yelled, but started laughing with him as he twirled around. "Put me down!"

"You wanna be expose again, Roxy?" his hair blushed against my neck, his head on my shoulder. "I don't want you to get a cold."

"I'm not going to get a could you maniac."

"Oh. So I'm a maniac now?" Axel kissed my cheek and I smiled, hiding a blush. "I kinda like being a blanket. I wanna stay that way."

"Fine." I gave in on the blush. That goodness it was night and we were nowhere near the main streets. Axel smiled. "Well, I'm just happy now. You smiled. And that's pretty hard for anyone to do." I blinked a couple of times at him. "Bastard." I mumbled and he laughed as he put me down. I never let go of his hand, though.

'Billie Jean is not my lover! OW! She's just a girl that thinks that I am the-'

"Hello?" Axel answered his cell phone. "This is he speaking." I watched his facial expression changed form happiness to worried. "Okay. Thank you, Officer Jenny." Axel clicked his phone. "My brother got a little more wasted than needed and almost burn the front of the lawn off. Now he's fighting with the police, claiming that he was trying to signal Dad from heaven to come down to Earth." I gulped. Axel heard it and smiled. "Don't worry about it, Roxy. He just misses him like everyone else does. I just need to help the police out." He moved, but I grabbed on to his hand, stopping him. "Axel…"

"Nothing is going to happen, Roxas." He flashed his infamous grin. "Got it memorized?" I smirked at his way of saying 'I promise.' "Sure. I got it memorized." I replied. Axel moved down and kissed me. It was a quick one, but it was heart warming to me. "I'll see you later, Roxy." As I let go of his hand, the warmth that I've gotten from him disappeared along with him in the streets. I shook my head and decided to trust his word. His brother needed him right about now and Sora needed me as well. But I wasn't all to upset about the lost of the warmth. I knew that as soon as I touch Sora, that same warmth was going to return. That is what somewhat scaring me.

…Don't talk to me.

"Then stop talking to me." I mumbled as I wrapped the bandage around Sora's waist. I tried to stay away from contact with Sora. After kissing Axel, I feel somewhat bad. Like I cheated on him, or something. Which is weird since I didn't even go with him.

I was sorta expecting Sora to ignore me. Who wouldn't though? I just stole something from someone's house! And the last mission, too? Damn, I know I'm going to hell.

…Don't Go! You can still pray for forgiveness!

I was just playing around, Sora and I thought you weren't talking to me. My comment made him turn away from me. I can care about that later. Right now, I just need to get him home and these bandages tighten. Also, prepare for tomorrow. I have a feeling that Riku would try and call a fight on me.

I cut the excess bandages off and looked at him. "Come on, Sora." I grabbed him and started walking, him allowing me to drag him. I heard him sigh a couple of times. "Are they really that much of a family to you, Roxas?" Sora mumbled. "So much that you do all these stupid stuff?" I looked down. "Almost everyone. I need to stand by them."

"They are… unloved, right?" I winced at the word, and he felt it as he held my hand tighter. "But you have me. So, why can't you quiet?"

"It's… complicated, Sora." I sighed. He doesn't seem to take that as an answer. "Roxas-"

"Enough, Sora."

"Why?" Sora gulped down tears. "I don't like seeing you in trouble. If you just need some love, you have me."

"… You can't leave the Organization." I gave up. "Secrets are past from members to members. If you have just a sentence of one of those secrets, well… you can't leave."

"… I'm going to get you outta there, Roxy."

"Don't call me that." I looked away. He's going to get himself killed if he keeps doing this.

I blinked a couple of times, staring at my front porch. A shutter ran up my brother's and mines spine. That was weird.

… you're telling me. My brother commented. The atmosphere feels so… eerie.

I gulped as we walked in, and I had a feeling that shutter weren't for nothing. Sora was snatched away from my view and was replaced by father's fist, causing me to be thrown across the room. "Roxas!" I saw my mother holding back Sora with a mixture of depression in her eyes. Father grabbed my by the neck and slammed me in the wall. "Where have to taken you're precious brother!?"

"..i di…didn't take him….any… where." I managed to get out, losing oxygen by the second. Father gave me a mean left hook before tossing me to the dining room table like a rag doll. I sat up and grabbed the broken leg. I had enough. As he was coming towards me, I dodge another one of his hook and swung the leg across shoulder, striking it in him at the progress. "AUGH! You Bitch!" Father took the leg out of his shoulders and I summoned my keyblades. "Disrespectful little runt!" He got up and swung at me a couple of times, but with all the training I've gotten with Axel, I graceful dodged, more like danced, his attacks and quickly counter with a couple of slashes across his sides. It was deep to hurt, but not to kill. Sora and mom still needs him.

'Father, stop it!" I felt Sora's tears on my own face. Mom flinched every time we hit one another, still trying to keep Sora from running over there. Father because quicker and grabbed my keyblade from attacking him. The blood ran down the blade and I couldn't move it out of his grasp. "ROXAS!" I heard my brother's voice and notice the leg from the table he took out of his back was heading straight towards my heart. I flinched, awaiting the pain. But all I gotten was another's scream. "MOM!" I looked up and my eyes widen as my mother took the blow. She was taller, so it stabbed her sides. "Miki! What is the meaning of this!?" Father hissed. Mother looked at me with brown eyes showing… love?

"Roxas." She called my name for the first time. "Run! Get your things and get out of here!"

"You dumb bitch!" Father slapped mother across the face and I flinched at the blood spitted out. "I have a friend that will take care of you." Mother continued to talk. "You'll know him when you see him. Just run! Get what's needed and run!"

""Stupid Bitch!"

"Leave mom alone!" Sora jumped on Father's back, distracting him. Mother force her way up and hugged me. For the first time in years… mom, hugged me. "I love you, Roxas." She cried. "And I'm so sorry. Now go!" I jumped and quickly ran upstairs as Father threw Sora across the room. I looked my door and started packing frantically. The blow to the face was starting to bother me. I made sure I gotten what I need and grabbed my shadow plush as father started to tear the door apart. I jumped out of my windows just as the door was penetrated down, landing on the tree branch and then the ground before I started running. I could still hear my father's angry cries, feel my brother's tears on my face and my mother's warm embrace. I couldn't take anymore of this.

I stayed hidden in the alleys in Twilight Town. I didn't want to be seen like this. I need to calm my nerves first. I felt a couple of raindrops and it started to pour down. I inhaled a deep breath as I looked up at the sky. I like the rain. It always washes away my troubles, somehow. I held on tightly to my shadow plush inside my Organization jacket. I didn't want to get it wet. I walked for a little while before wincing to some odd pain in the side. Like I've been cut by Axel's chakram or something sharp like a knife. I grabbed the area in which the pain reside and felt warm liquid running down my hand. Blood. How the hell? Father didn't hit me here. I need to find a shelter to close the wound up quickly before I start looking for this friend of moms. But I was losing consciousness as the blood seemed to be flowing rather quickly and has been for a while. I couldn't even make it towards the streets. I leaned on the wall and sat down. My breathing started to intensify. I looked at my plushy and chuckled. "You promise everything was going to be alright you. Can't say the same me." I mumbled. A shadow was cast over me and I looked up in fear that it was my dads. It was a man with blond, spiky hair looking at me with blue eyes. I slowly gotten up to get a better glace at him, but I my vision faded as I fell to the ground.

I blinked my eyes opening, groaning to the dizziness I was getting. I was staring at a ceiling light, so must be alive. I moved up and grabbed my side. The wound was bandaged. I sighed and ran my hand through my hair. I looked at hit and saw a bunch of brown dried liquid on it. It must've been from that fall. But I felt no scars on my head. My upper body was completely stripped and I was wearing a clean pair of jeans. I looked around my surrounding. I was laying on a couch in a living room surrounded by antiques. I noticed one on the fireplace- that was very nice by the way- that looked like the glass egg the team just stolen tonight.

"It is the glass egg that you've stolen tonight, by the way." I jumped at a voice. The man with spiky blond hair and blue eyes leaned on the couch's back, slightly smiling. "You guys thought you could've gotten away with it. Close, but no cigar. It wasn't too hard to get back, though. It was out in the open so, what's the word… openly, that it was just an easy catch." I blinked at him as he walked around and sat on the couch. "How are you feeling?"

"Who are you?" I quickly asked. If he'd gotten through Xemnas so easily like he said he did, I got to know who he is. The man sighed. "You obviously don't remember me, do you? Well, can't blame ya since you were only infants."

"Huh?"

"Besides, I asked first." The man smiled. I groaned. The man was only with me for less then five minutes and he already reminds me of Sora. "I'm fine."

"Good." The guy got up and stretched. I stared at him weirdly. "By the way, that brown on your hand is dye."

"What?!"

"Yeah. I know. Shocking, right?" The man pulled out a mirror. "See. This is your natural color." I looked in the mirror and my eyes widen. My hair was a sunshine blonde just like that man. I even dug through it to see the new growth that suddenly appeared. Also blonde. "What the fuck?!"

"Watch your mouth. I'm still an adult." The man walked towards the kitchen and I could still see him through the island in the wall. "I have some soup for you if you like."

"… You're way to neighborly." I got up and looked around at some picture displayed on the wall. A couple of high school photos of the man and three other people; a guy and two girls. One of the girls had red hair and green eyes, freckles across her face. She's lucky; I wanted freckles. The next girl had deep brown hair and eyes. I recognized them. "…Mom?" I turned to the guy. "You're mom's friend."

"Bout time you figured it out." The man stated. I looked at a wedding picture with him and the same other man in the high school photo. My eyes widen. "L-Leon?"

"You met him?" the man asked worriedly.

"Yesterday on the train." I answered. "He over heard my conversation with my friends. Is he your husband?"

"For a good twenty years." The man brought out a bowl of soup for me. It smells nice. "Still are, in fact. Married right after high school."

"How did he get that scar?" The man stopped at my question, but that was for a quick second. "I promise him I wouldn't talk about it with others."

"Oh." I stated. "Who are you?"

"Cloud Strife."

"Oh. You're names sounds familiar." I pointed out. "Like I heard mom says it before."

"She probably did, Roxas."

"I didn't tell you my name."

"Don't need to when she named you two in my sight." Cloud sat back down on the couch. "She was really happy when you and your twin was born. Oh how she love you both so very much. Would've sacrifice her life just to keep you safe." I looked down, realizing that I probably wouldn't have believed it until that display earlier, and even still, I'm unsure about her.

Just then, I heard a door open. "Welcome home, Leon." I heard Cloud smirk as Leon came into our sight. He stared at me for a while, and then turned to his husband. "Soup! I guess that's for the guest, right?" He went down and kissed Cloud. That felt a little sickening to me. No, not in the homophobe way since I'm homo. But in the 'ew, those are my parents kissing' way." Which was really weird actually.

Leon saw my expression and laughed. "Seeing how you had your eyes on that redhead friend of yours, I though the display of affection wouldn't be too much for you."

"… leave me alone." I mumbled, blushing, as I looked the other way. Cloud smiled and turned my head. "Now, there's no need to be embarrassed."

"I'm not." I stated. "Listen. Thanks for the food and the catering and all, but I will take my jacket and be on my way."

"No you won't" I glared at Leon. "Excuse me?"

"I said, no you won't" Leon pushed me down on the couch. "You are in no condition to be outside. You need to rest. Besides, considering on what you did to Jinochi, I doubt you're anything but safe." I tensed up, thinking about the extent Father would go to hurt me. To kill me, now anyways, after tonight. Cloud held my plush in front of my face. You know, the features look reminds me of him." Leon took it. "It seems like a, what was his name?"

"Axel."

"An Axel plush." I winced as Cloud finished whatever Leon wanted to say. I snatched it. "It's not an Axel plush!" I hissed. Leon plucked my forehead. "Don't raise your voice to your elders." I groaned at him. That hurt big time. I just sighed and grabbed my things. "Where do I sleep?" I asked. I feel like a burden to them.

"You're not." I looked at Cloud as he quickly covered him mouth. Leon pointed upstairs. "Second door is the guest room."

"… thanks, I guess." I walked up the stairwell and into my room. It was nice and cozy. Everything was neutral. The walls, the carpet, the furniture, everything! I jumped on the bed and sighed in relaxation. The mattress was so soft and fluffy. I couldn't help but to get up and jump around in it, laughing without a care in the world. This moment was actually care free.

I winced as I felt my side starting to throb. I have a feeling it's going to be like this for the rest of the week. I lay back down and grabbed my plush.

'Got it Memorized'

I smirked as his quote appeared in my head. "Axel plush, huh?"

Maybe it is.