"You won't have to stop me again…" Jade said almost whispering and dropped the phone so Beck's eyes wide opened.
"Jade? JADE!" He screamed into the phone but nothing happened so he immediately ran to the parking lot and they followed him.
"Beck, what's going on?" Tori questioned confused.
"I hope I'm wrong but I think Jade is trying to kill herself again" He responded desperately and they stared at each other shocked.
"Oh my god, wait, we want to go with you" Tori said and they all got in the car fast so he immediately took off to Jade's house, which was about ten minutes away.
"Why do you think she did it again? Did she say it?" Andre asked as Beck drove.
"No literally but she started sounding weak, like she'd just woken up and then she said it's over and I heard her phone dropping" Beck said nervously and took a breath. "Please god, please let her be okay" A few minutes later they arrived to Mr. West's house and saw Jade's car outside so he knocked pretty hardly. "OPEN THE DOOR!"
"What's going on?" Jade's dad questioned upset as he opened the door but Beck didn't even stop to say hi, he ran upstairs followed by the rest of the gang so Mr. West went up as well.
"Jade, open the door!" Beck ordered and punched the door.
"What's wrong with you?" Mr. West questioned angrily. "Stop doing that"
"JADE!" Beck screamed as he tried to open the door but she wasn't opening so he stepped back and suddenly kicked it.
"What the hell?" Mr. West questioned disconcertedly but Beck ignored him and walked inside only to find his biggest fear come true.
"No, no, no Jade, no!" Beck exclaimed terrified and everyone else covered their mouths shocked. Jade was sat on the floor with her head leaning back on the side of the bed and her hands were all bloody, there was an empty bottle of sleeping pills next to her and all her scars were visible.
"Oh my god" Mr. West said completely shocked and stepped back from the impact.
"She did it, she…she killed herself for real" Cat commented crying her eyes out and Beck took a breath to stop himself from cracking as he put his finger on her neck to check for pulse.
"No, no she's alive, she's alive" Beck informed relieved and immediately tied two pieces of fabric he cut off her shirt to stop the bleeding. "Andre, help me…we need to take her to the hospital" The two boys carried Jade downstairs trying to not hurt her and got her in his car while Mr. West drove the rest of them to the hospital as well.
As soon as they arrived the doctors started attending Jade and a few seconds later her father and the rest of the gang arrived. "What happened?" Tori asked worriedly.
"They're treating her" Andre responded.
"How did you know?" Mr. West asked them and Beck sighed.
"Listen, Mr. West, there's something you need to know…" Beck said. "Jade self-harms, she cuts herself" he informed and Mr. West's mouth dropped.
"What?" He questioned shocked. "Jade, my Jade self-harms? That's not possible, she's not that kind of girl"
"I'm sorry to inform you she is" Beck commented seriously. "She started doing it long ago and then she stopped but she recently started doing it again"
"But why? Is it because of Daniel?" Jade's dad questioned.
"Perhaps, I don't know" Beck responded sincerely. "But today we confronted her about it, I guess she panicked and did this"
"Dear god" Mr. West said and covered his mouth shocked. "But you said she started doing it long ago, when? Why?" He questioned and they looked at each other debating whether to tell him or not.
"We believe she'd been doing it before she got into Hollywood Arts and it was because of you" Beck said and his eyes wide opened.
"Because of me?" Mr. West asked completely shocked. "But what the hell are you talking about? Jade didn't have any reasons, I've never been an abusive father or anything like it"
"Listen, we just know she thinks you don't love her and that you reject her…at least that's what she said back then, that's how she explained why she did it" Andre commented. "That and the fact she felt lonely, she told us her mother had passed a year before that so I guess that was her trigger"
"I can't believe this" Jade's father said as he shook his head mortified. "And now…if you hadn't arrived, she would've died"
"But she didn't" Beck responded. "She'll be fine, she just needs your support and psychological help"
They waited for over three hours and the doctor finally approached them. "How is my daughter?" Mr. West asked worriedly.
"Alive, the bleeding didn't kill her and we washed her stomach so the pills didn't either" The doctor responded. "But I noticed she has some bruises and cuts on her arms, I suppose she self-harms, right?"
"Yes" Beck answered sadly and the doctor nodded.
"She is awake, you can see her" Everyone followed the doctor towards Jade's room and when they entered, she immediately turned to them.
"Jade" Her father said emotionlessly and she looked down. "Why?"
"Leave me alone, I don't want to see anyone" Jade informed coldly. "Congratulations! You just ruined my life" she said agrily to Beck and he sighed.
"I saved your life" He responded. "I wasn't gonna let you make this mistake"
"Don't pretend you care" Jade demanded upset. "I know you don't, nobody does"
"What are you talking about? Of course there are people who care about you, me included, I'm your father" Mr. West commented.
"It's too late to remember it" She responded.
"Why do you hurt yourself?" He questioned.
"Why not?" Jade questioned back.
"Jade, stop acting oblivious" Beck commented. "Is your love for Daniel so big that you prefer to die than to live without him?" He asked sadly, especially because that meant her love for Daniel had been much bigger than her love for him. Jade simply stared into space sadly and sighed.
"No" Jade said and turned to him. "I don't love Daniel anymore, I don't even know if I ever did…" She commented and he stared at her confused.
"But he was your boyfriend and you seemed so in love" Tori commented.
"I was in love with what he represented, not with him" Jade clarified but she could see they didn't understand. "Daniel seemed the perfect man, he took his time trying to make me fall for him…he did all sorts of things I never thought someone would do for me and he made me feel good about myself, he always reminded me I was beautiful, that I was the only one, that he loved me and I liked that" She continued and Beck looked down because, in a way, she was comparing him to Daniel and Daniel won. "He started bothering me when he wouldn't leave me alone but I refused to end what we had because in the end, he was just trying to keep me…"
"But then he got violent" Andre added and Jade nodded.
"Yeah…" Jade said and sighed.
"So he represented the perfect man in your life?" Robbie asked not really understanding her point.
"No, it wasn't about that…" Jade responded. "You really don't get it, do you?"
"No, explain yourself" Beck demanded.
"Ever since my mom died, nobody has truly loved or cared about me…no one!" Jade affirmed. "I guess that's why I started doing it when I was younger, then when we started dating I thought I'd finally found someone so I stopped…it's pathetic" she commented upset. "When you broke up with me…for the second time, I almost fell again but then I didn't because you aren't worth my pain" she affirmed coldly.
"And Daniel is?" Beck asked but she shook her head.
"No, he isn't" Jade responded. "You still don't get it, I'm not doing it because I miss him or because I love him…I'm not doing it for you either, I'm doing it for me" she said to Beck.
"For you?" Cat asked confused.
"Yes, Daniel represents exactly what my whole life is about…I was born to be alone and miserable, isn't that right, Beck?" She asked him coldly and he sighed sadly. "There isn't a single person out there who's willing to love me for who I am without either making me feel he's doing me a favor or making me feel I'm a god damn object he possesses" she said angrily.
"That's not true, Jade, and even if it is…You're eighteen, you haven't even lived long enough to know that yet" Tori commented.
"I don't expect you to understand, none of you feels like I do" Jade responded emotionlessly.
"Your perception of reality is completely twisted, you don't see what you have" Beck affirmed and she stared at him upset. "But first of all, I'm sorry, I really am…for everything"
"You're forgiven, leave now" Jade ordered coldly but he shook his head.
"No, you need to listen to me" Beck responded. "I'm sorry for telling you the things I did, I'm sorry for the way I behaved, I was a jerk but above all , I'm sorry for making you feel you weren't good enough during our relationship" He said sincerely. "But you need to understand something, Jade, get it through your head, NO ONE in this world is worth your tears or your blood…You can't let your value be determined by someone else's actions, that's an issue you need to fix" He commented and she looked down because she knew he was partly right. "And also, look at me" Beck demanded and grabbed his chin gently to make her look up. "I do love you, I love you way more than you think" He affirmed and she did her hardest to push the tears back.
"No, you don't" Jade affirmed. "You're just saying this because you feel bad for me now but you don't love me, he was right…he said this would happen" she commented as she looked to the other side.
"He? Do you mean Daniel?" Her father asked and she simply stared at him emotionlessly. "You've talked to him?"
"He calls me sometimes" Jade commented and they looked at each other surprised.
"What? But why? What does he want?" Beck questioned.
"He usually reminds me that he's the only person who loves me…" Jade responded.
"And you believe him…" Beck added upset.
"No, if he loved me he wouldn't have hit me…or told me to…" she started but then stopped.
"Tell you to what?" Andre asked.
"To use my gold scissors" Jade responded and chuckled sadly.
"He's told you to cut yourself?" Beck questioned angrily and Jade looked at him.
"Yes, that's something you two have in common" She simply responded and Beck looked down ashamedly. "And he also said this would happen, he told me you would probably try to convince me you love me but only because you pity me" she said upset. "I want you to leave"
"No, Jade, what that animal says is meant to hurt you…You can't believe him!" Beck affirmed upset and she rolled her eyes.
"Oh shut up, you can't come here and act like you're a saint…You're just like Daniel, what YOU told me was meant to hurt me too and you didn't care" Jade said angrily.
"Yes, exactly and you shouldn't have believed me" Beck responded and Jade looked to the other side not knowing what to respond. "Jade, please, you need to believe me…I'm not lying, I've been trying to fix things since our fight, long before this happened…I was angry and I didn't think before I spoke but I'm sorry, I do love you, you have to believe me"
"I don't have to do anything, get the hell out now or I'm gonna call the security guards"
Yeah, Jade is being very stubborn...
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