It was little after 9am when little James woke up the following day from his improvised bed on the sofa in Bucky's apartment. Last night had been the first night in months that he actually didn't have one of his nightmares and slept right through. Remembering what happened before he went to sleep, a warm smile filled his face as he bought his beloved Teddy bear even closer to his chest. it was Bucky who'd tucked him in bed after he came down from the roof after his creative arts and crafts session earlier. He was so excited to show his mother the drawings he'd done and searched the apartment for her, only to he stopped by Bucky heading out of the bedroom area, a white sheet wrapped tightly around his waist. Bucky quickly told him that his mummy was very tired, was having an early night and that she'd see him in the morning. This seemed the more innocent explanation for a child at where his mother was. Bucky then offered to put him to bed instead of Brogan. Thinking nothing of the fact that Bucky was partially clothed, James's eyes widened at the prospect of his new hero tucking him into bed. Excitedly, he took Bucky's hand and headed over to the couch.
Jumping off the couch just now, James was met by a deathly silence as nobody else seemed to be awake yet. Grabbing his teddy, he quickly tucked it under his arm and headed across the apartment to the room he knew Bucky usually slept. Taking a deep breath the little boy, being as quiet as he could, reached up and slowly pushed open the door. What he saw made him smile so much that he thought he could burst. There in the bed was his Mummy and Bucky curled up together fast asleep. Brogan was lying on her side, clinging onto the pillow, while Bucky was pressed up against her back, his arm draped around her protectively with his metallic hand clasped within hers tenderly. Although James was slightly confused that they both seemed to had lost their clothes, he decided to leave them be and crept back along the hall, sitting on the sofa and switching on the little TV in the far end of the room…
About an hour later and Bucky was the next to awake. Slowly opening his eyes, He was now lying on his back with Brogan resting her head on his chest. Her hand was directly over his heart now, still in a deep contented sleep. Looking down at her, he began replay the night of passion they had both shared as he ran his hand through her hair. At How they had made love numerous times, after he put James to bed before collapsing in each others arms. This made if Official for Bucky now. He wanted to be with Brogan and this new instant family permanently. Being as gentle as he could, Bucky moved Brogans head to the pillow and softly moved some of the curls away from her face. He really never thought that someone like her would want to be with someone like him, especially after finding out about everything he'd done and what he was. Yet, apparently she did and Bucky was determined to not let his one shot of happiness go. Everything about her was just perfect. Her touch and sheer presence had turned his entire world upside down now and changed his outlook on his life forever. Just that moment Brogan began to stir. she let out a yawn and gazed adoringly up at him, greeting him with a winning smile. Last night had been the best she had ever had with a man. He may have been many years older than herself and not known much about much of life but Bucky without a doubt defiantly knew how to please a woman. Brogan hated it whenever Alex wanted to be intimate with her. In fact he was the only man she'd been with. Making love to Alex was at times a pretty much one sided affair for Brogan, with him being his usual dominant self with her. Like everything in his life, Alex liked being control and just left her dissatisfied every time. Yet, last night with Bucky it was completely different. It was how Brogan thought making love was meant to be. He made her feel special, was gentle and tender with his touches. He left her aching and needing more...Just proved by the number of times they made love
"Good morning you" There was a deep look of love in her eyes as she gazed opposite at him "last night was amazing. I wish it didn't have to end" She grasped his head in her hands and planted a soft lingering kiss on his lips. "Considering you are like 90 and everything...you have got some stamina" she joked reaching for his face once more "it was perfect…you was perfect…"
"Brogan, I want you to know that I no way regret what we did but... I don't know if I'm worthy of all this.." He looked at her with sadness in his eyes "I don't know if I can give you the life you deserve...they won't stop looking for me, you know that right?...They wont stop until they have me behind bars or I'm dead..."
"Listen to me Bucky, you have shown me more love and kindness these past few weeks than anyone had shown me in my life..." Brogan smiled reassuringly "yes, you've done a lot of bad things but that wasn't you...That was all down to those bastards at HYDRA and the winter soldier...not the real you...not James Buchanan Barnes " she gently ran her hand through his hair, as he reached for her palm kissing it gently "The guy that saved my life, shown me so me so much love and kindness these past few weeks is more than worthy...but you're right...they are not going to stop looking for you..."
Releasing her from his arms, Bucky sighed and gazed sadly up at the ceiling. Residing himself to the fact that he was destined never to be with this amazing woman now. Yes he didn't have his full memories back but the one thing he was sure of was that he'd never meet a woman like Brogan again. Slipping his legs at the side of the bed, he sat up and ran his hand through the long locks of his hair. His heart at breaking point at the growing realisation of a life without her in it now
"Im just glad that you've given me the memory of last night... That will stay with me always.." He was so in cased in his thoughts that he didn't realise Brogan had moved off the bed and was standing right in front of him, still wrapped in a crisp white sheet "Say goodbye to James for me..."
"Bucky, who said anything about me leaving you?.." she smiled, sitting on his lap. Reaching forward she tucked a loose lock of his hair behind his ear and kissed him passionately "I've just found you and I don't plan on letting you go anytime soon..." she held his head in his hands, caressing his beard with her fingertip "I've never truly felt like this about anyone. The way I feel when I'm around you makes me feel so Alive and free...something I never felt the entire time I was with Alex" he looked lovingly into those beautiful green eyes that had now welled with tears "Regardless of all that you've done, I know that you're just Bucky to me…the same Bucky I fell for when you bought James back to me that day at the museum"
"what are you trying to say Brogan?" whispered Bucky softly "what do you mean?"
She kissed him hard once and gently began caressing his well formed chest with her the tips of her fingers
"what I'm trying to say is that...I think..." she struggled to find the right words and decided Just saying them out right would be the way to explain "Take me with you..."
"WHAT?...I can't...I can't" he gasped, stunned at her out of the blue proclamation "I can't do that to you...A life on the run and hiding in shadows isn't a life for you...let alone James as well"
"Bucky, for the past 8 months that's what I've been doing anyhow...I've grown use to that life and so has James" she cried, stroking the cold metal of his arm "Im listening to my dads advice for once and seizing the moment...I want to be with you Bucky...always..."
"You're willing to give up on everything for a life on the run with me?" He struggled to catch his breath, still stunned "but...but why?..."
"because right now, I don't want to imagine the rest of my life without you in it" she smiled "That's why your worthy Bucky...you've changed my life..."
The pair soon fell back on the bed and Brogan was now pinned by the bigger man deep onto the bed. Bucky looked down at his new love and moved her curls away from her face. He gazed down at her beauty and once again into those emerald eyes that bewitched him from that first meeting. Lowering his head he went back to her neck and back to that sensitive spot on her collar that he knew drove her wild. He could hear her moan his name softly and slowly feel her slip her hands round his neck, pulling him closer..
Slowly he dropped his metallic hand under the sheet covering her modesty and began to run it down her leg, dangerously close to her inner thigh
"I may not know much about my life and who I am Brogan" He said, still caressing her leg as she clung onto his neck "but Nobody has ever been willing to give up so much just for me...Hydra might have my mind for the time being but you have everything else...Im yours till the end of the line..."