Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyy soooo srry it took to long to update!!!!!!!!!!!! i was sooo lazy and busy reading fics instead of writing!!!! oh well enough of pointless words...

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(Bella POV- After fight with Paul)

Yes!!!

It worked!!! I couldn't believe it! I couldn't keep the grin off my face as I drove back to Forks. All I have to do now is win Jake over. Those photos worked. Wow, he must really not want anyone to find this out.

Oh well, sucks to be him, good to be me.

I arrived at my house within minutes. I parked my big noisy truck in my driveway. Careful not to fall, I climbed out and went inside. I rushed upstairs and into my room. Waiting on my bed was Edward. I smiled.

"Hi Edward. So... Paul hasn't went to Jake, right?" I asked anxiously. He sighed.

"No, love." He said. Then he frowned.

"Are you sure we should be doing this. I mean, if the mutt wants another mutt, then so be it." He said. I rolled my eyes.

"Edward, you know Jake is my best friend. I need him. He can get so much better than that a temperamental Omega." I replied. He still frowned.

"Are you sure? I mean, no matter how much I hate the mutt, he imprinted. And from what Carlisle told me, seperation from an imprint can cause serious problems." He said.

I sighed.

"He can deal. And they'll be perfectly fine without each other." I said.

(Paul POV- Present)

Depression.

I read about it once. And let me tell ya, reading about it is so much more different than experiencing it. I felt awful. It had been two weeks. I had avoided Jake at all costs.

And it hurt. It hurt bad. I don't know how much longer I could stay away from him. I mean, I just disappeared out of his life. I feel like shit. I knew Jake shouldn't have wasted his time with me. I am totally not worth it. All the pain.

The pain he's probably going through right now, I can't even imagine.

(Jake POV)

What the hell?

He just... left. Just disappeared.

And it hurt. Beyond belief!!!!!!! I miss him. I need him. And I love him. What was wrong with him? The burning in my chest told me something was wrong. But since he was avoiding me, I take it he doesn't wanna see me.

The pain was excruciating. The depression, pain, rejection, agony, burning desire, need, ache, anguish, anxiety and it went on and on! It was all too much! Sending me and my heart on overdrive.

What I really needed to know was why? Why did he just vanish from my life? I thought things were going great. It just didn't seem to fit. I knew something was wrong. Very wrong.

I sat up on my couch. The couch I had laid on for the past two weeks. Paul wasn't know to just give up. He said he would try. Give me a chance. But he up and left. It was just... strange.

Whenever I would go near him. He would turn and leave. But his movements were hesitant. If only a bit, I just knew something was wrong with my imprint. Whether he liked it or not, I was going to talk to him.

Tonight. There was a bon fire. The pack had to come and some other people from the res too. It was perfect. I was gonna find out what was wrong with my Paul. He was mine.

I ran a hand over my face and through my hair. My face was probably puffy from crying so much. I looked at the clock. It was almost time for the bon fire. Yes! The burning in my chest needed to be extinguished. And there's only person who can do that.

(Paul POV)

I didn't wanna go. I didn't wanna leave. I really just didn't wanna move. All I wanted to do was curl up and cry. Though it wouldn't be much different than the position I'm in now.

I was tired. Tired of crying. Tired of the pain. Tired of being controlled. And tired of losing everything. I sighed and sat up on my bed. I had to go to that damn bon fire now. I didn't want to but I have to. I got off my bed and pulled on a pair of tight dark wash jeans and a navy blue t-shirt. Which, ironically, had a russet wolf on it.

Damn, I miss my russet wolf. I took a deep breath before I started crying again. I walked out of my house and to the First beach. Everybody was already there. I groaned as I made way over to them I didn't want to be her. At. All. My heart ached. But I put on my fake 'I'm OK And Not Depressed' face. I walked to the party and Leah greeted me.

"Hey kid! Hm, you looked depressed." She said. I furrowed my brows.

"I'm not depressed." I said in fake confusion. Though lying to Leah is just plain stupid.

"C'mon kid, what's wrong? And why aren't you with Jake already? I know you've been avoiding him." She said, looking into my eyes. I sighed.

"Nothing gets past you, huh Leah?" I replied. She smiled softly.

"Now, is something wrong?" She asked. I looked down at my shoes.

"Yes Lee. Something's very, very wrong." I whispered. Leah had always been a good friend for me. I tell her almost everything. But this is just something I couldn't tell her.

"Wanna tell me?" She asked me hope clear in her voice.

"I can't. I'm sorry." I said, looking at her. She smiled understandingly.

"S'okay, kid. C'mon let's go find Jake!" She said and started pulling me into the crowd. I panicked.

"No, no, no, Leah! Please, not now?!" I pleaded. She looked confused. Couldn't blame her though.

"Ok, something is definitely wrong! Why don't you wanna see Jake? I know for a fact that he misses you like hell! What wrong?" She pried. I felt my eyes sting.

"I can't tell you. I'm really sorry, Lee." I said, barely above a whisper. She sighed.

"Will you tell me?" Asked and all to familiar voice. My heart stopped. I whipped around.

"J-Jake?" I stuttered out like an idiot. He moved closer to me. I was to frozen and afraid to move.

"C'mon, Paul. No more running." He said softly. His voice, it made me wanna melt. I missed it.

"I-I, uh, c-c..." I couldn't come up with a full sentence. That was first.

He put his arms on my shoulders. I couldn't help the shiver of pleasure that ran through me at the contact. They way he looked into my eyes , I felt so exposed. Like he could see my dirty little secret. I closed my eyes. I felt his breath graze my ear.

"Tell me, Paul. Why are you avoiding me?" He whispered.

"I wanna tell you but-"

I was cut off as i felt his lips crash on mine. I shocked at first, but eventually got lost in the kiss. He pulled me too him, wrapping me fully in his arms. I didn't care as I felt his tongue slide in my mouth. I forgot about all the consequences. I just wanted this. I needed this. I didn't care if people were watching. I just needed him. We pulled apart and I rested my head on his shoulder.

He just held me. I relaxed. No pain, no regret and no anxiety.

"Ahem!" Some interrupted. But I recognized that voice.

Oh Shit!

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