Chapter 11: Lesson nine: Jealousy
Sometimes you just can't open up to someone. Not because you don't trust them. But because once you tell someone how you feel inside, you are giving them permission to hurt you: Uknown
Inuyasha didn't know why he was still in a very pissed off mood, that Koji guy decided to stick to Kagome like super glue, that it made him sick. Inuyasha kept watching as during the day Koji was always teasing and flirting with Kagome, but Kagome being the cute innocent 22 year old that she was, didn't realise it yet. However Inuyasha clearly did, and it was pissing him off. He didn't know why, but he just had the urge to go up to him and slit his throat as he embraced Kagome and stained her neck with his fangs. Inuyasha was scared. He didn't know why he kept feeling that way, why he was getting so attached to this woman in just two months. She could get under his skin so easily it irritated him, yet made him happy at the same time.
It didn't help that he had his family to worry about. But why should he worry about them, they clearly didn't care about him, if all they were sending him were voice messages. So why should he care about them.
Inuyasha went to his favorite tree in the field and climbed up as he lied down on a thick branch that he had once shared with Kagome. Inuyasha rubbed his eyes tiredly, why is it everything he did always had Kagome involved now. It was as if she was the only thing he ever thought about. Inuyasha kept thinking about Kagome all day, and kept imagining the way her crème dress and suave skin felt under his touch, how a little graze of her lips felt on his. Inuyasha lifted up his hand and slowly grazed his bottom lip with his finger as he licked them slowly. The way her cheeks flushed, and her eyes had that beautiful glassy shine to them. The way her dress and every single piece of clothing she wore, adorned her perfect hour-glass figure.
Inuyasha growled loudly. This is what he meant, Kagome was on his mind all bloody day, and just as much as it was amazing it was fucking irritating. Inuyasha growled as he thought of Koji also, the fucking bastard had the audacity to graze his hand with hers, to be as close to her as he could possibly be, to yell her name down the corridor and hug her. And the worst thing is that Kagome said nothing! it was as if she WANTED the attention that the bastard was showering her with.
Inuyasha just closed his eyes and tried to think of anything else ANYTHING other than Kagome.
But it failed, because Kagome...was the only person who was influencing him the most. For the better.
The said woman was walking out to the field not wanting to have to deal with Koji, as charming the young handsome boy was, he was too clingy for her taste. He was so sweet though, but she just felt it was good if she went to the field. When Sango met Koji she was thrilled, and when Kagome wanted to leave, Sango winked and started speaking to Koji as he started to flirt with her.
Kagome shook her head and sighed loudly "Gosh men and their flirting honestly" Kagome had kept walking until she reached the tree that held memories that her and Inuyasha shared. Kagome walked towards it, hoping that she could probably find Inuyasha. As Kagome walked closer towards the tree she kept having the small feeling of hope as she raised her hand to touch the trunk of the tree. Kagome looked up as she tried to spot a strand of silver...as she concentrated harder up the tree, she smiled as she spotted silver, however contemplated whether to talk to him or not. In case another incident like the one yesterday happens which might ruin the friendship that they both have.
However Kagome shook her head and tried her luck "Inuyasha? you there?" Kagome said. Hearing movement then a heavy thump, as the hanyou had jumped down from the tree and landed harshly on the ground. Kagome's smile was lost as she saw his scowl.
"What's wrong wench" Inuyasha asked not looking at her. He couldn't he was scared that if he did, he would do something that he would regret.
Kagome was slightly hurt by Inuyasha's coldness, and walked forward "I-Inuyasha are you okay" Kagome asked worried.
Inuyasha sighed and growled lightly "Yeah I'm fine wench, what'ya want" Inuyasha didn't know why he was being so mean, but all he knew was that if he hugged her or even got near her, then he would lose his control and he knew that Kagome didn't think of him that way. She only saw him as her student. However yesterday could have proved his theory wrong, but he didn't want to chance it. Yeah sure Kagome was really close to him, and made him feel hot and bothered, and loved, and comforted...but they could only be friends.
However Inuyasha had a feeling inside that he didn't want to just be her student. Oh no he wanted to be more. But knew that she was a god girl and would not break the law and the school code for teacher student strictly forbidden affairs.
Kagome just sighed "Inuyasha is this because of yesterday. Why are you annoyed, have I done soemthing?" Inuyasha saw Kagome pout, and saw the sadness in her eyes. Inuyasha started to smell salt and quickly went to embrace Kagome, not even thinking about what he was doing, but just acted on his youkai instincts which were telling him to comfort this woman.
Kagome was shocked, to shocked to even hug him back. Inuyasha however embraced her tightly, his nose stuck in her neck as he inhaled her scent. Kagome closed her eyes as she slowly embraced him back, both arms holding his shoulders from behind, as she buried her head in his shoulder. "No Kagome, it's not you...it's just that..." Inuyasha shut his eyes tightly. "It's just that we can't be anything more than friends. I don't want to do anything you'll regret Kagome"
Kagome was confused however "I-Inuyasha...what do you mean?" Kagome asked in confusion.
Inuyasha sighed as he pulled back a little to stare into her eyes. Inuyasha used his finger to incline her chin upwards "Kagome..." Inuyasha bent down slowly as his eyes closed just as slowly. Kagome's eyes were wide however and before she could even contemplate what he was about to do, his lips had touched hers. Kagome was stunned as her eyes were still wide open, her tears slowing down. However she had closed them slowly as she kissed back. Inuyasha was so happy, he had embraced her tighter, one arm on her lower back and the other behind her head, as he inclined his head to the right and grasped her hair gently as he provided more pressure into the kiss. Kagome didn't think about anything, all she thought about was how good his lips felt against hers. Moving professionally as their heads moved from side to side, there lips separating for a second before joining again. Kagome had wrapped her arms around his neck as Inuyasha placed both his arms around her lower back.
'This is wrong Kagome! No Kagome stop...stop...no...oh Inuyasha, why are you making me feel like this' Kagome just ignored her thoughts as she enjoyed the kiss as much as she could.
Inuyasha's tongue had licked her bottom lip, Kagome granted him entrance as Inuyasha gently sucked on Kagome's bottom lip, causing the woman in question to receive a feeling in her lower belly.
They both separated slowly, Inuyasha's eyes opened first. Inuyasha however cursed himself for losing his control for a moment. Kagome opened her eyes and was in a daze. Sure she's had kisses before, but never like that. No never has she felt such passion, such comfort and warmth from anyone. Kagome looked into his eyes, and saw that he was contemplating about something.
"I-Inuyasha...why?" Kagome asked as she touched her lips and looked up at him. Inuyasha said nothing as he cursed himself and said a quick sorry before leaving. Kagome turned and shouted "INUYASHA" it was futile however Inuyasha was already gone. Kagome was confused, why? why would he give her one fo the best kisses she's ever had and then just run away.
'It's just that we can't be anything more than friends, I don't want to do anything you'll regret Kagome'
Kagome remembered his words, and just stared in the direction that Inuyasha had run of too, however she heard her name being called from behind "Hey Kagome" Kagome turned around and saw Koji waving in her direction.
Kagome dried her eyes and cleared her throat as she smiled gently and waved back "Hey Koji" Kagome said as she walked in his direction.
Inuyasha ran as fast as he could, ignoring his friends who were calling him, ignoring the teachers who told him to stop. Ignoring everyone and everything as he ran to the roof. Once Inuyasha got to the roof he had taken many deep breaths, he was angry, yet happy, annoyed, and irritated. Why did she have to cry, if she didn't then he wouldn't have lost his control.
No that was a lie, he wanted to lose control, he had wanted to kiss her, he had wanted to embrace her, he wanted to suck on those plump lips of hers. Inuyasha walked to the side of the roof as he placed his hands in his pockets. He'd never felt anything like it. It felt amazing to say the least, it was electric, warm, passionate, gentle, yet rough at the same time. Inuyasha had never ever felt like that when he had kissed any of the other women in the past. He never felt that longing that need that want of needing to be with her, of wanting to be with her and to kill anyone else who dared stop that.
However he knew they couldn't be anything less than teacher and student. Kagome would never put her position in danger, or jepeordise her career for him. She just wouldn't. No way would she take the chance. Inuyasha closed his eyes as he looked up at the sky, and remembered the unit 1 part of history, where the hanyou was saved by the reincarnated miko, and how they fell in love.
'Can me and Kagome be like the hanyou and the miko. Can she save me and...and...maybe just maybe...no it's useless' Inuyasha thought sadly. Inuyasha felt the wind blow his hair wildly, as he opened his eyes and looked down where he could see his tree. Or maybe his and Kagome's tree now. Inuyasha's fantasy however was cut off as he saw that fucking prick Koji rubbing himself on Kagome. Inuyasha growled dangerously, his eyes changing from red to amber, his fangs bared, as he bent his knees, his claws lengthening. However Inuyasha tried to control his demon, he tried to control the urge to just kill that son of a bitch and bury his body in hell.
Then he saw Kagome smile. Which hurt him inside badly. Was this the pain that Kagome...might have felt when he was sleeping around. If it was he would do anything to turn back time and change that. However he growled as he saw her laughing and walking of with the bastard. Oooooooh how he could say every swear word under the fucking son if it had that bastard of a teacher involved. Inuyasha heard the bell, and realised that his next class was maths. He smirked 'this should be fun' Inuyasha smirked and growled darkly as he narrowed his eyes at the door of the roof as he slammed it open and ran downstairs. But not before bumping into Koga and Miroku.
"Hey man we got maths with that new teach, man did you see him sucking up to Kagome like that" Koga said with Inuyasha in the middle of the two boys as they all walked down the corridor, whilst people made way for them.
"Yeah I know" Inuyasha said darkly.
Miroku and Koga both looked at him "Hey yasha man, where have you been these couple of days, we miss ya. We're going to hang out tonight, not partying or anything. Just visiting our place when we were little ya remember" Miroku said.
Inuyasha turned towards Miroku and smirked "Off course I do man" Inuyasha punched both of his friends on the shoulder's "Why wouldn't I guys. Let's all go out tonight" Inuyasha said. Maybe this was a way to forget about Kagome for a while, by visiting his and his childhood friends place deep in the forest.
Koga and Miroku both smirked.
They had all arrived in maths and as per usual the three had growled at some kids as they scurried away so that Inuyasha and gang could sit at the back. Inuyasha might have changed his ways, but scaring a few kids wasn't doing any harm. Soon enough Inuyasha smelt the stupid fucker who he hated with a passion, and saw how he entered the room. "Hello everyone I will be your new maths teacher for the day, my name is Mr Tamura, and I will be staying here for a year as a trainee teacher"
Inuyasha's eyes widened 'A year...A WHOLE FUCKING YEAR!. The god's must SERIOUSLY HATE ME' Inuyasha glared towards the teacher as he smiled and started to introduce the modules they would be learning. To be honest he preferred his old maths teacher Myoga, he might have been old but just like Kaede they were the two excluding Kagome for now, that he had trusted and actually respected. Inuyasha heard him talking about Algebra. Inuyasha smirked 'A piece of cake'.
"Now who want's to try out this formula 2a plus 23a minus a" Mr Tamura searched the class, and saw the same hanyou that he had seen earlier who had talked to Kagome before he ran off. Mr Tamura narrowed his eyes at the hanyou. "How about you boy" he said pointing towards Inuyasha.
Inuyasha growled "Teach in case you ain't got a register, my name isn't boy. Yeah i'll do the damn question" Inuyasha said as he got up.
Koji's eyes darkened "Now you respect your teachers boy, you don't have a right to talk to me like that. But hey your a rough one so i'll let it slide" Koji said, insulting him secretely. However Inuyasha, Miroku and Koga, and maybe some other students understood his comment and the meaning behind it and growled.
Inuyasha just did the question as quick as lightning and sat back down in his chair "24a. Well done..." Koji looked at the register and smirked darkly in his direction "Inuyasha"
Inuyasha glared back and snorted "At least you learned how to read the register"
Koji was getting angry at the fucking half-breeds insults and so ordered him to stand outside. Inuyasha did gladly and slammed the door shut as he waited outside. Koji excused himself quickly and walked out to talk to Inuyasha.
"Now you listen half-breed, I don't know what your problem is, but you are seriously pushing it. Don't think I haven't seen you and Kagome before during break" Inuyasha's eyes darkened as Kagome's beautiful name came out of his mouth. "You guys looked really comfy talking before you ran off" Inuyasha furrowed his eyebrows, thank god Koji only saw them talking and nothing else. "Now you do well to watch your attitude, and that temper of yours half-breed. And about Kagome if you hate me because of me spending time with her, then you can run with your tail between your legs, because she would never go out with a studnet let alone a half-breed"
Inuyasha fisted his hands and bared his fangs dangerously as his eyes were changing colours from amber to red drastically "Now you listen here teach and you listen good I don't care if you go to Kaede, or whoever the fuck you want to go to, but I will tell you right now. Don't you dare call me a half-breed you stupid human, you can insult me all you like, but not my heritage, and don't you even dare talk about Kagome. What me and her do is none of your business, you got that. If you carry on like this then the one who will run with their tail between their legs would be you. Now stop acting all high and mighty and using your teaching status as a way to look down on me, because there's no need for that" Inuyasha smirked evilly "Unless it's because you are scared of me"
Koji felt himself boil in anger.
"Now shall we go in oh wonderful teach, or shall we stand out here and keep this wonderful conversation going, because frankly id rather talk to a fish than you" Inuyasha said as he smirked. Koji just walked past Inuyasha and brushed his shoulder against Inuyasha's roughly.
"This isn't over half-breed" Koji said before entering with Inuyasha.
Inuyasha snorted "Wouldn't dream of it you bastard" Inuyasha said as both boys glared at each other.
The day had carried on like normal, as Kagome taught her lessons and decided that after Inuyasha's session she and Sango would go out for dinner. As Kagome walked out to the field, to see Inuyasha once more she felt her hand being held and as she turned around she saw brown eyes and not the amber ones she really wanted to see. "Oh hi Koji" Kagome said smiling trying to cover up her disappointment.
Koji smiled as he let go of her hand "Hey Kagome, listen I was wondering if your free Saturday?" Koji said as he scratched the back of his head. Kagome sighed however smiled a little. Maybe this could be a break from thinking about Inuyasha. "Yeah sure I am, why?"
Koji smirked and winked "Because I want to take a pretty and drop dead beautiful woman out for dinner" Kagome giggled a little however she didn't know what to do. 'Well I might as well, what have I got to lose'
Kagome turned and nodded "Sure Koji, I'd love to go. Where do I meet you?"
Koji smiled and bent down to whisper in her ear "Meet me outside the Shikon restaurant at 7:00" Kagome however didn't shiver as much as when Inuyasha whispered in her ear. Kagome however just smiled and nodded as she spent the rest of lunch talking to Koji.
Finally it was after school and as she was taking registration, she had waited to see if she could find Inuyasha anywhere, so they could start their tutoring. However Kagome didn't see any Inuyasha, Koga or Miroku and sighed. 'Is it because of earlier? is he ignoring me' Kagome bit her lip 'God I hope not' after registration, Jakotsu being the amazing gay friend any woman would want consoled Kagome and gave her a hug as he managed to make Kagome smile. Kagome hugged Jakotsu back as she slapped his shoulder, as he started talking about some boy he fancied.
After that Kagome got into her car, however she didn't start it, she couldn't. She wanted to see Inuyasha, she wanted to sort this out. How could he give her one of the best kisses she had ever experienced and then disappear without even a word to her. Kagome opened her eyes as she licked her lips slowly 'Oh you silly boy why do you have to make me feel like this' Kagome bit her lip as she remembered the feelings she had in her lower regions when he had sucked on her lip. Kagome shook her head however 'No Kagome...No' And with that last thought she had started her engine and made her way to her house to change before meeting Sango for dinner.
Inuyasha Miroku and Koga were all running in the forest, Miroku being a quarter demon could somewhat run as fast as his friends could. Koga however was the fastest, but Inuyasha was the strongest, and Miroku was the wisest out of the whole group believe it or not, especially with all his perversion but it was true. Once they had all gotten to their childhood section in the forest they had all sat on the logs near the river bank.
"So guy's what to talk about" Miroku asked.
Koga turned his attention towards Inuyasha "Yasha man what's going on with you and Kagome, I can smell her on you practically every day now, and today I can smell her A LOT" Koga smirked "What did ya guys do eh mutt face" Koga said.
Miroku's eyes widened "Oh so that's why Inuyasha is hardly ever around us anymore. Oh and by the way that time in Kikyo's party, great job in banging her man"
Inuyasha growled "Please don't remind me, I hated it. I regret it so much Miroku please never mention that night again." Miroku nodded as he looked at his friend in curiosity.
"Man what's wrong, what's going on with you and Kagome?" Miroku asked in wonderment as Koga also was interested in knowing the details.
Inuyasha sighed deeply as he lied down on the log that he was currently sitting on, one leg propped up whilst the other was hanging over the edge, one arm laying on his chest, as the other arm was over his eyes "I...we...oh fuck it I kissed her" Inuyasha said as he heard his friends gasp.
"Really, but Yasha you never trusted teachers, w-why Kagome man" Koga asked not that he was against it, far from it, he was just curious.
Inuyasha sighed "My chest hurts so much when I see her with another guy, hence why I fucking want to rip Koji's tongue out and wash his foul mouth with his blood. I hate being far away from her, I hate knowing that we can't be together. I love being around her, her bubbly nature and her smile, her gentle touch, and her soft lips. I want her, but at the same time I'm scared of getting hurt, and I know that deep down she would never give up,or chance anything to be with me. Especially her job." Inuyasha said as his eyes stared dreamily up at the sky above him. The trees moving gently and the leaves falling slowly due to the winds current. The sound of the stream and the rocks and pebbles soothed his aching ears, form the city.
This was his and his friends special place since primary, because it was calm full of nature, and it suited all their personalities perfectly.
Koga and Miroku both whistled "Well well well seems our best friend is head over heels" Koga said as he wiggled his eyebrows. Inuyasha had to smirk at his friends antics.
Miroku sighed heavily "Inuyasha why not just go for it man, I mean you are going to turn 18 next year, so until then you two would just need to keep it low-key for a while"
It was Inuyasha's turn to sigh "I know man, but it's not just that. I don't know how Kagome feels, but I do know that she wouldn't go out with a student. I mean the fact that today she kissed me back doesn't mean that she like's me. I guess I'm just scared of rejection. Rejection from the one person who I feel for once really comfortable around"
Miroku nodded his head in understanding "I get it man, you just don't want to ruin you guy's friendship that's understandable"
Koha nodded "However knowing you man, your demon probably isn't helping either" Koga said as he patted Inuyasha's shoulder.
Inuyasha sighed "Yeah. My mind tells me that it won't work that me and her will never be able to be anything more than just friends. However my body tells me that...that it want's to be with her, that it want's to protect her with every fibre of it's being, and that it want's to kill any other male that tries to take her away from me" Inuyasha closed his eyes as he looked at his watch. 'I should be with her right now in tutoring...but I don't know. I just can't see her' Inuyasha said. Why did he have to make everything confusing, why did he have to play with Kagome's emotions. God knows how the poor woman must be feeling right now, Kagome a very determined and outgoing bubbly teacher, had just broken the most important and primitive rule of all. Having intimacy with a student.
However Inuyasha just couldn't see her, he felt like a coward. But he's never had these emotions before, never felt the wanting of a long-term relationship with anyone.
Kagome had met Sango outside her house. "Hey Sango" Kagome said happily yet not as bubbly as she would normally do. And Sango realised this.
"Kagome what's wrong" Kagome just closed her eyes as she felt like crying, the fact that Inuyasha had kissed her today and ran off without a single word, killed her inside. She felt as if he was just using her. She also wanted to cry because she had kissed a minor which was illegal, but also a student which was against the law and the school code under intimacy. And even after all that, Inuyasha had the audacity to just run of without a single word.
"Oh Sango too much, can we just drink tonight please" Kagome said.
Sango smiled at her distressed friend "Off course Kaggy" Sango said as she hugged her friend and allowed Kagome in. They both sat on the floor with a bunch of alcohol and snacks.
"Oh Sango that boy is so damn confusing!" Kagome said as she drank down a glass of alcohol, starting to feel a little tipsy.
Sango just nodded as she refilled her friends glass "Who Kaggy, Inuyasha?"
Kagome nodded and cringed as she felt the strong liquor of the vodka down her throat. "Yeah...he...he kissed me today" Kagome said starting to get more drunk by the hour.
Sango's eyes widened "What do you mean he kissed you, when?!" Sango was happy, worried, and confused all at once.
Kagome just drank more "Today...a-at break. Then he ran off...then K-Koji" Kagome shook her head as it started to spin a little. "he asked me to go on a date with him on Saturday" Kagome said as she felt herself getting a little too drunk, but she didn't care.
"Kagome I think you should go for it" Sango said. Kagome looked at her confused "I mean to be honest he will be an adult next year, so might as well. Once he's 18 you guys can be free to make cute little puppies!" Sango said as she cooed at Kagome.
Kagome blushed deeply at the thought. The girls had spoken some more, however it was getting late and Kagome decided that it was best to head home. She had just gotten home and sighed deeply as she thought of tomorrow being another day. Her family were all asleep so she decided that it was better to doze of too. And with that last thought she had fallen into dreamland.
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