Chapter 11
Disclaimer: No, I don't own Hetalia, thank you FanFiction, for making me point out the depressing fact EVERY FRICKEN CHAPTER!
Beep . . . beep . . . beep. . . 'What? Oh. . . I'm in a hospital. Again.' I thought before opening my eyes. "Gott se danke, you're awake." Vash said pulling me into a tight hug.
"Ahhahh!"
"I-I'm sorry, did I hurt you?" He let me go, but kept two hands on my arms.
"It's alright. I'm just a little tender after my latest escapade."
"Well that's one way to put it," Hungary started. "I like to call it 'Your Inspiring Adventure Into the Arms of Unwanted Passion.'"
"That sounds like a title for a book." Vash said."He's right, it does. Wait . . . you didn't?" Vash seemed confused by my question but Elizaveta caught on right away.
"And so what if I did?"
"Elizaveta,"
"What could you do about it anyway?" I thought for a moment and smirked. "I could tell your dear old Roderich what happened with you and one-half of the German Confederation."
"What are you talking about?"
"The night you gave me my dress." Her face visibly paled and she handed me a 'book'.
"You know, that's just a rough-draft."
"I don't care. I'm burning it, just like we did with 'Ameripeans and Prunadians.'"
"What are you tow talking about?" I felt blood rush to my face. I had forgotten that Vash was here. "Nothing you need to worry about, Switzerland. Now I'll go let everyone else in before they beat the door down." Hungary said. She went over to the door and opened it. Prussia was the first inside, followed closely followed by Korea and China.
"Brace yourself," Prussia said. "I'm going to hug you." His hug was a lot gentler than Vash's and I actually managed to make my arms go around him. "Lilli, Im Young-su, can I talk privately with you, aru?" China said. Three heads nodded and everyone else left the room.
"Lilli, can I see your wrists, aru?"
"Um, s-sure." I held out my arms for China to examine. He took them, careful of the cuts, and only looked at them for a second.
"Thank you, aru. Korea, can I see yours now?" Korea stared at China wide-eyed and I couldn't help but wonder what was going through his head. "Why do you need to see my wrists, da-ze?" He asked with his signature bravado.
"Korea, aru. . ."
"Fine," Korea's voice lost all attitude. It went from his usual faked, peppiness to the voice of a broken man. China was shocked to say the least, but he didn't let that stop him from taking and examining Korea's wrist in the exact same way he did mine.
"Korea, these scars look exactly like Lilli's, aru."
"Yeah."
"They aren't from your wars, are they, aru?"
"Yeah."
"Do you cut yourself, aru?"
"Maybe."
"For Christ's sake, he does." I cut into their conversation. Korea gave me a look that could kill and I matched it with a bored one. "We both know if he had asked one more time you would've said yes."
"You're right, I guess you really didn't out step your bounds."
"No, she didn't how long aru?"
"Two and a half years." Both Korea and I expected some sort of yelling and berating from China, so what he did surprised us both. He hugged Korea and started whispering in Chinese. Korea buried his head in China's shoulder and broke down. I never expected to see Korea in such a weak state, he always seemed so strong. I guess even the strongest of people have to have a weak side sometimes. A few minutes had passed before they broke apart. You couldn't tell from Korea's face that he'd been crying. It was like the scene before me had never happened.
"Korea, will you tell me why you cut yourself, aru?"
"My two halves. You have no idea what it's like to be split in two for so long. Not to mention always having to act like I'm a happy, peppy, country. Those are the exact opposite of what I am. I hate acting like I'm someone I'm not."
"Korea, aru. . ." China pulled him into another hug. I teared up this time, Vash hadn't responded this way. I wanted, no needed, someone to care about me the way China cared about Korea. I slid my nail along one of the cuts I had, not enough to make it bleed though. They broke apart again and noticed me.
"Lilli, what's wrong?" Korea asked.
"Nothing, why would you think something was wrong?"
"Because you look like our about to cry."
"I-It's just that I wish that someone would've reacted like that when they found out about me."
"Wait- Switzerland didn't act like China did?"
"No, he didn't."
"He didn't yell at you did he?"
"No, he was happy that I hadn't died."
"But, don't you,"
"Yeah, and I thought he did too,"
"And he didn't even hint at it?"
"Aiyah! What are you two talking about, aru?" As Korea translated what we had said, the tears fell. They fell hard too. I had to listen as my love for Vash was told and how we were almost certain that he didn't love me back. I cut again, this time breaking through and feeling the blood, it wasn't a lot, but enough to help calm me. I felt strong arms wrap around me and a chin sit itself on my head. "Shhh," He said. "He'll come around eventually, I promise." China stepped away from the hug as the door opened.
"What the Hell did you say to her?" Switzerland said, looking at the two Asian Nations. "Don't cry, mein liebe, liebe Lilli." Then he saw my wrist. "What the HELL did you say to her!"
"W-we didn't say anything bad to her, I swear aru!"
"Yeah, because I'll actually believe that."
"B-bruder-"
"She wouldn't be crying and cutting if you hadn't said something now would she?"
"B-bruder-"
"I mean really, you expect me to believe-"
"VASH! T-they didn't say anything t-to m-make me feel this bad. I-it was all me, a-and, my thoughts."
"Bitte, stop doing this to yourself." He murmured into my hair, hugging me. Vash let go as everyone else poured into the room. "Liz, why did you choose those clothes again?" Prussia asked.
"Because they were the only clothes of hers I have."
"Not true." I cut in.
"Oh but that's so hard to get on,"
"So you dress me in barely there clothes?"
"They cover everything important, don't they?"
"That's not the point."
"You're right, the point is, is that you were in extremely bad shape and you were naked. I put you into the clothes that would cause the least amount of damage."
"You're right, I'm sorry and danke."
"It wasn't a problem," she said, and hugged me. Vash and I went to the car after that. I stared at my legs and arms, at the words and pictures carved into them, the ones on my stomach itching. 'All these things he carved, they're true. These will probably fade in a couple of hundred years, just like the last ones did. I wonder if they'd last longer if I cut into them every time they healed. It'd be such a release-'
"Lilli," Vash's voice interrupted my thoughts. "The words o-on you, they aren't true. They're just the opposite, really."
"No, they are true. I've known that for a very long time."
"What? I don't see how any of that's true! I l-lo-"
"Stop looking through rose-tinted glasses, Vash, and you'll see what I see."
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AN: Ima do Authors notes like this from now on! Just to make it clearer. So Lilli is being pig headed and stupid! God she interrupted a very important sentence. Stupid Lilli stupid! MFP, this is for you, I don't own the idea for her outfit, the cami is MFP's and the checkerboard is inspired by her KH OBSESSION! Oh! Not Short. Just Fun Sized did this for me and it's the least I can do for her (him?) If you like Ouran High School Host Club, read her story! Its funny and sweet! I loves it! K translate time.
Gott se danke: Thank God, German
Mein Liebe, Liebe: My dear dear, German
Bitte: Please, German
Aiyah: (yes this does actually have a translation) Oi vey
IMAxENIGMAx out! PEACE!