"Fine." Her tone already sounded irritated. Sam hated being told not to talk.
"When we were kids, I liked Carly, everyone knew it. I hated you at first. You were always terrorizing me and going out of your way to make me miserable. As time went on I started to like Carly even more and started to look at you as a friend. Then we kissed and I started to realize, well.." I knew my face was beet red, "that you were hot. I honestly guess I never viewed you as a girl before that." She smirked a little, making me feel better. "I started to get over my feelings for Carly, the constant rejection became too much, and it annoyed me that she'd date douchey guys and not me. I think also her only liking me when I saved her pushed me over the edge into getting over it." She nodded, "I also started to consider you to be one of my best friends."
"Same." She replied. She didn't go into a rant, but she was letting me know that we were at least on the same page.
"Then you kissed me. It was weird, but also hot. I hadn't thought of you in a girl friend type way, but well I had fantasied about you a few times." A snort of laughter came out of her. I started to lose my nerve, but she stopped and wait for me to regain my composure. "Then I thought we might be good together. While we were together, I fell in love with you. Honest to God, I was head over heels and I still am. I didn't think about Carly like that at all. I swear." She shifted seeming uncomfortable, I could tell she didn't believe me. "I really didn't Sam." She nodded and a tear slipped down her cheek, I wanted to reach forward and brush it away, but I didn't. I felt the tears start to sprout from my eyes also, "Then we broke up. I didn't want to, and I know I didn't push it, but I thought you were over us and I didn't want to push you to be with me if you didn't want too."
"You should have fought for me if you really wanted me." She mumbled.
"You didn't fight for us either Sam. You threw us away. I'm not finished by the way." I continued and she waved her hand to insinuate she wouldn't speak again. "I did start to get a crush on Carly again, but I'm not in love with her. I'm still in love with you. I won't lie to you though and tell you I'm not into Carly because I am. I have a crush, I am not in love with her." I repeated make sure that point was across. "I still love you and if you still feel the same way I think we should give it another chance."
"I can't. I really do love you." She is really crying at this point, "But I can't deal with you liking Carly. What if your feelings of loving her did come back? How do I know you wouldn't just leave me for her?"
"I wouldn't do that." I whisper and lean forward and grab her hand.
"You wouldn't do it because your nice and you wouldn't feel right about it. You might end up loving her more then me." She said not angrily, but as it was a sad simple fact.
"I really don't think I would."
"I still can't do this, maybe if you end up getting over your crush on Carly we could give this another try, but until then."
She gave me some hope, "I'm just glad their still maybe a chance."
"Maybe." She whispered, "I have a lot to think about."
"I know." I sighed, "Can I ask a favor while we try to figure this out."
She shrugged. I looked her straight in the eyes, "Can you not drag anymore guys in Carly's elevator to make out with?"
She laughs a little, "Come on, he was in one direction, like you wouldn't try to make out with Taylor Swift if she came to ICarly."
"I wouldn't!" I shout.
"Only because you'd be to nervous to, not because you wouldn't want to."
"True story."
She laughed but her face then got serious, "Freddie, don't lie to me about being over Carly at any point, because I'll be able to tell."
"I wouldn't lie to you." She nodded, "So where do we stand?"
"We are friends that maybe in a relationship one day." She answered. It baffled me how she could being crying and still look beautiful.
I couldn't help myself, I leaned over and kissed her. She kissed me back and her fingers tangled into my hair. I pulled her body on top of mine so she sat on my lap. Her lips felt so soft and I felt satisfaction course through me. God, did I miss this. We continued to kiss for a few moments of bliss, but then she pulled away. Her cheeks were red and lips were swollen with my kiss. "I just had to."
"I understand." She nodded, "but we can't do that again until we figure this out."
"Okay." She stood up and looked at me. She wiped the tears from her eyes, " I need to use the ladies room, I will see you in gym."
"See you then." My heart fluttered, I really still had some chance.