Dear Diary, Well I woke up with a hangover, and more regrets. I need to make sure I stay away from Gray when I'm drinking. I don't even want to face him, or Loke. I am so confused I mean okay me, and Loke were complicated to begin with, but dammit why did I need to involve Gray? I really hate myself right now. Oh diary I am such a terrible person. I should become a nun! Hold on there's someone at the door...
Lucy didn't feel like company, but answered the door anyway. " Gray" she really shouldn't have opened the door. " Hey Luce, How you feeling?" he asked walking in. " I got a bit of a hangover, what are you doing here?" " I just wanted to check on you". Lucy sat down and pulled her knees to her chest, and took a deep breath. " Gray about last night ". He held up his hands " I know it was no big deal". " God, I'm such a slut ". Gray laughed and pushed her " No, your not you just have moments of weakness when I'm around" he joked. She laughed " Well I guess that's kind of true, but only if sake is involved ". After a few minutes of teasing each other Gray got to the serious stuff. " So, you going to tell me what's going on between you, and Loke?" " Not much to tell really". " Yea, if that was the case the two of you wouldn't be fighting all the time, plus you had sex with him". Lucy put her hands over her head. " I know, but I can't help being attracted to him". " With or without sake?" Gray asked. Lucy peeked at him " Both". Gray laughed again. " So why are you fighting so much then?" " I don't know honestly, he confuses me".
" Well from what I can see you have feelings for him, and he has feelings for you". Lucy shook her head " I do have feelings for him, but I doubt he has them for me". " What makes you say that?" he asked " Well he slept with Aries". " Yea, and you slept with me twice". " Yea, I screwed up" she said covering her head again. " Thanks " Gray mumbled. " You know what I mean" she said smacking his arm. " Look you need to talk to him, and see what happens". Lucy sat there lost in thought for a moment before there was a bright light signaling Loke's arrival. " Really?" Lucy asked the air. " Well it's time for me to go, I'll see you around Luce, oh and Loke go easy on her". "Thanks Gray" she said as she closed the door. " What's he talking about?" Loke asked. " No idea" Lucy said hiding her head, but she could feel his gaze on her. " Why are you here Loke?" " I was wondering if you gave any thought to what I asked last night?" " Getting right to it huh?" Lucy looked at him, and she really wished she didn't. " Yes, I have thought about it, and I decided I'm not interested in ending our contract" she said putting her head on her knees.
" Are you sure?" he asked " Yea, I'm sure". Loke sat down " So what's wrong?" She was hoping he would have just left. " Hangover". " Does that mean you slept with Gray again?" he asked. " Wow, right to the point huh". " Well did you?" " Yes". She felt Loke tense beside her, and she looked up. " See that's what I mean". " What?" he asked. " You got all tense when I said yes, God Loke you confuse me" she said getting up. She went in the kitchen for more sake. " What are you doing?" he asked. " What does it look like" waving the bottle. " What do you want from me Lucy?" " I just want you to be honest with me" she said walking back to the couch. " I don't know what you mean". She just shook her head and took a drink. " I'm in love with you Loke" she finally said it. " You shouldn't" was all he said. " Of course I shouldn't, but it doesn't change the fact that I am". She took another drink trying to numb the pain she was feeling. Loke took the bottle from her. " Give it back" she yelled trying to take it back. " You've had enough" he said. " Oh, are you my dad now?" she asked reaching for the bottle. Loke got up and poured it out. "What are you doing?" she screamed.
He grabbed her arms, and pushed her against the wall " I will not let you keep doing this". " You don't care, your just worried about making amends" she yelled. " I do care, why do you think I keep coming around". He loosened his grip on her, and she pushed him away. " I don't want to hear you care, I want you to say you love me". She started walking away, but he grabbed her arm. " I do love you" and he grabbed her hair and pulled her close. Lightly touching her lips with his. " But you deserve better" and he let her go. " I don't care what I deserve, I want you" she pleaded. " For now you do, but what happens when you want to get married, or to have a family?" Lucy knew where this was going, and she couldn't come up with anything to prove him wrong. "I wish things were different Lucy". And he was gone.
I know what he's saying, but right now I don't care I just want to be with him. Anyways I really need a shower, and some sleep. Love Lucy