Wow, so much love in all these reviews! And here I am dragging you through hell. I feel guilty. So, let's have a less dark chapter, hey?
"But you did, and now what?" Sonny kept his voice subdued on purpose. Will sighed. "You changed me. I was prepared for my future. I had accepted frustration. Now, I feel like I'll be lacking oxygen." Sonny waited. His nervous anticipation had turned into a bleak feeling. Why would Will send "I love you" in the photos and then... Unless Sonny made it all up. He should ask. But later, now he needed to know. "Why? What is making you do this Will? Marry a girl?" He looked up, at a bird taking off a tree and flying to the boats on the bay. Will stuttered "Sonny, I... I'm gonna be a dad."
If he had walked ahead, Sonny would have entered the waters. Felt them engulf him, bring him peace. He couldn't cry but his heart was yelling. He couldn't see anymore but his life was unfolding in front of him, full of Will everywhere with no possibility of escape. He didn't want to. What Will's love had brought him was worth every hardship. Sonny turned slowly. Will was looking at the ground. "Will, look at me, please?" he saw the struggle and let him take the time he needed. The blue was there, hypnotic, water-like, pulling him in, trashing his last feeble defenses. "Do you still have feelings for her?" Will shook his head "Just as a friend. But I don't want to... I can't... This will be a marriage based on care and affection and we believe it could work. We've got to try."
Sonny's throat constricted. Will hadn't given up on the idea. He was contradicting himself and Sonny wondered why he came. "If I stay with you, I'm betraying my child. I'm betraying my friend and I can't do that." That was the reason for the marriage, then. Loyalty, taking responsibility. The pieces of Will formed at least an image that made sense, that explained Sonny's feelings for him. "So, what should we do? What shall I do" Sonny waited and heard, incredulous "Convince me."
So, it was up to him. He was still processing what Will had said. There would be a baby. No more trips for Will. No more freedom. Lots of worries. Would he be a part of that? How? He chose brutal honesty "I don't know if I should. Maybe you're right." Will sat on the grass, without warning, almost falling "I don't know which mistake to make. Lose you or tie you to my mess."
And at that moment Sonny knew. He didn't love Will because he was gorgeous, even though he was. He didn't because of his angelic eyes or his sweetness. He loved him because Will gave all, all the time. Because he wanted all from life and when it ruined his dreams, he owned up. Because loving was what he was. The way he talked of Gabi was filled with affection and Sonny didn't feel jealous, just touched. He sat next to Will and asked "When is she due?" "Four months." "Like the wedding?" "No" Will looked up "We planned it for after. No need to stress Gabi now. She said we should enjoy our last moment of carelessness. That I should travel and meet guys." This made Sonny frown. There was something odd here. But what mattered now was to tell Will. Make him understand wholly. He held his hand. Will looked at it suspiciously. The hug was what Sonny had wanted for so long. Holding Will, feeling him breathe. How could he have fooled himself. He would never get over him. So, he had to reach him. "Will, the photos, they spelled I love you, right?" "Yes." "So do I. I'll be there for you, Will, through everything. Lots of kids grow up in two homes and they do all right. If you allow me, I'll be a part dad too." He felt Wills tears on his jacket. They felt like a blessing. He kissed Will gently. He had try and reach him with his words. Now it was time for another kind of convincing. And he would put all his soul and body in it.
He buried himself in Will, feeling him wither, hearing him moan his name and he realized something. Will had made him his. He hadn't chosen anything. The pleasure traveled through his dick, linking it to his heart, which was bursting with joy. They had found each other. They were in an old apartment, belonging to a relation of Charlie, who was away. The May scottish sun was timidly lighting the room, making Will's hair and skin shine, rending the moment a little bit more magical. The way Will offered himself, letting Sonny in his tight warm intimacy, the way he shouted shamelessly, arching his back and demanding for more, for harder, faster, all of it made Sonny surrender, become Will's shadow for as long as Will would want it.
The afterglow wasn't happy. Nor sad or frustrating either. Will was weeping again, so was Sonny. He felt overflowing from various emotions and what made it bearable was that Will seemed to mirror each and every one.
"You're convinced, now?" Will nodded "What about you? You're sure about this? It won't be easy, you know. What if you regret it?" Sonny smiled "I'll take the risk. I love you, Will. I cannot stop. I pushed you away because you didn't want to be with me in the long run. If you do, though, I'll stand by you. I can give you my strength." Will's hand messed up Sonny's hair "You know I changed what I said. I was supposed to meet you. You're my second chance. I'll talk to Gabby. I hope she takes it well."
But Will didn't have to call her. The cell rang in the evening. Will was close to orgasming at that moment, so the cell rang on. Then Will looked at the caller ID and pressed the button "Hi, Dad! How are things in Salem?" sonny saw his lover's face go from relaxed to horrified in seconds "Is it the baby? Tell me she's all right, please?" And that's how Sonny learned the baby was a girl. And she was fine. "OK, Dad, thanks." Will hung up and turned to Sonny. He had, in his eyes, the look of the damned "Gabby has confessed to a serious crime. She was an accessory to an kidnapping that resulted in an explosion that killed people. She'll be prosecuted." Sonny gaped. What had Will done in a past life to deserve all of this? How could he protect him now. "Is she in prison?" "No, not as long as she's pregnant. But after, we don't know..."