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It was Saturday, I refused to get out of bed, and Charlie was already fishing I'm guessing with Billy. I stayed in bed looking at the roof. I closed my eyes; my guess was Alice was at the Cullens since I couldn't hear anything from her room and she hadn't called me for breakfast. I wondered what happened yesterday. I closed my eyes and sighed. I wanted to go back to yesterday after I had left, so I did.

"Interesting girl, Isabella" Aro commented to Carlisle. I took the empty seat beside him; Carlisle was at the other side of the desk.

"You don't know the half of it" Carlisle smiled and brought his finger to his lips "she's quite remarkable"

"She thinks you are too" Aro said

"I know, we all heard" Carlisle said back.

"She really doesn't know, does she?" Aro asked calmly

Carlisle shook his head "and we'd like to keep it that way"

"I really must say, I really didn't believe you when you told me but seeing what I had through your thoughts and observing them yesterday. I owe you an apology old friend, but knowing Edward's talent might pose a problem wouldn't it?"

"No, she isn't the one to tattle" Carlisle defended me

"Is that why you told her about your history?" Aro demanded.

"We gave her a watered down version" Carlisle explained, "she quite curious for someone her age. Besides it the most Edward could give, and she seemed to accept it just fine"

"Yes" he said then looked thoughtful.

"Edward is quite fascinated with her" Aro informed him smiling a bit "you wouldn't believe how much he thinks about young Bella. Why doesn't he just change her" Change me, like make me be a vampire? he could to that?

"I can't fault my son his happiness Aro. And he wants her to have a normal human life." Carlisle said.

"I liked the piece he played for her earlier" Aro said to Carlisle changing the subject "she doesn't know it is hers, does her?"

"I'm sure he'll tell her soon enough, Esme's just happy he is playing again." He laughed

"I gathered from her thoughts. Quite an astounding bride for you" He complimented

"I think so too" Carlisle said back.

"Alice?"

"She will taken away and changed" Carlisle spoke, every word sounding like a promise. I sighed.

I came out of that vision, but didn't open my eyes. I soaked the information of what I'd just learnt. I wondered how why he doesn't want to change me, normal human life? Despite everything, that seemrf to be the rational optiom to me. If wasn't like I couldn't get the experience as a vampire. Alice was going to change into one of them?

I saw Alice and Rosalie on the balcony. It wasn't from yesterday; no it was much longer than that, it looked about last week. Alice was looking at Rose while she faced to rail.

"Have you thought about what you're giving up, your sister, your family…children?" Rose asked her.

Alice didn't say anything. I sat on the floor and watched them both

"I was nineteen when I turned but, I was ready for my own prince charming" Rose laughed "that a far stretch from whom he really was but I was happy. My friend Vera had just gotten married to a farmer, as shallow as I am, I couldn't deny the way he looked at her with so much adoration and love. She had a baby boy, with his dark hair and his cute dimples he was a pretty baby, I longed for my own, when I met Royce. I thought he could give me those things. Royce sent me flowers some were violets, like my eyes, my room was filled with every flower you could think of. In fact I pitied Vera. Soon Royce and I would have our beautiful blond hair and blue eyed children"

Alice looked at her softly as Rose continued.

"I was walking home from Vera's when I saw him and his buddies drinking, he called me so I went over, which proved to be a mistake seeing as I was raped by the man I was to love and his friends"

I gasped, so did Alice

"Carlisle found me bleeding to death and saved me. After the burn I woke up, my consolation was my beauty, until I found out I couldn't have what I craved the most. I killed my attackers in revenge."

"You have Emmett, you should be lucky?" I said and Alice said "you got half of your happily ever after. You have Emmett"

"Yes. But we'd never be able to grow old together or have beautiful babies" Rose said. I shook my head at her. I guess I could see what she wanted, but she wouldn't see what she had already.

"We've never wanted children, Bella and I, we just assumed we'd cross that bridge when we got there. Though Bella would make a great mom; I mean she has been taking care of me all my life. I would be content being the just fun Aunt" Alice laughed "but something tells me, she hasn't giving it a thought yet"

"Tell me about it" I mumbled as I dusted myself of as I stood up before heading for the door.

As soon as I walked through the door, I became conscious.

I did the laundry and cleaned my bathroom keeping busy; I was trying real hard not to think. Something bad was happening today, I could feel it. Edward wasn't here today, he had gone hunting with Carlisle, or Camping as they told me. I wanted to go down to the rez, just to stroll on the beach. I decided to drive down to Port Angeles and looked at their bookstore. I passed the time, not reading anything at all. just staring at the book while I was lost in my head. I couldn't shake the feeling that something terrible was going to happen.

By the time I came back Edward car was right in front my house. He was looking grave…there was something about it that I dreaded. I had seen him look at me like that before in my worst nightmare.

"Walk with me?" he asked gesturing to the woods and I nodded. We didn't go far before he stopped and looked at me. He opened his mouth but no words came out.

I realized that I could make this easier on both of us. I loved him with all my heart but I couldn't handle it if he lied to me I don't love you, I don't want you I remembered his cold voice in my nightmare.

I looked at him my eyes void of any emotion. I was feeling right now, fear, pain, panic, hysteria, betrayal, most of all disappointment.

"You're leaving" I said my words as empty as my voice.

He didn't bother to respond, just looked at me, staring into my eyes.

"I'm going to let you go" I said again.

He nodded not offering anything, pain slipped through his mask like he was expecting me to fight for us, but who would fight for a lost cause. He was going to leave either way. At his pain, mine began to show itself, I closed my eyes shutting them out.

"I hope you know you are hurting us both" I said to him, crossing my hand daring him to say otherwise.

"Don't do anything reckless" Edward say

I scoffed challengingly "why so you could live a guilt free life?"

"Promise me" he asked again. I knew I couldn't deny him anything so I nodded.

"It'll be like I never existed" he said to me like he wanted to believe it, oh how delusional

"I'm calling bull." I said to him a bit angry "you owe me some epic groveling for what you are doing to me, to us. I love you Edward but you're being stupid right now."

His eyes became darker more intense as my declaration of love slipped out, well if he was hurting us, he might as well know what he's doing to my heart.

"I don't love you Bella" he said looking at the floor. I knew he was lying, but it still hurt so much.

"Look at me and say it again." I said even though my heart felt like it was breaking. I could feel it beat twice as fast, fighting back the pain threatening to swallow me whole.

His blank gaze met mine. Steely and resolved "I don't want you, I don't love you."

"Again" I whispered, it was my turn to look down not wanting him to witness my raw pain

"I don't love you" he said it, his voice colder than the last two declarations

"Do you believe it yet?" I said wanting to know, because I was so close to.

"No" he whispered in a moment's truth, a moment of weakness.

He looked between my eyes and my lips repeatedly, I knew what he wanted, but would it hurt more when he left or would it be something to hold me over while I awaited his return that may never happen or better yet would it change his mind.

"Can I?" he said looking at me expecting me to say no. in all fairness I easily could, he was ending our nonexistent relationship with our first kiss?

"I don't see how it could hurt any worse" I said, lying through my teeth. This could hurt so damn much but I wanted this kiss too, maybe I was a masochist. Maybe I was crazy falling in love with him. My sanity could be questioned in a lot of things, but I was in love and I was justified wasn't I?

He leaned, very slowly, hesitantly his lips met mine, blood boiled under my skin, burned in my lips. I wanted more. My fingers knotted in his hair and he held me to him. My lips parted as I breathed and his heady scent then he pulled back and kissed my forehead ghostly, before walking away from me, consequently, disappearing into the night.

When I went inside, I found Alice crying, or should I say, she had been crying. Her eyes were wide and her lips were still quivering, I wasn't in the mood to comfort her but I looked at her for a moment then gave her a kiss on the head before locking myself up in my room to drown in the my pain.

At the start of school week, all the rumors started about why the Cullens left, I did well to ignore them, after all no one knew I was in love with a Cullen. They were all very shy around Alice, the whispers bared to a minimum. It still hurt all the same. I was a mess internally but outwardly, I tried to be okay. Alice tried to comfort me when she could but I shook her off. Charlie didn't know what to do mainly because he wasn't sure what caused it. The hole in my chest was there, but sometimes at night, I was numb, not calm but it still hurt. When the feeling came, I knew Jasper was still here for Alice. It wasn't long before I accepted the inevitable, Alice was leaving, and she was spending her forever with Jasper. And knowing that hurt too, but can I really fault her happiness…no I really couldn't.

I heard the shuffling around the day she left, I just lay on my bed deciding to ignore it, but when I heard the door slam, I walked to the window. Jasper was standing by the driver seat of her car, he saw me looking at him, and he moved to tap Alice.

"Don't" I whispered "I'm trusting you with her Jasper, I just ask you treat her right, and keep her happy"

He looked at me strangely trying to figure out something, I had long accepted this was inevitable. I smiled at him

"Keep my secret, I keep yours" I promised him as a goodbye. He knew I knew and he sent me a wave of apology and gratefulness "I love you Jasper, don't make me regret this"

He nodded and sped off in the car with Alice unaware. As soon as they left, I went back to sleep. Restless, but it was sleep either way.

"Bella, is Alice there?" Charlie banged on my door the next morning

"What? No!" I said back rushing into her room. I knew she was gone, but seeing her bed empty hurt me more than it should.

"No. no…" Charlie began pacing up and down. "Her car isn't here either"

"Maybe she went for a drive?" I suggested hoping he'd realize she was long gone soon

"It's a school day Bella, it's almost time for school" Dad said

"Shit" he cursed.

"Daddy?" I said about to cry. I was a terrible liar, but I was lying for Alice so I had to make it believable "she's gone."

"C'mere" he said pulling me closer, as I sobbed in his shirt, for the first time I let myself feel, my tears flowed freely. Charlie was crying too, as we hugged each other.

Charlie excused me from school, as he went to the station to begin his search. He searched each day and each night which turned to weeks, he wasn't going to rest. He hardly ate or slept sometimes he would look at me as if he was a failure, he was empty, and never before, had I hated Alice more than I did now. Charlie was turning into the man we'd both left to Phoenix to escape. He was deep in self-loathing, he had been drinking too, more so than usual. I tried my best to hide it all, give him some comfort. Not that I was any better, I didn't want to drown in all the sadness anymore so I longed for Renee's erratic presence, an escape.

I'd see poster of my twin sister everywhere, have you seen this girl? People pitied me; I could see it in their eyes. I looked into the cheery eyes of my sister and reminded myself she wanted this and she was happy. And as much as I tried to keep my mind of Edward, but the pain still hurt so much I wanted to curl up and die.

The blacks came to visit; I stayed out of their way. They tried to comfort Charlie. Jake was pissed, when he entered my room, he began shaking violently which made me question what his problem was. I looked at him, his hair was cut short, and he had a tattoo, he had grown a whole lot since I saw him last.

"You know, steroids are bad for you" I offered as a distraction

"We fill out quickly at the rez" was his answer "how are you doing?"

I looked into his eyes "it wouldn't be a good time to be me right now"

"Or Alice" he mumbled

"What?" I asked

"With her being …dead and all?" he said like he believed Alice was dead.

I glared at him and answered coldly "my sister is not dead"

"She'd be better off if she were than being a leech" Jacob said to himself, but I heard him anyway

"Get out" I said quietly

"What?" he said surprised

"Get out of my room" I repeated again with as much control as it took not to scream.

He seemed to get that I was serious, so he left. I never really considered the tribal legends but I guess if the cold ones did exist, wolves could too. My realization was confirmed with a howl far off at the corner. The last thing I needed was to be sucked in another supernatural activity, so I called my mother and booked a flight to Phoenix for the weekend.

Where it would be just me and my escape.