Hey, Everybody! I am so sorry I havent updated in a few days! And I totally left you guys on a cliffhanger! School and my social life have been becoming increasingly demanding! And i had to start working on my next chapter for my 24-24 collaboration (Which you guys should read. Title is "This is War". Alexander Cole will be a tribute for District 9. Go read it and support him so he'll win!). So, without further ado, Read on!

Chapter Eleven

Lilac Mellark's POV

What am I supposed to do? Ash and I aren't married. I don't even know if he wants kids! Oh, what if I tell him and he decides to break up with me because he doesn't want kids? I don't think I can handle that kind of rejection. I can't tell him, at least not until I decide what I am going to do. I am either going to keep the baby or I am going to have to have it taken care of somehow.

I can't believe I let this happen! Ash and I are always careful! How could we have slipped up like this? We both know that neither of us is ready to raise a baby. We're not like Alex and Ivy or Phoenix and Harper. We're still trying to live freely, at least for a few more years.

I decide that I really, really need to talk to Ivy about this. Maybe she can help me make sense of all this. Worse comes to worse, at least she'll know somewhere where I can get the baby taken care of. If there's one person I trust to talk to about this, it's my big sister.

Ten minutes later and I am walking up to the emergency room of Panem University Teaching Hospital, where my sister, Ivy Abernathy, is a second year resident. Ivy is probably the smartest person I have ever or will ever meet. It amazes me every day how smart she is and how much she loves her job.

"Hi, is Dr. Abernathy available?" I ask the nurse behind the front desk.

"Yes. She's in her office. Would you like me to page her for you?" The nurse asks.

"That would be wonderful," I reply, forcing a smile onto my face. Just because my entire life is changing doesn't mean I can be rude. I go to take a seat in one of the hard, plastic chairs in the waiting room and, a few seconds later, I hear the nurse I talked to page my sister over the intercom system in the ER.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" I hear Ivy ask about two minutes later. She is wearing blue scrubs and her hair is up in a ponytail. She looks like she's been working all night and is only surviving by means of a lot of caffeine.

"Oh, well, I was hoping that maybe we could get some lunch and talk." I reply, trying to sound normal. There is a flicker in Ivy's eyes that tells me she knows something must be wrong. I've never come to visit her at work before so of course she knows something is wrong.

"Yeah, of course we can. There's a diner right across the street." Ivy says, gesturing me to follow her. Outside, the chilly autumn breeze makes me shiver. I have no idea how Ivy can just walk around in short sleeved scrubs.

"So, what's up?" Ivy asks me after we've both ordered some food at the diner. It's a nice, quaint little place. They didn't have a terribly variety of dishes so I just ordered a small salad. I doubt I'd be able to eat right now anyway.

"Well . . . this is kind of a hard thing just to bring up." I admit, averting my eyes from Ivy's.

"Lilac, I'm your big sister, you can tell me anything." Ivy tells me. I nod for a minute before replying.

"Well, this morning I noticed that I was a few weeks late for my period. So, I took a pregnancy test and it was positive." I say quietly.

"Lilac, that's great!" Ivy replies. I can hear genuine happiness in her voice, but I fear that Ivy will be slightly begrudging. After all, Ivy is more suited to be a mother than I am and yet she is having this great difficulty to have a baby of her own.

"I just . . . I don't know what to do Ivy." I admit, biting the inside of my cheek.

"What do you mean?" Ivy asks me, furrowing her eyebrows in confusion.

"I don't . . . I don't know if I should keep the baby . . ." I reply. Something changes in Ivy's eyes as she opens and closes her mouth, not sure how to respond to my words.

"Lilac, I know this wasn't planned, but are you seriously considering getting an abortion?" Ivy asks me, but doesn't give me a chance to reply before she continues. "Lilac, do you have any idea how many people would kill to pregnant like you? A baby is the greatest blessing anyone could ever ask for and you're just going to toss it aside like it means nothing to you?" Ivy is practically shouting as she ends her rant.

"Ivy, you don't understand," I say. "What if Ash doesn't even want kids?"

"If Ash doesn't want to kids with you that you're just wasting your time together." Ivy replies.

"We're not like you and Alex, Ivy! We're still young. We're not ready to have baby." I snap back.

"Well, you should have thought about that before you had sex. You were irresponsible and stupid." Ivy spits at me. There is something about the look in her eyes and her calm anger that actually makes me start to feel guilty. Here I am contemplating killing my unborn child while my sister probably will never get to be pregnant. If there is one person on the face of the earth that deserves to be a mother, it's Ivy.

"I'm sorry. You're right," I admit, looking into my sister's eyes. "I'm just afraid; afraid of how Ash will react, afraid that I won't be a good mother, afraid that I'll mess everything up."

"I can understand that, Lilac, but before you make any rash decisions I think you need to tell Ash. The two of you need to discuss having this baby and how it will impact you both for the rest of your lives. I have no doubts that you two will be able to raise this baby well, but you both need to be on the same page. You need to support each other, in everything." Ivy tells me, squeezing my hand to show she supports me fully.

"Thank you so much," I say, getting up to give my big sister a hug. "I really hope you and Alex can get pregnant. You would make such a wonderful mother."

"I hope so, too." Ivy replies. We eat our lunches together and then Ivy has to get back to work. On my walk home, I decide that I need to tell Ash and that I need to do that right now. So, I cut across a street quickly and head in the direction of our music studio.

"Is Ash busy right now?" I ask one of the recording technicians as I walk into the recording studio that Ash and I share.

"Nope, he's taking a ten minute break." The tech replies.

"Good," I say as I head to the lounge where all the musicians take their breaks.

"Ash, I need to talk to you," I tell my long term boyfriend when I see that there is no one else in the lounge.

"What's up, babe?" He asks. I flinch at the normal term of endearment. All of a sudden, it means something completely different.

"Well, Ash, there isn't an easy way to say this, so I'm just going to spit it out. I'm pregnant." I tell him, eyes trained on a spot on the floor, dreading his reaction to this news.

"Pregnant?" Ash half asks, half says in amazement. I look up to see a look of awe in his eyes and a smile creeping onto his face.

"You're not mad?" I ask him, gulping.

"Of course I'm not mad! Why would I be mad? This is absolutely wonderful!" Ash exclaims, giving me a rough kiss. "This is amazing; A baby!"

"So you want to keep it?" I ask him tentatively.

"Lilac, of course I want to keep it! You and I made a baby! We're going to have a baby. Do you even realize how awesome this is?" Ash replies, kissing my lips again.

"I was just afraid you didn't want kids," I admit, feeling very, very foolish.

"Lilac, I love you. If it were anyone else, I wouldn't want this baby. But it's you, the love of my life, and I can't wait until we meet our first child." Ash tells me, kissing my lips for the third time since he got the news. I smile as he gives me a tight hug. I guess I wasn't thinking rationally. I'm glad Ash wants this baby because I don't think I could imagine my life without it now.

I hope that was okay! I'd love to write you guys more right now but i have to continue work on my 24-24 collab chapter. I'm only like 1/10 if the way done, maybe. And it's due friday . . . I'll definitely need an extension. Things coming up include: Everyone learning Lilac and Ash are going to have baby and some Ivy and Alex drama. This week looks like it will be slightly hectic between school (I have two papers to start working on and at least two tests already, not counting any surprise quizzes) tennis (two matches, one of them away, and practice as usual), and writing my 24-24 collaboration chapter (I have the chariot rides chapter and I have to describe everyone's costumes and demeanor in detail, not to mention my own tributes thoughts. I still have no idea what he'll be wearing. Suggestions are welcome if you have any. For this story, District 9 supplies electricity to the Capitol). Thanks for your continued support! I really love you guys! Thanks for reading and please leave me a review.

P.S. This is kind of irrelevant but I applied for a job at PartyCity today and I really really really hope I get the job!