Right Hand Blue: YAY you like horses! Pretty much everyone here is afraid of my horse... Glad you liked my update and I hope you won't hate or kill me for this one, it's really not as bad as it looks, I guess...

Kerstin: Thnx for the shorter name! Nice Friends quote you got there! Didn't the stoned guy say it in season one when Monica cooked for him? Any chance youÄre German, btw? Anyway, glad you like the update!

Zoe: Aww you're my favorite 4 y/o and glad you likes, here's some more, don't hate me for it.

LIZ, DON'T KILL ME!!

A/N: Horse is better again but now I have a huge bill to pay, 2morrow is gonna be the worst day EVER!

Disclaimer: If I'd own them I wouldn't be complaining a/b vet bills and Mer would have been killed!! Or disappeared in a myserious way bohooo but Addek would be living happily ever after.

Breakdowns, Sadness and Planes to catch

Addison was frantically searching for her keys, she couldn't find them. And PERFECT! She had ay plane to catch and a million of things on her mind. Searching for her keys was just the cherry on top of a horrible night. Addison hadn't slept at all last night and just couldn't seem to be able to get Derek out of her mind. But why?! Why now?! Couldn't he have been like this when she first came to Seattle?! No, it had to be now, but if she'd go back to him… No, this was no option, she just had to find her keys and then she was ready to go. But where were they? Addison had never been able to remember where she had put her keys, sometimes they were in a cornflakes pack, sometimes under her pillow and this time she had left them in the fridge.

About thirty minutes later Addison finally walked into Tacoma National airport. Now she just had to check in and everything would be fine. She turned around, glanced at the doors, secretly hoping Derek would come to tell her she couldn't leave him, but this was just stupid. He would never do that, he was probably not even thinking about her anymore.

Sadly she couldn't know how wrong she was.

"Chief, I need someone to take over for me today." Derek said, obviously in a hurry.

"What? Why?!" Richard looked up to see Derek nervously running his fingers through his hair.

"I—I have something important to do."

"And what can be more important than saving people's life?!" He couldn't understand him, of course not. The job was Richard Webber's life and he had thought Derek was just like him, but maybe he had been wrong.

"I have to go to the airport."

"Where are you going?" Richard asked and then it dawned to him "You want to stop her from leaving?" He raised his eyebrows and Derek only nodded quickly in response. "You know she doesn't want to stay."

"I know that and I know it's all my fault but I love her Richard, I love her more than anything." Derek sighed. He hated himself for letting Addison leave in the first place, for leaving her all alone and for hurting her. The expression on her face when she caught Meredith and him at prom was enough to make his heart break.

Richard sighed and looked at Derek "Alright, go. I'll get Perry to take over."

A smile spread across Derek's face "Thank you, thanks so much!" And with that he stormed out of the office. He had to tell her how much he would miss her and that he loved her and couldn't live without her. His mind was running on over-drive, all he could think about was Addison.

At the same time Addison was sitting on a bench at the airport, nervously tapping her fingers on her passport. She couldn't believe she was actually doing this, She was going to leave Seattle and her past behind. This was going to be the best decision in her entire life. But why didn't it feel right? Addison felt like she was going to throw up any second. She couldn't do this, not on her own. She needed Derek in her life, but that was gone. It had to be over, she needed a fresh start and this was what she was going to do. Go to LA and start over, without the baggage of the past weighing her down.



She caught herself looking up at the entrance every now and then and when she saw a man running towards her, her stomach was doing little flips and her hopes rose. But it wasn't Derek. The guy made his way past her and Addison sank back down on the bench. Don't be stupid, why would he come to see me? She asked herself and indeed it was stupid waiting for him to come, he wouldn't anyway and all this would lead to was that she would be crying for days. Which she was probably going to do anyway. But she needed to get rid of the bad thoughts and concentrate on finally seeing Naomi again. This was the silver line, her polar star. Addison got up slowly, smoothed her skirt down before walking towards the check in.

Meanwhile at the hospital Derek was just about to exit when someone started talking to him "Where are you going?" It was Meredith. Why was she here? And talking to him?

"I'm leaving." He said quickly.

"What? Where?" Meredith looked at him, confusion written all over her face.

"To do the right thing." Derek knew this didn't answer her question, but he couldn't care less, he had to go.

"You're going to see her, aren't you? Stop her from leaving." Her eyes were flickering with anger. How could he run back to Satan?! How could he do this to her?!

"Yes I am." Derek smiled broadly and made his way past her. Suddenly he stopped, leaned against the door. He was feeling dizzy. More than just dizzy. This wasn't good, it couldn't be.

"Are you okay?" Meredith asked, her voice still filled with anger. Just in that moment Derek broke down.

Addison sighed, this was it, and she was actually boarding the plane. Maybe everything would get better. But she couldn't help the tears that were floating down her cheeks. He didn't come. Once again she looked over her shoulder. Searching for him in the crowd one last time. But nothing, Derek wasn't there. He didn't love her like he had said.

"Help!" Meredith screamed at the hospital, Derek didn't have a pulse; he just lay on the floor, not moving.

THE END

Nah, just kidding, but I could stop right here you know... Want me to continue? Only reviews will make me -insert evil laugh-

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