REVISED: sorry about the wrong grammar/spelling. I was typing too fast coz I had a lot of ideas coming in and I didn't bother to proof read except for the spelling and grammar check of Microsoft word which didn't help much. I revised the songs too, for some of the lyrics were wrong…oh well, on to the "new and improved" chapter 11!
Chapter 11: Never gonna let you go
Wolfram lay awake in their bed. It had been two days since he hadn't spoke to anyone when he regained consciousness. He felt some kind of warmth behind him, a feeling that Yuuri behind him. He turned only to see a perfectly fluffed pillow. He hugged Yuuri's pillow and smelled it. He surely couldn't live on without him. He recalled again and again his mind what happened and blamed himself for not protecting Yuuri, for not keeping a look out on Yuuri. No one blamed him verbally, but he was sure that everyone did. He was with Yuuri because he was supposed to protect him. He shut his eyes and tried to recall again and again Yuuri's last words Wolfram, be strong. Take care of Greta while I'm gone. I'll be back…soon…I promise… He cried on Yuuri's pillow. Then it hit him, "What did Yuuri mean by I'll be back soon?" He spoke aloud, as if he was expecting a response. With shattered dreams and a broken heart, he forced himself to sleep, still hugging Yuuri's pillow.
He dreamt of Yuuri. They were in the castle's garden and Yuuri held his hand. He felt someone holding his hand for real, as if it were not just a dream. He then spoke
"Yuuri I don't understand..."
Yuuri held his hand closer to his face and kissed it "There isn't anything you need to understand. I'll be coming home back with you soon. Remember to be strong, stop sulking." He said as he caressed Wolfram's face.
"Where are you? I'm sure this is just a dream, but it doesn't feel like it because I can feel you somehow."
Yuuri brought Wolfram's hand to his chest "You don't need to know. Just remember, be strong. Just wait a little longer, get some sunshine. Don't cry. Don't blame yourself. I'll be back, I promise." He said as he wiped away some of Wolfram's tears.
"Yuuri, don't leave! I don't want to wake up! I can't go on without you…" Wolfram sobbed into Yuuri's chest while Yuuri wrapped his arms around him.
"Don't be afraid Don't you know that I'm just here Beside you I won't leave you alone And if ever you fall down I'll catch you…" Yuuri tried to sing to comfort his beloved. But it made him cry harder. Yuuri hugged Wolfram tighter as he tried a different one "Lift your head, baby don't be scared Of the things that could go wrong along the way You'll get by with a smile You can't win at everything but you can try…"
"But Yuuri," Wolfram said, looking into his eyes "How are you going to go back? When? Don't make promises if you can't keep them, please…"
"I'm trying my best to. Just a few more days. But time's running out and I have to go." Yuuri said as started to stand and help Wolfram up.
"Wait! Is this for real? Or is this just a dream?"
"It's real Wolfram. Believe in me. But I have to go for now. Until we meet again."
"No! Don't go! Please!" Wolfram tried to cling on to Yuuri but it seemed that Yuuri was slowly drifting away in thin air.
"Promise me you'll wait for me, I'll be home soon. Be strong, don't sulk…" his words drifted off.
--
Wolfram awoke crying. He hugged Yuuri's pillow tighter and then he realized that Greta was in the doorway.
"Papa? Are you alright? You seemed to be having a bad dream…"
"I'm alright." He said as wiped his tears and hugged Greta.
"Why haven't you spoken to me for the past two days? I know you're sad but I don't want you to look sad. I miss Yuuri too but I don't think he'd be gone long. Daddy would be back soon, right?"
Wolfram's eyes opened wide. He looked at Greta and saw wisdom beyond her years through her eyes. She understood a lot. He scolded himself for being too childish and weak. Weak…he remembered what Yuuri said, it was to be strong. Life would go on without Yuuri, whether he liked it or not and locking himself in their room wouldn't help anyone. He had to take care of Greta, his daughter, their daughter and just hope that his dream was real.
"Yes, he will."
"Promise?"
"Yes. He will be home, soon."
--
Yuuri awoke feeling someone's soft hand caressing his face gently.
"Wake up. It's time to wake up. You have to begin your journey now before it's too late."
Yuuri opened his eyes. That girl looked familiar. He saw her when he was blacked-out after using his powers in Suberara. She had periwinkle-colored hair and light blue eyes. She was…
"Julia?" he asked.
She nodded and gave him a sad look "Everyone is worried, you must hurry and journey on back to Shin Makoku. Shinou has given you a second chance to live again, for you are too young and your death wasn't intended. You weren't supposed to. You still have things you have to do. Now, most of them believe you have…departed. Your second chance to live again will be lost if everyone begins to believe that you truly are gone before you finish journeying through that place."
"But death is non-negotiable…"
"And so is love."
"I don't understand…"
"Everyone still needs you. Wake up, it's time for you journey. There are two things in life that are non-negotiable; love and death. Remember what you promised to Wolfram. Don't break his heart."
"So that really wasn't just a dream?"
"It was, but dreams still have connections between souls and time. I have to go for now, but you have to start your journey. I'll always be with you." And Julia seemed to fade away.
Yuuri suddenly found himself in a desert. There were sand dunes every where, he couldn't see anything or anyone around, just sand and the skies above.
"How should I know where I'm supposed to go?"
He thought bitterly. This could take years, he could walk in circles but nevertheless, this was for his Wolfram. He promised he'd be back, and he won't take back his word. Besides, Shinou gave him a second chance, for free. He has to take it. He looked up in the endless far sky and smiled "To send my feelings of "Thank you" to the infinitely distant sky, I spread both my arms and laugh. This small fragile piece of life is held by you and me. The true light increases the brightness. The darkness fades and your heart lights the future. Let's make a promise: Here, I will live. I like things the way they are. Let's gaze at pure whiteness. My thoughts will someday reach my destiny, and I will discover my overwhelming strength in the infinitely distant sky."
He tried to sing to lift his spirits up but it was no use. He has to continue walking on though, if he'd want to be in his fiancé's arms again. Night fell quickly and he decided to stop and sleep. Hugging his knees and leaning his head on it, he started to sleep again. Through his dreams, he was able to reach Wolfram again.
--
They were in his bedroom.
"Yuuri, how long do I have to wait?"
"Wolfram, please…believe me when I say I'll be back home. Julia says that I won't be able to return once people start believing that I've departed…just a few days."
"I'll never stop believing…but…" Wolfram started to cry. Yuuri tried to comfort him by hugging him and wiping his tears away "How many nights? How many more lonely days without you by my side? I can't carry on forever…"
"Wolfram, it isn't forever. Don't stop believing. I want to see you again too so I'm making this effort every night to meet you through our dreams. This is real Wolfram, don't stop believing."
"Where are you?"
"I don't know either, it seems to be in a desert, it seems hopeless because all I see is sand, no trace of anything else, but I'm coming home soon, I promise."
"Okay, I believe you." Then he thought of singing, and so he did. Placing Yuuri's face in his hands, he sang.
"If
I had one wish,
I'd wish you next to me
And it could be in
summer, fall or spring,
'cause you make my heart sing
I wanna
give you my heart, my soul, my love to you
'cause every day I'm
not with you
I'm missing you like crazy
I
need for you to love me, hold me, touch me
Down deep in my soul,
and never let it go
Of the love we share, no one compares to
you
I'll never let you go 'cause I really love you so
I'll
never let you go."
Yuuri smiled and placed a finger to Wolfram's lips, it was his turn.
"If
you must know the truth,
I'm nothing without you
Now I know
what people mean,
When it's too good to be true
Because you
bring me joy, good love
Good times, such happiness
And every
day I thank the lord for you
I feel so blessed
I need for you
to love me, hold me, touch me
Down deep in my soul, and never let
it go
Of the love we share, no one compares to you
I'll never
let you go 'cause I really love you so
I'll never let you go."
Wolfram continued.
"If
you only knew
What you really do
Ain't never had no one that
does it quite like you
You could spend half a lifetime
Trying
to find one like you
That's why I am so glad I found you
I
wished upon a star, it came true
I need for you to love me, hold
me, touch me
Down deep in my soul, and never let it go
Of the
love we share, no one compares to you
I'll never let you go 'cause
I really love you so
I'll never let you go."
Yuuri smiled. He hugged him and said
"It's time to go.."
"But Yuuri…"
"Don't worry Wolf, the sooner I get back on my journey, the sooner I'd be home."
"Promise me?"
"I do. Promise me you'll wait for me?"
"Yes, I do. I won't stop believing. I'll tell the others too."
--
Wolfram awoke the next day with a newfound happiness: hope. He had to get out of their room and tell everyone about what he'd dreamt which he believed was real, and that they shouldn't think that Yuuri is gone for he would only be given the chance while everyone still believes he isn't gone.
Wolfram ran to breakfast (still in his pink nightgown) and told everyone about what he dreamt. Everyone's eyes softened, the poor prince couldn't accept his beloved's departure. They didn't believe him of course.
"Wolfram, I know it's hard to accept Yuuri's death and it's hard for you to let go but you have to." Gwendal protested.
"No! He's not! Shinou gave him a second chance." Wolfram said on the verge of tears. He knew this was hard to explain. He looked at Conrad who seemed to be staring at his plate. His face was emotionless, Wolfram knew that Conrad knew something about it. He'd talk to him later.
"And how did you know about that?" Günter asked.
"He told me." Wolfram's arms crossed on his chest.
"How?" Murata wondered if Wolfram was loosing his sanity.
"Through
my dream last night and the night before…" Wolfram looked outside
the window. It's so funny how you can find hope and loose it again
in a matter of minutes…
Cheri sighed. Wolfram could never accept
it. He had lost a lot of people dear to him, and always felt alone.
Now he couldn't accept his fiancé's death. It would be sad
to let down his hopes by disbelieving him, but what good can hope
bring if it takes too long?
Wolfram sighed and let tears fall from his eyes. Once again, he cursed himself for being so weak, but what would suppressing them do? Cheri smiled. It was her turn. She tried to look happy as she held her son's hand and whispered "I believe you haven't showed me the journal I gave you." Wolfram smiled as he remembered and tried to get his mind off sad things. He had to continue believing, even on his own. But he didn't know how long he could hold up.
end of chapter 11
Okay…this chapter seems kinda weird…sorry about that. I was feeling kinda gloomy…oh, and the sand dunes…haha I had my science test today and those sand dunes got stuck in my head so I decided to place Yuuri's "Lost soul" of some kinda in a desert…anyway, the song that they sang is by Faith Evans entitled Never gonna let you go. Hope you liked this chapter…submit reviews as always!