Chapter 11:

Sebastian was so nervous. His sons knew something was up and they were being very fussy. He tried bouncing them both on his shoulders, feeding them, changing them but they wouldn't stop crying.

"Shhh baby boys. Daddy is alright. Shhh I love you both." He said as he was rubbing their stomach.

"Hey are you alright?" Jeff asked as he came into the room with Nick. They were there to watch the boys for him when he went to meet Star.

"I think they know I'm stressed right now. I'm so sorry guys." Sebastian started. "If you don't want to watch them I'll cancel with Star."

"No this is something you need to do. You need time to yourself also. We will be fine." Jeff picked up Jerome then and started moving around to calm him down. "We will all be fine. Now go." Jeff scolded and Sebastian laughed before kissing his boys.

"Be good for your uncles boys." Then he waved and left to walk around the corner. The green flower pinned to his shirt.

When he came around the corner and saw the coffee shop he felt like running away, but pushed through his fear and walked to the window to look inside. He scanned the room for a blue flower and finally found it. Lifting his eyes up to see the face of the person it was attached to. He started to freak out when he saw who it was.

"No." He almost started crying and ran back to the school and to his room, bursting into the door and leaning against it when it was closed, scaring the four people in the room when he got there.

"What is wrong Sebastian?" Nick asked as he placed Skyler in his crib and walked over to Sebastian on the floor.

"I can't do this. How could he do this to me. He has to know it was me talking to him. If he doesn't what if he sees me and just leaves." He was rambling.

"Who is it?" Jeff asked bouncing Jerome on his hip. Sebastian looked up at him and breathed out.

"Kurt. He is sitting in there with the flower on his shirt. What do I do?" He asked almost crying.

"Go back there and talk to him. See how he reacts and what he has to say if he didn't know if was you he has been talking to. I'm not happy if he did know but maybe he has a good reason." Jeff stated.

"Alright I'll be back. Take care of them." Sebastian stated and went back to the coffee shop. He walked inside and stood by the door pretending to look around for the flour. When he turned towards where he knew Kurt was he let his eyes go wide, making Kurt this is the first time he saw him. He saw the small smile on Kurt's face and knew right then that Kurt know he has been talking to sebastian.

"Why?" He said as he sat down.

"I didn't know it was you are first Sebastian. Then the things you were talking about and telling me you did I figured it out." Kurt replied.

"Why are you acting all nice on the computer but so mean any other time. You flipped out on me when I told you about myself, you accused me of using you. Then online your nice and sweet and listen to me and give me advice. I don't get it Kurt." He said leaning back in his chair.

"I never wanted to hurt you. We started to become friends and then that night happened, I was already back with Blaine and I didn't know how to react to that. I wanted you so badly that night and I got scared the next day. I never wanted Blaine like that and my actions scared the crap out of me. I'm so sorry for how I've been treating you. I didn't want to lose Blaine, I had to try with him again and he didn't want me having anything to do with you." Kurt replied. "Can you forgive me and be friends again?"

"I...I can't Kurt. I'm sorry but while you are with him you are not the best person and I don't need that in my life. Especially not right now." He stood up and basically ran out of the door. He slowly started walking down the street back to school, needing a little time to comprehend everything, then he heard his name called and he was suddenly spun around and had lips on his. He pushed the other person away and scowled.

"What the hell Kurt. You can't just do that. Why are you doing that?" He stood and stared at the other boy.

"I made such a mistake getting back together with Blaine when I was starting to really fall for you while we were hanging out. He just came and begged me to forgive me and to get back together. I made such a mistake, I miss you everyday Sebastian." Kurt whispered the last part.

"I missed you to Kurt but I can't do this. Your with Blaine and not me. You choose him over me when you ran out of the hotel room, when you broke me." Sebastian stated.

"I love you." Kurt said making Sebastian's eyes go wide. "You may not believe it but I do. That is why I just had to talk to you as Star. To know you were alright, to have you with me in some way. I was mean and nasty in person because I knew I hurt you and I didn't want you to get hurt again by Blaine. I was hoping this meeting would go good. I was planning on talking to Blaine right after this and telling him how I feel about you, how all my love that was for him before has moved to you. I want to move out here to be close to you."

"No Kurt. Stay in Lima. You gave up New York Already for Blaine. If you leave him go to New York. Don't give up anything for me. Your don't love me, you just feel bad for what you have done to me." He started to walk away again but Kurt stopped him and looked into his eyes for a moment before he kissed him again, this time holding Sebastian's head keeping him there. Sebastian gave in, having wanted this for so long.

"See you can't say you don't have feeling for me still. I know you do. Why can't we try this?" Kurt pleaded.

"I can Kurt. God I wish I could but I can't. I can't have you come into my life one minute and then run off the next. I have way too many responsibilities to have you do that to me. I don't just have my self to think about any more." His eyes went wide as he realized what he just said and turned around and quickly ran down the street and into the school.

He didn't even think about Kurt as he was flying up the stairs and into his room. He saw the boys in his friends arms and smiled for a moment before he sat down, trying to calm himself.

"Sebastian how did it go?" Nick asked.

"I don't want to talk about it right now. I appreciate the two of you watching the boys but could I have some alone time with them please." He said as he looked at his friends, feeling a little bad about kicking them out.

"Yeah that's fine we understand." Jeff stated as he placed Jerome in his crib and went to the door. "We'll stop by later."

Once they were gone he picked each boy up and placed them on the bed, laying down on the side next to the floor as he laid next to them. He was tired and wanted to take a nap with his boys when he heard a commotion in the hall.

"You can't go in there, he doesn't want to see you." He heard Jeff voice right before the door flew open and Kurt was standing there. "I'm so sorry Sebastian we tried to stop him."

"It's ok. Just leave us for a bit." He said sitting up on the bed, trying not to disturb the boys. Kurt was standing there mouth open and eyes wide looking between Sebastian and the boys.

"What the hell is this?" Kurt spat out finally. "Is this what you were talking about when you said I left something with you and it was yours? Or when you said you had responsibilities other than for yourself? What is going on? Are they….. Are they mine?" Kurt asked as he sat down in the chair.

"Yes." Sebastian started rubbing his eyes for a moment. "They are yours. This one is Jerome Anthony and this one is Skyler Liam, they have my last name."

"How could you keep this from me?" Kurt asked.

"I tried so many times to get you to talk to me. Then when I was telling you about myself I was almost to that part and you took off, not giving me a chance at all. Everytime I tried to tell you, you just dismissed me. I even went to you right after they were born and still you wouldn't talk to me." Sebastian said. "I didn't want you to think you had to be here. I didn't want you to feel like you had to be with me because of them. Then it pissed me off that you were Star because I was ready to tell him about my boys."

"Our boys." Kurt said.

"They are mine. I needed you, needed your help and support and got nothing from you but hate and being ignored. Aren't you going to ask me what is probably on your mind?" He asked waiting for the fall out.

"I just want to know why you didn't just spit it out. Just say you were pregnant with my children. I deserved to know about them." Kurt stated.

"Not what I thought you were going to ask, but I didn't do it that way because you would never have believed me. I first started to tell you about myself, my body then i was going to tell you about them but you took off. You wouldn't have believed me if I just spat that out. You would've thought I was only saying that to get you to be with me and I didn't want that. I wanted you to be with me because you wanted to be, not because of the boys."

"I told you earlier how I felt. Why did you run away, why didn't you tell me about them then?" Kurt questioned.

"I wasn't sure if you were really telling the truth earlier. I just don't want you to come back into my life and be with me to turn around and find out about the boys and run off again. I can't go through that."

"Can we please try. I'll call Blaine right now and end it if you want me to do it right now. Or you can come with me when I do it so you know I'm for real." Kurt said taking a hold of Sebastian's hand.