A/N: Alright, I have a lot of things to say but I suppose the most important thing is this:

I'M SO SORRY.

I know you all must hate me. I've been getting so many messages and reviews and follows over the past few months and because of that I am so so grateful. I'm sorry I've left you hanging for so long. School has been tough, the job has been life consuming, and the band is starting to take off. We are getting more shows than ever, and while it is a great thing, it's hard to find time for everything else when you have three shows a week almost every week. I know I've left you guys hanging, probably at the worst possible moment in the story. I hope you all can forgive me, and know that it really means the world that you guys have stuck with me even though I haven't been updating. You guys really rock, and I have the best readers ever!

Now without any more waiting, here is your next chapter!

Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans. I wish I did. I hate myself every day because of it.

Warning: Okay, I've been a freakin' sissy in the past few chapters. I'm going to earn my M rating, though it may not be in this chapter specifically. It will come. Hold on to your hats. And children, don't read. Unless you want to be scarred.

Chapter 10

Robin

It was dark, even when I opened my eyes. Pitch black. I had this pain in my head, the throbbing threatening to lull me back into unconsciousness. I could hear the clacking of chains against a brick wall, and it was then that I realized that I had chains around my wrists and ankles. I couldn't see, but I could hear. I heard the moans of what sounded like Raven beside me. She was just waking up as well. Soon, Beast Boy and Cyborg's moans were rushing through my head too. I groaned in pain. Where were we?

"Robin..." Raven mumbled beside me. "Where...where are we?"

I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to ignore the pain coursing through my head.

"I don't know," I said.

I heard Raven sigh.

"Where's Starfire?" She asked.

My world stopped.

"Star?" I yelled into the darkness. "Star!"

No response.

I pulled against the chains keeping me hostage. I flailed my legs in hope that I could loosen them. I screamed out into the nothingness around me. But nothing worked.

She wasn't here.

I flopped back into the wall, my body failing me. I couldn't even fucking breathe. I had let this whole thing get so carried away...and now Starfire was nowhere to be found. Christ, I didn't even know where I was. I didn't bother fighting the tears that were pouring from my eyes.

I had just gotten her back, and I almost lost her for good. Then she was torn from me again.

This world wanted to fucking kill me.

She was still so hurt...she had endured so much. I didn't know how she had fought so hard to stay alive as it was. I didn't know how much more she could take.

But she was the strongest fucking person I knew. If anyone could handle it, it was her. She could take so much more pain than the rest of us. She could do things I couldn't even believe. She was absolutely fucking incredible, and I knew that she would do everything she could to stay alive. She was a fighter, and I knew she would fight until the end.

I just wanted to make sure she got the chance.

But here I was, trapped like a fucking rat in the dark. I had no idea where I was, and no idea where Starfire was. I had never felt so fucking useless.

"Robin..." I heard Raven whisper.

I shook my head, even though I knew she couldn't see me.

"I don't want to hear it, Raven," I said back, my voice betraying me.

I heard her sigh.

"Robin, she will be okay."

I didn't answer her. Instead, I gave in to the throbbing in my head and let the unconsciousness swallow me whole.

Starfire

I would be lying if I said that I was not afraid.

The darkness that welcomed me when I opened my eyes was very terrifying, and the pain all over my body only made the situation worse. I groaned and tried to sit up, but quickly found that the pain was too unbearable. I could not move.

I was surrounded by blackness, and I could not see a thing. I was lying on a hard surface, much like the marble floor in the old mill. I could not determine how long I had been unconcious. I did not wish to know.

What had happened? Everyone had been so happy...Slade had been defeated. Robin had finally taken him down. I had survived, and I had seen Robin again.

Then this happened.

I was still so confused. I had no idea why I was here, or how I had gotten here in the first place.

I tried once again to sit up and cried out as I came crashing back down to the cold, hard floor I was lying on. I clutched at my side, and although I knew the wounds were no longer there, they still seemed very real.

Without knowing what to do, I decided to speak.

"Robin?" I called weakly, not able to go any louder. "Raven? Cyborg? Beast Boy?"

I did not expect the laughter that answered me.

"Hello?" I asked. "Who is there?"

I generated a starbolt around my fist and raised it up to look at my surroundings. I was in a large room, with nothing inside of it. Nothing except for me and the plain white walls.

"Show yourself," I called.

As if on que, all the lights turned on.

I was momentarily blinded by the white lights, my eyes not adjusting as quickly as I had hoped. I cried out and put my hands in front of my face, hoping to shield the brightness.

Then I heard the footsteps.

I snapped my eyes open and couldn't help but gasp at the figure approaching me. His mask was cracked, his uniform soaked in blood. Both mine and his. He had a slight limp, but otherwise, he was undamaged. I could not believe he was still alive.

"Slade," I wheezed, absolutely baffled.

"Well hello, my dear," he cooed at me. He stopped about a foot from me and kneeled down to my level. "That was quite a show back there, wasn't it?"

"I...I do not understand..." I stuttered.

"Understand what, foolish girl? How I'm still alive?" He asked.

All I could do was nod.

Slade chuckled and my blood boiled underneath my skin. He reached out his hand and stroked my hair. I flinched at the unwanted contact.

"You see, I am not so easily disposed of, Starfire," he said. "I cannot be killed."

"Everyone can be killed," I said. "Even you, Slade."

"Well, you have proven to be extremely hard to kill, haven't you?" He asked, standing up and removing something from his utility belt. "I shot you three times. Three times. The first one alone should have killed you. And you didn't die. That's exactly what I'm looking for in an apprentice. You're resilliant. It's everything I need."

I shook my head.

"I can be killed," I said. "And I would rather die before I became your apprentice, Slade. I will not serve you. I refuse."

He kneeled back down, then, and revealed the gun in his hands. I automatically cringed at the sight of it. He held it loosly, not paying much attention to it. He did enjoy my reaction, though.

"I think you will, though," he whispered, placing the gun under my chin. "You will, because I have your friends chained up in this building. I will keep them there, until they fade away to nothing. They are powerless down there. There's no hope for them...unless you do everything I say."

I was hyperaware of Slade's finger on the trigger, and I gulped.

"What do you say, my dear?" He asked.

I am not sure what happened...how I gathered the strength. I suppose it was the Tameranian worrior coming out in me, sensing the threat. It could have been that, and it could have been the fact that my friends needed me. I am not certain. But I suppose how it happened did not really matter.

It happened.

Suddenly everything was green. My eyesight was taken over by the green energy flowing through my veins. My hands glew green, and soon my entire body glew as well. I found myself snarling, making noises that I did not even know I was capable of making.

I shot into the air, gazing down on Slade. The energy that was coming out of me multiplied, surrounding me in a cloud of green. I could feel it pumping through me, and X'hal did I love it.

I heard the gunshot, but felt no pain. The bullet bounced off of my skin and left no wound. It was as if my energy swallowed it whole.

I could not help but smile down wickedly at Slade. I was so satisfied to see the look of pure terror in his eyes.

"What do I say?" I asked, raising my hands above my head. The green energy swriled around my fingertips and glistened up my arms, tearing away at the black uniform that I had been wearing. I laughed. "I say good riddance."

I unleashed all the energy I could right at him. I heard him scream in agony, and saw him disinigrate where he stood.

He was finally gone.

As I dropped to my knees, all the pain came rushing back all at once. Everything that I had been through came back ten fold, knocking the air out of my lungs.

I lay on my back, gasping for air, silently thanking X'hal for the gift she had given me.

I could feel the heaviness of unconsciousness threatening my eyelids and decided that it would not be wise to fight it. Before I could let myself close my eyes, I thought of Robin and the rest of my friends.

I wanted so badly to find them, but I could not force my body to move. So instead, I sent a message to Raven.

Raven, I thought, Please, I cannot stay long.

Starfire! She responded. Star, we saw the light. We escaped the chains. Where are you?

I smiled to myself.

Please, Raven. Tell Robin...

Don't you do that. We'll see you soon. Just tell me where you are.

A tear trickled down my cheek and dripped silently onto the floor.

Tell Robin I love him, Raven. Please.

Starfire. Where are you?

Promise me? I begged.

There was silence for a moment before she responded.

I promise, Star.

I slowly closed my eyes and let myself drift away. But before I could finally lose myself, Raven's voice entered my mind once more.

Hold on there, Star. We're on our way. We'll be there soon.

I sighed and felt the small smile on my face grow even bigger.

Just hold on.

The blanket of darkness covered me and then everything was gone.

Robin

I swear I saw her.

She was standing there, right in front of me. She was holding out her hand and giving me that damn smile of hers and all I wanted to do was touch her. She was so close...I could just reach out and brush my fingertips against her cheek. Everything about her was the same: those beautiful green eyes, the long crimson hair, and that gorgeous tan skin. She was all there. She was Starfire.

There was one thing different, though.

She had this glow to her...this green, brilliant glow that shone all around her. She was consumed in it, but she didn't mind. It was made of her. She looked safe in it. It was a part of her.

She was so fucking beautiful.

I tried to reach for her. I did. I tried so fucking hard. I was stuck in place, unable to move. All I could do was gaze at the woman in front of me. Long to touch her. Long to press those lips to mine. Long to hold her in my arms again.

The green glow brightened and grew...it was engulfing her. I was terrified. I couldn't see her very well anymore. All I could see was green.

Her face...she was still smiling. She was still happy.

"Do not be afraid," she whispered.

Then suddenly, there was a flash of green, and she was gone.

Then I woke up.

I gasped for breath as if I had been drowning. I expected nothing but darkness as I opened my eyes. But I could see. I could see everything around me. I could see Raven, Beast Boy, and Cyborg lined up next to me on the wall. It wasn't dark, and that alone was amazing.

The light that shone into the room was from a window at the top of one of the walls across the room from us. It was a small window, but the light shined bright. Bright enough to light the entire room.

I'd recognize that green light anywhere.

"Starfire," I breathed.

"We have to move," Raven said beside me. Her eyes became white as she chanted her famous words. Suddenly, we were all free of our chains and falling to the floor. "Come on, we don't have time."

"What do you mean, Rae?" Beast Boy asked, standing up and rubbing his wrists.

"Starfire is releasing too much energy too fast," Raven clarified. "We need to stop her before..."

The light went out abruptly, leaving us in the pitch black again.

"No..." I whispered. "No...no, this can't be happening. Raven, tell me she's okay."

She didn't answer me.

Cyborg activated a light on his shoulder that lit the room up enough for us to see each other. Raven was just standing there, her eyes closed. She wasn't moving.

"Dude, what's going on?" I heard Beast Boy ask Cyborg.

"I think Star's trying to communicate with Rae," Cyborg answered.

"But how's that possible?"

"They switched bodies once," I answered him. I couldn't help the cold that was leaking into my voice. "Raven and Star have a connection. If Star wanted to tell Raven something, she could."

"That makes sense," Cyborg commented.

I walked over to Raven slowly, reaching out and putting a hand on her shoulder.

"Raven?" I asked her. "Is Star okay?"

Silence.

All of a sudden, Raven gasped and fell to the ground. I managed to hoist her up so that she didn't hit the floor.

Raven's eyes were glistening with unshed tears.

No.

"Robin..." She said, her voice quivering.

"No," I said. "No, don't you tell me we're too late. I can't fucking believe that. Where is she? We have to-"

"Robin," She said again, her voice quiet.

I fell to my knees and unleashed all of the hatred, all of the fury, all of the fucking sadness that I had kept bottled up inside of me. I cried for me, I cried for my team, I cried for Starfire. I fucking cried for the love that I had for her.

Raven was beside me then, rubbing small circles on my back.

"She told me to tell you that she loves you," Raven whispered.

I shook my head and choked on my own tears, unable to answer her.

I closed my eyes and stood up, wiping my face as I did. I don't know how I did it. I think it was Starfire, somehow she gave me the will to get to my feet.

"I want to see her, Raven," I said. "I want to say goodbye."

And with that, the four of us walked to see her: The light of our lives. The strongest worrier we knew. The person who made all of us happy when we were sad. The glue that held us together.

The love of my fucking life.

We weren't the Titans without Starfire. There wasn't a way that we could be.

We would slowly unravel without her here, that I knew.

But that could wait. Right now, all we wanted to do was see our fellow Titan one last time.

To see my Starfire one last time.

My days were numbered.

A life without Starfire wasn't a life at all.

So, fuck it, life stopped.

A/N: Again guys, I'm so sorry for leaving you all hanging. We are dwindling down to the end of Not About Angels and I love every single one of you for sticking with me. I promise this isn't nearly as depressing as it sounds. I swear. Stay tuned for chapter 11 guys! It will be a lot happier!

It will come, by the way! :)

Peace out!

-Sierra