Okay guys likeI promised here is the next chapter. i hope everyone liked the last one even though it was so short. but good news! my boyfriend fixed my computer which helped it to reconfigure ch 11 so it would open! i am immensely happy because so much goes on in that chapter that i didn't think i could recreate it with the same vibe. but that's all to no worries. thank you all for your reviews and please do continue to send them! you may notice that i skipped the battle information because I want that to come up later in a different chapter. so we're going to move to after that part when Serena has said "Fair enough." Enjoy this chapter!
Bless it be!
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From Betrayal to Redemption Ch. 9
Two Hours later
"So I'm sure that you will relay this message to the others?" Serena asked.
"As their princess shouldn't you be the one to tell them?" Darien countered.
"Look here Shields-" Jason started.
"They are no longer of my concern," Serena finished. "They are not apart of my guard or my world. You work beside them, so I suggest as their new found Prince and ally you inform them of what is to come."
"Okay great! So you can leave now," Jason said standing up.
"Serena I'd like to talk to you."
"She doesn't."
Ignoring Jason he said, "I don't think I asked you Jadeite. And I think that your future queen can speak for herself without your peanut minded assistance."
"Shields I'm gonna-"
"What is it you'd like to speak about?" Serena asked.
"Sere…you can't be serious. You know he's just gonna spit his cockamamie bullshit. Don't let him have the chance. Kick his ass out before-"
"Shut up Jason!" Luna yelled. "If Serena wishes to speak with Darien than they shall-whether you like it or not. Now I suggest you four go do what you do best and leave these two alone."
"If you hurt her…" Jason began.
"Darien wouldn't do anything that stupid," Zach said
"But then, he has fucked up before," Nate interjected.
"He wouldn't. He may be royalty but he has yet to regain all that is his," Matt finished.
"Glad you four came to that conclusion. Now go," Luna stated.
When everyone had left the room, Serena stood up and went to the window. Darien starred at this beautiful goddess before him and couldn't believe he had not fought harder for what they had. She had not only matured and grown in the person she was but her beauty had too.
"So do you plan on actually saying something or just reflecting on your mistake?" Serena asked.
"I wish I knew where to begin."
"Say what you want," she said and turned to him. "I promise I won't send my guard after you."
"Cute Sere."
"Never call me that again. You don't have that much liberty," and turned back to the window.
"Well then Serena…will you please look at me?"
"I don't need to look at you to speak with you."
"Afraid of the connection?"
"Connection? Don't make me laugh."
"Then look at me," he said and walked over to her. "Turn around."
"Back off."
"Why? You feel it too don't you? Our bodies reacting to one another…our hearts reaching out to each other," he said as he touched her shoulders.
Serena inhaled a breath and said, "I can't begin to tell you how many nights I wished you would have done just that. Touch me the way you used to and tell me that you still loved me."
"I do Serena."
"And now…"
"Now?"
Serena turned to look at him in the eyes and said, "Now that I do have it, I could care less. Did you really think that those words would get you somewhere? You still don't get it do you? We have no connection. Nothing binds us to one another anymore so stop thinking so," she said and walked past him into the kitchen.
"I don't have to think anything. My heart knows it and yours does too. Why are you fighting this?" he asked following her.
She had just opened a bottle of wine and was pouring a glass when she said, "I'm not fighting anything. How can you fight something that does not exist?"
"Oh it exists Serenity. Your mother didn't die trying to give us a new start for nothing."
"Don't you dare speak of my mother and what she did," she said while placing the glass back on the counter. "She died trying to make sure I had the perfect life with the man I loved and I would have, but you just couldn't believe in what we had. You were always questioning it and our destiny saying that you didn't want the past to control your future. And that killed me every time I looked in your eyes and saw that. I loved you more than anything in this world and no, not because you were Prince Endymion, but because you were Darien. My sworn enemy from the moment my test paper landed on your head and the man who haunted my thoughts every waking moment. I fell in love with a man wearing a cap who saved me every night and yet I could never see his whole face. But I loved him still and I couldn't figure out why but something called me to him. I later realized why because he was you and even though we argued and fought, I still had feelings for you. I just didn't realize how deep they were until that night in the tower. All of those feelings came back to me and I know they did for you too, but you…you were too scared and unsure of what you felt that you pushed it away. You pushed me away when we came home. Yes I cast my spell but so did you on your own part. And then I go and fall for your alter ego in white and I knew then that you would never leave my heart nor I yours. But what do you know? You continued to question us at every kick and turn and you know what? I realize now that your questioning was right. We shouldn't be ordained by what the past says and we should be able to live our lives as we see fit."
"So you're just going to throw away what we have?"
"On your behalf: You threw it away not me and on mine: we don't have anything to throw away."
"Oh yeah?" he started and moved next to her. "What makes you so sure?"
Serena could feel his breath being exhaled and inhaled above her. 'I'm not still in love with him. I'm not,' she thought to herself and moved to slide from her position. "Because I am."
"Oh no you don't princess," he said as he lifted her up and place her on the island. He stood between her legs and placed his hands on her thighs. "I think talking here is just fine don't you?"
"Shields…"
"Shields what? Did your heart just skip a beat? For me or this predicament?"
"The island is cold."
"Maybe…"
"God DARIEN! What are you trying to prove? That I still love you? Try again. I don't care for you anymore. I'm not the old Serenity who saw a tall dark handsome prince from the forbidden planet Earth and fell in love the night he danced with her. I'm me and the hardships in my life have only made me stronger. No thanks to you and the girls of course but I'm not some stupid blonde damsel who needs you to answer her distress call. I'm not Helen of Sparta to your Paris of Troy. It is over between you and I. It has been for a long time."
"Well then it that case," he said and grabbed her neck pulling her down for a kiss. "For goodbyes sake."
For a brief moment it seemed as if time itself has stood still. There were only them wrapped in that moment in this whole world. When Darien pulled away and looked in Serena's eyes he saw nothing but hate.
"If you ever do that again I'll kill you. Royalty or not," and pushed him back to get off the counter.
"Why because you liked it and remember how we used to be?"
"Remember? Yes. And a part of me is heartbroken that a love like ours was never meant to be. But like it? My powers weren't the ones to react now were they?" 'Thanks to Selene. Good thing I caught it before they reacted or I wouldn't be able to get out of this one,' she thought.
"What do my powers have to do with-?"
"Look at my garden."
Darien turned around and saw where before lilies, daffodils, orchids, and sunflowers once were now held roses. Red, yellow, pink, white and a few orange ones.
"Your powers are connected to your emotions Darien. A blessing and a curse at times but it does give us an advantage. You must have felt some passion in that kiss for my garden is immediate proof," she said and walked away. "Too bad for you it was only one sided." 'One sided my ass,' she thought as she looked in a hallway mirror. She could see the outline of her crescent moon that would have appeared if she had not controlled her emotions when Darien kissed her. 'I can't believe I let him get to me. I can't afford to slip up like that again,' she finished thinking and continued her way down the hall.
Darien had followed her to the back of the house and said, "Serena we need to talk about this. I have no idea what my powers just-"
"And I just explained them to you," she said as she moved behind a changing stall. "You are an Earth Prince-the only one in fact until you give yourself an heir. You are connected to this planet in more ways than you think. Earlier you spoke of how Gaia allows you to wield her power for your benefit. Did you not know of what you spoke?"
"Of course I did, I've just never had this happen before."
"You're used to being able to produce one or two flowers at a time right? As your memories return so will more of your powers Darien," she replied and came out in a bathing suit.
"Are you seriously going swimming? My life is spinning out of control and you want to go swimming."
"Exactly your life," she repeated and dived into the water.
"Serena! I need your help with this," he shouted. "Serena!" She did not come up for some time after that he began to worry. "Serena answer me." When she did not reply, he became frantic and began to take off his shoes and such. "Serena if you can hear me give me a sign!" When he got no reply he dove under the water after her. He saw around the top half of the pool and did not see her. 'Where could she be? I know I saw her dive in.'
He swam towards the deeper end and saw what looked like another exit or even an entry from the pool. He went through the space and found that the waters were more blue and green than the pool water. 'What the hell is this?' he thought and felt something against his leg. He turned around and saw a fish with rainbow coloring being followed by smaller fish of the same kind. 'I have to be losing my mind. I couldn't have seen a fish in this pool.'
'Actually you did,' Serena's voice said in his head.
'Now I know I'm losing it. I'm hearing her voice and she's nowhere to be seen and I'm underwater! Get a grip Shields.'
'You're not going crazy Darien,' she said and appeared in front of him.
'How am I able to hear you and vice versa?'
'I had Zach and Matt set up sensors on the floor beds so that those in the water could speak with one another. It would be sort of deadly to open your mouth underwater. Not to mention the whole breathing issues.'
'Zach modified that too I presume?'
'He's not a inventive scientist for nothing.'
'No wonder Amy fell in love with him. I always knew Zoi would settle down for someone smart and sophisticated like him.'
'I see that you're starting to remember more things.'
'Yeah, but…where did…what is this place?' he asked as he saw more fish go past him.
'You don't recognize it?'
'Do you think I'd be asking you if I did?'
'I had Sailor Neptune create this world for me. I missed seeing it back in the Silver Millennium and wanted it again. This is the vast ocean outside of the Neptunian Palace.'
'I don't remember it.'
'Just as well I guess,' she thought and swam past him.
'Hey where you going?'
She turned abruptly around and with a grin said, 'Come and see.'
They swam out further into the waters until Darien began to notice more sea life around him. He followed Serena down to a coral reef and slipped into a cave. When he entered he immediately noticed that there was no water within. He looked at the area surrounding him and felt a familiar sensation. "What is this?"
"Just a cove," Serena replied and sat atop a rock.
As his eyes fell on her sitting atop the rocks his mind flashed back to another time. He still saw Serena but a different version of her wearing a different outfit. She was laughing at him with that sparkle in her eyes. "I've been here before haven't I?"
"I told you that before."
"No we've been here before. In this very spot but back then."
"Have we?" she asked knowing full well what had happened between them within these walls.
"Why bring me here if you knew what this place was?"
"I may not have any feelings for you anymore Darien, but I need for you to remember your past. What we discussed tonight about the ten of our powers, it's nothing compared to the connection you have with this planet. If you don't remember her, then you can never be of any help to your people or us. I plan to continue what my mother started and build a new alliance once it's time, but I can't do that when the Prince of Earth isn't fully here."
"You know that's not what I mean. You say you don't love me but you bring me to a replica of the place where we first made love and continued to do so there after? What was it that you called it? Our special love cove, right? You must really think that you're slick and smooth to do this huh?"
"I explained my reasons to you."
"And they're full of shit. Why have this place rebuilt if you didn't want to remember? It's like you want a constant reminder of what we had together but you're not willing to take the chance of getting it back. Sounds psychotic to me."
"Well it's a good thing you're a medical doctor and not a psychiatrist," she said and walked off.
He caught her arm before she could get far off and said, "Don't walk away from me."
"Why? You did-more than once in fact," she snapped back and snatched her arm back. "You seem to think that you can go off on your 'I love you, I don't love you' binges but when I decide to make a definite decision about this you get upset! You feel that I'm wrong and I'm not listening to what you have to say, but you forget that I spoke those same words to you when you broke up with me. I cried myself to sleep for days and you never even gave me a second glance. But now that you're receiving the same treatment that you gave, you want to protest and call it unjust?"
Deciding to wait until later to continue this conversation, he asked "So where does this lead to?"
Noticing his tactic she politely said, "Why do you ask?"
"I can see that other opening on the far side. It has to lead to something else. Maybe the forests of Jupiter or perhaps a time loop set up by Pluto?"
"I don't even have that much sway to convince her to do that," she said and went through the crawl space with Darien to follow. He saw her push open a door and re-enter the pool through the floor that he hadn't even noticed when he came in at first.
"You know our situations are completely different," he said when they came out of the pool. "What I did was-"
"I know your meek version of protection. We've been through this already," she replied as she threw him a towel and took one for herself.
"And yet we still haven't gotten anywhere."
"I'd care to differ. You explained your views, I explained mine and decided to stick with mine. You made your choice Darien; no one made it for you or forced you to do so. Therefore, do me the favor: accept it, deal with it and then live with it.
"How can you ask me to accept that I'll never have the love of my life by my side? That I'll never be able to place my ring on her finger when I ask her to marry me and take our vows? How can you ask me to deal with the fact that I'll never see her carrying my child within her womb and then raise that child together along with children that follow? Live with the emptiness I feel when I return home alone with no Serena to wait for?"
At his speech Serena stopped and listened to the words he spoke. She could feel her heart wanting to reach out to him and tell him that they could work things out, but she knew that that would never happen. She wanted to believe his words, but she knew she couldn't trust what he said for consistency was not a virtue of Darien's when it came to love for her. With a deep breath she turned around to look him dead in the eye and said, "I'm not asking you, I'm telling you to do so because we will never be."
Before he could answer his cell phone rang and he answered with, "Shields speaking."
"I apologize for disturbing you Dr. Shields, but your name is on the call sheet," a nurse's voice replied.
"Give me the run down," he said as he started to put his pants back on.
"Bus accident victims came in about two hours ago with touch and go statuses, but right now we have a domestic violence attack, and four car collision with three minors involved."
"In the car?"
"One, but the other two were pedestrians caught between cars. They're critical."
"I'm on my way. Call Anderson too for the minors," he said and hung up the phone. "Serena-"
"Duty calls," she said as she went back into the house. "You can see yourself out, right?"
Watching her walk away he thought to himself, 'I'm not giving up on us Serenity. We belong together.' He threw his t-shirt on, rushed out the house, and hopped on his bike not noticing that Serena was looking down at him from the window.
"What am I to do Selene? What am I to do?"
End of Chapter! What did you think? let me know okay! I do hope that you enjoyed it and I should be updating soon!