I Disclaim: I have no Rights or association to Degrassi or any of the characters, or Name brands used in this story except of course Mykel , and Alexia, they're mine and you can't have them.
A/N: Well I have really been on a roll this week lol two updates within two days I know. I usually try and do one chapter a week but I am in love with writing this story lol. I am going to be pretty busy these next couple of weeks though so consider this something to tide you over for a while lol. Ok I really like this chapter because Sean and Ellie make up. So I hope you enjoy. Plead read and review I wrote double chappies this week for ya'll lol.
"I can't believe he slept with Amy Elle. She was supposed to be my best friend." Alex cried hard to me that night. I had never seen Alex show any emotion, let alone cry. I knew that she had been with Jay since forever, but it was at that moment that I realized how much she in fact did love him.
"He's a colossal jerk Alex, I can't believe he would do that to you," I wrapped her in a tight hug in me and Sean's apartment that night, "then give out bracelets to ... so sick." I had to admit the whole situation was shocking, even for Jay this was low. I had really started to warm up to him. We were even becoming, dare I say, friends; but that day in Grade 11, watching tears and hurt fill my friend's body, I could have probably watched him die. Alex and I had started becoming close back in grade 10, a few weeks after Sean and I had started going out. Since Sean and Jay were always together we had no choice but to get to know each other, and we had a lot more in common than people knew. Sure we dressed different, talked different, and had different outlets for our pain, but our backgrounds were the same, all of ours really. We were almost like family, and it felt good to have one for a change. It had really started to become fun, the four of us. We were definately a functional dysfuntion. I was even starting to understand Jay, and why he did the things he did, as we developed a sort of brother sister bond. Then he had to go and mess everything up, betray not only Alex but all of us. Eventually we would let him back into our circle, but not without a fight.
"What smells so good," Alex said as she emerged from her room around 9:00 that morning.
"Grab a plate I was just finishing up," Ellie said as she dried some dishes off and returned them to the cabinets.
"Ok, is this the twilight zone or something," Alex asked as she took inventory of the huge breakfast that Ellie had prepared. It was something for everyone and then some, eggs, bacon, sausage links, home fries, fruit salad, biscuits, pancakes and waffles.
"What," Ellie looked at Alex and smiled as she handed her a plate. "I can't cook breakfast on a Saturday for my family and friends without being persecuted."
"Not after you and your, what's the word, oh yeah husband, slept in separate rooms last night." Alex said as she started to fill her plate.
"He slept in the garage didn't he," Ellie said as she looked down.
"You know cars are the only thing that can really calm him," Alex said as she sat down at the kitchen table while Ellie fixed a plate for herself and Kelly.
"I don't want us to fight Alex, it's just things are so crazy right now. Plus Craig being here..." Ellie trailed off as she looked down at the floor again.
"Let it go Elle, Sean won't find out, even if Craig says something you can deny it." Alex knew about that night, Ellie had broke to her about it a few months after it happened and Alex never really got over it. How could she cheat on a good man like Sean, even if it was a one time thing, even if she didn't mean it. Still Ellie had been there for Alex, for a lot, she would never let her secret out and would be her alibi if Craig ever tried to use it against her.
"How can I, the guilt, it has been eating away at me for years, I love Sean so much and I don't know what I would do if I ever lost him. I completely realize that now." Ellie was now crying, she really had been holding this in for a long time and so many things about Craig being there were scary to her. "I'm willing to do whatever it takes to keep Sean, if that means not going back to University yet, then I will wait." Ellie finally said as she grabbed Kelly's booster seat from the pantry.
"No Elle, you shouldn't have to hold out on your dreams. Look you and Sean should be able to compromise, holding it in won't help you just like drinking wont help him." Alex said as she swished her pancakes around on her plate.
" I don't know what to do Lex, I know I can't have another night like last night though," Ellie chuckled as she looked up at the ceiling, "do you think I'm up this early making breakfast for my health. I couldn't sleep at all last night." Ellie sat down exhausted as she stared Alex in the eye.
"Go talk to him Elle, he was just as miserable as you were last night, I know."Alex pulled Ellie up out of her chair and started to push her towards the garage door.
"Alex, I - I have to feed Kelly her breakfast." Ellie said as she tried to turn around.
"I'll make sure she eats ok, now go!" With that Alex opened the door and pushed Ellie into the room pulling the door back quickly behind her and locking it. Ellie dropped her mouth in shock as Alex waved and walked away towards the family room.
"I can't believe she just locked me out of my own house," Ellie said still in shock.
"Elle is that you?" Sean said as he sat up on the old couch, startled out of his sleep.
"Yeah, it's me." Ellie said as she looked down still not ready to face Sean.
"Oh," Sean said looking for the right words to say. He had a headache and he vaguely remembered finishing off a twelve pack, than having a late night encounter with Alex and a rock.
"Partied hard last night I see," Ellie said annoyed as she noticed all the beer cans in the trash.
"Um... yeah," Sean looked around as he started remembering exactly why he was sleeping in his garage. "I fucked up Elle." Sean said sincerely.
"You know you can't stop at one, so why even tempt yourself." Ellie said sounding more disappointed than anything.
"I promise you, I'm gonna try to not do this again." Sean said as they finally made eye contact.
"I guess I'm sorry too," Ellie said as she went to sit next to him on the couch.
"No, dont be. I overreacted, I just... was surprised." Sean said as he laced his fingers between Ellie's.
"I should have talked with you about it first... I kinda did the whole thing on impulse anyway." She loved when they held hands like that.
"I thought about it and I'm gonna support you in anything you do. We can work it out, we always have before." Sean said as he looked up at Ellie and smiled.
"Really, Sean!" Ellie said happily as she kissed Sean.
"Hey I can't wait for you to be world famous, I always wanted to go to Japan." Sean laughed as he leaned back on the couch.
"Japan?" Ellie questioned as she leaned her head on his shoulder.
"The cars that come from there are phenomenal." Sean said enthusiastically.
"Wow," Ellie laughed.
"I know what you're thinking but I'm not obsessed." Sean laughed.
"Sean, you were going to decorate Mykel's nursery with a Nascar motif." Ellie teased.
"That was before I knew she was going to be a girl." Sean said defensively, "Doesn't matter though she is going to grow up to love cars regardless." Ellie rolled her eyes as she traced her finger across Sean's leg.
"How do you know she wont want to be a writer, or a drummer, or play the guitar even," Ellie closed her eyes as soon as she said it, she knew what was coming next.
"I guess we need to have another one than," Sean laughed, "I would hate for Mykel to be involved in too many things." lately Sean had been getting that itch, he surprisingly loved being a father and couldn't wait to have more children, but Ellie wasn't really reciprocating his feelings, or at least he thought.
"How about I get through next year first. I don't need that many more credits to finish up my degree, it should only take about three semesters. I was thinking about doing school all year so fall, summer, and spring and I'm done." Truthfully Ellie didn't want to do this, but she knew it had to be done. She wanted Mykel to have the best things and if they did ever have another child, she wanted to be able to afford it. She wasn't against the idea of another child completely, she actually liked all the extra attention she got from everyone when she was pregnant, but right now it just wasn't practical.
"Only one year! Well that's not too bad. I guess I can wait a year." Sean said in a kind of baby voice.
"Don't ever say that like that again," Ellie laughed. "You sounded like your daughter."
"Did not." Sean said as he atempted to toss a pillow at Ellie.
"Haha, you missed me." Ellie laughed as she and Sean finally gave into there urge to kiss one another.
"Wait a minute, does this mean we made up?" Sean smiled as he pulled from her lips and stood up.
"Yes, I think it does," Ellie laughed as Sean pulled her up.
"Soooo, I can come back into the bedroom tonight?" Sean inquired .
"Yes, I kinda missed you last night anyways," Ellie said shyly.
"I missed you too, so much." Sean pulled Ellie into a hug taking in her scent, as he slowly erased the painful memories of their fight.
"I made breakfast by the way." Ellie said as she and Sean kissed.
"Really," Sean's eyes lit up.
"Awhile ago but I made a lot." Ellie started to pull Sean towards the door.
"I stressed you out that much," Sean said as he raised his eyebrow.
"That's why I love you Sean, you know everything about me even the insignificant things." Sean pulled Ellie into a deep kiss just as Alex pulled the door open.
"I see we made up," Alex laughed as she held a sleeping Kelly around her.
"Yes Alex, your little intervention worked." Ellie shook her head as Sean threw Alex a death glare he wasn't exactly ready to go back in the house. The garage was his favorite place for various reasons.
"I see that sugar crash kicked in," Ellie said as she followed Alex into the kitchen and took her daughter into her arms.
"Yeah I noticed that, where the hell did she get sugar from so early?" Alex asked concerned as Sean walked in taken a back by all of the food.
"You were really stressed," Sean laughed as he went to the cabinent to grab a plate. Ellie rolled her eyes and went back to her conversation with Alex.
"Well, Craig gave it to her." Ellie said in answer to Alex's question.
"Craig?" Sean and Alex both said at the same time.
"Yeah, I dont know something about his stories don't mesh though," Ellie looked down at her passed out daughter her sleep patterns were definately going to be off tonight.