It has been a few weeks since my checkup. My stomach is slightly bigger, not as big as the doctor would like, but everything is well. The kids are excited and check on me all the time. I thought Chris was worried about me with Chloe, he is always checking and worrying. He doesn't sleep well lately. I am worried about him. My parents and family are beyond excited. Dad sends me little checkup texts daily. Mom facetimes me a couple days a week. I, well I feel okay. I love this baby so much, but I am afraid to embrace it. I worry every day that something will happen.

Chris wants to start setting up the nursery, but I can't pull myself to do that yet. I need to know that I am in the clear the best I can be. I can't handle getting into the pregnancy and something happening. It has happened before and that is why I worry so much.

At one of my checkups, I had the doctor worried. I was told to stay stress free and to only do what was absolutely needed. So, to Chris that meant, I need to stay home and do nothing. After some time, I was able to get him to agree that I could work from home some and that I could still do things around the house and take care of the kids.

Sitting on the couch, I look out the window at the sunshine. Maybe I should go enjoy the sun. I could go relax outside with a book. The thought is very appealing.

Closing my laptop, I start to get happy about enjoying a day outside. It has been dreary around here lately. It has been raining a lot.

I go upstairs and walk into my closet putting on a pair of shorts. I walk to my dresser and grab a tank top. I was going to get a bikini top but I feel the tank top would feel better. I slip my feet into flipflops and pull my hair on top of my head.

I walk downstairs with a book in my hand and my phone in the other. I sit everything on the island and make myself a glass of iced tea.

Walking back into the living room I make sure everything is off when I see a police car pulling into my driveway.

I stop and look out the window making sure the car isn't going to turn around. When I see the lights turn off, I know the car is parking.

My chest tightens as I walk to the door. Why would the cops be here? Are the kids okay? Is Chris okay? Are my parent's okay? Oh my gosh, Asher, please say he is okay.

I take a deep breath the best I can around the lump in my throat.

Opening the door, I see a hand about to knock. I look up and sigh relived , "Damnit Asher. You almost gave me a heart attack. I thought someone was seriously injured."

He smiles that signature Moon smirk, "Sorry Aubs." I put my hand to my heart and take a step back moving the door open with me.

He laughs as he walks in, "I didn't mean to startle you. I just wanted to come by and check on you."

Shaking my head I look out the door to the car, "Where is your SUV?" He looks around and shrugs, "They gave me a car for today. I was confused."

I nod and close the door. He walks over and smirks at me before laying his hand on my stomach, "Is my little niece or nephew doing okay?"

I smile and nod, "They are fine." He looks up at me and removes his hand, "And how is my beautiful sister?"

I laugh as I walk past him and into the kitchen grabbing my iced tea, phone and book. "Want a glass?" He shakes his head and walks to my fridge grabbing a bottle of water. He follows me outside where I lie back on a lounger near the pool.

He lays back on the one next to me and looks over at me, "How are you doing Aubs?" I sigh and turn my head to him watching his eyes twinkle and his face showing concern. Asher has become pretty close with me. He knows me almost as well as Aiden.

I sigh, "I don't know. I am happy. Hell, I am thrilled, but…" I turn away and he clears his throat bringing my attention back to him.

"Aubs, you can't do that." I sigh and look at him. "Asher, What am I supposed to do?"

He shakes his head and looks at me, "Talk to Chris about all this. He needs to know what and how you are feeling." I shake my head, "You haven't seen him Asher. He is a walking ball of concern and worry. I can't put this on him."

He looks at me, "Aubrey, you can't keep what you are feeling to yourself." He turns to me and looks at me, "Tell me. Tell me all of it."

I turn on my side and look at him dead on. I watch his eyes before I take a breath. "I'm scared."

He doesn't say anything. He just watches me and waits for me to go on. " I'm just really scared, Asher. I want to embrace this pregnancy but…"

He looks at me and I sigh, "Asher, my medical training comes in. I know the numbers. I know what my odds look like. Losing babies before and Chloe being so hard on me when I was just a teen. This pregnancy already didn't start off good. I just… I can't handle if I do all the things and lose this baby. I know Chris wouldn't and I think it would break me."

Asher just stares at me and I shake my head, "I don't know what to do. I am torn. I want to do everything I didn't get to do with Chloe. I want to enjoy and embrace this pregnancy more than anything but… I am so scared."

I wipe at the tears falling from face and Asher wipes the rest of them.

When the tears are gone Asher looks at me, "You are Aubrey Faith Sterling, daughter of Austin Moon and Ally Dawson. You got pregnant at sixteen, left the dad and didn't care what people thought. You raised a wonderful, intelligent daughter in your teens. You got married to your best friend and didn't care what anyone would say or do. You went through medical school. You left it to run dads company. You took in a boy and raised him as your own. Aubrey, you are a total badass. You don't get scared. You don't handle. You take on and kick it's ass. "

I laugh and he holds my hands looking at me, "You know what you want to do babe." I smile and nod, "I do."

He kisses my cheek, "Get your ass up and don't mope. You are going to embrace this pregnancy with everything you got."

I laugh and nod. "I am."

He stands up and dusts off his uniform pants. I realize he is wearing his cop uniform. He puts his hand out to me, "Get your ass up, girl." I laugh and put my hand in his and he pulls me up.

"You have 5 minutes to have your purse and meet me at the door." I look at him confused, "What are you doing?"

He laughs and pushes me slightly, "Go!"

I laugh and take off and switch my shorts for something more modest. I end up putting on a pair of jeans. I throw my sunglasses on my head and grab my purse.

I walk downstairs and see him holding my phone. He grabs my keys and leads me out the door before locking it.

I walk to my car but he laughs and pushes me away. "Nope." He grabs my hand and leads me to my Audi. "Asher?" He smirks and gets in the driver seat.

I get in and watch him blare the music. "We are doing what you should have done weeks ago."

He revs out of the driveway and down the road. I am laughing like a lunatic as he sings loudly and horrible to the music, making me join in.

When he parks the car in the parking lot, I look up and see Babies r' Us and Toys r' Us. I look to Asher but he is already getting out of the car.

Sighing I get out and he grabs my hand pulling me with him. "What are we doing here?" He smirks at me as he pulls me along, "We, my dear sister, are buying some baby items."

I look at the store and back at him, "I am not taking no for an answer Aubrey. Let's go. We are doing this and you will feel better afterwards."

We walk into Toys r' Us first and I smile as I pick up something cute for Chloe and a truck for Kyle.

After some shopping in the toy section, we come to the section where the stores cross. I can see the baby items while I still stand safely in the toys.

Asher looks at me and steps the invisible marker and holds his hand out to me. "What do you say?"

I look around and look down at my belly. I am so scared. I am terrified but I know Asher is right. This is not me. I have never been like this. Taking a deep breath I put my hand in his and he smiles a warm smile as we head up to the front of the store looking at the baby stuff.

After hours of looking at all the baby stuff and even putting things on a registry because Asher just knows how to have fun. I have bought some gender neutral clothes, a diaper bag and a really cute onesie that says, My dad saves lives.

I smile as we walk out with all the bags. Asher is laughing like crazy and I haven't seen him this carefree in a long time. "I love you Asher. Thank you for this." He smiles at me, "Anytime Aubs. It is what I am here for." He kisses my cheek while I get in the car.

We ended up driving through and getting some lunch.

When he parks my car in the driveway, he sighs. "I am going to help you get everything in the house, then I have to run." I look up at him and he smirks, "Duty calls." I laugh and he comes around and helps me out of the car.

Grabbing the bags he starts for the door. I unlock it and he looks around, "Where shall I put these?" I look around, "My room." He nods and walks upstairs.

A few minutes later, I walk up to see what is taking so long.

Entering my room I see the bags on my bed and Asher staring at a picture on the wall. I get closer and see the picture of us as a family. It was taken when we all went on vacation. Before everything went wrong. "I love that picture."

He turns and looks and me, "I didn't know you had it. I uh… I should be going." I shake my head, "Asher, talk to me. I can't let you go out like this."

He looks back at the picture then me, "Do you ever wonder what life would be like, if we weren't a Moon?" I watch as he sighs, "What it would be like if mom and dad stayed that happy?"

I look at the picture and then him, "All the time. Every single day growing up. I would sit in my room and ask why did I have to be a Moon. Why did I have to be their child? I wanted nothing more than to be a normal girl. I wanted to grow up without cameras all around me and people making up stories. But I learned that I love being a Moon. I love that our parents were so successful and loved. I can't imagine my life any different. Life could have been so much worse."

He nods and looks back at the picture, "I always imagined what it would be like if dad and mom stayed together. However, I know that it would have been worse if they did. They are happy the way they are now but I still imagine and wonder."

He nods and turns and looks at the other picture on my wall of a family picture of Chris, I and the kids. "Asher?"

He shakes his head and smiles, "Just love those kiddos." I look at him, "Asher?" He shakes his head, "I got to get back to work."

I step in front of him, "Not happening until you talk." He shakes his head, "I just… I just kind of want kinds sometimes. Nothing about it." I look at him, "It's never too late Asher." He shrugs, "Maybe not. But I like my life right now and I have all the kids around me." Placing his hands on my stomach he smiles. "Everyone else can just keep having them for me."

I laugh and he leans down and kisses my cheek. "Take care of this little one and yourself. I will check on you again soon." I watch as he pulls me into a hug and kisses my head. "I love you Aubs." I smile and wrap my arm around him, "I love you too Ash."

He untangles himself and kisses my head before walking downstairs. I follow and watch him turn at the door, "Lock up." I nod and watch him walk out the door.

I lock the door and look around. The house feels empty now. I look up the stairs and decide, Asher was right. It is time I start embracing this pregnancy.

Smiling, I get my phone out and hit the number, "Hey, can you come over. I have a plan."