Chapter 11
Karma's present
Edward continued to suck and kiss along the length of my neck I had to close my eyes and relish in the pleasure he was giving me. I didn't want it to end. I felt his lips slowly wrapping around mine. We are both starting to breath heavier and I could feel the hardness of his erection pressed against my bump.
He backed away slightly, trying to see any apprehension and fear in my eyes.
"God Bella, I want to show you how special you are to me. I want to touch you" He said while still looking into my eyes.
I didn't feel any fear when I was with him, he had the opposite effect on me, he calmed me.
"It's alright, Edward," I murmured in his ear. "You can touch me. I know you
won't hurt me."
" I won't do this here"
" Your bedroom is closer then mine I responded
He lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist as he carried me to his room. Edwards bedroom was 3 doors down from the office and was painted in a hunter green His king size bed was decorated in simple black. He put me on my feet, move behind me. My breathing started to hitch in anticipation. He slowly undone the zipper to my dress and slid it down the length of my body. He retraced his fingers back up, causing goose bumps to pebble on my flesh.
Edward stopped at my small protruding belly and intertwined his fingers together rubbing his thumbs over the baby
" I want everything with you, I know your not ready to give it to me, but I want you to know I'll do whatever I have to and it doesn't matter how long it takes" he said rest his head on the crook of my neck " Just tell me you feel this to" He said as he lifted his right hand to cover my rapidly beating heart " Just tell me that I will one day have your heart, tell me I will have a chance"
" Yes, I feel it and I want it to be yours"
" Bella, I don't want to push you, will you let me make you feel good"
" Yes, Edward please, I need you"
" You will always have me no matter what, Don't ever doubt that"
He raised me on the bed and laid me down on the soft black bedding . He kissed my lips and licked his way down to my chest, he snapped the front clasp of my lace bra and my breast were exposed and my harden nipple went into his mouth.
" You are so fucking beautiful Bella, open your eyes and watch me love you. This is how it's suppose to be. This is what you are worthy of"
I watched as he lowed his tongue to circle and suck on my right nipple as his fingers rolled my left, slightly tugging causing me to become even wetter then I was. I couldn't hold in the moan he elicited from me. He didn't forget to give the same attention to the other .
He moved his hands down to my panties and I went rigged for a moment. Edward looked up
" Bella, Tell me to stop and I will. I wont ever do anything that you don't want me to, Just say it and I will stop"
" No, Edward I'm just nervous, The only experience I have, isn't a good one. I don't know what I'm suppose to do"
" Baby, Tonight is about you, you wont be doing anything. Its your birthday and I want to give you this. Please let me give you a new memory"
" Okay"
He pulled my panties down my legs and parted them with his hands. Edward used two fingers to graze my clit My back arched and I moaned in response to his touch. I instantly wanted more
" Please Edward, give me more"
" I will never deny you anything you want love, You never have to ask, you have all of me"
He moved lower and flicked his tongue against my clit and it felt like my whole body came alive with pleasure. I wanted him to rewind and repeat that action. He moaned in satisfaction when I started bucking my hips against his wet hot mouth. I was coming apart and I had to grip the sheets to keep me from thrusting myself hard into his mouth. My legs started to violently shake I was trying to prolong this feeling as long as I could but when he inserted his fingers in me it felt like a flood of relief had washed through me and I was panting so hard and my mouth was completely dry. This man had sucked every fluid substance I had in me.
" Happy Birthday Baby" Edward said as he pulled the covers over me and snuggled against me with his hand resting on my stomach and I fell asleep in his arms
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I woke before Edward did the next morning. I couldn't bare to wake him. He had such a look of contentment on his face. I found that a bit odd since I was the one who got all the benefits . He gave me a new sexual experience to remember, one that I would wanted to.
I went to my room and showered. I felt different , my body felt like a livewire, after my shower I had entered my bedroom to grab my clothes, when I noticed Rosalie had propped her herself on to my bed. I didn't even hear her enter my room
" Damn it Rosalie, You scared the shit out of me, What you doing in here"
" I came last night to check on you and imagine my surprise when you weren't here, but there was a light on in the office and I heard what sounded like kissing through the door"
" We didn't have sex, if that's what your asking"
" Then what did you two do, read medical journals?"
" No, we made out a bit and then we went to his room and he … he .. Um
" He … um what?"
" He went down on me"
" well, well well, little miss Bella, has a dirty side"
" Shhhhh! Don't say that that"
" Did you like it, was he good?"
"Well, since he's the first person to do anything like that, I'm pretty positive he was absolutely phenomenal, I needed that release so bad, I don't know if it's the hormones or what but I get so frustrated and my panties cant stay dry. When I see him I just want to hump his leg"
" You're pregnant Bella, it's the hormones and plus you live with a fucking hot single Doctor. Don't you just take care of it yourself when you're alone?"
" Um…. I've tried with my fingers but it never done anything for me, I don't think I'm doing it right or something"
" Well use your toy"
" I don't have a toy, I was always to scared my parents would find it"
I heard Rosalie Gasp in shock and she jumped up grabbed my hand and we headed down the stairs
" What's wrong " Edward asked rising up from the sofa with a look of panic on his face
" Nothing is wrong, calm down your Bella is fine, We are just going shopping" Rosalie explained
" What are you going to shopping for?"
" We're going to go see a man about a rabbit"
Edward looked confused for a minute and then the realization of what Rosalie was talking about dawned on his face causing my body to flush with embarrassment.
" Well happy hunting ladies" Edward said smiling as he sat back down on the sofa
Three hours later I was the embarrassed but proud owner of a Deluxe rabbit pearl vibrator in blue
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The rest of the week was pretty much low key. Edward and I went and fed the ducks by the pond. Its was becoming "our spot". He said he's little brother was coming to visit this coming weekend and he asked if I thought maybe Emily would enjoy getting out of the house and doing something fun but Prego safe"
I told him I would ask.
We were laying by the bank of the pond, my head in his lap. His hand was rubbing patterns along the side of my stomach. I looked up at him and he looked to be in deep thought. When he noticed me staring at him, he seem to snap out of his fog
" Are you nervous about meeting the adoption specialist tomorrow?"
" yeah, I'm not sure what to expect"
" Well I know she will ask what type of adoption you want, either open or closed"
" I think I would like pictures and to know how the child is growing up. I wouldn't want to interrupt the child's life by visiting or anything"
" Hmm, Do know what type of family you would prefer? Married? Single?"
" I don't really care, I just want someone to give the baby unconditional love and provide everything it needs"
" Have you thought about keeping the baby?"
" No, I'm too young and I can't take care of a baby. What if I ended up resenting it because of what happened
We spent the rest of our time at the pond kissing and holding each other. I was really starting to like him a lot. He made me feel special and care for
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On Monday, the baby and I got a clean bill of health. I had gained 15 pounds so far. The baby bump was very visible through my clothing. Esme said I was glowing , then looked at Edward with an a mother knows look. I couldn't help the blush that had risen on my face
Tuesday was the big day, Jane was one adoption liaison's for Cullen house. She was a lady dressed in a dark suit and hair tightly wound in bun.
" Welcome Isabella, My name is Jane and I'm here to guide you through the adoption process for baby Swan. I understand from your file that there is a criminal case attached and we will do everything we can to keep them both separate. We will be in contact with your father regarding any legal issues with that,and make this process as easy as possible . I want to know what you are looking for in an adoptive family, if you want an open or closed adoption
" I would like open, but just for pictures and to know how the child is doing, but I don't want any visitation"
The rest of out meeting went well, she sent me with a small 3 ring binder with profiles of potential adoptive parents.
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I walked into Rosalie's room and she was on the phone. She held up one finger and said Goodbye to the person on the other end
" Hey Rosalie, what are you up too"
" Nothing just got off the phone with Emmett"
" The Carnival guy?"
" Yeah, actually He's a Crime scene investigator with the police department here in phoenix and was volunteering for a children's charity at the carnival "
"He's actually pretty smart, and passionate about what he does. He thinks he's the next Gil Grissom " She said with a small laugh
" wow, so you like him, huh?"
" Yeah, I think I do, He wants to take me on a date Saturday"
" So, what does he think about the whole baby thing?"
" He knows, I did show up with four other Prego chicks that night, I told him about the pending adoption"
" I've been meaning to ask how that went, Its been so crazy around here lately"
" The family I picked are very nice, They are a middle class working couple, have been married for 10 years. I wanted this little guy to be raised in a home with love and it was clear that they were an abundance of that when I met them and they have agreed to an open adoption. I will get to visit and be known as auntie Rose. it's a win-win for me."
" I am so glad things are working out for you"
" They will for you too Bella, I know it"
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On Friday, Edward and I were back at the pond. Edward sitting behind me with his legs laying next to mine as I laid against his back. I had the binder in my hands and he was rubbing my belly periodically and playfully chastising the baby for giving me heartburn and insomnia
The first family that I wanted to look at was a couple in New Hampshire. They owned a dairy Farm in the country. He was 35 and she was 31. They had been trying to conceive since they married 6 years ago. I loved animals and I liked that they lived simply
The second prospect I wanted to take a closer look at was a 32 year music teacher and her partner who taught art history at the a The university of Georgia in Athens. They have been together since their teens . I loved how cultural they seemed and they loved to travel so I knew at least that this child would be well educated and be allowed to see the world
I felt confident that I would find an adoptive family who would love and give this child more then I could
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Later that night I wasn't able to sleep. One minute I was hot the next I was cold. I went down stairs to find me some left over birthday cake. Emily and Mrs. Cope had made me a chocolate cake with fudge icing it was to die for when warm and topped with vanilla ice-cream.
The closer I got down the steps the more I could hear Edwards voice. I could see the faint light on in his office. I crept closer so that I could get hear better. Edward was on the phone, pacing around his office and his fingers gripping through his hair
"I Understand and I agree with you, But I wont keep this from Bella long"
" She's going to know something is going on"
" Well your not the one who has to face her everyday, so of course you would tell me it's going to be okay"
" I wish that you were here to help with this, I don't know how she's going to take this"
" I'll let her know tomorrow and we will decided what we do from there"
I was angry that he was talking about me to god knows who.
I let myself trust him.
I let myself feel for him
I let him touch me.
I was so fucking stupid.
I stomped my way to his office and knocked over a small side table by the chair
He looked at me with a stunned expression
NO!, Motherfucker! How about you tell me NOW!
He said he had to go and that he would call them back
" Bella, baby you have to calm down"
" You don't have a right to tell me to do anything"
I heard a noise and saw Esme running into the office tying her robe
" What is going on with you two?"
" Your son was just about to confess something to me"
" Son, what have you done?, I warned you what would happen if you hurt her"
" Mom, I didn't hurt her, I was on the phone and she came in here knocking things over and yelling at me"
" He was talking about me to some whore"
" I wasn't talking to some whore Bella, I was talking to your father"
" Why, what's wrong"
" He called to let me know that there has been some development in the criminal case"
" Well what is it, I'm a big girl. I can handle it
" maybe you can sit down"
" No I think I will stand, like I said you don't tell me what to do"
" Charlie called to let me know that James Newton was killed"
" You mean the family pulled life support on him"
" No, I mean that someone went into his room and purposely killed him"
AN: I hope this made up for the how small last chapter was… Time will be moving on from this point. A big huge thank you to everyone who has reviewed… you rock and I appreciate all the personal stories, they move me beyond words… hi to new readers…