'Bella'

I just stand there trying to control my temper.

'Bella, please'

'What Edward, please what?'

He is taken aback at my tone. 'Tell me what you are thinking'.

'Does it matter?'

'Of course it matters'

'Really, well that makes a change.' I walk to the fridge and grab a can of soda, mainly for something to do.

'Bell..'

'No Edward, Bella nothing.' I take a sip. 'I mean what the hell do you think you are doing, coming here telling me this, this ….. I mean god what the hell is this?'

'Bell'

'No. You don't get it you had your turn, you had your turn 6 bloody years ago Edward.'

I am at a loss for words and he just stands there staring, unsure of how to proceed.

'I believed you. I looked into your eyes and I saw no feeling, nothing. I thought this was what you wanted. I could deal with that. I couldn't blame you because you didn't feel a specific way for me. But this, you lied to me, you hurt me and why? What for?'

'I wanted to keep you safe'

I snort derisively 'Well stellar job there.' I take another sip and then look down.

'Bella'

I look back up at him. 'What?'

'I need you to listen to me. I thought that my being in your life was putting you in danger. I thought that you would be better off without me. I thought that I was doing what was best for you.'

'You thought, you thought, you thought. Tell me in all your thinking did you even bother to consider taking what I thought into account?'

'I knew what you wanted'

'So that's a no then' I shake my head.

'You wanted to kill yourself'

'No, that was after you left me'

He recoils at that. ' You wanted to become a vampire, you didn't care about your own safety, so I had to!'

'You had to what? Take away my choices? Make my decisions for me?'

'You weren't thinking clearly'

'You had no right' I scream at him. He doesn't know how to react so he stays silent.

'How dare you tell me that I wasn't thinking clearly. I loved you with all my heart, with all my soul and you ripped it out of me. You broke me. The things you said to me were cruel, soul destroying. You left me in a pit of despair, and I never once blamed you for it. Not once. You couldn't help the way you felt. Except apparently you could, because you were lying.'

I turn away from him.

I feel his touch on my arm but I know that I can't take it. 'Don't'

He retracts his hand. 'Bella, please.' He sounds broken which is wrong, it's not him that broke it's me.

'The hardest thing that I have ever done was leave you Bella, you have to believe me.'

I turn back to him, 'Believe a self professed liar?'

'You said you looked into my eyes then, look into them now, please, see the truth.'

I look down, I know that I can't look into his eyes, I can't bear to.

'Bella, please?' he sounds on the verge of tears, if vampires could cry.

'Please. What?' I making a sentence out of each of the words.

'Look at me'

'why, what does it matter? If you are telling the truth now, then you were lying back then, and it is clear how much I believed you, which means that you could easily get away with lying to me now. So what is the point?'

'Your right.'

That catches me off guard, I look up at him, straight at him, and he looks contrite, but hey that doesn't mean anything really does it?

'I was conceited. I thought that I knew best, I thought that because I was born 90 years before you it automatically meant that I was right. And I wasn't.'

I try to blink away my tears.

'I took it on myself to make such a life altering decision for the both of us. I really did think you would forget me, that you would move on, that your life would go on as if we had never even met.'

I roll my eyes and start to rebuke that but he carries on, stopping me.

'I know that I was wrong. Hindsight really is 20/20. Everything that I did was aimed at protecting you.'

I sit down. I no longer have the strength to stand. I used to think that I was empty before but suddenly I realise that I never was. I had pain. I had tears. I had nightmares and fears. I had the strongest, most powerful unrequited love.

'You never saw us as equals'

He doesn't say anything, he just looks uncomfortable, probably wondering where I am going with this.

'I mean I never did either, for all the obvious reasons, I understood why you didn't want me, I could accept that you didn't want me, it didn't make me want anyone else though, understanding why you didn't want me never changed the way that I felt about you. But it wasn't true, for some reason you loved me, you wanted me and you made this choice without me.'

This is empty.

'You need to go'

'Bella, no' he sounds heartbroken.

I look him in the eyes. 'Please'

He just looks at me for a few seconds.

'Ok, I'll go, but I am not going far. I gave you up once, I can't do it again'

With that he turns and leaves, and I sit waiting for the tears to come.

They don't.