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Try Again?

BPOV

The wolves were getting anxious, tired of standing there in such close proximity to me I would guess, and Jacob looked purely unsatisfied. His eyes were narrow and tense, but he remained rooted in his spot. I figured he would adjourn the meeting, having found out what he wanted. Embry was staring at Jacob, a contemplating expression painting his face. I frowned and decided that apparently I was going to have to be the one to end the meeting myself. Yay…

"So, um…are we finished here or…?" I asked, watching Jacob's face as I spoke.

He turned to me, his eyes widening slightly. "No. we're not finished. A league of vampires are on their way here and you want to sacrifice yourself to them. We still have things to discuss."

I sighed, frustrated. "Jake, that's my choice and I'm happy to do it. Please just accept my decision and let me take care of this!"

"Bella, Zach, he…needs you. How could you just give that up?" Jacob argued, trying to pull at my heartstrings.

"He'll have Damon, and I'm doing this for him, too," I retaliated, aggravated with his defiance of my decision.

Jacob must have had nothing to say to that, because he began to walk away from me and away from the pack as well. He stopped a few meters away and stayed with his back to all of us. I let myself, even though I knew it was a bad idea, gaze at the muscles of his back and shoulders. He had grown since I'd seen him the last time. His bronze skin looked smooth like it always had, but he had a small white scar just below his pants line. My brow furrowed as I wondered what could have possibly left a scar on Jacob. He and the pack healed amazingly fast, no matter what had hurt them.

"Couldn't he have me, too?" Jacob's soft voice carried to my ears, and I remembered his comment from a moment before.

I was surprised that he'd asked this. I had figured that after what I'd done to him, he'd have moved on and gotten married, had more kids, and wouldn't want anything to do with me or Zachary. To hear him ask this was shocking, but I was a little pleased. Zachary loved Damon and myself, but he needed his father. After all, I was kind of afraid that someday he would start phasing. I'd always been afraid of that. His father was the Alpha of this pack, so the gene would probably be stronger in him than any other Quiluete.

"Uh…I'm sure he would love to get to know you, Jacob, but…don't you have other kids and a…a…," I began, but couldn't finish my thought. I couldn't bring myself to think of Jacob with another woman. Even after all I'd done to him, I still loved him with every fiber of my being.

Jacob turned around and looked confused for a second, but his brow eased when he must have realized what I was trying to say.

"Bella,…," He breathed, "…there's never been anyone else." He looked briefly at Embry.

His eyes found mine. "Jacob, you deserve happiness. Why…why didn't you find someone? I only wanted…you to be happy."

Jacob sighed and looked again at Embry. Embry nodded, which made me a little tense. Then, Jacob's eyes hardened and he sighed forcefully.

"Bella, no one else could ever hold my heart like you could…like you still do. I want to be angry at you, even to hate you, but it's next to impossible," He shook his head and walked over to me again. "Bella, I see no one else but you. There's nothing but you…there never has been. I tried, when you left, to forget you and to move on, but I found myself lost in thoughts…memories of you. I just couldn't forget you…the love of my life…the only woman I've ever loved…or will ever love."

I was stunned…completely shocked. Jacob had revealed his true feelings…but I was still confused. I mean, I'd always known that Jacob was in love with me…as I was with him…but I'd hoped he'd at least move on a little. You know, get a girlfriend…I cringed just thinking about Jacob with another girl, but hurried past it.

"Jacob how can you…feel this way after what I…did to you? How can you still love me?" I asked softly, my eyes cast down in shame. I deserved nothing from Jacob, least of all his love.

"Bella, haven't you guessed it by now?" He sighed, his shoulders drooping in defeat.

I didn't respond, waiting for him to tell me. My breath came short and my throat felt dry. I tried to think of things he could be about to tell me, but I came up empty.

"Bells,…I always thought I'd never imprint because I believed that I never had. The truth is…I didn't think I'd imprint because I already had…I just didn't know it. I couldn't feel it because I was already so much in love with you. Now, do you see why it was so hard for me to move on? To forget? To love again?" Jacob's voice was steady, but his face was contorted in pain.

My mouth fell open in disbelief. Jacob had imprinted on me? This was what I'd always been afraid of him doing…imprinting. It was one of the reasons I'd fought him so much when we'd been teenagers. I'd been afraid he'd leave me…

"Jake…but…when did you find out?" I couldn't stop myself from asking.

"About a year after you left. I wasn't the Alpha yet…Sam noticed the depression I was in and we talked about it. He's the one who suggested that maybe you were my imprint. I had physical pain whenever I thought about you…which was often. But, I learned to control it…what else could I do?" Jacob mournfully spoke, his head low and his face now lacking of any emotion. Tears fell from my eyes.

"Jake…oh, Jake…if I had known…If there was some way that I could have known…I would never have-"

"You would have never left? Yeah, I realize this. You were always so insecure about my feelings for you…as though you didn't deserve me," Jacob interrupted, his gaze meeting mine.

"I never deserved you. I was still broken…still terrified of being left by someone else like Edward did. I guess it just got the best of me, Jake, but I want you to know that leaving you was the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. It was like I left my heart here and my body left it," I admitted, tears leaking from my tired eyes.

Jacob shook his head. "Then, how could you leave?"

"I…thought that it was what was right at the time. I thought I was doing something good for you. I didn't want you to…miss out on life," I answered, still feeling wet tears flow from my eyes.

"Miss out on life? Aren't kids a part of life?" Jacob returned, confusion on his face.

"Not for a sixteen year old boy," I answered, shaking my head.

"Maybe for me, it was. I would have wanted it…I would have wanted Zach," Jacob told me, his eyes angry now.

Tears still came, but I brushed my hand across my face to rid it of the salty burdens and sighed.

"Bella,…I still want Zach. No matter how much you've hurt me, I still love you and him…I just can't trust you yet, but I do want to…try things again," Jacob kept talking, deepening my regret, my love, my hope, my pain all at once.

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