A/N: Okay, so this one is a smidge more personal, a bit like the CoLu oneshot I published a while back (i'd give away my soul). I once loved someone very much, but things sort of fell apart after two years. It hurt, and still hurts, since we had been best friends since we were little and now we never even talk. So yeah. I'm philosophical at 12am so I write angsty oneshots that have a root in real life.

I think I need to go to bed.

Pairing: onesided GrayZa, Jerza

Prompt: none really, just that it needed to be angsty. I sort of was inspired by Taylor Swift's song Cold As You. (Because honestly, it's perfect for Gray.)

Here you go, X! I finally got inspiration for this one. Enjoy! :) (sorry it's so short.)

How had it happened? How had he been pushed out as the most important man in her life?

It had been a subtle shift. When the blue haired son of a motherless goat had joined their guild, he had been pushed aside.

She was all over him, blushing and stuttering when he complimented her hair, her fighting style, everything about her.

While they were growing all lovey-dovey, serenaded by the cheers of the guild, he sat in the corner alone.

Sulking.

There was nothing he could do. If she was happy, that was all that mattered, wasn't it?

Loving was like that. Sometimes you had to let them go if their happiness was being with someone else.

She was so happy. Beaming from ear to ear. He couldn't bring himself to shatter her joy.

Didn't mean you had to like the letting go, of course.

And he hated it. He had once been an important figure in her life. Now, he barely rated a single glance from her.

What happened to friendship?

How did you stop loving someone so easily, as if you had just flipped a switch?

He tried to take his mind off the new 'adorable' couple by taking long solo jobs. It became routine to go to the guild, take a job, grunt a bit in Mira's direction, then head out. Once he completed the job, he'd repeat the cycle.

He had never been one to talk about feelings. He sucked at it, honestly.

But now he grew even more closed off. Darkness marred his features.

It was one thing to be chilly with people.

It was another completely to turn into an internal raging blizzard of grief, pain, and shut yourself off from everyone.

Mira was the only one who seemed to know something was wrong and that it had to do with them.

There was no use in defending words he would never say to her. He would never say I Love You.

But he'd dream about it.

She was his friend, the woman he loved, but she scarred him.

His heart would never be the same because of her.

He would probably stay that way for the rest of his life, if seeing Erza and Jellal together didn't kill him first.

Gray loved Erza, and he would love her to his grave.

A/N: annnnnnd it's bedtime. Talk to ya later, peeps.

I will be hosting a MidKino week (Midnight/Yukino) from January 31 to February 6, 2016. Please join me in this new crack pairing love!

MidKino Week prompts

Day one: Can I keep you?

Day two: Sugar High

Day three: Roommates

Day four: Late night shopping

Day five: Makeup Fail

Day six: Old Friends

Day seven: Transport

Bonus: Burnt

~~~Review replies~~~

snibs13- Yep, Lucy's evil fairy is always getting her into trouble. It's being friends with Gray and Natsu that has corrupted her. XD Rogue has no clue what's going on! It would be a cute multi-chap! I'll have to remember that. :) Rogue's POV? Hmm.. we'll see! :D

Maiokoe-Yep, being friends with Gray and Natsu has taught Lucy to throw caution to the winds. ;) He was more surprised than anything. And yeah, Sting divebombs him pretty regularly. ;) FLUFFINESS FOR THE WIN.

X (guest)-Three times? Wow, that's a lot of times to be attacked by people you don't know! And you are the fiftieth! So I'll get to working on your oneshot as quick as I can. I still have another one for you... 0_o

Lily (guest)-Yeah, I ship Lucy with everybody. She's just so shippable! :) I've already started writing Cobra's chapter! But work, rediscovering old stories, and my love affair with my sewing machine have kind of stalled things. My need to write way too much detail sometimes hampers my publishing. But, c'est la vie. :)

FairyTailErza12-Thanks! :)