I've got another confession to make
I'm your fool
Everyone's got their chains to break
Holdin' you
Acting up.
His arc reactor was acting up. And he knew it was killing him. He wondered if anyone would miss him? There was one person. No there isn't, he's gone. You betrayed him. His mind argued. Tony sat back in his chair heavily before he started coughing madly. He sighed, why prolong his suffering now? He had nothing to live for. He placed a hand on his arc reactor, why shouldn't he just pull it out now?
"Tony?" Tony glanced towards the door to see the second to last person he wanted to see now. He plastered a fake smile on his face, "What's up, spangles?" Steve looked at him worriedly, "You haven't left the lab since he left, are you okay?" Tony pursed him lips, "Yeah, I'm fine. I have a mini fridge over there." He gestured in the vague direction, "And I have alco- drinks over there." He gestured wildly to the opposite side of the room.
"Don't fall into old habits just because he isn't here. He might co-" Tony growled, "Don't you dare say he might come back because we both know there is no way in the universe, no, Nine Realms that he's coming back. I betrayed him and he left. I don't deserve him, Steve, in no way do I deserve him. He deserves someone better." He laughed wryly, "I'll die soon anyway so I have to right to do what ever the hell I want."
Steve didn't react to Tony's outburst, "You'll die soon? Why?" Tony realized his mistake, "I-I mean, soon to him. He'll be living long past the time I have died." Steve still had a blank face, "I don't know much about technology, Tony, but I'm guessing it has something to do with the arc reactor?" Tony stayed silent, not meeting Steve's eyes.
"I'm tell-" Tony cut him off again, "No! Don't tell anyone! I'll tell them..."
"When Tony? When will you tell them? Through a letter when you've died? Or wont you tell them and let a villain kill you."
Tony diverted his eyes again, "I-I don't know. Just... I'll tell them." Steve walked closer to Tony, "Do you promise?" Tony hesitated, he knew Steve took promises very carefully. He opened his mouth but he didn't know what he was going to say. He was saved by the alarm.
"Let's go fight." he said, hurrying to put the Iron Man armor, "We'll talk later, Spangles." He said, spotting Steve's disapproving face. He sighed once the face-plate came over his face before flying off. He knew who it was and why they were fighting.
Tony spotted the man and flew down to him, "You know, Loki, I thought you got out of this-" He was blasted by a beam of blue energy. "Blue?" he muttered to himself, "I thought Loki's magic was green." He hauled himself up, ignoring the shooting pain going through his chest, "Loki?" Loki was staring at him blankly, no sign of recognition in his face, "Why do you call my name as if it's familiar, mortal?" Tony frowned, Loki didn't recognize him? "Answer me!" he was hit with another beam of blue, "Tell me or I shall kill you on the spot."
Tony didn't answer but walked towards Loki. His face flickered for a moment. A look of hopelessness. Tony walked forward more quickly. Loki threw another blue beam at him, "Stay away!" he snapped. Tony ignored him and walked closer. Uncertainty flashed across Loki's face this time. Tony managed to get close enough to hug Loki. Loki struggled against his hold, "Let me go!" Tony flipped his face plate up, "I'm dying. So please, let me hold you. Even if you hate me." Loki stopped struggling. Tony couldn't tell if it was from confusion or something else. "I-I'm sorry." he murmured, "I shouldn't have betrayed you. I should have stood by you, damned to the consequences. I was a coward, I am a coward. I-I'm sorry, I really am."
Tony didn't speak for a few seconds but he felt Loki move. Suddenly Loki shuddered, "I'm dying and I want you to kill me." Tony muttered finally.
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Lyrics: Best of You ~ Foo Fighters.